Chapter 13013 Farewell
Due to Lin Leqi's work requirements, Xu Tingwan and Lin Leqi took a flight back to Yucheng after the finals. WG would not return to Yucheng until the next day after celebrating in Beicheng. An hour before the meeting, two Weibo posts were pushed to the top of the hot search list.
#Polaris will not attend the KPL Challenger Cup#
#PolarisRetirement#
Xu Tingwan sat on the sofa in the living room and looked at these two messages with a strong sense of unreality.
How is it possible... I just won the championship...
The internet was flooded with news about last night's final interview. Because they were in a hurry to catch a flight, Xu Tingwan and Lin Leqi waited for Chi Du to finish the interview before leaving. They didn't expect that he would say such a thing in the end.
Xu Tingwan felt dizzy and even more confused.
Why, why did I leave the arena, why did I retire... Why didn't I tell her anything...
The sound of the doorbell seemed harsh at this moment. She stood up suddenly, but her eyes went dark. She had gotten up early in the morning when Chi Du arrived in Yucheng and had not eaten until now.
Xu Tingwan shook her head and went to open the door in her slippers. The moment the door opened, she was hugged before she could even see the person clearly. The familiar scent of soap and mint filled her nose. She imitated his usual actions and rubbed his neck.
"Sister, have you eaten yet?"
Chi Du held a pile of breakfast in his hands and held it up to show her blankly. Xu Tingwan smiled at the scene and teased him, "Did you move the breakfast shop here?"
Chi Du curled his lips and said, "I do think so."
She sat next to Chi Du and looked at him quietly, doing nothing, just looking.
The two of them ate breakfast tacitly, and neither of them brought up the topic first.
Today should be the happiest day, but the atmosphere is particularly heavy at this moment.
Xu Tingwan didn’t have a good appetite because of what happened just now. She ate a little and then sat aside watching him.
Chi Du lowered his eyes and ate the buns slowly. Xu Tingwan opened a cup of soy milk and pushed it in front of him without saying a word.
He put it down after taking a sip, turned to look at her, and said seriously, "Sister, I want to tell you something."
Xu Tingwan's heart skipped a beat. He squeezed his palms to calm himself down. "What's wrong?"
"I...I might not play the game...I'll go back to school this year."
Xu Tingwan froze, the unexpected answer coming from him, "Return to school?"
"Well, I didn't officially apply for leave my first year, and I didn't know how well I could play, so I kept taking time off to compete, going on and off. Later, I won the championship, and I applied for a leave of absence near the end of the first semester of my senior year. The school has been urging me to do so for a while now."
Xu Tingwan looked at his calm demeanor and was suddenly struck by something. So, he had known that I was leaving a long time ago, right? But he hadn't told her anything...
Xu Tingwan felt a pang of pain in her heart. She didn't know why she was so tearful in front of Chi Du. Even the smallest thing could make her cry.
As tears as big as beans fell, Chi Du panicked instantly. He wanted to wipe them away for her, but Xu Tingwan dodged him. She blocked him with a bad tone, "Since you have decided everything, why are you still telling me...Does this count as notifying me?"
Chi Du pursed his lips and said, "No...sister...I...I am actually also hesitating whether to go back and continue studying."
Xu Tingwan's sobbing suddenly stopped, and she turned to look at him with confusion.
"The blooming period of esports players is very short. I'm already 22 this year, and because of my hand injury, the team has been training new players. After all, there are always 18-year-olds in this arena. 22 years old is nothing compared to 18 years old."
He laughed at himself.
Xu Tingwan immediately touched his hand and asked, "Are you injured?"
She actually didn't know anything about Chi Du's hand injury...
Chi Du held her hand in return and said, "It's okay. I just practiced too hard privately when I first entered the competition. Now I have been adjusting myself and I am much better now."
A drop of crystal beads fell on the back of her hand. Chi Du looked up at her and suddenly felt a softness in his chest.
Xu Tingwan buried her head in his neck and sobbed, "Why didn't you tell me... I didn't even know your hand was injured... I actually asked you to play with me..."
Chi Du patted her back and said, "Sister, it's okay now, and I just wanted to play with you."
“…How can it be alright…”
"Really, look."
Xu Tingwan let him go. Seeing him like this, she felt sad. She wiped her face and asked him, "When did you decide to go back to school?"
"yesterday."
Chi Du looked at her, as determined as ever, "I saw you on the court yesterday. In fact, I can always see you."
Xu Tingwan paused.
He could see that her every smile and frown was full of life, and the golden rain when she won the championship also blurred his eyes. He watched her standing under the light and blankly catching a piece of gold paper falling on her head, but he did not feel as excited and thrilled as he had imagined.
Why?
Perhaps he didn't know how many times he could let her see such a scene, nor did he know what status such a scene held in her eyes. The blooming period of e-sports players is very short, and there is never a shortage of talented young people on the field.
He grows older every year, and with each passing year, his heart becomes emptier, and he becomes more depressed and heavy.
No one doesn't want to win the championship, especially him.
But he knew clearly that this road would not last long. He could not guarantee that he would still be sitting in this position next time. The young players trained in the team were eyeing his position covetously. Their dreams were suffocating him. The more this happened, the more anxious he became.
The enthusiasm he had when he first entered the competition has gradually faded with time, but his desire to win the championship has increased day by day. The helplessness of having the will but not the ability has made him realize the cruelty of e-sports.
Perhaps, he should choose a longer-term path, a path that can change his life again, a path that can allow him to stand by her side for a long time.
Reading. Reading is the only way.
When the golden rain fell on him, he had already found his direction.
"I want me to be by your side in every next second."
He spoke so seriously and sincerely that Xu Tingwan stared at him in a daze for a long time.
Chi Du wiped the tears from her eyes and smiled. "I should thank you. Before I met you, my life was dull and boring. Even my love for esports gradually waned with repeated failures. I don't know when it started, but I no longer dared to hold out hope for the outcome. I could only try my best to live up to every game and cherish every opportunity to play. I never dared to dream of winning the championship because I was afraid of failing with all my expectations. I don't even know when I became so hopeless."
"But your appearance has given me faith. I look forward to the competition with you standing behind me. I want you to see me win. It's like... a ray of light in this lifeless world. It makes me willing to be full of hope again, willing to never admit defeat."
"So sister, thank you, thank you for bringing Chi Du back to life."
“…”
If he hadn't met Xu Tingwan, he would probably still repeat the same mistakes, hating himself for not being able to win the championship, hating himself for not being able to be more powerful, hating himself for wasting his time and achieving nothing...
She was too dazzling, and the scorching summer sun left him nowhere to hide. The inferiority and constraints he thought he had felt never appeared in front of her. The scorching light stayed for him, warming every haze and unbearableness in his heart, making him believe that he was not as bad as he imagined.
Love gave him courage to regain his courage and stand under the spotlight again with full of enthusiasm. On the day of the finals, the lights were dazzling, and he seemed to see his eighteen-year-old self, that was his irretrievable youthful spirit.
*
Chi Du was leaving this weekend, returning to Liancheng. Xu Tingwan silently stuffed things into his pockets: her newly bought sunscreen, lotion, and a bunch of snacks she'd bought just for him, as if only this could freeze time.
Chi Du couldn't help laughing at the way she stuffed everything in. He squatted down, reached out and pinched her face, and said softly, "Sister, are you going to move your whole home to me?"
Xu Tingwan blinked, slapped his hand away, and was in no mood to play with him.
Chi Du smiled even more. He stood up, picked her up horizontally, sat on the sofa and let her sit on his lap.
The corners of her mouth drooped. Xu Tingwan hadn't smiled at him for many days since she knew he was leaving. Even such a high-energy person would have a negative energy field because of his departure.
Chi Du raised his legs slightly and padded them to tease her, "Sister, please smile for me. It hurts me to see you."
Xu Tingwan supported his shoulder and patted him gently, "Don't make trouble..."
She really didn't mean to be so unhappy. She just couldn't be happy at the thought of him leaving.
"I really don't want to laugh... Sister, you are so cruel..."
Xu Tingwan was about to say something when she saw him take out a shiny object and put it around her neck. As his breath touched her ears, the cold metal material fell on her neck.
Xu Tingwan touched his chest reflexively, looked down, and realized that it was a diamond necklace, which reflected dazzling light under the light.
Chi Du looked at it and curled his lips, "I knew it would look good on my sister."
Xu Tingwan opened his lips, knowing without asking that this was not cheap.
But he saw through her thoughts and smiled, "I give part of my salary to my mother, and I keep the rest for myself. This is my own little treasury. I want to buy this for you. I picked it out for a long time and asked many people. They all said this one is the best looking. I remember you once wore a necklace similar to this style, so I bought it. Do you like it, sister?"
"like……"
"The name of this necklace is, Eternal and undying love."
Chi Du speaks English very nicely and in standard language, with a deep and magnetic voice.
"Eternal and undying love..." Xu Tingwan repeated in a daze.
It means love that never dies.
Xu Tingwan curled her lips. The sadness of parting made her extremely sensitive, and now he was like this again, so her tears flowed down without any cost.
She seldom wore necklaces, nor did she like to wear bracelets or anything like that. Perhaps the one time she wore one, Chi Du had actually remembered it.
Chi Du smiled lightly, pinched her face and said helplessly, "Sister, why are you so fond of crying?"
Xu Tingwan wiped away her tears, "I didn't... If you do this, I will be even more reluctant to let you go, what should I do..."
Chi Du pressed his forehead against hers and placed his hand on the back of her neck, pulling her closer to him. "I'm sorry, but sister, please wait for me. I will definitely come to you."
"Chi Du, you should think about yourself, not me."
"Being by your side is my dream. I am willing to do it and will never back down."
*
The day Chi Du left, he didn't let Xu Tingwan see him off. When Xu Tingwan asked him why, he just said that he didn't want her to see his back, and then left with a sad heart.
But Xu Tingwan still went, secretly followed the car he took, and watched his back until he disappeared.
Chi Du was right, she shouldn't have come to see his back, it was indeed very sad.
Seeing her crying so hard, the driver kindly asked, "Are you okay, little girl? You're crying so hard."
"……fine."
…
Later, Xu Tingwan filled her schedule so fully that Lin Leqi was so busy that she joked with her every day that it was as if she saw herself just after graduation.
At that time, she liked this job very much. While other people were lifeless at work, she was full of energy and greeted everyone with a smile every day.
But the reason she was busy now was not because she liked him, but because she wanted to stop feeling the passage of time. She only hoped that when she woke up one day, Chi Du would be in front of her.
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