Chapter 84 From now on, I will keep my chastity for you
As soon as Shen Yuanwei heard the words "have a good talk", she guessed that the emperor did not want to talk to her, but wanted to brainwash her.
really.
She heard Xie Junlin say to her.
"I know everything you just said to me, your ill will towards me."
"You despise my many concubines and my filthiness, but can you please listen to my difficulties and helplessness?"
"If there was a divine doctor who could tell me for sure when I got married at the age of 18 that there was something wrong with my body and I couldn't have children, and let me know my physical condition, I would have accepted my fate and would not have favored so many concubines just to have a child."
"I don't care about women. I married the queen for profit. We didn't know each other before marriage, but we treated each other with respect after marriage. We have been married for three years, and she is the only one by my side. But she has not been able to get pregnant in three years, so we summoned the imperial physician for treatment."
"Dozens of imperial doctors took turns to diagnose me, and then told me with all their hearts that the Queen and I had no children, and it was not my fault, but that the Queen herself was infertile. The imperial doctors advised me to just take in more concubines."
"I firmly believe this, because I don't feel any inability in bed. I am sure that I am a normal man, so I also think that infertility is the Queen's problem alone."
"The queen was sad and blamed herself, so she took the initiative to arrange for me to choose a concubine."
"After taking in concubines, a whole year passed and no one in the harem had good news. I once again sought out the imperial physicians and asked them if it was my fault."
"Still none of them told me the truth."
"They said that perhaps these concubines were too young, under the age of twenty, and their bodies had not yet fully grown. It would be better to marry some girls who were twenty-one or twenty-two, and that would definitely work."
"So, I took in some older concubines and continued to pray for children."
"Another year has passed, and I still don't have a child."
"I summoned the imperial doctors again and sternly told them to tell the truth. They knelt down and trembled as they told me that I did have a minor problem with my body, but it was okay. As long as I took more medicine and showed more favor to my concubines, I would have a prince within two years."
"So, they gave me a prescription and asked me to take it for a few months. In order to test whether the prescription was effective, they naturally favored the concubines..."
"I took a prescription for several months, but it didn't work. They changed it to another prescription. I took it for several months, but it still didn't work. They said they had improved the new prescription and it was guaranteed to work..."
"I tried for several years, but I no longer believed in them, so I left the palace in civilian clothes to find a doctor outside."
"But the doctors also told me that since I have no problem with bed, the reason I don't have a child is just because it's not my destiny. As long as I don't give up, I will have one."
"Year after year, I listened to them and refused to give up. I took medicine every day, but nothing happened—"
"I finally accepted my fate."
He raised his eyes and looked at Shen Yuanwei.
"After I confirmed that I couldn't have children a few years ago, I rarely went to the harem. This year, I haven't set foot in their bedroom for eight months."
"You think I'm dirty, but you know, if Hua Tuo was still alive and could tell me accurately that I couldn't have children, I wouldn't have been drinking bitter medicine and favoring concubines year after year."
"Perhaps in your eyes, I am enjoying myself by favoring my concubines, but to me, it is a humiliation. Every time I favor them, it proves how useless and incompetent I am..."
He shook his head and smiled bitterly.
"So, why would I like this?"
"I can actually be clean. If someone had told me that I only needed to remain a virgin and wait for another eighteen years, a girl who could give birth to a child for me would appear in front of me, then I would definitely be able to remain a virgin and wait for eighteen years..."
Shen Yuanwei's shadow was reflected in his dark eyes.
"Miss Yuan Wei, I am taking you by force now. Isn't this just a trick of fate? I was born when you were not yet born, and now you are born and I am old. If time could be reversed, I could also meet you at the age of 18. If I could have a child with you at that time, then I would treat you and your child as treasures, and I would never take in so many concubines again."
"I have always just wanted to have a child to inherit my kingdom..."
Shen Yuanwei silently looked at the emperor who was so weak but still explaining to her.
She didn't want to be brainwashed or deceived by this man, but she did feel some pity for him.
If this man were alive in modern times, he would go to the hospital and get tested directly to find out that he has asthenospermia or even necrospermia, and it would be impossible for him to make a woman pregnant.
With such a result, he might have already accepted his fate.
But in this era, there were no such good medical equipment. The imperial doctors only knew that he had no problem with sex, but they could not diagnose that he had weak sperm or dead sperm. Naturally, no one dared to say that he could not have children. The imperial doctors could only keep dragging him and let him take medicine to try...
Really, it’s not the doctors’ fault at all.
Shen Yuanwei looked at Xie Junlin with pity.
"Why is the emperor telling me all this? I sympathize with the emperor's experience, but no matter what the emperor's difficulties are, no matter what kind of mood the emperor is in to favor the concubine, your body has favored more than a hundred concubines, and this is always a fact."
She shook her head and said, "Your Majesty wants me to not feel disgusted and to like you, but it is impossible for me to do that, just like Your Majesty, you cannot like the prostitutes who come and go in the brothel without any scruples. It is the same principle."
Xie Junlin opened up his heart and told Shen Yuanwei about his past. He didn't expect that Shen Yuanwei would pity him while hurting his heart so much.
He is the emperor, and after comparing him with a wretched country man, now you compare him with a prostitute in a brothel, right?
He stared at Shen Yuanwei quietly, his thin lips slightly parted.
Shen Yuanwei glanced at him and spoke before he could.
"I don't mean to humiliate you. You have been welcoming and sending off women in the harem all these years in order to have a child. The girls in the brothel are welcoming and sending off men to make a living. They are accepting customers in order to survive. You have your own difficulties, but their difficulties are more noble than yours—"
Xie Junlin closed his eyes silently.
He said weakly, "I don't want to tell you, you will piss me off to death."
Shen Yuanwei thought to herself, it doesn’t matter if you don’t want to talk to me, I would be happier if you just kicked me out of the palace.
She looked down at Xie Junlin's hand that was holding her arm, and tried to pry him away.
"I don't want to talk anymore. You don't have to clench your hands so tightly, right? I've tried to break your fist several times, Your Majesty. Please let go and I'll call the doctor in."
“…”
Xie Junlin half opened his eyes and glanced at her.
Shen Yuanwei was the first one who, instead of trying to coax him when she made him angry, wanted to pry him apart and kick him further away.
He needs a doctor to come in and see him.
He felt like he was going to die.
I have no strength in my whole body, my heart is depressed, and my head is aching.
As he released Shen Yuanwei's hand, he said, "Although you are almost pissing me off, I still want to tell you that my past cannot be changed, but I can promise you that after you fulfill the contract and follow me, I will not favor anyone else. You like cleanliness, so I will be a clean person for you from now on."
When Shen Yuanwei saw him let go of her hand, she quickly withdrew her arm.
When Shen Yuanwei heard him say that he wanted to fulfill the contract and divorce, her face looked even uglier than his.
Shen Yuanwei thought, you have already drunk arsenic, you will be powerless to favor the concubines in the future, and you have to be a clean person for me from now on. It is not certain how long you can live. If you die of the poison and lie in the coffin, then you can be clean for the rest of your life...
Although Xie Junlin let go of his hand, his eyes were still on Shen Yuanwei.
Seeing Shen Yuanwei's ugly expression, he felt so angry that his heart ached.
You're hoping he'll die, right?
Xiao Lingzhao just didn't eat for a long time, but the girl was so distressed. He was vomiting blood and looked like he was going to die, but the girl actually thought he was too tough and didn't die fast enough...
Oh!
Shen Yuanwei ignored the emperor whose face was as pale as if it was about to break. She stood up and shouted to the person outside the door -
"Imperial Physician! The Emperor has woken up!"
"Empress, please come in and see your husband of eighteen years. He has woken up for you!"
"And all the ladies in the palace, please stop crying. The emperor really can't bear to leave you. He couldn't bear to see you kneeling outside crying. He woke up for you!"
“…”
Xie Junlin suddenly opened his eyes wide and looked at Shen Yuanwei who was shouting loudly, his face turned ashen.
Shen Yuanwei!
He said here that he would remain a virgin for Shen Yuanwei from now on, but Shen Yuanwei was there excitedly calling all his concubines, insisting that he had a deep love for those concubines!
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