Chapter 89 Lover's Memories
What kind of emotion makes people so stubborn?
Fu Zhitao has no relatives, she is an orphan and has no friends. The only superficial friend she has is Xie Erlan, the person who was stabbed.
She also has no younger generations she can trust, such as Yin Baixue.
Then there is only the last one left.
Lovers.
This lover who had been hiding behind her all this time and had never appeared before, was already dead in Ren Siling's words.
"A lover who cannot be spoken of, a lover who is not acknowledged by the world."
Ren Siling clenched her fists, then unclenched them.
"My family found out about my relationship with her, and they didn't agree. They locked me up, took away all my ways of contacting the outside world, and sent many people to watch over me, preventing me from escaping."
Those painful memories resurfaced once again, and her breathing began to tighten because it was too painful.
"Later, I tried everything, including fasting, self-mutilation, and even suicide..."
That day, she attempted suicide and was sent to the hospital. Just when she thought she had found a chance to escape, she saw news that made her regret for the rest of her life.
"After finally being sent to the hospital, I wanted to look for her, but I got the news that she had died. Do you know what? I even saw her death on TV."
She covered her face in pain.
"Later, I got my phone back and found out what had happened. I wasn't with her when she was in the most pain. At that moment, I really wanted to die."
She hated those people, but she hated herself even more.
"You know what? Before she died, she called me ten times, but I didn't answer any of them."
She sneered, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes.
"Fu Zhitao had a brilliant life. Her only mistake, her only stain, was meeting me. She shouldn't have known me. Without me, she wouldn't have been implicated, and she wouldn't have suffered this."
She only brought her pain, and all her misfortunes were caused by her.
If I had known this would happen, I should not have lost control of my heart.
Young and frivolous, she thought that love could conquer mountains and seas, but she was too young.
"So I'm not worthy of being mentioned to her. I'm not worthy of being her lover. I'm such a coward. This is what happened to her after she followed me. What qualifications do I have to say that I'm her lover?"
She almost screamed as she spoke these words.
[It turns out that she and Fu Zhitao are lovers.] 】
[For Fu Zhitao, her identity does not allow her to fall in love, and her lover is still a female, which will bring her even more trouble, so Fu Zhitao can only keep it a secret. 】
[Damn it, they obviously loved each other so much, why did it end like this? 】
[This is the real regret. Fu Zhitao must have loved her very much, otherwise he would not have risked his life to refuse to give her the script in order to protect her. 】
[Even though they love each other deeply...]
[She is dead. I found out about it from the news. I can’t even say to others openly that I am her girlfriend. It’s so painful. 】
[She must have regretted countless times why she was so careless to be discovered, and why she missed Fu Zhitao's call? 】
[I dare not even think about how she has survived the past two years. Playing the role of another person next to her enemies day and night, watching those enemies prosper, must be more tormenting than anything else, right? 】
[Good people don't have a good ending, but bad people end up dragging down good people. This world is really unfair. 】
"I have wanted to die for a long time, but I can't let go of the hatred. I want to find her cleanly when I die and give her an explanation."
That's why she planned this series, at the cost of her life.
"Why did you guess that?"
Ren Siling asked.
It's fucking amazing, isn't it?
"Have you forgotten? You once told me that you had a crush on someone, and later you two got together. I knew the other person's gender from the beginning, but I didn't expect that the person you liked was actually Fu Tao."
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