Chapter 752: If there is no love, life will be full of suffering
Is this destined?
Huan'er had actually been to Taohua Garden, although only outside the door!
Then I met Hui'er there.
However, seeing Su Xiao's self-blame, Zhao Yixuan stopped thinking too much and comforted her, "Hui'er, it's none of your business. Maybe this is what you call fate. She chose to come back, which means we will meet again. Even if not in Junnanfang, then somewhere else."
Su Xiao shook her head. She still couldn't forgive herself and still felt that she had contributed to this mistake.
Zhao Yixuan reached out and gently hugged her, continuing to comfort her, "Silly girl, don't cry. Ah Che will definitely be angry with me if he knows I made you cry. You are kind by nature, and you treat her as a good friend. No one expected the result to be like this, so it really has nothing to do with you."
"Brother, you are also a very kind person. Although you have not been able to fall in love with my sister-in-law over the years, you have tried your best to be nice to her and not hurt her. Please continue to maintain this kindness and continue not to hurt my sister-in-law, okay? I can see that my sister-in-law really loves you. She knows that you don't have her in your heart and may never fall in love with her in this life, but she still insists on being with you, which shows that she loves you very much." Su Xiao looked at her brother beside her through her blurred tears and persuaded him earnestly.
Zhao Yixuan's eyes were also dim. He knew that Qu Si loved her, but he also knew that the reason why Qu Si insisted was not just because of this love, but because of many other factors.
"That Big Brother Li, Li Zhenghan, you know, right? Yun Che told me that you, he, and sister-in-law were friends since childhood. He liked sister-in-law, and sister-in-law knew it, but sister-in-law still chose you, which shows that she really loves you. Moreover, you know best how much suffering sister-in-law went through to give birth to this child. She was willing to try such painful things, all for the sake of being with you. Also, you said she treated me badly, so why did I still support her like that? It's because I sympathize with her and I feel sorry for her. I was thinking, if I were her, how pitiful I would be. So brother, since fate has arranged this for you, and you chose to give up Huan'er back then, it means that in your mind, there are things that are more worthy of your attention, things that are more important than Huan'er.
"Yun Che told me that you and Qu Si won't get divorced because no one will allow it. In fact, they'll even try to remove all obstacles to keep you together. Brother, you said this path was arranged by Dad, but if you didn't like it, you wouldn't have gone this far. Everyone who knows me tells me you're a good official, and the people in every place you've been appointed have praised you highly. I've seen with my own eyes how you care about the people and want to make that place better. This is your ambition, a belief engraved in your bones. I hope you won't give up on this belief, okay? Brother..." Looking at his tearful sister, Zhao Yixuan felt his throat tighten and wanted to cry uncomfortably.
Of course, he is a man, he can't cry.
His father taught him since childhood that a man can shed blood but not tears, and that a man should have grand ideals and ambitions, and accomplish great things in this society, so that his life on earth will not be in vain.
Indeed, that path was arranged for him by his father, but his father's assistance only made his journey smoother, and his persistence in the long run depended only on his own belief.
He knows that this society still has many imperfections, and he wants to make it better and make people live happier. Wherever he goes, he will do his best to do everything well instead of just muddling through.
After reuniting with Ling Qianyu, the thought of eloping with her flashed through his mind. He wanted to abandon everything and go to a place where no one knew him and no one bound him to spend the rest of his life with her. But soon another thought came to his mind, questioning whether he would regret this choice and whether it was really what he wanted.
The answer is obvious.
He was ambitious and had great aspirations. He could not do what Yun Che did when Su Xiao encountered an accident and said the word "resignation" without hesitation.
In his mind, his ideals and ambitions are more important than his love for Ling Qianyu.
This problem was actually proven ten years ago.
But he still felt regretful and unwilling in his heart. Taohuayuan, as well as his cold violence towards Qu Si, were all to vent this unwillingness.
After all, his love for Ling Qianyu is not the most important thing.
So, how could such a man be qualified to receive Ling Qianyu's lifelong love?
He had already let her down and let Qu Si down, and he couldn't let her down again.
He actually had no real intention of getting back together with Ling Qianyu, and had not made such a decision.
"Hui'er, don't cry and don't hurt yourself. I, actually, have never thought about getting back together with her. I haven't thought about it at all." Finally, Zhao Yixuan said it. After saying this, he felt as relieved as if a thousand tons of mountain had been lifted off his shoulders.
After hearing this, Su Xiao immediately opened her eyes wide and looked at him in disbelief.
Zhao Yixuan smiled sadly and bitterly. "In the final analysis, I am a selfish person. I don't deserve Qianqian's love, nor do I deserve Qu Si's love. Perhaps this is how my life is. Yes, life is never perfect. My career is going smoothly, and I am moving smoothly towards my ideals and goals. So, my love life is destined to be sad."
"Brother, be serious, have you really never thought about being with Huan'er?" Su Xiao asked this.
"I have thought about it, but before the idea could take shape, it was shaken by other things. So, don't worry, silly girl."
Uh—Su Xiao looked at him, who was smiling but full of sadness. She couldn't help but feel distressed and guilty, "I'm sorry, brother, I just..."
"Well, I know you're doing this for my own good. You're right. I've already let Qianqian down, and I can't let Qu Si down again. This is the path I chose, and I should stick to it. I may never be able to love Qu Si again in this life, but I can't hurt her either."
Su Xiao continued to be extremely sad.
If a couple does not have love, their life will be full of suffering.
"And Hui'er, thank you, thank you for helping Qianqian find a job, and thank you for treating her as a good friend. I will find a time to explain everything to her, and then she may... If she chooses to stay, you don't have to think too much about it, you can continue to be friends with her, just pretend that she is not Ling Qianyu, but Huan'er." Zhao Yixuan fell silent after he finished speaking, leaning back in his chair with a tired look as if he had just experienced a fierce battle.
Su Xiao looked at him silently, tears still streaming down her face. She suddenly wondered if she had done something wrong. Was she really doing the right thing by trying to dissuade him? Or was she meddling in other people's affairs and making things worse?
The more Su Xiao thought about it, the more uneasy she felt, and her mood became even more confused.
Just then, her phone rang.
She ignored it and only took it out after Zhao Yixuan reminded her. She saw that the caller ID was Yun Che.
"Answer it quickly, otherwise he will think something happened to you and will be worried." Zhao Yixuan said with a smile.
Su Xiao was still confused when she saw him return to his usual joking self, but she answered the phone first.
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