It turns out that happiness is short-lived.
He was still stunned and looked at the person planting flowers in the yard.
The boy's body was filled with sunshine, and his chin was already a little plump because of him. He watched him plant flowers and murmured, "So this is what it means to love."
Just when everything was going in the right direction, this wonderful life turned into mud under the manipulation of his mother.
When he was 21, the boy was 24 and had just graduated from college. He never expected his mother to be so ruthless as to force the boy into a mental hospital, which he hadn't even been to in an orphanage.
In fact, he knew why the boy was crazy every day, and he didn't want to see him like this, so he found a doctor, gave him psychological intervention and hypnosis, and took him away from the place that made him crazy.
But all these were to no avail. No matter where he was, someone would report him as a mentally ill person. The reason for the report was also ridiculous. The simple fact that he was mentally ill and affected the people around him was enough to force him to be taken away.
He knew that it was all his mother's doing. He returned home and smashed everything he could. He threatened his mother, who had always been so high and mighty, and severed all ties with her.
He said if they came to disturb his life again, he would burn the place down and let them all die. He said he was not afraid of the law, he was only afraid that the people he loved would not be able to live.
Looking at the people crying and trying to commit suicide every day in the mental hospital, Shi Yuncheng realized that it is true that happiness is short-lived.
He had finally gained some weight, but after just one week in there, he lost more than ten pounds. Sometimes, he felt that it wasn't the people in there who were crazy, but he himself was crazy.
He dropped out of school, cut off ties with his family, worked hard, and visited him every day. Finally, when he was 23 years old, someone told him that he could help him, but he had conditions. So, he brought him to this place where he could die at any time.
Before coming, he hugged him and begged: "Shi Tou, get well soon. I've even learned how to make your favorite sweet and sour pork ribs, so why aren't you getting well yet? I beg you, please get well and hug me."
His tears dripped down his chin onto Wang Shitou's face. For a moment, no one knew who shed the tears.
Time goes on and on, but why can't it go away? Why is happiness not left in my heart? Is it because they haven't worked hard enough in life?
Sometimes living requires courage and hard work.
In the quiet carriage, it was unknown who started crying first. Some covered their mouths and faces and cried, while others burst into tears. In the very back corner of the carriage, a girl covered her face and cried, mumbling, "She's not my sister, she's my lover, the one I love."
Thinking of her life, the girl cried and laughed, laughed and cried, and said, "I might as well die in that shabby academy. If I had died long ago, Qingqing wouldn't have brought me to this damn place, and she wouldn't have died either."
"Why is she the one who died? It's obviously me who should have died!"
There was a little light in the car, and Qi Jing's vision had improved. He could see the situation in the car clearly, and he could also see the photos on the mobile phone screen clearly.
Now it seemed that his father's happy smile was so painful to him. He began to hate himself and why he was born.
He spent the first half of his life in the hospital. When he was 18 years old, he was discharged and met a very good person.
That person would buy him roasted sweet potatoes in the winter and sweet ice cream in the summer. Most importantly, that person loved him. That person would hold him back when he faced death countless times and would say to him, "I love you."
And he survived by saying "I love you" one by one.
He learned his name from the nurse. He remembered the surprise in his eyes when he called his name for the first time. He smiled and ate the strawberries he brought and said, "Thank you, Ayan."
After a year together, they got together, and that year he was discharged from the hospital.
He moved into his home and accompanied him to work every day. His Ayan was a big boss, and he just needed to be by his side every day. He asked Ayan why he was so nice to him.
His Ah Yan said, "Love at first sight."
They lived like this for three years, and later, Qi Jing was admitted to the hospital again.
It’s not that Shuyan has changed her mind and no longer loves him, nor is it that Shuyan no longer wants him. On the contrary, Shuyan, who loves him, is willing to die for him.
He was admitted to the hospital because his father found him. I don’t know where his father heard the news that he was doing well, but he came to find him in the middle of the night.
His father, Qi Youqing, couldn't bear to see him do well because his mother died of complications during childbirth. That's why his father hated him. He went crazy like Qi Jing, but Qi Jing was better because the person he loved was still by his side, while Qi Youqing's loved one died because of him. He would never see his loved one again, so he hated me.
From childhood to adulthood, Qi Jing grew up relying on the food given to him by relatives and neighbors. He went to elementary school and junior high school, but it was all sporadic.
As a child, he was constantly tormented by his own inner struggles, wondering why his mother died instead of him. He wondered if his father would forgive him if he died, and so he began experimenting with various forms of death.
But I failed every time. Before I was hospitalized, every time I attempted suicide, my father would send me to the hospital for emergency treatment, and then I would have to endure his scolding when I woke up. After that, when I attempted suicide, Shu Yan was with me, and every time I tried, he would find me and send me to the hospital, and when I woke up, he would cry more painfully than I did.
Qi Jing never understood why his father hated him so much and didn't want him to die. Until now, he knew the answer. He unlocked his phone and listened to the tired voice coming from it.
"You've grown up and become more and more like Qingman. Even though I hate you, you have to live, live as Qingman. Only in this way can I live with hope. Before your mother passed away, she held my hand and asked me to treat you well, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't treat you well after she died giving birth to you."
"I used to think that maybe I was too mean to you and that's why your mother didn't come to see me in my dreams. Maybe your mother didn't want me anymore. But I really can't make sure you live well. Why can you live but my Qingman can't? We should have been happy for the rest of our lives. We should have been together forever."
"When I heard you were doing well and had someone who loved you, I thought of your mother. I wondered why you were happy, why you had someone who loved you. Jealousy made me go find you in the middle of the night. I drove you crazy again and sent you to a mental hospital. Seeing you suffer in there, I felt much better. I thought, this is the right thing to do. Neither of us, father or son, should have an easy life."
"I always thought you would stay in there forever, but I received a call from the hospital saying you were missing. I went to look for your lover and found he was missing too. I thought you were hiding from me, so I forced the hospital to hand you over. But you weren't the only one missing, so I left. I started secretly observing your lover's company. I couldn't believe he hadn't come in. I even posted a missing person notice, but it was all in vain."
"After searching for a month, I suddenly realized that you were really gone. It seemed like there was no trace of you in this world. I thought, how could this be possible? Your mother is gone, and you are leaving too. This is unacceptable to me. So I started looking for various masters to calculate where you were. Someone lied to me that you were in your hometown, so I went to look for you. Later, after searching around, I found a charlatan. He told me that you were not in this world. I thought he was lying. After all, where else could you be if you were not in this world? I threw him a thousand yuan and left. Perhaps because he saw that I gave too much, he told me to find a thatched cottage behind the old temple on the mountain. I went there and knocked on the door for a long time before someone opened it."
"The person who opened the door was a man with long hair. I looked at him and said I was looking for my son. He asked who I was and why I was looking for my son. I said my son disappeared in the hospital, and his lover also disappeared. He asked how old my son was and why he had disappeared. I said a charlatan told me he was not in this world and he asked me to come here to look for him."
"The man brought me into the house. There were several people inside him, all of whom looked about your age. I knelt down and begged them to take me to find you. I kept begging and begging until a middle-aged man came up behind me. He looked at me and said, "You have to think it over. If you go, you can't come back. Even if you come back, you'll be dead." I said, I want to go. I thought I would see you, but you walked too slowly, and I was here too short a time. In order to avoid being discovered about their plan, I couldn't see you, so I found someone, someone who looked very reliable. I left my phone to him. I can't hear your voice anymore, nor can I see your face anymore. I'm going to find Qingman, the person I love. I want to apologize to her for not taking good care of you, and I'm going to continue loving her."
"Dad is sorry for you. Dad knows I should have died a long time ago, but Dad won't resign myself to it. Dad is a coward and can't face reality. Dad wants you to live well now. Dad kowtowed to them and made them promise to rescue you. You must live and punish me."
"When you get out, just sell the house and go wherever you want. Dad left you some money, and also the gold lock your mom bought you. Take it with you. Go see the world, see places your mom and I haven't seen. Dad ruined the first half of your life, I hope you'll be fine in the second half."
"Xiao Jing, don't lose your phone. I have saved a lot of photos of your mother in it. Bury it with me when you get out. I'm afraid your mother will be reincarnated and I won't be able to see her. I'm afraid I won't be able to find your mother."
"I'm sorry" and "I was wrong" can't erase the scars on your heart, and all the hatred can't be offset by love. If it could, then all the grievances and hurts you've suffered would become just your own hypocrisy.
Qi Jing stared at the photo on his phone screen, listening to Qi Youqing's words, and suddenly felt like he was dreaming. If it wasn't a dream, how could his father apologize to him? How could he kneel down for him? Logically, he should be pointing at his head and asking him why he was alive. But if it was a dream, why didn't he wake up after so long?
He had lived alone, struggling for over twenty years, but now he suddenly no longer had to worry. For a moment, he felt no joy, only the question of why he hadn't died yet.
"It shouldn't have ended like this."
His tears fell on the phone screen. He leaned on Shu Yan's shoulder and called out, "Dad...Mom..."
The carriage was dim and they could not see clearly what was behind the car, what was in front of the car, or even their own appearance.
The only two people who didn't cry were coaxing their lovers, and no one noticed the girl who suddenly appeared in the driver's seat.
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