Chapter 77 Do You Like Me?
As soon as the call was connected, I greeted him first, "Xu Zhengnan, what's the matter with you calling me? I didn't have my phone with me just now."
Xu Zhengnan's voice was very cold and hard, and he seemed to be in a bad mood. "I'm on the cloud, come here."
On the cloud? When I heard that place, I thought carefully about where it was. It felt very familiar, but I couldn't remember it.
He seemed to sense what I was thinking and reminded me, "Next to No. 1 Middle School."
After his reminder, I immediately remembered that when I was in high school, there was a pottery and clay sculpture shop near the school. It was very popular among students. I went there several times and made a few small clay sculptures there and painted them.
Originally, Shen Yixiao and I were planning to make our clay dolls there, but neither of us wanted to run into classmates or teachers we knew, so we gave up.
I checked the time and agreed, "Okay."
When I went out, I disguised myself for fear of being recognized. At that moment, I didn't want to face the people watching the show.
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When I arrived at "Yunshang", there were almost no people in the store, only the proprietress was playing with her mobile phone.
Xu Zhengnan was sitting at a table, holding a white pottery model in his hand, seemingly looking at it very seriously. Under the light, his thick, fluffy black hair seemed to be flickering with fragmented light. On his face shrouded in shadow, his tall nose broke through the shadow and was also covered with a faint light.
The gray hooded sweatshirt makes him look thinner and more youthful.
The proprietress saw me and introduced me to the prices in the store. I nodded at her and walked straight towards Xu Zhengnan.
When Xu Zhengnan noticed me coming, he looked up but didn't say anything, and his face looked a little gloomy.
"What's the matter with you calling me here?" I sat opposite him and spoke softly.
"Is it true or false that the news says you are infertile?" he asked straight to the point, as if he had come to me specifically for this matter.
I avoided his gaze somewhat guiltily and said, "Yes, it's true."
As soon as I finished speaking, I felt a chill emanating from Xu Zhengnan. He stared at me closely with a complicated look in his eyes. "What caused this? Did Shen Yixiao know about this before?"
If I tell him that I got sick because I was trying to protect Shen Yixiao, I'm afraid he will be even more disappointed in me. I don't dare to face his scrutiny.
Su Ying revealed that I am infertile, and I will most likely not tell anyone the reason, otherwise I will become a love-struck woman in the eyes of others.
She doesn't like others to praise me like that.
"He has always known about it and has been accompanying me during my treatment. Don't worry, you don't have to worry about me." I answered, avoiding the question.
Then I remembered something and quickly asked, "Did my parents see it too?"
The last thing I want them to see is bad news about me. Even though they have long since disowned me as their daughter, they probably won’t pay attention to my affairs and don’t care whether I live or die.
I just feel guilty.
"What do you think?" Xu Zhengnan tightened his grip on the model. "Li Yue, have you never regretted anything in these years? You are not as happy as the media writes. Shen Yixiao always says that he will take good care of you and not let you suffer any grievances. Has he done it?"
We had only met a few times since he returned to his country, but he saw so accurately my true feelings.
I was surprised and embarrassed. Sometimes I am a person who cares too much about my reputation and I don't want my former friends and family to see that I am not doing well now.
"Are you worried about me?" I changed the subject again, afraid that if I continued I would tell him everything.
Xu Zhengnan snorted coldly and replied somewhat unhappily, "Haha, you think too much. My mother asked me to come to you."
Well, I couldn't help but feel a hint of disappointment flash through my mind.
I picked up a small sculpture and started painting it with the paint pen next to it. Xu Zhengnan was very patient and waited for my reaction.
Halfway through applying the makeup, I suddenly mustered up the courage, looked straight at Xu Zhengnan, and asked, "Last time you said that we can't be friends anymore, is that true?"
Xu Zhengnan didn't expect me to ask this question again. He probed my eyes, and gradually, his expression became indifferent. He looked at me without hesitation, "Well, we can't be friends anymore."
In that case, I have made another preparation.
I plan to settle abroad after leaving Shen Yixiao, but if I can find a reason to stay in the country, then I will stay.
For example, my parents forgave me, and Xu Zhengnan was willing to give me a chance to repair our relationship.
If there is no hope for either of these two things, I might as well give up the idea completely.
I stood up, my eyes cold, "If that's the case, why did you contact me? Even if Aunt Yang asked you to contact me, you could have refused. Besides, she has my contact information."
"Xu Zhengnan, I never regret the decisions I've made. Shen Yixiao and I are now public figures, and there are all kinds of rumors, some true and some false. What right do you have to say that I'm not doing well? Do you like me in your heart? Do you care so much?"
I knew that my words would definitely push Xu Zhengnan further away. When I was his follower before, he never admitted that he liked me. It was all wishful thinking on my part.
Now that I'm married, saying this bullshit will only earn him greater contempt and disgust.
Sure enough, as soon as I finished speaking, Xu Zhengnan's eyes suddenly darkened. He looked at me without a trace of curve at the corners of his lips, revealing a sense of indifference.
"Like you?" He also stood up, and his height instantly became taller than mine, with an oppressive feeling, "The little friendship between us growing up together disappeared when you were stupid enough to drop out of school with Shen Yixiao and cut off ties with your family, let alone love."
I was prepared for these words, but they still hurt.
I was already feeling down and uncomfortable, and I started to talk nonsense to vent my grievances, "Before Shen Yixiao and I were together, I chased after you every day, and everyone said that I liked you. I don't believe you couldn't see it. If you had responded to me earlier, maybe Shen Yixiao and I wouldn't be together!"
This thought occasionally pops up in my mind.
When people are extremely regretful and powerless, they will keep thinking about the past, making assumptions about themselves, and trying to shift the blame to others to make themselves feel better.
It's shameless, but human nature is inherently selfish.
Xu Zhengnan's expression suddenly froze, as if he was shocked by what I said. Then he opened his lips, still rational and cold, "Everyone should be responsible for their own choices."
Yes, I have taken responsibility for my own choices. I don’t want to fantasize about returning to my parents one day and becoming Xu Zhengnan’s most important friend again.
Cut off all your retreat routes and just wait for the day to leave. There is no need to hesitate before leaving.
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