Chapter 2
When holding your first child, do you feel more surprised or happy?
Tu Chenglin can no longer remember that feeling.
But at this moment, holding his second daughter, Tu Chenglin can express his current feelings, which are more regretful.
But people's lives are always filled with regrets, isn't he the same? He is accompanied by so many unsatisfactory things.
Now the son I longed for has turned into a daughter, which is just one more thing to add to my longing for.
They say you don’t have to worry about having too much debt, but now there are so many disappointments. It seems that this life is already gloomy but the light has never shone in. It has always been so gloomy.
Lin Mei lay exhausted on the bed. At this moment, everything was silent, and the silence was even more terrifying.
"Wow"
The crying of a baby broke the damn silence.
So healthy, so loud.
Her baby is a healthy one.
Tu Chenglin came over with the child in his arms, "You haven't seen a child before, right? He looks a lot like you."
Lin Mei originally wanted to refute, saying that the child had just been born and hadn't grown up yet, so how could he look that much like her?
But when her eyes fell on her daughter's face, her heart began to beat violently.
Her hair is not black. This child's hair color is very special, it is yellow. Is it because the child was malnourished because he did not eat well during pregnancy?
Lin Mei was determined to give her child more supplements so that he would have thick black hair, just like hers, with thick and black hair.
Continuing to look down, Lin Mei saw that the child's facial features were indeed very similar to hers, which made her feel a little regretful. She had originally hoped that the child would look more like Tu Chenglin.
But she is still beautiful and unique.
In Lin Mei's eyes, the child is still very beautiful.
"It's a pity that she's a daughter and looks like this. I hope she can be prettier when she grows up."
Lin Mei did not refute Tu Chenglin. She did not have the strength to take the child. She just kept looking at her daughter with gentle eyes.
If nothing unexpected happens in her future, she will only have this one daughter, and she will not let any accidents happen.
She just wanted to love her and care for her. Her daughter had worked hard. Coming into this world with a mother like her and a family like her was destined to be hard.
She should love her more. She is not an unloved child. Even though Tu Chenglin's words represent some of his attitude, it will not affect Lin Mei.
This is her child, her only child.
They couldn't stay in the hospital for long, so they counted the money every day. After Lin Mei was able to walk again, they took their daughter home.
When Lin Mei was about to give birth, Tu Chenglin was afraid that he would be too busy to take care of two children, so he took his eldest daughter to Lin Mei's parents' home. His mother was partial and would not help him take care of his daughter, so he could only bring his eldest daughter to Lin Mei's parents' home with gifts.
Tu Chenglin placed his little daughter wrapped in a blanket on the bed, the softest place in the house.
Then he turned the water to warm and put it in the basin, then came back, picked up his little daughter and gave her a bath.
After washing, Tu Chenglin dried her carefully. Lin Mei watched from the side, envious. She said to Tu Chenglin, "You are so brave. I am a little scared to hold my daughter now. She is too small."
As a first-time mother, Lin Mei was always cautious, fearing that she would hurt her daughter.
Tu Chenglin couldn't say it was because he had more experience than Lin Mei, so he could only change the subject: "Five pounds and eight ounces, it's too small. You have to take good care of yourself after the baby is born, otherwise the baby won't have anything to eat."
Lin Mei nodded, but she thought about the situation at home again.
"That's what they say, but you also know that my mom won't come to take care of us. They never want to come to our place because they're afraid of gossip."
Tu Chenglin frowned: "What gossip is there about taking care of my daughter during the confinement period?"
"In the countryside, there are always concerns. Maybe he's afraid that my sister-in-law will be unhappy. What's more, she, the mother-in-law, didn't come to take care of her daughter-in-law during the confinement period. How can I ask my mother-in-law to come? It doesn't make sense."
Lin Mei had no choice. This was the situation at home. They said it was inconvenient this way and that way. It was just that children who were not liked by their parents would often suffer.
From adolescence to middle age, children who are not liked by their parents always expect their parents to love them. Maybe their parents do love them, but they cannot stand comparison.
Tu Chenglin sighed, "It was the same with Hua'er before. When Hua'er's mother was in confinement, it was her own mother who took care of her. You know my mother, and if I don't ask your mother to come, I really can't handle it. I still have to go to work."
Lin Mei thought for a moment and said, "Tomorrow is Sunday, and you have to pick up Huaer anyway. Why don't you ask my mom if we can invite her over? We can pay her, is that okay?"
Tu Chenglin nodded. This was the only way for the time being. Lin Mei had to recuperate after giving birth and couldn't go back to her parents' home. The same went for Tu Yin. It would be okay to take a few days off, but taking too long wouldn't work and would affect her studies.
The little daughter seemed to understand what they said and looked at them with her eyes open.
Tu Chenglin felt a little amused. He pinched his daughter's cheek and said, "Can you understand what we are saying, you naughty little girl?"
Those frustrations are hidden in deep corners, and as time goes by, they will only get deeper and deeper.
Life must go on. Now that things have come to this, Tu Chenglin will raise his daughter well.
Like Tu Yin, he believed that his responsibility was to let them study peacefully, get married and have children. As for houses and dowries, girls didn't need so much. Once they got married, they would naturally have a house.
However, his youngest daughter's appearance made him a little worried. Not only was she not as pretty as Tu Yin, she wasn't even pretty. She looked too much like her mother.
He comforted himself that the child had not grown up yet, and would be beautiful when he grew up.
The next day, when Lin Mei saw Tu Chenglin coming back with only Tu Yin, she knew the result.
Sometimes she wondered, there were only three children in the family, she was the second child, but also the only girl, why couldn't she escape the idea of favoring boys over girls?
She could feel that her mother loved her, but that love was too light compared to her son's, like a light feather that did not fall into anyone's heart.
Faced with such a result, the couple really had no other choice.
It's still summer vacation now, so Tu Yin can help with some things.
So, when Tu Chenglin was at work, Tu Yin would help with some things, but Lin Mei couldn't possibly ask this child to hold another child, as Tu Yin was still young.
Lin Mei placed her daughter next to her. Now that she had held her daughter so many times, she was no longer afraid of hurting her daughter.
Tu Yin was also there, doing her summer homework. After finishing it, she would wash her sister's diapers. She would also cook noodles for her stepmother and herself as breakfast.
Tu Chenglin's workplace is close to home, so he would come back at noon to cook and make some nutritious soup for Lin Mei to nourish her.
After coming back from get off work in the afternoon and having dinner, Tu Chenglin would clean the house carefully. He is a person with obsessive-compulsive disorder and cannot stand any dirt in the house. It seems that he would feel uncomfortable if he did not mop the floor once a day.
At the same time, Tu Chenglin also takes care of the children. He will change diapers for his little daughter and coax her to sleep. However, when it comes to coaxing her daughter to sleep, Lin Mei is not as good as Tu Chenglin.
Life is neither too fast nor too slow, but I still have to register my youngest daughter.
When Tu Chenglin's mother learned that his little daughter was born, she didn't even come to see her. She just said, "Another daughter."
This was what the neighbors told him, and Tu Chenglin knew that he and Lin Mei had to be responsible for naming the car.
He thought that since his little daughter looked like her mother, her life might be harder in the future. But if she was more diligent and sensible, she could live a good life.
So let’s name our youngest daughter Tu Mian. I hope that even though she knows it is difficult, she will try her best and make up for her shortcomings with diligence.
Lin Mei disagreed: "Isn't it a bit boyish? After all, she is a girl."
Tu Chenglin shook his head. "That's a good name. I was hoping she would be as successful as a boy."
He claims to be a traditional man with a son-orientated mindset, but he also hopes that his children will have a bright future. Even though he is a harsh mouth and says some unpleasant things, he still has expectations for his children. In his eyes, a girl can be considered promising only if she can be as successful as a boy.
Knowing that Tu Chenglin was still upset, Lin Mei didn't refute him. At least she didn't call him Shengnan or Yanan. Thinking about it this way, Tu Mian was still a nice name.
As for the nickname, it was decided by Tu Chenglin.
"Guo'er? Maybe it's not a good thing? They say flowers bloom before fruits, and then the flowers grow up. I'm afraid she will think too much." Lin Mei was a little worried.
Tu Chenglin waved his hand, "Let's call her this, so that our family can have both flowers and fruits. I thought of a nickname before you got pregnant, so let's call her this, what's the big deal? She's my daughter, why would I think too much about it?"
Having said that, Lin Mei still asked Tu Yin.
"My sister's full name is Tu Mian, and her nickname is Guo'er. Do you like these names?"
Tu Yin tilted her head and stared at the whorls on her sister's head. There were two of them. Su He said that children with two whorls on their heads would cry a lot, and their voices would be so loud that it would be unbearable.
But her sister was not like that. Her crying was powerful and not annoying, just like she did not annoy herself.
She was so small, so fragile, and she needed her protection.
"I like this name. When people hear it, they will know that we are sisters."
Her name is Huaer and her sister is Guoer. Others can tell they are sisters as soon as they hear their names. Their relationship is not only connected by blood, but also by names.
Such an intimate relationship filled the void in Tu Yin's heart.
Her mother left her, but her sister came into her life.
Looking at her sister's sweet sleeping face, Tu Yin smiled.
She leaned gently on the bed. She didn't dare to touch her sister, but just looking at her sister, she felt calm. Perhaps this was happiness.
Lin Mei's confinement period went smoothly, and Tu Yin was about to start school.
She looked at her sister reluctantly and kissed her on her smooth face. Her sister smelled nice and she liked it very much.
Tu Yin greeted her sister: "Sister, you are going to school. Guo'er, grow up quickly and go to school with your sister in the future."
Lin Mei tied a red scarf on Tu Yin, and Tu Yin went out.
In the small town, there are fewer people they don’t know than people they know. In addition, the primary school is close to home, so Lin Mei and Tu Chenglin don’t need to send Tu Yin to school.
Tu Chenglin had just woken up. His working hours were an hour later than Tu Yin's school hours. Usually, Lin Mei would wake Tu Chenglin up after sending Tu Yin out.
When Tu Chenglin left the house, he couldn't help but kiss his little daughter.
The youngest daughter was not beautiful, but very cute. Her skin was also very white like Lin Mei's. However, even though Lin Mei tried her best to supplement her nutrition, her hair did not turn into thick black as she wished. Instead, it turned into flaxen color. When exposed to the sun, it turned into light brown, which was another kind of beauty.
When they take their daughter out, people always ask if she is a foreign child.
Her facial features are ordinary, but they are so special in this small town.
Tu Chenglin likes to kiss his daughter's face because baby's skin is so tender and smooth to the touch.
When my little daughter grows up, I just hope her skin will still be as good as this. It is always better for girls to be prettier.
With a little worry as a father, Tu Chenglin went out to work.
After Lin Mei finished washing the dishes, she saw that her daughter was still sleeping. Her sister and father did not wake her up, and her mother's movement did not wake her up either.
She is really a child who can fall asleep without much need for adults to coax her.
Lin Mei sat next to the child, knitting a sweater carefully. Time passed quickly. She wanted to knit a hat and a sweater for her daughter. Clothes knitted by herself would be warmer.
And the bright yellow color makes my daughter with fair skin look more lively and lovely.
Of course, as a stepmother, she cannot just take care of her own daughter. Lin Mei also wants to knit a hat for Tu Yin, so that when they go out, others can tell that they are sisters.
Thinking of this, Lin Mei looked at her daughter again.
Having the same appearance as her is not a good thing.
When she was young, Lin Mei often felt inferior about her appearance, and she didn't want her daughter to be like that.
She thought that when Guo'er grew up a little, she would praise Guo'er more. What she lacked, Guo'er also had, as she wanted.
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