Chapter 853: Transaction and Soul
Isolated by a barrier outside the world of cultivation, it seemed as if I could touch it with my hand, but it was always just a shadow.
Facing the inquiries of Heaven.
Ruan Wei shook her head.
"not enough."
How could I possibly see enough, Ruan Wei thought.
What a pity.
She clearly still has many things she hasn't seen and things she hasn't accomplished.
She did not see her master and Cen Linxi truly form a bond, did not see her second uncle and Fairy Jinggan reconcile, did not see her eldest brother enter the second floor of the library, did not see Huai Jin's inner demons being completely eliminated, did not see Xiao Yu'er become more mature in the future, did not say goodbye to Jiang Rongrong properly, did not have a calm conversation with Wang Xixing... and, she did not give Chi Jin a good love experience.
She is not a qualified lover.
Ruan Wei knew very well that Chi Jin was already trying very hard to love her, but it was not enough for her.
There was not enough time, not enough emotion, and everything that she should have given to Chi Jin seemed to have been accelerated. There was no companionship, no comfort, and not enough protection.
Finally, seeing Chi Jin in such a mess but refusing to let go of his body, Ruan Wei felt sad from the bottom of her heart.
Chi Jin might not have had to live such a hard life.
It all started on the day he joined the Penglai Immortal Sect and became involved with himself. It was as if he had fallen from another hell where he had no control over himself, into another hell where he seemed willing but was actually still controlled by his emotions.
A hell born from Ruan Wei's obsession with self-salvation.
Born in hell, destroyed in hell.
So, was Ruan Wei's self-rescue successful? When she decided to commit suicide, did she let down all her efforts in the previous thousands of lives?
Ruan Wei felt that she was successful.
Save yourself, save yourself. What she has always sought is the right to choose freely. As long as she has this right, Ruan Wei can choose life or death, and she will not be coerced.
It wasn't coercion, so she succeeded.
This makes it self-consistent that the time it takes for Ruan Wei to accept his own death may be faster than others imagine.
Everyone will die one day, and Ruan Wei is not a fool who is obsessed with wanting immortality.
But she wanted to know why she died.
That's not being numb.
Ruan Wei's soul floated, and she finally became the person she was most afraid of when she was young.
ha.
It is true that people always become the things they hated most when they were children.
Ruan Wei lowered his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.
Because he didn't know where his soul would go after it dissipated, and whether he would lose the ability to think, Ruan Wei wanted to figure out everything before falling into the eternal night, and try not to leave any loopholes for the world of cultivation.
Tian Dao looked at Ruan Wei's expression and suddenly asked, "Do you regret our deal?"
“…”
"I regretted it just now, but now I don't feel that way anymore," said Ruan Wei.
Tiandao: “Oh?”
Its voice is like a huge bell, extremely majestic.
"Why did you regret it just now, and why don't you regret it now?"
Tiandao was asking for an answer that had nothing to do with it. Was it out of curiosity? Could these holy spirits also be curious? Ruan Wei couldn't figure it out, but she was no longer reluctant to answer Tiandao's questions.
Ruan Wei said: "Chi Jin cried when the explosion happened, so I regret it."
"But don't get me wrong, it's not the death that I regret."
What Ruan Wei regretted was that he did not have someone watch over Chi Jin, so that he could witness his death with his own eyes. For Chi Jin, this was tantamount to the most painful punishment in the world.
Ruan Wei blamed herself very much. Even when she was leaving, she did not make the best decision for Chi Jin.
Ruan Wei seemed too indecisive when it came to matters concerning Chi Jin. She wanted it, but also wanted to push it away.
Chi Jin would probably be very confused as to why he didn't let himself get hurt, but she still left so decisively.
Because it's useless.
The soul is already dead.
What's the point of just leaving behind a complete body?
Ever since her first resurrection from the dead, Ruan Wei's soul has been locked on the brink of collapse and annihilation. When the deal is reached, she, who is already dead, will naturally leave her body and become the price of the deal.
This is fair, at least Ruan Wei is convinced.
Ruan Wei continued, "I don't regret it now because it has already happened. I have done my best in every choice I made, so I don't regret it, I just feel a little bit sad."
She raised her eyes, her pupils were just blurry:
"Heaven's Way."
"From the moment I approached you and proposed this deal, I won't regret it."
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In the Yin-Yang inner scene of Youying and Zhuzhao, Youying gave the option of helping Ruan Wei repair his body from his first death.
Ruan Wei thought about it.
Her mission wasn't complete yet. If she merely repaired her body, Yu Qunqing wouldn't die. Even if she held on until the very end and waited for Fu He to arrive, Chi Jin would still die in Fu He's place. What would Ruan Wei do then? If You Ying and Zhu Zhao had already been used, she wouldn't be able to revive Chi Jin.
Ruan Wei decided to stay.
Not to mention the still unclear deal between Chi Jin and Tian Dao.
What on earth did Chi Jin pay to get his memory and the help of Heaven? Ruan Wei knew very well that Heaven was the promoter of extreme egalitarianism, and it always adhered to the principle that there must be gains and losses.
Just like Chao Jian exists as a recorder, he must pay the price with his own emotions, and it is obviously impossible for Chi Jin to succeed in getting something for free from the hands of the Heavenly Dao.
The specifics of the transaction.
Chi Jin has completely forgotten about it.
Then Ruan Wei could only inquire about this matter through another party. In the inner scene of Liang Yi, Ruan Wei took the initiative to knock on the sound buried deep in his sea of consciousness -
The salvation pointer.
The pointer is now infinitely approaching 0, which means that Ruan Wei's attitude towards the world of cultivation is no longer one of destruction and disgust.
This pointer comes from the surveillance of heaven.
Heaven kept it, and Ruan Wei also kept it, probably for this moment.
Heaven's will comes as promised.
Almost at the moment when Ruan Wei's consciousness touched the pointer, the will of heaven descended into the inner scene of Liangyi.
Ruan Wei had a premonition.
She didn't dare say that her premonition was completely correct, but she also didn't think her guess was groundless.
Everything has a source.
Perhaps, Heaven has also been waiting for this moment, the moment when Ruan Wei takes the initiative to communicate and make a deal with it.
Ruan Wei guessed correctly.
The Heavenly Dao really waited for a long time.
It had been so long that when Ruan Wei summoned him, Tian Dao, who had been observing silently, could not wait to reveal his true form. He asked knowingly, "What do you want?"
"Tian Dao, let's make a deal."
The girl's eyes are curved when she smiles, which is a beautiful arc that shows her confidence, determination and determination to win.
Tian Dao understood: "What kind of deal do you want to make?"
It could probably guess, but it still needed to get a definite answer from this girl who never played by the rules. It would be best if it had an answer that would make it feel at ease, so that it wouldn't have to think too much.
Ruan Wei did not directly put forward her demands at the beginning. She just smiled and said:
"I often call you 'cousin' because I think you're too nice to me. I love to joke with you and often use you to deal with Tian Ming, and you accept it all. So I know in my heart that this is not normal."
Tiandao was stunned, "I treat you well, isn't this normal?"
"Yes, it's abnormal."
Ruan Wei nodded decisively and continued, "If you give something, you must get something in return."
"Six Paths helped me, and I struck a deal with them to serve them in the future. Youying and Zhuzhao helped me, so I took on the responsibility of saving the common people from suffering. Even when Heaven's Fate needed my life, it granted me an excellent destiny before asking me to die. It's easy to see that you, the Four Saints and the Two Principles, must all follow fixed rules: where there's loss, there's gain."
"So."
"Tian Dao, why have you only helped me from the beginning without asking for anything in return?"
From the very beginning.
Ruan Wei had never trusted Tiandao, who had always stood on his side unconditionally since his appearance.
It provides help selflessly but never asks what it wants. There is only one result, that is, what it wants, Ruan Wei cannot give it now and will never give it to it.
We can only take it step by step.
certainly.
Tiandao, who was always monitoring Ruan Wei's thoughts with a pointer, also knew that Ruan Wei never trusted him.
When Ruan Wei guessed the essence of the pointer, she knew that Tiandao had already seen through her thoughts.
Both sides know it well.
But both the man and the spirit remained silent, prolonging this strange balance.
Ruan Wei called out to the Heavenly Dao again:
"Heaven's Way."
"Do you want my soul?"
Tiandao smiled.
This is a very satisfactory answer indeed.
Tiandao: "I promise you."
It didn't ask Ruan Wei what he wanted this time. It didn't need to ask because it could afford whatever it was, so it only needed to hear the reward to agree to the deal.
Because that is what the Way of Heaven is for.
Always have been.
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