Chapter 1240: I’m Afraid Because I Care
"Well, I know my brother has always loved me and treated me well, but Huan'er, my brother, even though he always looks cheerful and happy on the surface, and grew up with a silver spoon in his mouth, he's actually not had an easy life either, especially with Qu Si. So, I can't bear to add to his troubles with my own affairs. Now he's finally with you, living a happy life."
"Look, your brother loves you, and you always think about him. You have such a great relationship, so you shouldn't have any thoughts about whether you should come back to this family. Just because your brother treats you well, you should come back. And your parents love you and care about you too. If anything happens to you, they will be grieving for the rest of their lives. You have to live well, okay? Get rid of that depression quickly. If it doesn't work, go see a doctor. I can go with you."
"Well, I'll wait and see. I've always been in control. In fact, the most difficult time has passed. When I first learned about the Zi Su incident, I really thought about dying. Especially after stabbing Yun Che, I hated myself and felt that I shouldn't be alive in this world. If it weren't for me, Yun Che could do whatever he wanted. Even if he wanted to go out and find other women to relax, he wouldn't care about anything anymore.
But then I thought, why am I only caring about him? What about my children? They are so young and the most pitiful. So I can't die. I am the person who cares about them the most in this world. Only if I live well can they grow up healthy and happy. I have already survived the darkest period.
Although Ling Qianyu was not involved and could not understand Su Xiao's mood at the time, she understood it to some extent. She could not help but hug Su Xiao again with heartache, choking with sobs, "You fool, you can't have those thoughts, okay? Fortunately, you can persevere, otherwise we would all..."
After that, everyone stopped talking and hugged each other quietly. After a while, Ling Qianyu went to answer the phone because she was busy with something. Seeing that her father and Yun Che were still chatting animatedly, Su Xiao also went back to her room.
The children hadn't seen their grandmother for a long time, and perhaps their mother wanted to give them and Yun Che a world of their own, so she had already stated that Nini, Yangyang, and the others would sleep in the main house tonight.
Therefore, the house was quiet here.
Su Xiao sat on the sofa in a daze for a while. When she smelled the faint fragrance of flowers, she opened her eyes and came to the bouquet of flowers that Yun Che gave her. Just like that, she saw Yun Che coming back.
Yun Che immediately embraced her from behind, pressed his face against hers, and kissed her several times. He said in a deep voice, "You really like this bouquet of flowers, don't you? From today on, I will send you a bouquet every day."
Su Xiao's body stiffened slightly at first, then she slowly turned around to look at him, and then she said, "I still remember when we first started living together, you always had a bouquet of champagne roses in your room. I thought at the time, how could a grown man like such flowers? Later I found out that it was Zhao Jiaying's favorite."
Yun Che's breathing suddenly stopped.
Su Xiao continued, "Yun Che, you are indeed a man who makes people want to stop. Being loved by you is very happy. I envied Zhao Jiaying very much back then, so when you abandoned me and chose to marry her, although I was sad, I didn't hate her because I knew I could never compare to her. I was destined to lose."
“Su Xiao…” Yun Che said in a hoarse voice.
"Don't blame yourself or feel guilty. After all, you were with her first. You can only blame me for meeting you too late. I just feel that a person's love may not be eternal. You used to hold Zhao Jiaying in your heart and dote on her, but later you stayed with me and chose to marry her. At that time, you thought you loved her, but in fact, this love has changed, and you don't even know it.
Just like now, you chose me and thought you loved me, but in the future, will you find out that your choice was wrong and that the person you really wanted was Shiso? "
Yun Che felt a chill run down his spine. He pulled Su Xiao over to sit down in front of the bed, staring at her seriously as he said, "Su Xiao, I did genuinely like Zhao Jiaying, but I also had feelings for you back then. Otherwise, I wouldn't have stayed with you for so long, and I wouldn't have done that with you. But Zi Su, she's completely different from you back then. She appeared by my side with a mission, and I was just dealing with her. I didn't have any sexual relations with her."
As for you, you're different from Zhao Jiaying. It's undeniable that Zhao Jiaying was very good for a while, but when I later learned she was pregnant, I felt I should give her a name. If I'd known you were pregnant, I wouldn't have let you go! I don't love her because both she and I have changed, because you've entered my heart, but Zisu has never entered my heart, so don't compare yourself to her, she doesn't deserve it.
Su Xiao said nothing and looked at him silently.
"I know that the recent events have had a huge impact on your mood, and I've been regretting it. If I could go back in time, I would definitely not choose this path. I've been thinking about how to put this matter behind us and get our relationship back to where it was before. Su Xiao, I'm in pain, you know? And I'm scared. I'm afraid that you and I can no longer go on. I'm afraid of losing you. What should I do? I can't lose you, girl."
Tears silently slid out of Su Xiao's eyes, and she began to tremble with tears.
Yun Che hugged her tightly and continued, "Please don't leave me, okay? No matter how you punish me in the future, just don't leave me and stay by my side for the rest of your life, okay? I really can't live without you. No matter how beautiful or resourceful other women are, I don't care. I only want you, Su Xiao. You don't understand how I feel. It's not that you're not as pretty as those women, or that you're getting older, that I'll dislike you. The feeling you give me can't be changed by appearance or time."
"But I'm really scared, Yun Che! Huan'er told me that I'm scared because I still care about you. Otherwise, if I really didn't care about you anymore, why would I be afraid? I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to attract you anymore, or even make you feel bored, repulsed, and hate me. I don't want us to reach that point. I'll really go crazy."
"That time won't come, it really won't. We've been together for so many years, we've been through so much, and we have so many beautiful memories. Even if you really become hideous, I won't hate you. Besides, I believe you won't become like that."
"But I stabbed you."
"Well, I was really surprised at that time, and I couldn't even figure out why you were so cruel. I'm your husband, how could you... But I didn't think of hating you, because I was the one who made the mistake first. Instead, I felt sorry for you. I hurt you, and it was me who made you become like this." Yun Che paused, wiped Su Xiao's tears, and continued, "By the way, let me tell you something about Zhao Jiaying."
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