racking one's brains
The little hand on his cheek was still restless, pinching his face and gently releasing it, then suddenly tightening it as if to play a trick. Then he heard her voice with a smile: "Fu Changan, you are so beautiful."
Fu Changan was petrified on the spot.
As a general who has been fighting for many years, his face should only have traces of wind and frost, so how can he be good-looking?
He jerked his head away to avoid the hand and said in panic, "Nonsense!"
A blush spread uncontrollably from the ears down to the depths of the clothes, arousing endless reverie.
Su Yunwei's hands were empty, and she couldn't help but frown: "Why is Fu Changan so annoying in this dream?"
Her eyes were still closely following his side profile, as if she was immersed in the beauty of the moment, secretly admiring in her heart: "This is really a beautiful dream!"
Fu Changan still held his neck stiff and refused to turn back. He glanced at the woman in front of him, but she didn't even blink and kept looking at him intently.
Could it be...is it really that beautiful?
Su Yunwei was immersed in this false dream, and the smile on the corners of her lips had not yet appeared.
Suddenly... her body jolted violently, and clear and intense pain came from her buttocks. She felt a little strange, why did this dream seem so real?
Su Yunwei's heart skipped a beat as she heard the man's anxious and concerned voice...
She tentatively asked the somewhat nervous man opposite: "You...are you a human?"
Fu Changan hesitated for a moment and said slowly: "Yes... right!"
This answer... shouldn't be wrong.
Su Yunwei was shocked and didn't think about what she had just asked. Now, she only knew that she had pinched Fu Changan's face and kept staring at him like a pervert.
A man's face is a disaster, and she never wants to see Fu Changan again.
She sat back on the couch as if escaping, leaning against the wall of the car and turning her head away, not looking at him.
Back in medical school, she had a crush on a strikingly handsome boy. His profile was breathtakingly beautiful, especially when he stood center stage, gently bathed in spotlight, his head bent as he played guitar and sang a cappella. She was obsessed with him for a long time, until she accidentally learned that he indulged in all sorts of activities in his private life. At that moment, her heart, along with her worldview, seemed to silently shatter.
Until she came into this world and met Fu Changan. Her once broken heart quietly healed and began beating again. She had to admit, she was indeed not immune to good-looking men. If she really didn't react, it probably only meant that the other person wasn't handsome enough.
"You..." Fu Changan's Adam's apple rolled, and his voice, which had not been spoken for a long time, was a little hoarse and almost broke.
The journey was halfway over. Without further explanation, the carriage would arrive at the mansion. Although the two of them were in the same courtyard, she was afraid that she would not want to see him in this situation.
Fu Changan racked his brains for a long time to come up with something, but the words were stuck in his throat and couldn't come out.
Su Yunwei, who was leaning against the wall of the car, suddenly remembered that the two of them seemed to be unhappy with each other. The familiar depression surged up, blocking her so much that she could hardly find a way out.
"What's the matter, Lord Fu?" Su Yunwei's tone was flat, without any of the agility she had just had.
If she were to follow Su Yunwei's more direct statement in modern society, she would really like to say:
"If you have something to say, say it now! If you have to fart, fart now!"
Fu Changan's eyes dimmed, turning into a dark place. He sighed deeply. He was good at leading troops in battle, but he was really not good at… coaxing people!
"Do you...want to hear my story?"
His deputy general in Yunxiang always said that the young lady liked best, was listening to stories.
"No." Su Yunwei answered decisively. If you like telling stories, you can go to the story club. Who likes to listen to his dry stories!
Fu Changan's throat was choked by her firm rejection, and the carriage suddenly fell into a subtle silence, with only the sound of wheels rolling over the bluestone slabs and the almost audible breathing of each other.
He looked at her back which was almost embedded in the car wall, her slender shoulders were tense and she looked very distant. She put down the hand that was messing with his face and was now tightly clutching her sleeve.
Fu Changan sighed again and thought to himself: If I ever meet my deputy general one day, I will definitely go up to him and ask him some questions!
At this moment, Fu Changan's hands, which were used to holding swords and guns and making plans for many years, curled up in a bit of helplessness. He was eloquent in the army facing thousands of soldiers, but now he couldn't say a single useful word to her.
"What I said before," he said again, a little dryly, "I feel I was not wrong."
Su Yunwei almost laughed out loud when he heard this. He turned around abruptly and asked with sarcasm in his eyes, "Did Master Fu come here specifically to emphasize this to me?"
She thought to herself, okay, now I am completely disenchanted with handsome guys. No matter how good-looking they are, it’s useless if they speak unpleasantly.
The death of his master has always been a scar in his heart that will never heal, especially since the murderer was a child he had taught himself. This little girl was too soft-hearted. She probably didn't know what kind of children at the border could be taught. Those wolf cubs could hide daggers in their sleeves when they thanked him. There were too many spies disguised as beggars on the streets. Those who could survive on the battlefield were all people with hearts as hard as they could be.
Fu Changan was startled by the look in her eyes, but he didn't look away. He saw her cheeks flushed slightly in anger, and her eyes brightened with anger. He was silent for a moment, then slowly spoke in a serious tone:
"I've been at the border for years, and I've witnessed conspiracy and betrayal. A child I'd picked up from a pile of corpses would turn against the enemy just for a bowl of meat. I carefully taught him, and I always thought he'd change his ways. But, unfortunately, he was hiding his true power and killing the person closest to me! The old man begging on the street was actually an enemy spy."
"In this world, what is right and what is wrong?" Fu Changan shook his head and said in confusion: "I don't know either."
"It's just that those who can survive on the battlefield never care about right or wrong."
"That child knelt down to thank you out of his sincerity, and it's the proper etiquette for a young man." Fu Chang'an looked at her intently and continued, "When I was thirteen, I left home alone for the Northwest Army Camp, and he... was only a little younger than I was then."
After hearing his words, Su Yunwei was a little dazed. The anger and prepared counterattack in her heart were suddenly blocked in her chest, neither going up nor down.
She looked at him. He was still sitting upright, in the proper manner of a general, but his eyes were slightly averted, not daring to meet her gaze.
Su Yunwei suddenly forgot the idea of disenchantment.
He was a general who had fought through mountains of blood and blood to defend his country in ancient times. He wasn't a human being like her, living in a civilized society. His surroundings, upbringing, and experiences had shaped his and her distinct perspectives. Su Yunwei's thoughts sank into deep thought: "Perhaps my thinking is still too simplistic!"
She was silent for a long time, so long that Fu Changan felt very uncomfortable.
Su Yun pursed her lips slightly, then quickly glanced at him and stammered, "I... I didn't think that much."
Upon hearing this, the weight on Fu Changan's heart seemed to dissipate a little. He said, "I wasn't born this way. It's just that I've made too many choices between life and death."
Su Yunwei felt a little nervous, and a trace of sadness appeared in her eyes when she looked at Fu Changan.
Mingyue said he left home alone at the age of thirteen to fight on the battlefield. Thirteen! … At that time, I was still snuggling in my mother's arms and acting like a spoiled child. I can't imagine how a child would face the mountains of corpses. Thirteen? Could he lift a butcher knife?
On the other hand, I would tremble even if I killed a chicken.
The wheels slowly stopped rolling and finally came to a stop. Then the driver's voice came:
"Master! We're here."
Su Yunwei's thoughts, which had been drifting away, suddenly returned to her thoughts. Following Fu Changan's back as he leaned out, she hurried to catch up.
When I stepped out of the car, I saw him already standing under it, his eyes fixed on me. He extended his slender hand, waiting for a response.
Although she considers herself a modern woman, her cheeks still felt slightly hot at this moment.
I gently placed my right hand into his palm. It was warm yet rough.
He then closed his fingers, applying a steady force that was neither too intimate nor too distant, just enough to hold her firmly.
Su Yunwei used the force to jump down, and quickly retracted her fingers as soon as the tip of her shoe touched the ground. However, the residual warmth from the contact could not be dispelled, lingering and disturbing her mind.
Fu Changan could no longer look directly at those slender hands with a pinkish-white glow...
"...Weiwei?" Fu Mingyue stood on the carriage and leaned forward. When she saw Su Yunwei, her face broke into a smile. She jumped off the carriage and ran straight towards Su Yunwei.
"Hehe!" Fu Mingyue hugged Su Yunwei's arm and said with a sweet smile, "Tomorrow we will take a carriage together to find Mingzhao!"
Speaking of Ming Zhao, Su Yunwei suddenly remembered that the medicine box was still in the carriage. She pulled away the hand that was close to her and stepped forward to get back into the carriage.
Seeing this, Fu Changan hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"
Su Yunwei said: "My medicine box is still in the car."
Fu Mingyue said softly, "Since I have to go apply medicine to Mingzhao tomorrow, it's okay to put this thing aside."
Su Yunwei walked straight forward, her tone calm but firm: "The things in the box are very important to me, I need to keep them with me." She reached out to hold the body of the carriage, and was about to use the force to get on the carriage, but a black figure suddenly passed by and jumped lightly onto the carriage.
Fu Changan leaned out, carrying her medicine box, and landed on the ground with a single step of his long legs. Su Yunwei subconsciously reached out to take it, but heard him speak calmly:
"This thing is quite heavy, I'll take it." After saying that, he turned around and walked into the mansion.
Su Yunwei and Fu Mingyue followed closely behind. Fu Mingyue, still leaning against her affectionately, whispered, "My brother may look cold, but he's a kindhearted person." Her voice was soft and filled with emotion. "Although he and I are biological siblings, we've only spent a limited amount of time together."
"But every time he comes home, he always brings me some rare toys and snacks I've never seen before." He paused and sighed softly, "I wonder what kind of girl will be able to catch his eye in the future..."
Fu Mingyue sighed inwardly: I'm afraid that by the time I get married to Kuang Ye, my brother still hasn't found someone he likes!
Alas... there is still a long way to go.
I must go to Sanqing Temple someday to draw a marriage fortune for him!
Continue read on readnovelmtl.com
