Chapter 40 40 “If I didn’t like you, why would I still be here with you…
The small space he enclosed was almost filled with his warm and strong breath, and the deafening sound of his heartbeat was blasting the eardrums.
He looks so bad.
Her heart was pounding and tingling, and Chen Zhan felt like she would melt in his eyes in the next second. Her eyelashes fluttered, her breath held slightly, and her throat felt like it was being pinched, unable to utter a single word.
But this man chose not to see her panic and nervousness at the moment, and continued to tease her with a sly smile, "How about we discuss this again?"
“…What are you discussing?”
"Change positions." His words were blunt and naked. His deep, low voice slowly piqued Chen Zan's nerves. "I'm baiting you, and you're taking it?"
“…”
In the end, Chen Zan ran away with a red face.
He Jingsui's hands were still supporting the wall, and he curled the corners of his lips in satisfaction as he watched her disappear in a flash.
With a low laugh, he murmured three words, "Coward."
He shook his head with a helpless sigh, but the doting look on his lips still remained.
It's really boring, just tease him and then run away.
Chen Zan ran out of the building that had put her in dire straits in one breath. She pressed her chest tightly and could still feel the strong heartbeat hidden under her skin.
She snatched the doll back from He Jingsui's hands. Although it was very small, it became her embarrassing "stolen goods" in front of He Jingsui.
She pinched the doll's belly hard in anger.
Her voice sounded clear and sweet.
"He Jingsui, I like you."
So shy, so sweet.
“…”
But the scene of He Jingsui confronting her like that appeared in her mind, and the blush that had just faded away came back again. Chen Zan closed her eyes with a headache and decisively stuffed the doll into her bag.
She planned to lock it in the drawer after returning to the dormitory!
Don’t see you for this period of time!!!
"Buzz buzz buzz——" the phone suddenly vibrated.
Chen Zan reluctantly reached into her bag again, took out her cell phone, and answered He Shiyi's call.
"Zhanzhan, where are you?"
"I'm outside." Chen Zhan took a deep breath and tried his best to keep his voice steady.
"Is my brother with you?" He Shiyi's voice was sweet and cheerful.
Chen Zhan didn't realize how subtle the tone was. Her mind was still a little confused, so she only answered roughly, "No."
Thinking back to when she asked He Jingsui before, and He Jingsui told her that he was here to look for He Shiyi, she cleared her mind for a few seconds and said to He Shiyi, "Your brother...should be here to look for you soon."
This made He Shiyi confused, "Why does he want to see me?"
"Tell me...something's going on."
"He must have lied to you," He Shiyi, who knew He Jingsui very well, said to Chen Zan, "He Jingsui never came to me when he had something to do."
“…”
She complained fiercely on the phone, "He is so lazy. Either ask Jiang Qiannan to find me or ask me to let me find him."
“…”
But he just clearly...
She suddenly thought of something and her cheeks flushed.
After just two seconds of waking up, Chen Zan felt his head was in a mess again.
Unable to utter any other words, she suddenly felt a little tired.
After hanging up the phone with He Shiyi, she sat outside for a long time until night fell and the street lights on the Academy of Fine Arts campus were lit up, then she returned to the dormitory.
The three people in the dormitory didn't let her go either.
As soon as Chen Zan returned to the dormitory, he was blocked by three bodies and forced to sit on a bench.
“…”
"Zhanzhan, tell me the truth, how far has it progressed?!" Ji Miaomiao put her hands on her hips, and squeezed her face into a serious expression.
Tao Yiran followed, "You're still hiding this from us! Humph!"
"Is he pursuing you or are you pursuing him?" There was a desire for an answer in He Shiyi's eyes.
“…”
Their questions came like waves hitting Chen Zan's forehead. At that moment when she was dizzy, He Shiyi couldn't wait to move a bench over and sit next to her, grabbing her arm and shaking it.
"Zhanzhan, when did you start dating my brother? How come I don't know anything?! You two are hiding it from me???"
“…”
It all became a mess.
Chen Zan brushed her hand away, his thoughts in a mess.
I don't know where they knew this from.
Chen Zhan said in a monotonous voice, "I'm not with your brother..."
"When Meng Gaoyuan confessed his love to you, didn't He Jingsui come over and pull you away?" Tao Yiran heard this from a classmate in the crowd.
"Could it be that he is interested in you?"
“…”
Chen Zan recalled the evening in the studio when He Jingsui approached her gently yet forcefully. Even if she just recalled it, his breath, his temperature, and his aura seemed to still be able to get close to her heart as before.
My face is too hot.
I felt so embarrassed because of the trouble they caused me.
Chen Zan pushed them aside and rushed into the bathroom. The door closed with a "click", and the sound startled the three people present.
Ji Miaomiao was the first to react. She winked at Tao Yiran and He Shiyi, pointed in the direction of the bathroom, and silently said to them, "She's shy."
Chen Zan didn't sleep the whole night. Lying in bed in the middle of the night, she could always automatically recall those scenes that made her heart beat.
Or maybe it was the appearance of He Jingsui when Meng Gaoyuan was harassing him outside the dormitory, or maybe it was the secret that he had hidden for many years in the studio that was clearly heard by him.
Chen Zan closed his eyes with a headache and sighed heavily.
Suddenly the cell phone buzzed.
Chen Zan turned over and took it, his eyes paused, and He Shiyi's message was horizontally displayed in the message column.
[He Shiyi: Zhanzhan, do you like my brother? ]
This matter can be hidden from others, but not from He Shiyi. She admitted, [Chen Zhan: Shiyi, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hide it from you.]
He Shiyi: Why are you saying sorry to me? Liking someone is such a common thing. Even if that person is my brother, it's unavoidable.
Her words were so warm that Chen Zan felt warm inside.
Chen Zhan: Thank you, Shi Yi.
He Shiyi: We're friends, why are you being so polite to me?! (P.S.: Maybe one day in the future we'll be like my cousin's wife and sister, hehehe)
The heartbeat that had just calmed down started beating again.
She felt a little secretly happy in her heart. The faint light from the mobile phone screen filled the small space, and Chen Zan's eyebrows and eyes were curved.
The phone in my hand vibrated again, "buzzing"
Chen Zan's eyelashes trembled as he saw clearly the messages that He Shiyi continued to send.
[He Shiyi: Zhanzhan, when did you start to like He Jingsui? ]
【Chen Zhan: In the past.】
He Shiyi guessed based on these two words, [He Shiyi: Freshman military training?]
After all, as far as He Shiyi knew, the freshman military training was the first time they met.
Chen Zhan laughed softly and told her the secret in his heart. [Chen Zhan: A long time ago.]
That night, Chen Zan revealed her secret of love to others for the first time. She told He Shiyi how depressed and uncomfortable she was in adolescence in high school. She faced a strict mother, teachers with high expectations of her, and envious classmates every day. She was very tired every day. She wanted to stop and rest, but her mother only criticized her, her teachers only worried her, and even her classmates were indifferent.
But in such a poor and difficult life, she also found the light that could illuminate her way forward. She followed that figure for many years. Following his footsteps, she didn't seem to feel tired. Following his footsteps, the only sound in her ears was the sound of the wind blowing past her ears as she ran forward.
That light taught her to discard distractions, to be herself, to fight against fate, and to charge forward into the future.
She remembers it all.
Remember everything about him in my memories.
She couldn't sleep the whole night and went to bed almost at dawn. Fortunately, the next day was the weekend and she didn't have to go to class, so Chen Zan stayed in bed until eleven o'clock.
"Swish——" She raised her hand and pulled open the curtain.
Then she met two pairs of eyes that were staring at her eagerly.
“…”
“Swish——”
Under their eager gazes, Chen Zhan pulled the curtain back.
“…”
Ji Miaomiao and Tao Yiran didn't get to eat the hot melon, and they felt like a cat's claws were scratching their hearts. One of them grabbed one of Chen Zan's arms and shook it coquettishly.
"Zhanzhan——"
"Zhanzhan——"
"My good Lantern—"
“…”
"Does He Jingsui like you——"
“…”
Chen Zan closed his eyes due to a headache. He couldn't stand their slow torture any more. He felt like he was saying to himself, "I don't know if he likes me or not."
She hadn't formally confessed her feelings, and he hadn't formally accepted them. All they had seemed to be was a moment of "absurdity" in that corner of the studio at dusk. She didn't know what that meant.
"What about you?" Tao Yiran asked anxiously, "Do you like him?"
like.
It seems that no matter how much time has passed, I still like it very much.
"If you like him, go after him!"
Chen Zan turned his head to look at them, surprise in his eyes.
Perhaps understanding the emotion in Chen Zhan's eyes, Tao Yiran smiled, patted her shoulder, and said, "There are so many people in this world. It's already very hard to have someone you like. We should cherish it."
She suddenly felt her heart aching, yet warm.
Ji Miaomiao even shook her fist to cheer her up, and said with a smile: "Zhanzhan, we will all stand behind you."
The unconditional support from the other three people in the dormitory gave Chen Zhan confidence and courage, and he felt at ease, a feeling Chen Zhan had never experienced before.
She couldn't express her gratitude to them in words.
With the support of friends behind him, it was like leaning on a mountain. Chen Zan planned to go to the Physical Education University to find He Jingsui and make things clear, to explain that evening and his four-year secret love for him.
Before leaving, she did not send any message to He Jingsui, relying solely on the courage and passion in her heart.
But when she reached the gate of the Sports University, that little bit of courage seemed to be about to be blown away by the hot wind. She hadn't seen the person yet, and hadn't spoken a word yet, but her heart was already pounding.
Her tightly pursed lips revealed her nervousness and inability to calm down at the moment. Chen Zhan closed her eyes, and the deafening sound of her heartbeat almost pierced her eardrums.
His drooping hands clenched into fists and then unclenched, leaving a hot, wet sweat on his palms.
Chen Zan gritted his teeth and walked inside.
After walking a short distance, Chen Zhan was stopped by Meng Gaoyuan who suddenly appeared. There were two or three people following Meng Gaoyuan, who must be his friends.
He was probably a little surprised to see Chen Zhan at the Sports University, with a subtle surprise in his eyes. "Why are you here?"
He thought she was looking for him, and the smile in her eyes spread out little by little.
"I'm not here to see you."
Chen Zhan's words froze the smile in his eyes.
She didn't intend to waste more time with him there, so she smiled at him politely and distantly, "Nothing, I'll leave first..."
She didn't look at him when she said this, and walked around him after she finished speaking.
"Are you going to look for He Jingsui?"
He hadn't walked far when he stopped.
Meng Gaoyuan continued behind her, "It turns out you're no different from those girls."
"This doesn't seem to have anything to do with you." Chen Zan turned around and looked at him as if he were an insignificant stranger.
But Meng Gaoyuan didn't give up. He shoved his hands lazily into his pockets, tilted his head and smiled at him, "Do you understand him? Do you know what kind of person he is? Have you ever considered that he might not be what you think he is?"
"And then?" Chen Zhan didn't feel any doubt in his questions. She looked at him quietly and confronted him. "What do you mean by this? Are you trying to use questions to make me have a bad impression of him and stay away from him so that I will accept you?"
Chen Zhan's words were full of wisdom, piercing Meng Gaoyuan's inner thoughts. He hadn't expected her to be so sharp-tongued, and his lips froze for a moment.
Her expression was as calm as usual, but her words seemed to be filled with poison. "Don't dream. I don't have any feelings for you. I'm not even interested in being friends."
"So you really like He Jingsui?" Meng Gaoyuan's tight smile was shattered by Chen Zan's "knife". He gritted his teeth, a look of madness and despair in his eyes, "What's so good about him?"
Chen Zhan told him, "He's good in every way."
She didn't know why he hated He Jingsui so much, but she told him, "Everything is fine as long as he is with me."
"Please don't bother me anymore."
Chen Zhan really had no desire to continue talking to him, so he turned around and was about to leave, but the next second, an arm suddenly came around his shoulder.
The moment the familiar breath entered her nose, Chen Zhan subconsciously turned her head and saw someone who had appeared beside her at some point in time.
He was wearing a loose black sports vest and had one hand lazily shoved in his pocket.
Sensing her gaze, He Jing turned his head and saw the surprise in her eyes. He pulled his lips and chuckled softly.
He held her shoulders affectionately and pulled her into his arms, standing there in front of Meng Gaoyuan and even all the curious eyes that were cast in their direction.
"Meng Gaoyuan, do you really enjoy stealing my people?" He would even stare at him and taunt him sometimes, "You steal everything I have. Ever since freshman year, you've been secretly targeting me. What's the matter? You can't steal my ranking, so now you're stealing my people?"
This nonchalant voice reached the ears of everyone who passed by and stopped to watch the show. Meng Gaoyuan suddenly felt embarrassed and his fingers clenched into fists uncontrollably.
He Jingsui ignored his anger, twitched his lips, scoffed lightly, and said coldly, "Let go as soon as possible, you can't snatch me away."
"You're not qualified."
“…”
After saying this, He Jingsui didn't even bother to look at him. He let go of Chen Zan's shoulders, reached down to hold her hand, and then pulled her away.
Chen Zan was completely dazed as he was led away by him. His hands were very broad, but his palms were very cold.
Chen Zhan even felt like a puppet, without thoughts or soul. All he had was the warm residual heat deep in his heart that He Jingsui had brought in. When the wind blew, the residual heat turned into fire.
He Jingsui only let go of her hand when they reached a section of the road where there were not many students passing by.
He turned around and looked at her who had been in a trance.
She had a fair face, pink lips, a delicate and upturned nose, and a pair of bright and clear eyes under her long eyelashes. She was obviously not the kind of person who was very good-looking, but when he heard her clear voice confronting Meng Gaoyuan behind her just now, he could imagine her face in his mind.
Quiet, indifferent, yet full of power.
Don't lose to anyone.
She said he was good in every way to her.
The sweet confession voice mixed with electricity seemed to appear in my ears again.
He Jing relaxed his brows and chuckled softly.
Suddenly there is some aftertaste.
This brought Chen Zan back to his senses, his eyelashes trembling as he met his lazy gaze.
His heart skipped a beat and subconsciously, Chen Zan took a half step back.
This movement was small, but He Jingsui saw it all. There was a hint of amusement in his dark eyes. He was still as relaxed as before, laughing and teasing her, "Chen Zhan, how can you be like this?"
Chen Zan was puzzled. With the sun shining on her face, she squinted her eyes and looked at him.
"I was speaking up for you just now," He Jingsui raised his chin to measure the distance between them, "What about you?"
Chen Zan's face turned red as he stood in front of him, not seeming to know what to do with his hands and feet.
"Thank...thank you."
Not interested in hearing her thanks, He Jingsui asked her directly, "Are you here to find me?"
Chen Zan nodded.
"What do you want from me?"
This problem is like a guillotine, hanging over our heads, about to fall.
Chen Zhan suddenly became nervous. She pursed her lips and prepared herself mentally before speaking, "I came here to tell you about what happened in the studio that day."
He Jingsui raised his eyebrows slightly, as if he was waiting for her to say this. He curled his lips without any surprise and said, "Oh, you said it."
Chen Zan lowered her eyes and did not see the smile on He Jingsui's lips. She could only identify his current mood through his voice.
It seems quite cold.
Is it because you think that matter should not be mentioned by her again?
Chen Zan was a little confused. She could even see the outcome after she confessed her feelings to him.
She felt a little uncomfortable.
"sorry……"
I didn't expect her to apologize.
He Jing then asked, "What's the point of saying sorry?"
"I didn't mean to say that. It must have caused you a lot of trouble these days. I will definitely control myself and won't say anything nonsense again."
He Jingsui took in her apologetic expression, but he didn't expect that the words "I'm sorry" would be followed by this kind of response.
"So, how do you say you like me?"
Chen Zan's heart trembled, and she looked up at him.
Seeing that evil smile in his eyes.
He Jing then leaned in closer, until his noses were almost touching, "Are you trying to shirk your responsibility?"
The deep voice made Chen Zan's whole body numb. She shook her head almost reflexively, "No..."
"So what are you going to do?"
Chen Zhan didn't think about this question, "I don't know..."
“…”
He Jingsui was so angry at her harsh words that he laughed. He stood up and continued to induce, "Look, that Meng Gaoyuan has been pestering you for so long and hasn't let you go. If you don't give him some strong medicine, he won't give up."
As he spoke, he observed the emotions on the girl's face. She pursed her lips to reveal a hint of loss and helplessness.
Wooden fish head.
He Jingsui couldn't bear it any longer, so he grabbed her arm and pulled her into his arms.
The distance was forced to shorten again in an instant, and Chen Zan was startled. She raised her helpless and panicked eyes and met the determination in He Jingsui's eyes.
He directly pierced the paper and said, "Since you like me, why don't you ask me for a relationship? I've waited for you for so long, but all I got was an apology."
Because she didn't dare to guess what he was thinking.
She couldn't guess for sure, and she wasn't qualified.
Liking you is my own business, and has nothing to do with whether you like me or not.
But Chen Zhan still wanted to ask: "Then do you... like me?"
So this is where the problem lies.
He Jingsui smiled, "Why do you make yourself so humble? Huh?"
He put his large palm around her waist, and pressing his palm against her waist, the girl's thin body leaned into his arms.
His voice floated in her ears, "If I don't like you, why would I waste time with you here?"
Her heart was beating too fast, and Chen Zan instinctively buried her hot face in He Jingsui's arms. She closed her eyes and felt the hot love spreading rapidly in her heart.
This is almost killing me.
While she was still wondering how could he be such a person, setting off a passionate fireworks display in her heart without her permission, He Jingsui had already held her face in his arms with both hands.
In this grand summer, they looked at each other, and those silent loves were entangled hysterically.
The cool palm touched her burning cheek. He Jing rolled his Adam's apple and said to her, "Listen carefully. I will only say this once."
"I like you, too."
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The author has something to say: He Jingsui: I fished for half a day and I got so angry that I laughed. Forget it, I'll do it myself.
Zhe: Sui, you are a real dog.
(ps: Now we are really going to start dating!!!)
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