Chapter 29
29.
It was past 3 p.m. Guan Yue quickly calculated the approximate time in her mind. Most of the villagers in Dahuai Village had the habit of taking a midday nap, so going to find someone at this time would indeed be disturbing them.
Cheng Lingjun secretly breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Guan Yue sit down.
Guan Yue noticed his laxity and was somewhat displeased. She asked, "Have you seen a doctor?"
“…No,” Cheng Lingjun wanted to say yes, but seeing Guan Yue’s piercing gaze, she remained honest.
"Did you feel unwell after eating it?" Guan Yue asked again.
"My stomach hurt a bit at the time, but it got better quickly," Cheng Lingjun immediately added.
Why didn't the Li family hire a doctor to examine you?
Cheng Lingjun recalled the scene, "I deliberately drank in front of her, and we had a big fight after that. I never thought about calling a doctor."
Guan Yue never expected Cheng Lingjun to have such a crazy side, completely losing his mind. If he hadn't said it himself, she wouldn't have believed he would do such a thing.
Cheng Lingjun smiled wryly and said, "Don't look at me like that. At that time... I was indeed impulsive, but the moment I drank it, I felt very happy."
The moment he drank the medicine, Cheng Lingjun felt something inside his body die along with it, but something else came back to life at that moment. He thought that he later dared to leave alone with Li Guang, perhaps because that thing that came back to life gave him courage he had never had before.
Guan Yue felt a pang of heartache for no reason. She could hear the desperate sense of despair in Cheng Lingjun's words. It must have been under immense pressure that he had acted so unusually. The Cheng Lingjun she knew had always been calm, gentle, and strong. Such hysteria was beyond her imagination.
It should be said that even a rabbit will bite when cornered.
But Cheng Lingjun, that rabbit, not only didn't bite anyone, but also hurt herself. Guan Yue didn't know whether to laugh or what to say.
Guan Yue could only sigh softly, "You still need to see a doctor. You're so young, it's not worth hurting your health, and it will only make your family sad."
Would they be sad? Cheng Lingjun had some doubts. His father probably would, but the others…
Guan Yue then asked, "Didn't your family call a doctor for you?"
"No."
"Why?"
"They don't know, and I dare not say."
Guan Yue nodded, understanding Cheng Lingjun's feelings. "It's alright. I saw that your father specifically sought you out, which shows that your family has always cared about you. After so much time, they should have let go of the divorce issue. You can tell them slowly later; they shouldn't be too angry..."
Guan Yue herself wasn't very confident in what she said, after all, she had taken a drug to prevent pregnancy, which would have been a huge deal in the eyes of the ancients. But for Guan Yue, health was the most important thing. She felt that Cheng Lingjun didn't cherish his body and didn't really care whether he had actually become infertile.
Cheng Lingjun was also very surprised that Guan Yue accepted the fact that he had drunk the sterilization drug so quickly. He had done something outrageous. Only those men in brothels and men who did not follow the proper husbandly rules needed to drink the drug. But he drank it in front of his wife. Any woman would think he was crazy. But Guan Yue acted as if he had only drunk a poisonous mushroom and had not vomited in time to detoxify.
"You...you think they'll forgive me?" Cheng Lingjun was starting to waver.
"Probably, your father came looking for you, so your family is probably very concerned about your safety," Guan Yue said matter-of-factly.
"They will not forgive me."
"Why?"
"Because I did something I shouldn't have done."
Guan Yue said, "Because you hurt yourself?"
Cheng Lingjun looked at her as if she were seeing a new species, "...because I got divorced and took infertility medication."
“Taking medicine was indeed inappropriate; I should at least have consulted a doctor. Divorce is not the answer,” Guan Yue said calmly and composedly.
Cheng Lingjun looked at her, and she looked at Cheng Lingjun.
The two stared at each other, as if playing a game where whoever breathes first loses.
In the end, Cheng Lingjun was the first to break down.
He suddenly felt like he had lost. The bottomless abyss that he found so difficult to talk about and so hard to escape was, in Guan Yue's eyes, just a small pit. He could simply cover it with some soil, bury it in mud, stomp on it, and then walk over without a care.
What she cared about were other things: that he shouldn't have harmed his body, and that he should have seen a doctor in time. These were the important things.
What he cared about, she didn't care about; and what she cared about, he didn't care about.
Cheng Lingjun felt somewhat ridiculous, laughing at himself and at the world.
Guan Yue heard Cheng Lingjun chuckle softly and asked nervously, "You... why are you laughing? Did I say something wrong?"
“No, you’re absolutely right,” Cheng Lingjun said. “Sometimes I think you’re a real oddball.”
"Huh?" Could it be that her thoughts have been exposed? That it revealed the fact that she wasn't from ancient times after all?
Cheng Lingjun looked into her eyes and said, "Do you think my parents would do the same?"
"Um?"
"Would you be like me, believing I haven't committed a serious mistake and forgiving me?"
Guan Yue thought for a moment, "I don't know, but maybe we can try. Your father came to find you and was willing to listen to you and not tell anyone else. I think sometimes we should be more tolerant of our relatives. They will make mistakes too, but we shouldn't completely reject them."
Guan Yue thought of her mother, and her voice lowered as she spoke. She would often think of her time in the modern world when she couldn't fall asleep, and the past would replay in her mind. When she was filled with regret, she would wish she could go back immediately. After night after night of insomnia, she slowly accepted reality and slowly found new things in this world to cover up the pain in her heart. Time is a good healer, and that is true.
Guan Yue cheered up a bit. Since there was no chance to undo her regrets, there was a chance to undo Cheng Lingjun's. His family was all here, and it seemed they wanted him to go home. She should encourage him and let him return to his family's embrace.
"Don't overthink it. Your parents might be regretting forcing you out now. Don't feel guilty about what you did. An unsuitable marriage should end sooner rather than later. You did the right thing—well, aside from taking the medicine, if you feel too burdened, go home after a while, talk to your father more, find out what your mother and the others are thinking, and it won't be too late to go back when it's appropriate."
Guan Yue racked her brains to give Cheng Lingjun advice, using what could be described as her top-tier emotional intelligence. Her optimism infected Cheng Lingjun, and hope slowly returned to his eyes. Although many concerns were still evident, he nodded and said, "You might be right."
"Yes, really?" Guan Yue was starting to feel proud.
Cheng Lingjun seemed to see the wagging tail behind her again in a flash. After regaining her composure, she said, "After telling you all this, I feel much more relaxed. I was in a daze before because I saw my father and remembered the past. I couldn't get out of it for a while. I hope you can forgive me."
Guan Yue shook her head and said, "It's not about whether I see you or not. You...you must be very homesick, right?"
Cheng Lingjun was taken aback. "It's... alright."
Guan Yue looked at him, and for some reason, felt a pang of sadness. Cheng Lingjun was definitely thinking about it, maybe even his ex-wife… Master, the way she addressed him in this matriarchal world was really strange. They say even a day as husband and wife is worth a hundred days of kindness. Cheng Lingjun and that other person had a child again, and Li Guang might also be thinking about his mother. Even if they didn't go back to the Li family, they would probably go back to the Cheng family eventually, and then they would leave Dahuai Village, leave this place…
Thinking of this, Guan Yue's previously good mood suddenly plummeted. Sigh, Cheng Lingjun went home, and she was all alone. Where could she go back to?
Cheng Lingjun noticed that the person opposite him seemed to have withered, and his eyes had become dull. He was a little confused. Why did he suddenly stop wagging his tail?
After a brief period of gloom, Guan Yue cheered up and chatted with Cheng Lingjun about other things. She learned about Cheng Lingjun's background, and the two talked more. Guan Yue learned more about the things she didn't understand about this world. She also learned that the couple she went to Guping Town for help were named Qu Niang and Lao Zhou, that Guping Town had East Street and West Street, and that Guping Town was very prosperous with many things she had never seen before... This made her mood gradually improve. Perhaps, when Cheng Lingjun returned to Guping Town in the future, she could go there often.
Is she too dependent on others? She really needs to be a strong woman, not a clingy person!
She feels like she's still in elementary school, even going to the bathroom with friends. But the thing is, she wasn't like that when she was little. She thinks she's always been mature and looks down on kids who like to hang out in groups.
Is it true that we're getting worse as we get older...?
Although Guan Yue's mind was filled with a jumble of thoughts, this was her basic skill: she could speak and think simultaneously without revealing it on her face. Therefore, Cheng Lingjun didn't realize that the person opposite her could still talk to him while daydreaming.
The two were having a pleasant conversation when Li Guang's appearance interrupted their exchange.
Li Guang stared at the two people inside the wooden gate with a sour expression, without saying a word.
Guan Yue was facing the door when she saw Li Guang at a glance. She quickly stopped talking and said, "Cheng Lingjun, your son is here."
Cheng Lingjun exclaimed, got up and walked out, annoyed, "I completely forgot the time. Xiao Guang, you...you're awake?"
Guan Yue opened the wooden gate, but Li Guang didn't come in. He looked at the two of them with a serious expression, like a little adult, and finally turned his gaze back to Cheng Lingjun. "I couldn't find my father anywhere when I got up, so I guessed he might be here."
Cheng Lingjun coughed a few times and took Li Guang's hand. "I...I didn't stay long. I just talked to your Aunt Guan for a few minutes and was about to go home. Come on, say hello."
Li Guang turned his gaze to Guan Yue, who was a little nervous. Just as she was about to say that it was alright, she heard Li Guang obediently call out, "Aunt Guan."
Um?
Why does it feel strangely comforting to listen to?
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