Chapter 31 Please Say No to Body Anxiety [VIP]
Summer vacation is something I love and hate.
I love it because it allows me to see you a little longer in my dreams, but I hate it because it doesn't allow me to see you a few more times in the real world.
——"Chronological Diary"
In 2006, when mobile phones were not yet popular, during the final exam week of Zhen Hao's second semester in junior high school, passing notes was the most common phenomenon in the class.
So Zhen Hao wrote a note without any psychological burden and asked Zhou Chunrui to help him pass it to the first table, which was Shixu's seat.
The person sitting behind Shixu was Song Jing. He didn't know who wrote the note, so he handed it over without thinking much.
Seeing the note successfully passed to Shixu's hands, Zhen Hao was so nervous that his hand holding the pen turned slightly white.
I wonder what Shixu would think when he saw her slightly stupid question, and how he would answer?
When she handed over the note just now, she was still ready to die, but now she felt regretful.
Is it too late for her to take it back now? Obviously it is too late.
From her perspective, she could already see the time sequence unfolding the note.
Zhen Hao couldn't help but lie on the table, covering his face with his textbook. Under the book was a face that looked like it had lost all hope in life.
Why on earth did she write such a note...
At this moment, Zhen Hao wished he had magic that could make the words on the note in Shixu's hand disappear.
She didn't dare to recall what was written on the note...
However, those words kept replaying in her mind like a movie...
"Am I heavy?"
A question without any preface or context can easily confuse the person who hears it.
She had wanted to ask this question the moment Shixu carried her on his back, but she was too weak to utter a word, otherwise she would not have given anyone the chance to carry her.
No matter who it is.
During the physical examination when the first grade students entered junior high school, the girls in the class reported their weight openly and discussed it enthusiastically.
Only Zhen Hao gave an ambiguous answer. The reason was simple: the other girls weighed less than 100 pounds, but she weighed 104 pounds.
So whenever the topic of weight comes up, she's extremely secretive. Only when it comes to height does she confidently say, "I'm 1.65 meters!"
In the Min City area where both men and women are generally short, it is rare for Zhen Hao to have such a height at his age.
But she is not the tallest girl in the class. Many girls who are the same height as her or even taller than her weigh only a little over 90 kilograms.
Therefore, she always feels that she is fat.
Plus, some annoying guys, like Zou Xiaowei and Tao Gongcan, always like to say her legs are thick and tease her about how she must be heavier than boys...
Gradually, her weight became a secret that she was too embarrassed to talk about.
When Shixu saw the contents of the note, he frowned.
He subconsciously turned his head to look at Zhen Hao's seat.
Just as he expected, the girl buried her face deeply under her textbook.
Given his understanding of Zhen Hao, whether he knew her well or not, she would definitely feel embarrassed after asking this question, then regret it, and finally start to fantasize about having special abilities, such as being able to make the note in his hand disappear.
That……
Shi Xu glanced at the milk tea in the upper right corner of the desk and came up with an idea.
He calmly opened the lid of the milk tea, then "accidentally" knocked it over, and then "accidentally" let the note soak in the spilled milk tea...
After doing all this, he suddenly stood up again and deliberately made the tables and chairs bang loudly.
Pei Xiaohai was a restless person. Upon hearing such a commotion, he couldn't help but speak: "Brother Shixu, what are you doing? (Chongxiami: means "what are you doing" in Minnan dialect.)"
"Oh, it's okay, I just accidentally spilled the milk tea." Shi Xu deliberately raised his voice so that Zhen Hao could hear him as well.
"Brother Shixu, I'm not saying anything bad about you, but what boy would like to drink something this sweet..." Pei Xiaohai shook the coffee in his hand, "This stuff tastes good."
As soon as he finished speaking, the head teacher appeared at the back door of the classroom like a ghost, and said in a faint voice: "Pei Xiaohai, it looks like you can get full marks on tomorrow's test, right?"
Pei Xiaohai immediately shrank his neck like a quail and stopped talking.
The head teacher is always elusive, and those with weak hearts will be scared to death sooner or later.
After Shixu wiped the desk clean, he tore off a new piece of homework paper. After making sure that the head teacher was not in the classroom, he wrote a new note and passed it back to Zhen Hao.
He wrote on the paper: "Okay, what did you just write? I accidentally spilled the milk tea, and the words are all smudged. I can't see clearly. I'm sorry."
There were apologies, there were pretending to be stupid, there were facts, after a few true and false words, Zhen Hao's uneasy heart was comforted to a certain extent.
When she wrote back to Shixu, all she could think about was that it was a good thing he didn't see it, otherwise he would have...
"It's okay now. Good luck on the exam tomorrow."
Looking at the note Zhen Hao sent back, time became clear.
The fan above my head was whirring, outside the window was the croaking of frogs and chirping of insects, the unique sound of a summer night, and the classroom was filled with neatly arranged memories of my youth.
At 11 o'clock on Saturday, the final day of the semester, each class was required to return to the classroom for a brief class meeting.
Teacher Chen knew that the students' hearts had already flown back home, and the teachers of various subjects had already assigned summer homework during evening self-study, so he didn't say much. He just reminded them to pay attention to safety during the summer vacation, complete homework on time, and then let everyone go.
The vast majority of students ran towards the school gate like birds out of a cage.
Zhen Hao and the other two were never in a hurry to go home. They were slowly packing things from the hole in the table.
"Okay, how about we have lunch first and then go home?" Zhou Chunrui suggested.
"I think it's okay." Shixu came over at some point.
Yan Yunshu could only make a bitter face: "What should I do?"
She also wanted to play with everyone for a while before going home, but Yan Shi would definitely not agree.
Thinking of this, she lowered her head dejectedly.
"Can I be included?" Yu Ling's voice came softly. She always spoke with extremely gentle interjections, making people reluctant to refuse her.
She added, "How about I treat you? Thank you all for taking such good care of me, a transfer student, this semester."
Yu Ling transferred from a big city, which was something Zhen Hao envied.
She often saw in novels or TV dramas that heroines or heroes hated transferring schools because it meant leaving behind familiar people and surroundings and starting over in a new place. But she had a different idea...
She longed to transfer to another school, to go to a bigger and more prosperous place, and to meet more outstanding friends...
She believes that the environment changes people and also believes that the environment shapes people.
Unfortunately, from elementary school to junior high school, she had been growing up and studying in a small place in an orderly manner, and never had the opportunity to go out and see the world.
"Wow, Sister Yu, do you count me in too?" Pei Xiaohai came over with a sly look.
"I'm going home first." Shi Hangyu's words followed closely.
Pei Xiaohai immediately ran after him again: "Hey, wait for me, what are you doing? It would be a waste if you don't eat it!"
"I didn't stop you." Shi Hang glanced at him coldly.
Pei Xiaohai quickly followed Shi Hangyu to the school gate. When he saw the man leaning against the car, he was stunned: "Second Uncle, why are you here? Are you here to take me home?"
As he spoke, he walked quickly towards Pei Yandong.
Pei Yandong reached out and patted his shoulder, a smile on his face: "Xiao Hai has grown a lot taller."
"That's right." Pei Xiaohai straightened his back with pride, "If I work harder, I can catch up with Hang Yu."
"Catch up with me?" Shi Hangyu's eyes dropped slightly, and he was very arrogant. "It's impossible in this lifetime."
As soon as he finished speaking, Pei Xiaohai punched him.
Of course, he did not succeed, because Shi Hangyu had predicted it and dodged it easily.
Inside the classroom, Zhen Hao politely declined Yu Ling's offer of a meal: "We're all classmates, no need to be so polite."
Yu Ling probably understood her personality, so she didn't insist and instead gave in: "Then it's okay for me to buy you a drink, right?"
This time Zhen Hao didn't refuse, but he didn't agree either.
She didn't want to have lunch with Yu Ling. After all...
She glanced at Lou Zhixia and the other two who would be joining them, and she couldn't describe the feeling in her heart.
Yu Ling seemed oblivious to her resistance and continued, "I heard that Citong Village has beautiful scenery, with mountains and rivers. I've wanted to go there for a long time! Okay, can we go to your house after dinner?"
Faced with her sudden request, Zhen Hao was completely stunned.
Since she was a child, one of the things she resisted most was having classmates come to her home.
Even Zhou Chunrui and Yan Yunshu rarely went to her house. If we have to say, the only classmate who often went to her house was Shi Xu.
In the entire village, almost every household has built a new house with beautiful modern decoration. The bathroom has an automatic toilet and a heater that keeps warm in winter and cool in summer. Only a few families still live in traditional Minshi houses.
And Zhen Hao's family is one of them.
If it weren't for Grandpa Zhen's frugality and laying floor tiles in the house when Zhen Hao was in fourth grade, the Zhen family would still have a solid earth floor.
Even though the pattern of the floor at home is old, it is still a bit of comfort to Zhen Hao's little heart.
First, if there is a typhoon or heavy rain, the dew on the roof will no longer make the floor muddy and dirty, and the floor can be easily cleaned with a mop; secondly, there are fewer small centipedes and unknown insects on the tiled floor, at least she has never been bitten by a centipede again.
On a scorching weekend afternoon, she was lying alone on her bed, covered in a cool mat, taking a nap. As she slept, she felt a gentle sting on her neck, a sharp, painful tingle. Almost subconsciously, she brushed away the discomfort, only to watch as a red-legged centipede, about the length of her pinky finger, fell to the ground, twisting its body and disappearing somewhere unknown.
She was so frightened that she dared not return to the house, and only dared to go to the bamboo couch on the corridor. Even when she sat down, she had to look around, fearing that another centipede would run out from somewhere. Unknowingly, she fell asleep again. She thought she was just sleepy, but later she found out that centipedes are slightly poisonous, causing her to sleep in a daze and dizziness.
From then on, she developed a physical fear of centipedes. Not to mention seeing them, just thinking about them would make her scalp tingle.
Finally, whenever classmates came to his house, Zhen Hao always felt that he could hold his head higher.
She knew that it was not good for her to be so vain, and she also knew that it was not good to despise her dilapidated home, but she just envied others for having bright and spacious new homes, and she resisted having more people know about her family situation.
The scene before her did not allow her to recall too much, but she was also somewhat helpless and did not know how to refuse Yu Ling.
Just when she was in a dilemma and didn't know what to do, a sentence that sounded nonchalant but every word was meant to help her out reached everyone's ears.
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