Chapter 215 He will live in regret for the rest of his life
Thinking of this, Shen Yuanwei forced a smile.
She will continue to live here in the future, so she definitely cannot say anything cruel or unpleasant to the ear and offend the emperor to death.
She said.
"Your Majesty, you don't have to feel guilty about my death. In fact, I know that you are not a bad person. You are a good emperor. I have offended you many times, but you didn't want to kill me. You have never done anything to kill Ling Zhao over the years. I know very well that you have always shown mercy to Ling Zhao and me..."
"I know you just want a child, and you don't have any bad intentions..."
"But Your Majesty, I really have nowhere else to go. I am Xiao Lingzhao's wife, and I love my husband. You ask me to leave my husband again and again to sleep with you and have children. I really can't do it..."
"And giving birth is so painful. You only saw how lucky I was in giving birth to twins, but you have no idea how painful it is to be pregnant with twins. In the two months before giving birth, my belly was so big that it seemed like it would explode at any time. I couldn't even breathe. I felt uncomfortable and suffocated whether I was standing, sitting or lying down. Every night when I woke up in the middle of the night, I always felt like I was going to die..."
"Especially when I was having my belly cut open in order to give birth to you, even though the wound has healed, there is still a scar inside my belly. As my belly gets bigger day by day due to the child, the scar feels like it is being torn apart. This pain is no less than torture..."
She shook her head slowly.
"So, Your Majesty, I have suffered enough. I will never have another child no matter what. I would rather die than have another child and suffer."
As Xie Junlin listened to Shen Yuanwei's words, waves of silent pain slapped his conscience, making him feel indescribable pain.
He was wrong.
He was really wrong.
He knew nothing about the pain of giving birth, yet he was self-righteous and forced Yuan Wei into submission.
He felt so sorry for Yuan Wei.
Yuan Wei was about to die, but she was still afraid that he would feel guilty and blame himself for the rest of his life. A bleeding dying person was still trying to talk to comfort him and make him think more positively. Yuan Wei was so kind, but what did he do?
He forced the woman who had given birth to a child for him to commit suicide in despair.
He deserves to die.
Why is he so overbearing?
Why is he so greedy?
Without his greed and dominance, things would never have come to this point.
Xie Junlin's tears fell in big drops.
He held Shen Yuanwei's fingers tightly against his cheek and said, "Shen Yuanwei, I order you to survive. You are not allowed to die. You must hold on. As long as you can survive, I promise you that from now on I will no longer be greedy and will no longer force you to have children. It is enough for me to only have Yun'er as my child."
He said, "I swear, I only want Yun'er as my child in this life, and I will never force anyone else."
He looked at Shen Yuanwei with tears in his eyes. "So don't be afraid anymore. You don't have to die. Just hold on and wait for Dr. Song to save you, okay? You still have to spend the New Year with the children. Yun'er and Yuan'er have been looking forward to spending the New Year with you. You can't let them have regrets for the rest of their lives..."
Shen Yuanwei wanted to answer, but only spat out a mouthful of blood.
She felt a little dizzy.
Bleeding on one side of the neck will lead to insufficient blood supply to the brain. The person will not die immediately, but will faint...
She took advantage of the moment when she fainted to pretend to be dead.
She raised her eyes to see the two men crying with heartache, and spoke with difficulty.
"Your Majesty, can you agree to my last request?"
Xie Junlin clenched his teeth.
He said, "Don't mention one request. As long as you can stay alive, I can still agree to many of your requests!"
Shen Yuanwei shook her head and said, "But I can't live anymore. Before I die, I only hope that the emperor can promise me not to embarrass Xiao Lingzhao and not to hurt my children in the future—"
Xie Junlin gritted his teeth and said, "No, you have to stay alive and persuade me all the time!"
Tears flowed from Shen Yuanwei's eyes, "Your Majesty... This is all I ask, I beg you..."
Xie Junlin couldn't let her die with regrets, so he could only turn his head with red eyes and look to the side, and promised with difficulty, "Okay, I promise you, I will never make things difficult for Xiao Lingzhao and your three children!"
Shen Yuanwei said softly, "Thank you, Your Majesty, for your grace."
She looked at Xiao Lingzhao again, "Lingzhao, you also have to promise me one thing..."
Xiao Lingzhao burst into tears, "Okay...Okay, you say."
Shen Yuanwei continued, "After I die, don't blame anyone, okay? My death was not caused by the emperor, it was my own choice. Don't let my death implicate yourself, my two children, and dozens of people in our Xiao family..."
She stroked Xiao Lingzhao's face.
"Also, don't do anything stupid. You are not allowed to die with me. You have to live to protect the people living on the border. You also have to watch our children grow up. They are only two months old. It's already pitiful that they lost their mother. They can't live without a father anymore..."
"Xiao Lingzhao, you can't be an irresponsible father. Those are the children I worked so hard to give birth to for you. If you abandon them, I will never forgive you even if I become a ghost..."
Xiao Lingzhao's tears kept falling like beads from a broken string.
He put his forehead against Shen Yuanwei's and nodded vigorously in agreement.
"Okay... okay! I promise you everything! I will definitely stay alive and take care of our child. I will never resent the emperor. I will not..."
Shen Yuanwei sighed softly.
Anyway, she won't die, so just show your virtue again.
She said, "Wait three years after I die, then you can marry a new wife..."
Xiao Lingzhao slowly raised his head, his tearful eyes full of determination.
"I will not marry anyone else. I promised you when I married you that I only want you as my wife for the rest of my life."
Shen Yuanwei was crying.
She said, "I don't want you to marry someone else, and I don't want some other woman to take my place and be in love with you, but you still have so many years ahead of you, and I feel bad for you to spend decades alone guarding a lonely grave and a memorial tablet..."
Her red eyes were full of reluctance.
"I can't bear to give such a good husband to someone else, but I can't bear to see such a good husband of mine live like an ascetic for the next few decades. Ling Zhao, if I can survive, I will definitely dominate you for the rest of my life, but I can't survive. After I die, you must find new happiness..."
Xiao Lingzhao wanted to say more, but Shen Yuanwei could no longer hold on.
Her eyes went dark and she let go and fainted.
Seeing her hands fall limply, both men froze.
After a moment of shock, Xiao Lingzhao hugged Shen Yuanwei's "corpse" tightly and cried out in grief. He cried so helplessly and desperately, like a child abandoned by the world.
Xie Junlin stared at Shen Yuanwei's "remains" in a daze, then slowly raised his hand to cover his heart.
The sadness in his heart was so overwhelming that it caused him to feel pain in his heart.
He will never be able to forgive himself in his life.
He will live with regret all his life.
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