Chapter 125 I will explain it to him clearly...
When Shan came looking for him, Zhi Shou was hurriedly packing his things, his face as red as if he were drunk.
She fell ill, and after drinking a bowl of medicine, she slept for more than ten hours.
As soon as he woke up, he said he wanted to leave.
Upon receiving the news, Madam Mu dropped everything she was doing, rushed over, grabbed her eldest daughter's arms, and angrily asked why.
What are you doing? Why are you leaving all of a sudden?
The mother had a dream last night in which her eldest daughter told her that she had come to a decision and didn't plan to leave. She said she would stay in Xingdu and be by her side from now on. She also asked her to make arrangements to bring her son-in-law to Xingdu, so that the couple wouldn't live elsewhere but would stay at home and see her all the time...
I've had this dream countless times over the past six years, and I even thought it was going to come true...
How could this be...?
Don't leave! I won't let you go! Don't force me to lock you up!
However, Zhishou felt that he had no choice but to leave.
I have to go, but I will send letters back often.
It's much better than before; before, I wouldn't write a single word.
It wasn't that she didn't understand the importance of taking things step by step, but this was her most beloved daughter! She gave birth to five children, four of whom survived, and of those four, this daughter was her favorite…
I beg you, don't go, don't torture me anymore. Do you have to stab me in the heart? Is saving face really more important than family? We haven't done anything wrong, we're not afraid of what they say! Let them say what they want! I don't care about face! I want my daughter!
As she spoke, two lines of tears streamed down her cheeks, making her look utterly miserable.
Zhi Shou also shed tears, his heart filled with overwhelming sorrow.
The mother and daughter looked at each other and wept.
Seeing this, Madam Mu thought she had persuaded her daughter and was about to breathe a sigh of relief when she heard her daughter crying and saying...
I have no choice but to leave...
They didn't do anything wrong before, but it's hard to say what will happen in the future. If something really goes wrong, it will be much more embarrassing than before.
She wasn't made of wood or stone; how could she not be heartbroken to hear her own mother say such things?
Don't care about saving face, just want your daughter...
My mother is clearly the person who cares most about her reputation...
She drove her loving mother to this point.
But she couldn't think of any other good solution besides leaving.
She was doing it for everyone's good.
I really have to go; I can't stay here.
Upon hearing this, Madam Mu could not help but feel furious.
Fine! Go! I won't stop you! Just give me a reason I can accept! Tell me why you absolutely have to leave!
Zhi Shou had unspeakable suffering.
She certainly had reasons why she had to leave, but she couldn't say them.
Firstly, it was truly embarrassing; secondly, I was genuinely afraid of causing trouble.
If it weren't for her father keeping her in check back then, and her quick marriage to settle things, she really doesn't know what her mother might have done.
How could she dare let her know that she had been humiliated once again?
I miss Chengguang. He's been sick twice this year, and as his wife, of course I need to be there to take care of him.
It would be better if he were dead!
How could someone like that be worthy of her daughter! If it weren't for...
She really hated it!
Seeing her mother's bloodshot eyes and somewhat distorted face, Zhishou dared not utter another sound, afraid of angering her mother, so she just stood there holding the jewelry box.
Even if she behaved herself, Madam Mu still couldn't swallow her anger. Seeing that she was still holding the things and looked like she was about to leave, she was even more furious. She snatched them away and slammed them to the ground, scattering pearls and gems everywhere.
A pearl flew and landed on the forehead of Shan Lai, who had just come over.
Shanlai cried out in pain and instinctively covered his forehead.
Zhi Shou quickly stepped forward and removed Shan Lai's hand, saying, "Let me see!"
It's nothing serious, just a red patch.
"Come sit down, let me rub it for you."
As he spoke, he led Shanlai inside.
When passing by Madam Mu, Shanlai stopped, bowed, and called out, "Aunt Mu."
Madam Mu merely sneered.
Shanlai was unaware that he had been wrongly accused and was momentarily stunned.
Zhishou dared not blame her mother, and could only plead with her younger sister, "...Let's get over there quickly..."
Shanlai insisted on getting to the bottom of it, "What's wrong, Aunt? Is there something wrong with my niece?"
When she speaks, her eyes dart left and right, and once she finishes speaking, she already has the answer in her heart, without needing anyone else to say anything more to her.
"Is big sister leaving?"
Before Zhishou could say anything, Madam Mu let out another cold laugh, and this time she opened her mouth.
Shanlai knew a little about her aunt's temper and knew that she probably wouldn't say anything nice, so she quickly spoke up to interrupt her, "Aunt, don't worry, I'll persuade my older sister on your behalf, she must stay."
The maid who had come with Madam Mu quickly stepped forward to support Madam Mu's arm and advised, "Madam, you can rest assured. How could the eldest young lady not give face to the fourth young lady? She's definitely not leaving. There are still matters waiting for you to handle over there. Why don't you go over first and let the fourth young lady and the eldest young lady talk to each other?"
What does this have to do with my sister? Afraid that her mother would say something hurtful that would upset her sister, Zhishou quickly assured her mother, "I won't leave, Mother, please calm down."
Shanlai lowered his head obediently.
Zhi Shou shook Madam Mu's arm, his face full of pleading.
Madam Mu swallowed hard, exhaled, and walked away without a word or asking for help. Zhi Shou followed and saw her to the door, but Shan Lai didn't move.
When Zhi Shou returned from outside, looking utterly dejected, Shan Lai didn't give her a chance to catch her breath and asked bluntly, "Sister, how come you haven't had a child after six years of marriage?"
One sentence was both accurate and ruthless, instantly shattering the little face that Zhishou had painstakingly maintained for so many years.
Yes, why is it that she has been married for six years but still doesn't have a child?
Because she was unwilling, because she still loved another person, even though that person had hurt her deeply, she still loved him...
She loved a married man.
They are truly shameless.
This married man had even humiliated her immensely, making her a laughingstock, mocking her, and pitying her...
But she still loved him.
When I'm lying on top of someone, all I can think about is their face.
Over time, even she began to feel sorry for herself.
I want to change, but I can't; I feel powerless.
If I don't change, I'll be letting my husband down.
That would not only be an insult to herself, but also an insult to her husband.
So she stopped having sex with her husband.
Her husband was an innocent man, and she knew she had wronged him, so she bought two men for him from outside. To be honest, it was somewhat humiliating. She hadn't thought of it at the time, but when she realized it later, she felt extremely ashamed. Fortunately, her husband was a good man and didn't blame her at all; instead, he comforted her for a long time.
They didn't accept the money from those two people either.
A sudden jolt went through my mind.
It was only then that she realized that her husband actually loved her.
He was so good to her, he listened to her, thought of her, and accepted whatever she gave him without hesitation.
He loved her, unconditionally, just as she loved someone else...
Why bother?
Why bother all these years...?
It refers to her husband, but also to herself.
Since you've chosen to get married, why still cling to the past?
What exactly is she doing?
"...I now realize my mistake..."
Shanlai asked, "What's wrong?"
Zhi Shou lowered her head and remained silent for a while. Shan Lai didn't urge her, just waiting for her to come back to her senses.
But after a long time, Zhi Shou still didn't speak, and Shan Lai couldn't hold back any longer.
"Sister, why aren't you saying anything?"
Upon hearing this, Zhishou raised his head, shook it gently, and slowly said, "I don't know what to say..."
Shanlai then said, "Then I'll ask the questions, and you can answer, sister, shall we?"
Zhi Shou was also at a loss, so he nodded when he heard her say that.
Zhishou's eyes widened instantly, his eyeballs almost popping out.
What are your thoughts, sister?
Zhi Shou was already ill, and upon hearing these words, he became dizzy and couldn't clear his mind. He even found it difficult to stand.
Shanlai quickly went over to help her up, saying, "Sister, please sit down first. Of course, we should talk about these things slowly."
What are you saying?
Zhishou had no idea what to do.
If we actually did that, we would be infamous for eternity.
But I really love him...
She liked him when she was a child and always hoped to see him. He was such a handsome person, with a good personality and was very capable. He could do everything well and was good at everything... and he was always very good to her. He treated her differently. Back then, he would often steal glances at her, and when she looked over, he would quietly look away...
She knew he didn't mean to hurt her; it was his mother...
He is a very filial person.
She truly couldn't make a decision.
So he dared not look into his sister's eyes.
In Shan Lai's eyes, her silence was an answer, for it revealed her bias.
“I will talk to him. My sister and I promise that what happened before will never happen again. I will also ask my aunt to apologize to my sister. Of course, my sister can choose not to forgive her. Even if we become family, we can simply ignore her. This is what she has to endure. As for that other one, I think we should respect her wishes. She did nothing wrong and is quite pitiful. If she is willing to get out of that cage, that would be great. If she is not willing, we can't force her. At most, she will just have a title and maintain the status quo. What do you think, sister?”
Zhi Shou remained silent.
Shanlai thought for a moment and continued, "Sister, are you afraid of people gossiping? I know you are a gentleman and have never done anything out of line. It's all other people's fault. You are the victim and shouldn't be blamed for others' mistakes... Why don't you change your identity and become a completely new person? That way, no one will say anything. I will talk to the elders at home and make sure everything is taken care of. Don't worry, sister."
Shanlai believes there is no problem with this.
Unexpectedly, Zhi Shou shook his head, "No, I can't do that, I can't do it. If you really want to help me, sister, arrange to meet him and I will explain things to him..."
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