Chapter 41 I Will Love Myself More【VIP】
I don't regret meeting you. What I regret is that I grew up too slowly, so slowly that anyone had the opportunity to hurt me, but I was powerless to resist.
If I could turn back time, I would still fall in love with you, but I wouldn't just love you.
I will love myself more.
——"Zhen Hao Diary"
Qin Shen paused and said nothing in response to Zhou Chunrui's question.
It was raining heavily outside. Not only did he not wait for anyone downstairs of Zhen Hao's house, but he also got caught in the rain. The ends of his hair were a little wet, and he looked a little disheveled.
He called Zhen Hao's phone again and again, but no one answered.
As a last resort, he had to call Zhen Dongcheng.
The two have been together for so many years and are already very familiar with each other's families. The cancellation of the engagement also involves more people and things.
When it first happened, he was completely upset and didn't know what he wanted at all. He just wanted to escape and let both of them calm down.
After he calmed down completely, he couldn't contact Zhen Hao at all.
Zhen Dongcheng was on his way from the neighboring city to Min City People's Hospital when he received the call. He heard Qin Shen speak sincerely on the phone, "Uncle, I know Haohao was wrong, but I can't contact him. Can you help me? I don't want to let Haohao regret it."
Zhen Dongcheng knew very well how painful it was to regret his youth, so he took the initiative to tell Qin Shen about Zhen Hao's whereabouts.
Putting this aside, regardless of whether the two children can get married or not, Qin Shen has a position to know that He Yunlian is seriously ill.
Upon learning that He Yunlian was admitted to the hospital, Qin Shen hung up the phone and immediately took a taxi to the hospital.
Seeing Qin Shen about to move forward, Zhou Chunrui reached out to stop him: "You are not welcome here."
Zhen Hao was already upset that He Yunlian was admitted to the ICU, and now Qin Shen had intervened, she was afraid that Zhen Hao could not bear it.
"Zhou Chunrui, this is none of your business." Qin Shen looked over her shoulder at Zhen Hao who was not far behind her.
Zhen Hao happened to look up at him at this time, and their eyes met.
She didn't want to see Qin Shen at this moment, but she also didn't want to make things too awkward here, so she took the initiative to walk over to him and asked, "What do you want from me?"
Qin Shen knew the difference between the important and the unimportant, and knew that now was not the best time to resolve the misunderstanding, so he asked He Yunlian, "How is Auntie?"
"Thank you for your concern. My mother will be fine." Zhen Hao's tone and expression were very cold, as if he was talking to a stranger.
Qin Shen was hurt by her cold eyes, but he also knew that now was not the time to say these things.
"Rui Rui, I'm fine." Zhen Hao said and gave Zhou Chunrui a reassuring look.
Only then did Zhou Chunrui and the other man leave with peace of mind.
After they left, only Zhen Hao, Zhen Mei, Shi Xu and Qin Shen were left here.
"Sister, I'm going out to buy you some food. Mom can call me anytime if anything happens." Zhen Mei made an excuse to go buy food for a few people and slipped away early.
When there were only three people left at the scene, Zhen Hao felt a little complicated.
She never thought that she would meet Qin Shen in the hospital, let alone that the three of them would be facing each other in the same space.
be terribly upset.
Now only these four words can describe her mood.
He was worried about He Yunlian's safety, heartbroken by Qin Shen's betrayal, and even more guilty about the relationship between himself and Shixu...
She glanced at Shixu, then at Qin Shen, and chose to remain silent.
From the moment Qin Shen appeared, Shi Xu's unfriendly gaze was always on him.
"Shixu, thank you for taking good care of my family." Qin Shen's eyes were also scrutinizing.
He had always known that Zhen Hao had such a good friend of the opposite sex, but the two of them had always maintained an appropriate distance and had not crossed the line, so he had never said anything.
Shi Xu didn't answer him, but instead fixed his gaze on Zhen Hao: "Okay, I have something to do. Call me if you have anything else."
Even if he didn't want to let Zhen Hao be alone with the man in front of him, he knew that he had to withdraw now. He understood the principle that things will be better if you take it slow.
In this way, Zhen Hao received calls from three people who said "if you have something to say", and finally he and Qin Shen looked at each other in bewilderment.
It was inappropriate to talk about anything in a place like a hospital, and the two of them were silent for a long time.
The hospital corridor was too depressing. Zhen Hao couldn't stand the atmosphere, so he stood up in silence and walked out.
Qin Shen did not speak to stop her.
Looking at her slightly tired figure, he felt a long-lost heartache.
Clearly, both of them were fine a week ago, and he didn't understand how the situation had turned out like this.
He wanted to chase after her, but he was afraid that something might happen to He Yunlian, so he held back.
He has figured out a lot these days. He and Zhen Hao need to have a good talk, but now is not the best time.
Terrace.
The "click" sound of the lighter turning on and off can be clearly heard.
The timing is intermittent.
He doesn't have the habit of smoking, but he has the habit of collecting lighters.
Zhen Hao didn't expect that he hadn't left yet, and the two of them met unexpectedly.
, because time discovered her.
A staring room, that
Find something to talk about to ease the awkward atmosphere.
"I came out to get some fresh air." Shi Xu lied, "I just happened to see the nice scenery here."
In fact, he wanted to leave some space for Zhen Hao and Qin Shen.
I want to give her time to deal with these eight years of her youth.
It was Zhen Hao who agreed to act as if nothing had happened last night, but she was also the one who seemed at a loss in the face of the course of events.
Qin Shen was inside, and Shi Xu was in front of her. She felt that the air was so cramped that she could hardly breathe.
She turned on tiptoe and tried to escape.
"I'll go talk to the doctor again." Zhen Hao found a lame but reasonable excuse, and turned around while speaking.
"Okay--" Shi Xu called her.
Zhen Hao just paused, without looking back or answering.
She waited a long time for the next step.
Just when she was about to ask the man behind her, she heard a soft but firm voice: "No matter what you choose, I will wait for you and respect you."
The evening breeze gently blows past my ears, and the hustle and bustle of the world seems to stop at this moment.
The timing was undoubtedly gentle, so gentle that she was at a loss, and couldn't tell whether she was moved by him or something else.
Zhen Hao chose to flee again without leaving him a single word.
On the seventh day that He Yunlian was in the ICU, the Zhen family had almost emptied their savings.
Zhen Hao was already heavily in debt, the bank repayment deadline was approaching, and there were a lot of fees waiting to be paid at the hospital. She was so worried that she couldn't sleep all night and lost a lot of weight.
The day after He Yunlian was admitted to the hospital, her house was put up for sale. The price was lowered again and again, but no one dared to take it over.
The worst thing is that with the arrival of a new wave of influenza, the hospital has made a new regulation - only one person can visit a patient at a time.
To make matters worse, members of the Zhen family fell ill one after another. The flu was severe and everyone had symptoms to varying degrees. The burden of caring for the patients fell entirely on Zhen Hao.
Zhen Mei's flu symptoms were relatively mild, and when she was almost recovered, good news came from the hospital - He Yunlian woke up.
Zhen Hao finally got a chance to breathe.
After Zhen Mei took over from her to go to the hospital to take care of He Yunlian, she decided to solve the remaining problems once and for all.
After receiving Zhen Hao's call, Qin Shen jumped up from his chair.
He walked out of the office quickly, his heart beating as fast as when he first confessed his love to her.
"Okay..." Qin Shen's Adam's apple rolled, and he just called her name without saying anything else.
Zhen Hao felt his voice was terribly strange and unfamiliar.
Only ten days had passed, but it was enough to bring two people who had known and loved each other for eight years back to square one, even becoming more unfamiliar than strangers.
"Let's meet." Zhen Hao pulled up his mask, his voice sounding muffled. "You decide the time and place."
She was as calm as a machine, and the willful girl living in her heart was completely killed in just half a month.
Qin Shen suddenly felt very uncomfortable with Zhen Hao like this.
In front of him, she was always like a playful child, asking for whatever she wanted from him without reservation.
She is straightforward and cute, but sometimes makes him feel helpless.
"Okay." Qin Shen didn't say much and agreed to her request.
In this relationship, he was obedient to her and the one who gave more. He believed that he had never done anything wrong to her, except...
Thinking of that incident, he sighed deeply.
The two met in a quiet coffee shop. The semi-open booth was serious yet relaxed.
This was a date spot they would never have chosen since they met.
Because Zhen Hao doesn't like coffee.
As soon as she sat down, she looked around, and then her eyes wandered out the window.
This feeling is hard to describe. The two people who were once the most familiar with each other are now just looking at each other in silence, even with a hint of awkwardness.
This is probably what it means.
After a long while, Qin Shen took the initiative to speak: "Okay, you've lost a lot of weight. Are you tired?"
There was deep heartache in his eyes, but Zhen Hao chose to ignore it and answered irrelevantly: "Why did you choose to meet here?"
She always felt that life was bitter, so she only liked sweet things and couldn't stand drinking any coffee. Qin Shen knew this very well over the years.
"I'm afraid this is the last time we meet..." Qin Shen paused before continuing, "I selfishly want you to remember the taste of coffee. If we don't have a future together, maybe when you see a coffee shop or smell the aroma of coffee, you'll think of me, even if it's just for a second."
"Qin Shen, how many years have we known each other?" Zhen Hao suddenly asked an irrelevant question.
Qin Shen was stunned for a moment, and after a while he replied, "Nine years."
They first met in their freshman year and started dating in their sophomore year. It has been nine years since they met and fell in love.
"Nine years..." Zhen Hao sighed, "Qin Shen, I've spent a third of my life with you. I understand you better than anyone else."
After saying this, she looked at him so calmly for the first time since the incident, so calm that she could use her eyes to carefully describe his outline, eyes, nose, lips, chin, and Adam's apple... Every part was so familiar to her, but she no longer had the joyful and shy mood she had before.
Her heart at this moment was filled with desolation.
Qin Shen was a little flustered by her gaze, and subconsciously lowered his eyes, not daring to look her in the eye.
"So..." Zhen Hao's expression was calm, and without taking his eyes off his face for a moment, he said softly, word by word, "Stop pretending."
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