88. Fall asleep
The night ended in a trance. Yun Zhihe had been drinking, but when he turned around, he saw Lou Zhi with an expressionless face and pursed lips, but tears were streaming down his face and his eyes were red.
He didn't say anything after that, just staring at Yun Zhihe's back.
He watched Yun Zhihe stagger away, and stood alone in the night for a long time, as if trying to blend in, feeling extremely lonely.
Yun Zhihe is hungover.
It was also rare that she woke up slowly at noon, rubbing her aching and stuffy forehead, and saw Azhi beside her. He asked her in a hoarse voice to help her up.
Azhi pursed her lips and lowered her head to tell Yun Zhihe.
"Miss... General Lou arrived this morning and has been waiting in the main hall."
“…Ah…ah?”
Yun Zhihe was obviously stunned. In her daze, she seemed to remember that when she was drowsy last night, Lou Zhi had... hugged her?
Thinking about it this way, things became troublesome.
She pursed her lips, washed up, and hurried to the main hall. As soon as she stepped in, she saw Lou Zhi sipping tea at a seat. There was no mist rising from the teapot, and it was obviously cold.
He sat calmly and composedly, with a cold and brutal aura. Several men were kneeling in front of him, almost curled up and shivering.
Yun Zhihe paused.
She broke the strange atmosphere and asked, "What are they doing...?"
When the young men heard the voice, they quickly turned their heads and rushed towards Yun Zhihe, crying.
“Woo…”
...These are the gentlemen that Zhao Yin sent to her at the banquet last night.
I really didn't expect that she would send the person to my house as she said.
"Yun, Madam Yun!"
They cried bitterly, clung to Yun Zhihe, and looked up at Lou Zhi above with trembling hands.
Yun Zhihe dodged calmly and looked at the sitting Lou Zhi.
"General Lou... I'm extremely sorry to have kept you waiting."
Lou Zhi nodded, looked at the gentlemen who were trembling with fear because of him, paused, and began to explain.
“…I didn’t do anything to them.”
"I just sit here and watch them."
"They cried... on their own."
Lou Zhi seemed a little confused and puzzled, wondering why these gentlemen were so afraid of him.
……joke.
These young masters have not forgotten how Lou Zhi raised his sword with a cold and murderous look last night, with blood dripping from the tip of the sword, and glanced at them with a frown.
Looking at him now, he is really scary.
He looked like a murderer, and coupled with his reputation, no one dared to act rashly just by sitting there.
Then she lowered her eyes to look at them again, her eyelashes casting a dark shadow.
...They were really afraid that he would go crazy again like he did last night.
One of the young men looked at Yun Zhihe with indifference, and without even glancing at them, he knew that Yun Zhihe had no interest in them.
In order to escape the fate of being raped in the brothel, he only gently tugged at the corner of Yun Zhihe's clothes, and said softly, "Yun, Madam Yun... We were sent here by Master Zhao. If Madam Yun doesn't want us..."
He sobbed and shed tears, "We are about to be sent back to the brothel. I beg Madam Yun to have mercy on me. I don't ask to be served, I just ask Madam Yun to let me be a servant and serve you well."
His words were soft and gentle, like tears in the eyes. The other gentlemen understood what he meant and begged him together.
Yun Zhihe paused, turned to look at Azhi and asked her to make the arrangements.
This is also a matter of taking advantage of the situation. It not only gives these men a favor, but also does not offend Zhao Yin.
She couldn't send back the person Zhao Yin sent. If she offended Zhao Yin and caused an unnecessary dispute, her investigation progress would inevitably be slowed down.
Lou Zhi frowned slightly. Yun Zhihe could clearly see that his face was calm and expressionless, but he inexplicably felt that he was a little irritable.
His lips moved slightly, but still no words came out.
He just glanced at those gentlemen with a gloomy expression.
Those gentlemen were led away, and now only Lou Zhi and Yun Zhihe were left in the room. Lou Zhi did not speak, but just looked at her, tracing every inch of her features.
Yun Zhihe obviously knew his feelings.
She walked forward and lowered her eyes.
"... General Lou."
"I……"
She frowned as if she didn't know how to start, but seeing Lou Zhi staring at her intently, she still spoke softly.
"I have already become engaged to His Majesty."
Lou Zhi paused.
His eyes trembled in confusion.
"……real?"
Before Yun Zhihe could speak, he saw Lou Zhi lowering his head, frowning, as if muttering something to himself. He held up his calloused hands, pursed his lips, and fell silent.
Lou Zhi looked up at Yun Zhihe again. He was still frowning, but his voice was hoarse.
"...It's normal that you like him."
"He's fine." Lou Zhi paused.
“…Better than me.”
"He's very handsome, even better looking than me... He, he's very powerful, and he's also... very..."
Lou Zhi pursed his lips.
But in his opinion, the statement that Xuanyuan should be better than him seemed particularly normal and...natural.
Yun Zhihe was a little stunned, as if he didn't expect him to say such words.
He reached out and gently grabbed the corner of Yun Zhihe's clothes, and spoke in a hoarse voice.
"Can you like one more?"
"...You don't have to love me as much as you love him. Just hold me in your arms as you sleep every night...that'll be all."
Yun Zhihe shuddered all over. Looking at her dull eyes, Lou Zhi thought she would not agree. He lowered his eyes and paused, as if to compromise, but he frowned with reluctance.
The voice is soft.
"...We can add him."
"He" refers to Xuanyuan Ying.
"But you have to be in the middle."
Yun Zhihe took a step back after hearing his words, a forced smile on his face, his voice trembling, "Of course, no, you don't have to."
How could she deserve these two people to serve her together?
Even if her virtue matches her position, she cannot afford this blessing.
Lou Zhi didn't know why she stepped back and stared at her blankly.
Seeing Lou Zhi's confused look, she sighed softly.
"General Lou, I know your feelings, but..."
"But if I let you fall in love with someone else besides me, would you be willing?"
Lou Zhi thought about it and shook his head.
He could not have such a burning love for other women. It seemed to be burning in his heart and would not go out even a little bit.
She was the most turbulent emotion in Lou Zhi's life over the past twenty years.
"...I am the same. I cannot fall in love with anyone other than him, just like you don't like anyone other than me."
Yun Zhihe paused, she squatted down, looked up, and gently coaxed Lou Zhi as if she couldn't bear it.
"General Lou, events and emotions are extremely fickle. You met the wrong person in your youth, and your life story... is tragic. People shun you like the plague based solely on your reputation... No woman respects you as much as I do. Perhaps you mistake gratitude for love. Perhaps... you're mistaken."
"no!"
As soon as she finished speaking, Lou Zhi suddenly spoke out.
He retorted with a frown, his eyes red, showing such a big emotional fluctuation for the first time.
"Not grateful."
“…It’s love.”
Lou Zhi's voice trembled. He looked into Yun Zhihe's eyes persistently, almost obsessed with expressing his love.
"I can only see you at first sight."
"There are so many people here. Whether you're on the street, in the court, or anywhere else..."
“…I can only see you.”
He could only see Yun Zhihe's figure, the mist in her eyes and brows, and then the world slowed down, except for the moonlight on the mountains and seas, which tilted towards her alone.
He couldn't see anyone else.
He could only see the girl.
Lou Zhi seemed puzzled as to why his tears were streaming down. Although his expression was cold, his eyes were red and tears were dripping from them. Tears flowed down the tip of his chin, making him look a little fragile.
"It's love, not gratitude."
"If you say that again, I'll be angry."
He wiped away his tears with his hands in a daze.
"...I just want to hug you, I just...want to kiss you."
"I also want to sleep with you at night."
“…I won’t have nightmares anymore.”
"As long as you are by my side, I won't have nightmares anymore."
Yun Zhihe was stunned and closed her eyes.
“…Don’t abandon me.”
"Whatever it takes...don't leave me."
She could feel the surging love that was almost burning in Lou Zhi's soul, hitting the solid dam, becoming more and more intense, almost overflowing.
He frantically tried to suppress the surging love that overflowed, and his heart was filled with unspeakable pain and tenderness.
He didn't want to suppress it anymore.
Yun Zhihe lowered his eyes, sighed, and apologized to him softly.
"……sorry."
She reached out and touched Lou Zhi's head.
Although he was the same age as His Majesty, she touched his head, and the hair in her palm was soft and fragrant.
"...Don't cry, just get some sleep and you'll be fine."
Lou Zhi was sobbing for some reason, and he seemed to want to get rid of such crazy and turbulent emotions. He grabbed the clothes on his chest, his nose turned red, and he pursed his lips and nodded.
Her words...
He regarded it as the most pious truth.
Just have a good sleep.
Then, she would come back into his dreams, and his heart wouldn't ache so much... He would get better.
…
Lou Zhi fell asleep on the bed where Yun Zhihe had slept. Yun Zhihe saw that he looked haggard and wanted him to go to the guest room to rest, but he didn't expect that Lou Zhi himself knew Yun Zhihe very well. He walked into Yun Zhihe's room and lay down obediently and persistently.
Yun Zhihe retreated with a complicated look in his eyes, then leaned his back against the door, leaving behind only a long sigh.
She felt the chill on her back and closed her eyes.
Lou Zhi slept soundly.
It was the first time he slept so soundly.
There is no nightmare, no Xiao Qiniang, no mother.
...But there was one thing that made him unhappy.
He dreamed that he was hugging Yun Zhihe and fell asleep in her arms.
Then Xuanyuan Ying hugged Yun Zhihe's waist from behind, and the three of them pressed tightly together.
Lou Zhi doesn't hate Xuanyuan Ying.
They should be considered good brothers.
But... Lou Zhi snuggled in Yun Zhihe's arms again in a daze.
The joy of "getting" overwhelmed him, and he didn't seem to mind it that much.
It would be nice if it could be like this in the future.
It would be great if I could sleep so peacefully in her arms every day.
It would be great if she liked me.
Lou Zhi thought so.
Fell into a deep sleep.
The author has something to say:
I'm writing something that allows me to let go of myself.
Although, wouldn't it be nice to have a daddy on both sides when sleeping? .JPG
(Sudden nonsense, but the hero is still His Majesty)
I just want to sigh quietly, it seems that many babies like General Lou.
Some random thoughts. Actually, at the beginning (before the outline was finalized, and the male protagonist was not His Majesty at that time, but His Majesty was the villain in my mind at the beginning), I wanted to write that General Lou would die on the battlefield in the end, fulfilling his promise and righteousness to the emperor, but... I couldn't bear to kill him, so he should just live well.
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