Chapter 61 He was afraid of losing control [VIP]
Growth is an endless letter, signed by each of us.
——Orange Confessions
Zhen family.
As soon as Zhen Hao entered the room, she saw a person sitting on the ground. The person had his back to her and was slapping and crying on the floor.
"Why is my life so miserable? Why is God so blind...
"Why did this have to happen to me? Do I deserve it...
"How can I endure this life... I might as well just follow your grandfather and leave!"
He Yunlian slumped on the ground, her face full of tear marks, and her whole face looked so dejected as if shrouded in a dark aura.
Zhen Hao couldn't see her face, but when he heard her mention his grandfather, his face darkened. He asked Zhen Mei beside him, "What's going on?"
"Haohao, you're back." Zhen Mei didn't have a chance to say anything before He Yunlian turned her head and stared at Zhen Hao with a resentful look on her face. "Haohao, Mom is so tired. What should I do... I feel like I'm about to go see your grandfather..."
Every time she called herself "Mom", Zhen Hao's brows furrowed a little.
From childhood to adulthood, even now that she has been transformed, she still feels awkward when she calls He Yunlian "Mom".
He Yunlian spoke with full energy and seemed to be in good spirits, but her face looked very depressed. However, it did not seem like she was going to see grandpa as she said.
Seeing that Zhen Hao didn't respond to He Yunlian's question, Zhen Mei interrupted to explain, "Mom has been feeling unwell since last month. Dad and I have taken her to various medical departments intermittently..."
When she said this, He Yunlian gave her a resentful look, causing her to subconsciously pause for a moment.
"What's the result?" Zhen Hao frowned even deeper.
"In the end, nothing happened..." Zhen Mei was interrupted by He Yunlian before she could finish her words.
"You must be hiding this from me!" He Yunlian said as she stood up and strode towards the two men. "You must have taken advantage of me because I can't read and lied to me! I'm actually dying, right? Don't lie to me."
"It has been more than a month. I can't sleep every day. I have insomnia and nightmares. I sweat several times a night. I can't eat, and my stomach feels uncomfortable if I don't eat. I endured it again and again, but I couldn't help but tell you... Especially Haohao, you just went through such a difficult thing. I don't have the heart to add to your troubles, but I feel uncomfortable, I really feel very uncomfortable! Why is my life so miserable..." He Yunlian complained bitterly.
In fact, Zhen Mei, Zhen Li and Zhen Dongcheng have heard these words countless times.
"The doctor said that my mother had menopausal syndrome, but she didn't believe it. She always felt that she was sick and that it was an incurable terminal illness..." Zhen Hao leaned close to Zhen Hao's ear and whispered.
"What are you two sisters whispering about without telling me?" He Yunlian said, her voice choking with sobs. "I told you that you are hiding something from me. Tell me, how much time do I have left..."
Zhen Hao: “…”
Zhen Mei: "..."
"The doctor told you you were fine, why didn't you listen?" Zhen Dongcheng had just returned from outside and was furious when he heard He Yunlian's last few words. "You didn't listen to a word we told the doctor. You think other people's farts smell good, don't you?"
Over the past month, his response to He Yunlian has changed from patiently answering questions at first to nagging and repeating himself, and finally to impatience. No one knows what he has been through.
No matter what he did, He Yunlian was not satisfied; no matter what he said to the doctor, He Yunlian felt that they were deceiving her; she even dared not take the medicine prescribed by the doctor, for fear of getting addicted...None of these were important, but whenever anyone around her casually said, "I had the same symptoms as you last time, and I got better after taking a certain medicine," she would believe it as if it were an imperial decree, and would immediately ask him or Zhen Meiqu to buy it for her.
It turns out that they and the doctors will harm her, and the irrelevant people are her life-saving straw. Then why is she crying now?
When He Yunlian heard Zhen Dongcheng say this, her face immediately fell, and she stopped pretending to be pitiful: "Don't talk, I don't like to hear it, I don't want to hear it."
She was clearly looking at her two daughters with tears in her eyes just a second ago, but when she saw Zhen Dongcheng, her whole face suddenly became lively with anger, at least it was more pleasing to the eye than the listless look just now.
"Just scare yourself. Sooner or later, something bad will happen to you!" Zhen Dongcheng was furious. After saying that, he walked into the inner room without even looking at He Yunlian again.
He Yunlian, who had been furious just now, suddenly lost her temper and complained to Zhen Hao and the others, "Look at this useless father of yours. He doesn't even know how to comfort his sick wife and is so harsh. Why is my life so miserable... God is so blind..."
Zhen Li's foot, about to step into the room, retreated when he heard He Yunlian's voice. He was a sophomore, and before he even went home for winter break, he was already getting annoyed by his mother's two-hourly phone calls. He Yunlian even demanded that he find time every day to say something nice to cheer her up. He tired himself after two days of coaxing, and when he got home, he just wanted to avoid her every day.
His mother,
"Mom, if you have something to say, just say it. Don't just start talking." Zhen Hao couldn't bear to listen any longer and frowned. "My grandfather and you don't have a good relationship. If he wants to take someone away, he should take me with him."
He Yunlian: "..."
Zhen Mei: "..."
"Sister, is there anyone as comforting as you?" she said to Zhen Hao in a voice.
"I won't talk to you anymore. I'm out of energy. I need to take a rest." He Yunlian liked to use this trick whenever she couldn't convince others. The two sisters were used to it, so they just let her do what she wanted.
After He Yunlian returned to her room, Zhen Li quietly walked out from the side.
The three of them looked at each other and sighed at the same time.
Zhen Hao then learned that the so-called "accident" at home was actually just that He Yunlian woke up, had breakfast, and then there was no sign of other people in the house. She finally exploded and called everyone one by one.
Zhen Hao naturally couldn't answer the phone. In fact, Zhen Mei had secretly gone on a date with Shen Yi under the pretext of watching the Southern Music Orchestra perform. Zhen Li had even gone to the elementary school to join in the fun. As for Zhen Dongcheng, he was always like this, chatting about ancient things over tea.
It was just such an ordinary day, but He Yunlian magnified it countless times. Not only did she make a series of phone calls to them, she also threatened that if they didn't go home, she would go see Grandpa Zhen herself.
They knew that He Yunlian, who was afraid of death, would not be able to do such a thing, but they were still worried and rushed home one after another.
"Sister, this isn't the first time." Zhen Li said with a bitter face, recounting the first time she experienced threats from He Yunlian. "Just last month, I was in class at school when my mom called. I didn't feel comfortable answering, so I hung up. Then she kept calling, and I couldn't go, so I had to sneak out of the lecture hall to answer her calls. And guess what? She started by saying I didn't want her as a mother anymore, that she didn't want to live anymore... I was so scared that I didn't dare to attend the rest of the class. I skipped class and took the high-speed train home."
Speaking of this incident, Zhen Li still feels a lingering fear.
"Why didn't you ever tell me this?" Zhen Hao seemed to understand why He Yunlian had the illusion of being abandoned.
Although we are a family, you are the last one to know something, or the only one who is excluded. If your core is not stable enough, it is easy to get stuck in a dead end and even get stuck in a dead end.
This must be the case with He Yunlian. Coupled with menopausal syndrome, the changes in estrogen levels make her mood unstable and prone to paranoia. The physical discomfort also makes her suspicious and no longer the same as before.
"Mom and Dad said you've been having a lot of trouble lately, and asked us not to make things difficult for you, so..." Zhen Mei carefully observed Zhen Hao's expression and chose to apologize first. "I'm sorry, sister, we didn't mean to hide it from you."
"It's okay." If it were the Zhen Hao of the past, she might have felt consumed with guilt for keeping He Yunlian's illness a secret from her family, but she was no longer the fragile little girl. "What else did the doctor say?"
Her brain has slowly evolved from emotional thinking to rational thinking, and now she only wants to figure out how He Yunlian should regulate her body.
"The doctor said..." Zhen Mei told what she knew.
The other side.
After the performance of the Southern Music Orchestra, Shi Xu wanted to find Zhen Hao to congratulate her, but she saw Zhen Mei hurriedly pulling her away from a distance, so she had to give up.
On the way back, he suddenly received a push notification on his phone.
Zhen Hao’s video account has been updated.
At this point, Zhen Hao can still update the video, and if nothing goes wrong, it should be sent on schedule.
While making this guess, Shixu slowly drove the car to the side of the road, parked the car and turned on the hazard lights before taking out his mobile phone to open the push notification.
He could have watched it later when he got home, but he just couldn't help it.
It feels like when I was a kid and I was watching a TV series and it reached a critical moment, but I had to wait for the update the next day, feeling anxious and excited.
He didn't know how long he could hide his feelings for Zhen Hao. The strong possessiveness often drove him crazy.
Zhen Hao's updated video still did not show her face, only half of her fair neck was revealed, and her voice was the same as usual.
Does this mean that when she talks about her past with Qin Shen, the waves in her heart have become less and less?
Shixu couldn't help but guess this.
When he thought of this possibility, he felt a little more relaxed while watching the video.
It was still that familiar voice, still that comforting narrative style, and Zhen Hao's voice soon lingered in his ears: "Hello, I'm here, and Happy New Year everyone. I didn't want to talk about these whining emotional pasts on such a beautiful day, but I want to give myself an explanation as soon as possible. If you don't like it, you can just leave.
"Last time we talked about how outrageous that girl was later, and what stupid things I did. Let's talk about the girl Z first. She didn't appear in Mr. Q and I's lives for a long time. I don't want to speculate too much about whether I deliberately ignored her or she really disappeared, because it doesn't make any sense anymore. Mr. Q and I did live a quiet life for a long time. We graduated smoothly and got jobs smoothly. At the beginning, Mr. Q and I worked in the same city, and our relationship rose to a new level. Just when I felt happy, Mr. Q proposed to visit my parents and finalize the marriage.
"It's strange. I should have felt doubly happy when he did this, but instead, I felt an invisible pressure, even resistance. I was young at the time and didn't understand that hesitation meant the time wasn't right. So, after much persuasion from Mr. Q, our parents met. It wasn't entirely smooth, but the outcome was a good one: Mr. Q and I were engaged. There was no ceremony, no banquet, just a simple meal between our two families. That was our engagement party."
"That was the day of our engagement, when Z appeared again in Mr. Q and me's lives..."
When he heard this, someone suddenly knocked on the half-open car window.
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