She went back into the room, closed the door, leaned against it silently, and slowly slid down.
The voice from before kept ringing in my ears: She had been seen by other men, she was no longer clean, she had put a hat on Captain Zhang. Oh, maybe she had deliberately seduced Captain Hu, she was a fickle woman, Captain Zhang was really blind...
"No, stop it, stop it. I beg you to stop it, I don't want this to happen either."
What should she do? She held her head helplessly, wanting to die.
If I die, I won't hear those gossips anymore. If I die, I won't have to face other people's strange looks. If I die, I won't have to worry about the pain brought by this incident. If I die, I won't have to bring shame to Zhang Jianjun.
After a while, she walked into the kitchen in a daze and saw the kitchen knife hanging on the wall. She picked it up, placed the blade on her wrist and pressed down hard.
However, the moment she felt the pain, she suddenly woke up.
No, she can't die.
She knew that Zhang Jianjun loved her and he didn't care about her past. If she died, she would definitely be very sad.
She still had her mother, her older brothers, and her sister-in-law. She had promised her sister-in-law that she would take care of her children. She was her mother's only daughter, and she had to take care of her until the end of her life. She couldn't just die like this.
But the same filthy voice kept coming to her ears: she had been seen by other men, she was not clean, she was not a decent woman.
Shouldn't an unruly woman be thrown into a pig cage? Is she still cooperating in this world?
It feels so uncomfortable and painful. I want to be relieved immediately.
In another world, there is no Hu Xingbang, no these people, and certainly no rumors.
But her relatives and lover are also missing.
Those who are clean will be clean by themselves.
She was also a victim at the time and had no choice. Since she had already been victimized once, why should she punish herself again?
She must be strong and brave. Rumors cannot defeat her, nor can they kill her.
She finally plucked up the courage to tell the truth. Rumors can hurt people, and it all depends on how the person involved views the rumors. If she can face the rumors without fear, and Zhang Jianjun can face them with her, then what are they afraid of?
It was just a casual remark from others, but she paid the price with her life. Her life had little impact on others, but after her death, those who talked about her just had one more topic of conversation.
She died because of others, but others can still live a normal life. She is just a wisp of smoke passing by in front of others. Others don’t care about her that much, so why should she care so much about what others think of her?
She put down the kitchen knife, stood up, and walked out of the kitchen. She was going to find Zhang Jianjun. As long as Zhang Jianjun didn't mind others knowing about this, she wouldn't be afraid.
If Zhang Jianjun found out and was afraid of being embarrassed, and thus despised her, she could divorce him and go back to Qingpingwan Brigade.
In addition, she also had to stop Zhang Jianjun. Last time, Zhang Jianjun beat Hu Xingbang because of this incident and was punished. This time, she could not let Zhang Jianjun make a mistake again.
She tidied her clothes, but the moment she opened the door, her heart tightened again, afraid that she would meet someone.
Take a deep breath.
Thinking of the words that comforted herself just now, those people treated her as a passing cloud, and she could also treat those people as air, so she walked out with confidence.
There was no one else in the corridor, so she didn't feel so restrained.
When I walked out of the unit door and got outside, I saw two women talking not far from the door.
She couldn't hear what they were saying, and at first she didn't pay much attention to it. But after she took two steps, she noticed that one of the women looked at her, and she thought they were talking about her.
Just now she thought she had successfully prepared herself mentally, but at this moment she became cowardly again.
She saw their mouths opening and closing, and recalled the way the woman looked at her just now.
They seemed to be saying: Look, she is that dishonest and unclean woman. She was seen naked before she even got married. No one knows whether the two of them did that thing. Alas, she has no shame.
Suddenly!
She felt as if she had taken off all her clothes and was naked in front of them.
Fear, shame, helplessness, fear.
She instinctively wanted to shrink back and retreat into her little room.
But she can't be afraid, she still has very important things to do, she must have the courage to face this matter, and can't back down because of it.
She just didn't want to listen. She would go find Zhang Jianjun. As long as Zhang Jianjun didn't care, these people's opinions didn't matter at all.
She walked forward a little further and this time saw a group of five or six military wives discussing something. Each of them had a look of gloating and contempt on their faces. Two of the women also looked at her with cold eyes, without a trace of kindness.
They, they should also be talking about themselves.
Jiang Ting thought so.
Her hands and feet suddenly began to tremble, and her whole body felt cold.
Where are her clothes?
She hugged her arms tightly against her chest and touched her pants again. They were still there, but also seemed to be gone. She instinctively squatted down to protect her privacy.
"No, my clothes are all on. I'm not naked."
She couldn't deny that she was fragile and not strong at all.
Suddenly someone patted her and said, "Jianjun's wife, what's wrong with you?"
When she looked up, she saw that it was the aunt from her next-door neighbor.
The old lady had a kind face and seemed to have no ill will towards her. She spoke to her in a gentle tone, and her guard was immediately lowered. The haze in her heart seemed to be dispelled by the old lady's smile.
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