Chapter 40: Exploding Inferiority Complex
Seeing my reaction, Shen Yixiao was a little unhappy, “What’s wrong, you don’t want to?”
"Can you accept that it's not your own child?" I asked solemnly.
And once they adopted the child, it would be even more troublesome if he and Lu Xiaoyun got pregnant again.
Shen Yixiao raised the corner of his lips, "We can just adopt a newborn baby and raise it from infancy, just like our own child. Isn't it said that the grace of raising is greater than the grace of giving birth? Although blood ties are important, the feelings of raising a child bit by bit are more important."
He said very sincerely, "I don't want to see you so depressed and upset because of the child. Besides, if we have a child, it will be more stable and we will be a complete family."
A complete family... I feel so sad in my heart because this complete family will never appear.
I took a deep breath and replied, "Wait a little longer. I still want to have a child of my own. After I finish taking the medicine to regulate my body, I will stop taking the antidepressant and try going abroad."
There was a flash of struggle in Shen Yixiao's eyes. He looked at me for a long time without moving.
Finally, he compromised and responded to me gently, "Okay, I'll do as you say."
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Lu Xiaoyun was going to have a short confinement period, so Shen Yixiao approved a month's leave for her to recuperate.
The class reunion initiated by Shen Yixiao was scheduled to be held at the end of this month at the Lin'an Hotel. All those who attended the reunion could have their travel and accommodation expenses reimbursed by him, which showed how much he valued this reunion.
Wei Lai pulled me back into the group. As time went by, the chats in the group became more and more heated. From time to time, someone would bring up some interesting things from their school days, and everyone would feel emotional.
I could hardly speak, just watched them chatting animatedly.
Suddenly someone mentioned Xu Zhengnan: Is it still true that no one can contact Xu Zhengnan? He's not coming to attend?
Wei Lai: The last time I contacted him was several years ago. He must have changed his number and WeChat, so I can’t contact him anymore.
Su Ying: It is still our beautiful Li Yue who has to take action. She must have contact with Xu Zhengnan, but her current identity is not very convenient. Mr. Shen, please don’t mind. If you mind, she would not dare to contact Xu Zhengnan.
Fang Qiongfei: You’d better stop talking nonsense.
Su Ying: I'm not talking nonsense. Forget it, if you don't believe me, forget it.
Others skipped this topic, fearing that Shen Yixiao and I would feel uncomfortable if we saw it, but a few minutes later, Shen Yixiao actually sent a message in the group: Whoever can contact Xu Zhengnan and have him attend the class reunion will be rewarded with 50,000.
What’s the difference between this and a reward for a missing person notice?
The people in the group became active again. Since Shen Yixiao said so, why not refuse the 50,000 yuan?
At this time, Shen Yixiao was sitting next to me, holding my hand tightly. I saw what he posted in the group and asked unhappily, "Why do you insist on Xu Zhengnan coming to the class reunion? Does it matter whether he is there or not?"
"Are you afraid of seeing him?" Shen Yixiao let go of my hand, his eyes full of inquiry.
"I just think you don't need to say that in the group. Whether Xu Zhengnan comes or not has no impact on us." I really disliked his behavior.
Shen Yixiao's face turned gloomy, "How could it have no effect? Weren't you and him childhood sweethearts?"
"That happened before you and I were together. So many years have passed, you don't have to take it to heart. We're already married, isn't that enough?" My attitude also became a little excited.
"Not enough!" Shen Yixiao answered me bluntly, "The reason why you were laughed at in the past was because they thought you didn't choose Xu Zhengnan. He has a better family background than me, better grades than me, and you have known each other longer than I have. It seems that I have been stepped on by him in every aspect. It was you who made me win once, but it was not a complete victory. I want him to see that you made the right choice by choosing me!"
Looking at his expression that had become a little crazy because of inferiority and jealousy, I couldn't understand, "Chen Yixiao, those were all things that happened when we were students. We were naive and childish back then, and many things were very immature. Why do you still care about things from that time? When will the inferiority in your heart completely disappear?!"
My questioning touched Shen Yixiao's sore spot. He became irritable, his eyes filled with anger. After grabbing my wrist forcefully, he stared at me with a terrifying look, "You always think I'm inferior, right?"
I struggled hard for a while, and finally gave up, "Isn't it?"
During the most difficult times, we didn't have enough to eat or wear, not to mention that I wanted to continue my hobby of painting. As long as I showed a little envy of other girls, Shen Yixiao would become silent and irritable, and became a little impatient with me.
So in order to take care of his self-esteem, I later learned to conceal my emotions and not reveal any material desires in front of him.
"So you still regret it. You don't want Xu Zhengnan to go because you don't want him to see me and you together, right?" Shen Yixiao's anger grew, and he shook my hand away. "Then this class reunion is just an opportunity, you can be with Xu Zhengnan!"
After saying that, he took his coat and left the house without looking back.
I followed him out, only to see Shen Yixiao driving out like an arrow and disappearing without a trace.
I didn't drive after him, but went straight home to drink a large glass of water to calm my anger.
Shen Yixiao would definitely not come back tonight. I didn’t plan to wait for him. After taking a shower, I changed into pajamas and prepared to go to bed. Then Su Ying called.
I answered the phone and heard her crying, "Yueyue, help me, someone is trying to kill me!"
"What killed you? Where were you?" I asked.
"I'm here at the Jiajing Art Museum. I...I...come here quickly. This matter is related to you as well. Come here quickly!" Su Ying stuttered and couldn't speak clearly. She just urged me to come over and said it was related to me.
I don't know whether what she said was true or not, but her nervousness and fear didn't seem fake. After I hung up the phone, I quickly changed my clothes and rushed to Jiajing Art Museum.
When I arrived at the art gallery, I called Su Ying and asked, "Where are you?"
"I'm on the second floor, come quickly, you can see it as soon as you come up, come quickly!" Su Ying was still crying.
I walked to the second floor, and as soon as I got there I saw a man who was probably in his 40s or 50s. He stared at me and asked, "Are you Su Ying's friend?"
"Yes, where is she?" I looked at him warily.
"Come with me." The man turned and left, and I followed him at a distance.
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