Chapter 86 Award Ceremony!!!
Guan Xianyi smiled even more.
Red energy nourishes people, this is not just talk.
Take another look in the mirror.
"The fans will be amazed, I promise."
Guan Xianyi patted Shu Ming's shoulder, signaling him that he could go and change.
Everything is ready, just waiting for the east wind.
**
Yinghe has also received some corresponding news internally, and is generally optimistic.
After the official list came out, netizens were particularly optimistic!
To be honest, apart from another veteran actor who can compete with "Bai Shan", the rest are just small fry.
Among TV drama awards, the Golden Osmanthus Award is relatively authoritative and everyone takes it seriously.
The result of paying attention to it is that the true and false news are mixed together on the Internet, and netizens are speculating at will.
"I wonder if Jingui can abandon seniority discrimination this time and encourage us young actors..."
"My husband is amazing! He's been nominated for so many awards in his first year of acting!"
"I feel like S has a pretty good chance of winning. The veteran actor next door has won Best Supporting Actor many times, so this one won't be a big deal... Bai Shan is truly amazing."
Baishan, the white moonlight of so many people!
It is so popular that people will dig it out every time summer and autumn come around. Especially with the popularity of "Little Secrets" this year, slices of it are flying all over the place again.
If I watch it for two more seconds, my eyes will become moist.
Thanks to the touching and shocking role played by Bai Shan, Shu Ming has always been popular among the public, with almost everyone supporting him.
The night before the award ceremony, following Guan Xianyi's instructions, Shu Ming moved up his routine call with Liang Ruowen by more than an hour.
It is to go to bed early, stay in good condition, and make it easier to style your hair the next day.
Sleepiness was brewing, Shu Ming buried his face in the pillow, his voice gradually getting lower and lower: "It's okay, I'm a little bit looking forward to it..." but not too much.
Even when he was so sleepy, he didn't forget to use foreign languages. It can be said that it is engraved in his bones.
Liang Ruwen laughed: "You are sleepy, hang up and go to bed early."
Good night, Xiaoshu, looking forward to your stunning appearance tomorrow.
He listened to the breathing of the other party on the phone for a long time reluctantly, and hung up before the phone ran out of battery and turned off.
Since the first day they met, Liang Ruowen had never seen Shu Ming wearing a suit properly, so it was not just talk.
He really, really was looking forward to it.
**
"It's too hot outside. Let's go inside as soon as the interview is over." Guan Xianyi was still helping him adjust his clothes and hair. Shu Ming lowered his head and let her fiddle with him obediently.
He is nearly 1.85 meters tall, and even with his head lowered, he is already intimidating.
It was his first time attending such a ceremony, and Guan Xianyi was worried that he would not be able to adapt, but Shu Ming looked calm and obviously adapted well.
"Teacher Qiao just sent me a message, asking me to go in and find him later." Shu Ming raised his arm to hug her, indicating that someone was taking care of him and asking her to relax. "Don't worry."
"Whether we win the award or not, we should be genuinely happy for the winner, and especially not show any sign of inappropriateness in front of the camera."
"Okay, go ahead."
It's time for Shu Ming to take the stage.
He only showed his agent his back, then took a decisive step forward and appeared in front of the media for the first time with a more mature and charming look.
The Golden Osmanthus Awards have always been broadcast live.
The well-fitting suit fabric wrapped around his broad and thin shoulders, but this thinness was no longer the youthful and frail look of his youth, but a beautiful line that was refreshing yet powerful.
Further down are the lean forearms.
The meridians and muscle lines extend from the cuffs, turning into protruding wrist bones and inconspicuous blue veins on the back of the hand.
What about up?
It is a beautiful face with three-dimensional contours, with the loose hair on the forehead pushed aside, revealing a smooth forehead and a high nose bridge.
But unlike the body lines that were sculpted at great expense, if you look closely at his face, you can still see the plump skin brought by youth.
So, it's quite contradictory. You know this person has grown up, but you can also see traces of his youthfulness that haven't aged too much, so you desperately hope he can stay in this complex, conflicted time.
Everyone who casts their eyes on him knows that this bite will definitely be astringent, but they still open their mouths without hesitation and use their teeth and tongue to grind it carefully to savor this subtle taste.
Shu Ming walked through layers of cameras and media attention, stood at the end of the red carpet, and smiled at the host.
It fully illustrates what it means to gradually move towards maturity and what it means to be handsome.
“…Is this S?”
"Oh my god, you're so handsome, husband..."
"In my mind, he was still at the age of a naive teenager like Chen Xuyang and Bai Shan... Today I suddenly realized he's already twenty..."
"No, S is really a bit S this time. Is this something you can say?"
"Hmm, if you look closely, it still has some of the youthful flavor from before. What a charming mixture of the middle periods..."
Qiao Minxue didn't even walk the red carpet. She was waiting for him in the venue early on and kept sending him messages urging him to come in quickly and not get heatstroke.
There was still a gap between the red carpet and the award ceremony. A quick glance revealed that all the men were old acquaintances.
Sun Yi, who played Bai Shan's father "Bai Song" and Zheng Yiwei, and two directors and fellow students with Bi Fangchen, Zhang Su, and some actors and screenwriters who have met before...
Oh, and Yi Cheng and Ye Liqing.
In fact, Shu Mingben didn't notice them. He was being pulled into the crowd by Qiao Minxue, greeting all the seniors one by one, and then taking over the conversation steadily amid the good-natured teasing of a group of acquaintances.
So the media captured a very harmonious scene——
Shu Ming slightly retracted his long legs and sat between Qiao Minxue and the two famous directors. It was unknown what he said, but many big names also gave him face and laughed together.
Bi Fangchen laughed the most exaggeratedly and patted him on the shoulder: "Good boy, come here, you can also consider my next play!"
Zheng Yiwei rolled his eyes at him and said, "Hey, stop making empty promises. Xiao Shu, we don't believe him! He's looking for someone to play a second-rate villain in his next movie! Be careful, he'll ruin your screen image."
Bi Fangchen was so angry that he slammed the armrest of the chair and threatened to clean up the sect and rectify the atmosphere!
Qiao Minxue leaned towards him and was about to ask him about his next plans when someone sat down in the back row.
Shu Ming smelled a strong scent of perfume at the tip of his nose.
His nose was a little sore from the smoke, but with countless cameras staring at him, Shu Ming could only remain calm and replied to Qiao Minxue: "I have already signed the film contract and should be joining the crew in October."
"well……"
While turning his head to look at Qiao Minxue, he quickly glanced at who was behind him and found that it was Yi Cheng and Ye Liqing sitting on his left and right respectively.
I don’t know who sprayed such a strong perfume... Shu Ming didn’t want to investigate further and immediately looked away.
This made Yi Cheng and Ye Liqing behind him feel embarrassed!
Because of Shu Ming's casual glance, the two of them instantly became "excited":
One of them had a burning gaze, having unilaterally regarded the other as a "competitor". He had made full psychological preparations and expression management, trying to compete with Shu Ming in front of the camera; the other had raised his hand slightly, wanting to seize this rare opportunity to see Shu Ming and say a few words to him.
But who would have thought that after Shu Ming took a quick glance, he didn't show any emotion at all, and looked at them as if he was looking at air!
In other words, he didn't take either of these two people seriously. It really makes people wonder, was the slight tilt of his head just now just an illusion?
Such carelessness makes people angry!
Thus, there was this scene - the directors, screenwriters, and middle-aged male actors around Shu Ming also turned their eyes to him with preference; the younger generation behind him were even more jealous and kept casting glances at him, with envy, jealousy, or loss, always wishing to take his place, or perhaps just wishing they could be closer to him, closer and closer...
Ye Liqing deliberately sat not far from him. Seeing this scene, he immediately recalled the summer they spent side by side.
It was the same on the show at that time.
Although no one said it openly, who wouldn't secretly look at Shu Ming for a second, hoping that when they looked over, Xiao Shu could give them a different response, even if it was just looking at them for one more second or saying one more word to them?
Who hasn't wished that Shu Ming could rely on him wholeheartedly and firmly choose him as his teammate?
Ye Liqing is no exception.
What a pity...but it was too late at that time.
Everyone was chatting and laughing, and as the award ceremony approached, Shu Ming's forehead became a little messy, so he went backstage and asked the styling team to tidy it up for him.
The Golden Osmanthus Awards are always shot right up close, leaving no one with a chance to show their affection. Actually, the agent should have been standing outside to remind him, but Guan Xianyi was probably busy and didn't watch him from inside.
Only the eldest brother held a long gun, stood in a corner where the official camera could not capture, and took pictures of him against the wall of the inner field - the artist team also had to produce pictures themselves.
Even without his agent's reminder, Shu Ming knew what was going on. He remembered Guan Xianyi's instructions to him before going on stage, so he simply nodded to his elder brother, indicating that he would slip out and make some preparations.
Unexpectedly, when I entered the backstage, I saw the disappeared Guan Xianyi leaning against the wall, talking on the phone with a serious expression.
Shu Ming has put on some makeup with the help of his team. He didn't actually do much to embellish his face, and the biggest project was probably his hairstyle.
Although it was their usual styling team and they were trustworthy, Shu Ming still waited until everyone had left before cautiously asking, "Sister Xianyi, what's wrong?"
Guan Xianyi put away her phone, her high heels clacking against the tiles. She gestured to Shu Ming with a breathy voice and mouthed, "Looks like there's going to be an airborne parade this year."
It is not yet known who it will be, nor which award it will be awarded.
Yinghe's connection with the faction in the capital was not that close, and the news was vague, but this news was hastily delivered to him right in front of him, which meant that the airborne landing was definitely a foregone conclusion.
Guan Xianyi's heart sank, but she figured the Newcomer Award wouldn't just be handed out of the blue—it wasn't a prestigious award, and most people with connections wouldn't bother playing such a trick. But if Shu Ming was truly unlucky enough to be this bad...
She wasn't afraid to prepare for the worst.
Perhaps, Shu Ming’s Best Supporting Actor award is still uncertain.
"No matter who wins the award, don't be upset. Stay calm. You must, you must, stay calm until the very last second."
She used two "definitely" in a row, which shows how important it is.
How many pairs of eyes are watching here!
There were all sorts of gossip flying around the internet, almost all of them betting that Shu Ming would win two awards in one night. Under so much attention, if his expression was even slightly off, he would become a target of rumors and criticism.
She held Shu Ming's shoulders, gave him final instructions word by word, and then sent him back to the stage with a look of melancholy.
Go, go, no matter whether you can win this trophy or not, people always have to grow up.
Whether it's excitement or disappointment, it's all a valuable experience in your acting career...
**
First, the two best screenwriters awards were given. The adaptation award went to a big IP, and the original award went to "Little Secret".
Not surprising.
Shu Ming clapped his hands gently in the audience, and saw a familiar face holding the osmanthus trophy. He choked up on the stage and thanked the entire crew for their efforts, and thanked all the actors for respecting his creative efforts and being able to bring the design's ingenuity to the screen without any error.
The screenwriter's eyes were clearly looking in Shu Ming's direction, and the camera turned appropriately, giving Shu Ming a fleeting focus.
Next comes photography and directing.
One was given to "Love on the Grassland" and the other was given to a tribute drama "Rivers, Lakes and Seas".
What's next? Best Supporting Actor?
I said I wasn't nervous or looking forward to it, but when it came time, I couldn't help but feel nervous.
Shu Ming heard his own heartbeat.
I heard the tidal-like applause from the audience, and also heard Qiao Minxue sighing beside me, what a normal result.
Until the actor who won the Best Actor award in the previous session took the microphone tightly on the stage and announced it word by word.
"The winner of the Best Supporting Actor award is..."
His heartbeat quickened a little, and he let out a breath softly and calmly.
"Sun Yi, 'Above Legal Principles'."
"Congratulations!"
Double affirmation of strength and reputation!
It is indeed well deserved!
Although he did not win a nomination for "Love on the Grassland", Sun Yi, a model worker, has too many works to show for himself. "Above the Law" is also the opening drama of this year, and his reputation and acting skills are full.
Shu Ming couldn't tell whether he was disappointed or genuinely happy for the senior who played his father.
Maybe he felt a mixture of both, but that didn't stop him from standing up quickly and giving Sun Yi a sincere hug and blessing.
Sun Yi obviously admired him as well, as he knew very well the acting skills Shu Ming had contributed to Bai Shan.
The two of them hugged each other tightly and said, "It will definitely happen."
Shu Ming nodded and responded with a smile: "Okay, I will definitely do it next time."
Guan Xianyi breathed a sigh of relief backstage.
Under the lens of countless magnifications, Shu Ming's face was indeed filled with genuine blessings and relief. Regardless of whether he was acting or not, at least he wouldn't be criticized.
Xiao Shu is still young and it’s her first year of acting, so she has a lot of time to grow.
After the most tense period, Shu Ming relaxed and had time to chat and laugh with Qiao Minxue.
Qiao Minxue asked him if he was nervous just now. Shu Ming replied quietly, "Yes, I was too nervous. I felt like my face was expressionless..."
Just as the father and son were whispering to each other, the camera suddenly swept over.
The two people on the screen were stunned for a moment. Not to mention, the "father and son on the set" look really alike, even their surprised expressions are exactly the same!
There was a great deal of good-natured laughter.
The award presenter on the stage was also amused, holding back a laugh: "Best Actor, Qiao Minxue!"
Ah, yes, it’s time to present the Best Actor award!
Although it was clear that Qiao Minxue no longer needed this award, Shu Ming was still happy for him.
Well, I was hugged tightly and strongly again.
I don’t know if he was competing with Sun Yi, but Qiao Minxue seemed to have more strength in his arms.
"Teacher Qiao, congratulations!"
What's next?
Best TV Series and Best Newcomer.
Qiao Minxue has returned with the golden trophy.
Although this wasn't his first win, and the Golden Osmanthus Award no longer played a decisive role in his career, this elegant and handsome man was clearly delighted to have won the award: "I feel like my work has been a bit more solid this year. When will the Golden Osmanthus Award be..."
Is the funding so sufficient?
He weighed it again and said, "It really seems to be a bit heavier than previous years."
In fact, only Shu Ming is worth watching for this year's Best Newcomer. The rest of the nominated male actors have hardly made any big waves. They have few roles, mediocre acting skills, and are not recognized by the public. When some of their names are mentioned, everyone even has to think about what they played in their minds?
For example, Ye Liqing, who was sitting diagonally behind Shu Ming and was almost unknown in the TV drama circle.
Young actors with a little fame, such as Yi Cheng, are no longer newcomers acting for the first time. He applied for the Best Supporting Actor, but obviously, he didn't even make it to the finals.
Only Bai Shan and Chen Xuyang are the two characters that have truly become popular.
Qiao Minxue clearly assumed that the Best Newcomer award would go to Shu Ming, so he indicated to Shu Ming that the trophy was a bit heavy and told him to hold it carefully and steady.
The camera kept scanning Shu Ming's face until the award was finally announced.
The guest standing on the stage read out these words softly and with a hint of compassion.
The Best Newcomer Award is——
Rivers, Lakes and Seas, Fei Shuo.
**
who?
Fei Shuo? Who is this Fei Shuo?
The internet exploded in an instant.
Everyone rubbed their ears in disbelief, almost thinking they had heard it wrong!
You know, the name Fei Shuo is almost a sidebar in the drama "Rivers, Lakes and Seas".
In fact, the broadcast of "Rivers, Lakes and Seas" was not very good. It almost won no Golden Osmanthus Awards this time. Who would have thought that it would intervene in front of Shu Ming in the end?
Not only were many people at the scene confused, but netizens were also confused.
After the moment of confusion, there was overwhelming public opinion!
"Although S was smiling, when he lowered his eyes, he looked a little lost..."
"No S? It's really an upset. Isn't Bai Shan worthy?"
"Even though they were so far away, they still stood up to congratulate each other. I really feel sorry for S for a minute."
"Especially when everyone thought he was a done deal...it was a bigger blow..."
The award ceremony ended hastily and awkwardly amidst such chaotic discussions.
All the award winners finally went on stage for a group photo, and the other guests left the stage.
Shu Ming walked quickly past the stage, trying not to disturb them while they were taking photos.
Several people he knew well were standing on the stage, so he looked particularly lonely. Streamers fluttered down. Just as he was about to leave the stage, he heard someone calling his name from behind.
"Xiao Shu, Xiao Shu, Shu Ming..."
Guan Xianyi was already filled with anger as he walked from the backstage to the inner door, ready to take Shu Ming back.
Airborne, ha, what a good airborne.
The person she had been guessing about for so long turned out to be this inconspicuous Fei Shuo!
Killing everyone with a sudden airborne attack, huh?
If Jin Gui hadn't been hinting to Yinghe to let Shu Ming attend the award ceremony, would she have let Shu Ming be a stepping stone for this other person?
But after waiting nearby for a long time, I still didn't see Shu Ming, only a message.
"Sister Xianyi, someone wants to talk to me about something. I'll come out to see you later. Please and Sister Chengzi wait for me."
…
Ye Liqing jogged two steps before he saw the figure that had appeared repeatedly in his dream stop at the door and turn around.
He had expected to see mixed emotions on Shu Ming's face because of tonight's unexpected award.
But Shu Ming's expression didn't change at all. He just asked him calmly, "What's the matter?"
Ye Liqing choked and almost forgot why he came. After a while, he hinted to Shu Ming that he knew a little about the inside story behind tonight's events.
So the two of them left the venue and found a hidden little door to talk.
In fact, with everyone's attention on him tonight, he would be photographed no matter where he stood. Shu Ming was mentally prepared, but if he didn't let Ye Liqing speak out, it seemed that this man was not going to let him go.
Then let him speak.
Ye Liqing began to spill the beans about how Fei Shuo, the wealthy young man with a strong background, had won tonight's "Newcomer Award" simply because of some boastful boasting he'd made at a drinking party. It was said he'd made a bet with a friend that he'd win a trophy this year, and so the Golden Osmanthus Award went to this unlucky guy.
Besides, this guy had previously intervened and snatched Hongyu's role, and even Hongyu dared not say anything...
But as he was talking, he stopped talking.
Shu Ming opposite was completely shrouded in the watery moonlight. He was no longer the pitiful and lovely child who needed his care and support, but had become the person he had to look up to now.
Does he know this information? Is all this unnecessary to him?
Ye Liqing clearly hadn't drunk a sip of alcohol, but he realized in a drunken state that he should shut up.
After all, Hongyu had also done this thing of snatching roles, just in May last year.
On Shu Ming's birthday.
So he unconsciously took a small step back and lowered his head: "...Xiao Shu, I'm sorry for what happened with the protagonist of the movie last year."
He had protested to his agent, but what could he do? He was just an ant trying to shake a tree; he was overestimating his own abilities.
The wind blew gently, and only the leaves of the locust tree made a slight rustling sound.
And during the draft that year, he also... he also felt sorry for Shu Ming.
For a long while, no one spoke.
Shu Ming had already taken off his coat and was looking at him quietly, saying the same words from "Choice 1" - "I know."
However, this time, the "I know" is no longer the anger and perfunctory attitude of youthful friendship.
Shu Ming really knew.
He has also been troubled and witnessed too many people being forced to do things for themselves.
I have witnessed the conflicts of interest within this industry, which have forced too many people, too many things, and too many involuntary development directions.
At that time, both sides had their own difficulties.
"I've never blamed you. You don't have to bear such a heavy psychological burden."
After receiving an answer he had never expected, Ye Liqing looked up suddenly, his face full of disbelief.
Really?
Ye Liqing could almost hear his own frantic heartbeat.
He could barely maintain the expression on his face, but he couldn't keep his heartbeat from betraying him.
Every day that he was forced to act, he would think of those summer days.
That was truly the happiest time for him. The program that had been banned for many years was rebroadcast, and it seemed that he had hope of making his debut again. Everyone on the stage was working hard, and even the sweat they shed was worth it.
Back then, Shu Ming poked his furry head out of the practice room door and called out to him with a smile, "Brother Ye, come and help me—"
He and Shu Ming walked along the road lined with locust trees that day. The wind blew over them, and he secretly listened to his slightly rapid pulse.
Ye Liqing also hated it.
I hated myself for not helping Shu Ming when I vaguely knew the truth behind the scenes.
I hate myself for not realizing this fate when I was listening to my heartbeat, and for mistaking it for friendship.
I hated myself for not having the courage to take a step forward and contact him again when I saw Shu Ming's updates.
Now that he had Shu Ming's forgiveness, Ye Liqing almost fainted. He reached out to touch Shu Ming as he did in the past: "Xiao Shu, I..."
Shu Ming didn't even move a step; just a glance made him stand still.
"I don't blame you, but that doesn't mean I forgive you."
It is true that everyone has their own difficulties, but hasn’t Ye Liqing enjoyed the benefits of it?
Shu Ming smiled at him, but without any unnecessary glances.
He turned around decisively, as if he wanted to say goodbye to everything that had happened in the past.
But when I pushed the door open and returned to the venue, I still remembered to turn around and politely said, "Goodbye, come back soon."
Ye Liqing squatted down slowly and weakly, watching the shadow moving farther and farther away until it disappeared at the end of the corridor, completely and never to be seen again.
**
"Who's looking for you?"
"Ye Liqing."
Orange's voice came from the front, looking very shocked: "He confessed to you?"
Shu Ming pinched the swollen and painful Taiyangxue: "No..."
Now it was Guan Xianyi's turn to be shocked: "Aren't you surprised?"
"I know he likes me. I'm not stupid."
Even if you didn’t know it before, you will know it tonight!
Everyone knew the answer, but Zhuang Zheng was the only one who was getting a little impatient: "Ye Liqing? The guy from 'Election 1'?"
Oh no, I forgot that my eldest brother is the most traditional type.
But Shu Ming no longer had the energy to explain to his brother. He just leaned against the car window and nodded with a headache.
He was disappointed at the awards ceremony tonight, but he remained graceful and responded appropriately in front of outsiders.
But when he returned to his team, anyone could understand how lost and frustrated he was.
But Shu Ming was neither noisy nor annoyed, and he never took his anger out on others like previous artists would. He just tried his best to maintain a smile and comfort everyone around him.
No expectations, no disappointment.
Shu Ming's original expectations were too high, which is why he was so sad after falling so hard.
Guan Xianyi sighed: "It's my fault, I shouldn't have..."
It was because she gave Shu Ming too many wrong signals that this happened.
She was halfway through her words when Shu Ming patted her on the back of her hand, signaling her to stop.
"Thank you for your hard work, Sister Xianyi."
In order for him to make a stunning appearance this time, Guan Xianyi did countless behind-the-scenes work, and this parachuting was actually not what Guan Xianyi wanted.
Was he wrong? He thought he was not wrong.
Was Guan Xianyi wrong? Of course not.
But... the moment the car stopped, Shu Ming was the first to stand up, pushed open the door, and wanted to go upstairs.
Then he suddenly stopped, as if remembering something.
Amidst everyone's worried expressions, Shu Ming's tone remained calm:
"I want to be alone for a while tonight. Can you wake me up later tomorrow?"
Lift your wrist again.
"It's late today, Sister Xianyi, you two shouldn't go back. Let's stay at a nearby hotel and I'll pay for it...Brother, why don't you come with us too?"
It was almost a little pleading.
The two brothers have always lived together, but maybe Shu Ming was too upset today, so he even wanted to "drive" his eldest brother out.
Zhuang Zheng naturally had no complaints. He just rubbed his brother's head with heartache. When he stretched out his hand, he only touched the slightly hard hair sprayed with hairspray.
He sighed and agreed.
Shu Ming smiled at him. He really didn't have the energy to care about them anymore. Carrying a heavy coat was an unnecessary drain on his energy. He just walked towards the elevator step by step.
The leather shoes stepped on the ground, making an echo.
Even his back was straight when he was left behind, but inexplicably, he could still see some fatigue.
Then he disappeared quietly and silently at the elevator entrance.
But after getting away from everyone, Shu Ming was not completely relaxed. He was still replying to messages in the elevator.
He has to respond to all those who care about him, whether it is sincere or insincere. If he doesn't get the award one day, will Ming Chao no longer be in this circle?
The last two messages happened to be from Chan Kong-sang and Leung Yu-man, who were also the first two to send him messages.
The elevator door opened with a ding.
He turned off his phone and placed it gently on the coffee table.
In such a situation, he was cautious enough not to throw his phone away casually, even if it fell on the soft sofa.
The living room of this suite has floor-to-ceiling glass windows.
Looking down aimlessly, even in the early morning, many buildings in the capital were still lit up. It would be an exaggeration to say that there was a lot of traffic, but there were still scattered cars and people.
To say how big a blow Shu Ming suffered today is indeed too pretentious and self-pitying.
Shu Ming has never been so sentimental. If he had not been in this industry now, he would have had a share in these lit lights.
Working overtime all night always makes more money than working the day shift. Did Shu Ming stay up too many nights as a freshman?
The money he earned then was only one ten-millionth of what he earns now, but he never complained or gave up on himself.
Things are getting better and better now. He can stand on a high place and overlook this core city that he had never dared to imagine before. There is no reason to be overly sad anymore.
It's just an award. If he doesn't get it this time, or next time, what about the next time? Because of public opinion, he'll get it eventually... right?
But why do I still feel resentful?
He slowly sat down on the sofa, looking at his reflection on the TV screen, examining himself tonight.
Why is there such a big emotional reaction?
Shu Ming admits that he is not a completely kind person.
On the contrary, he is extremely selfish, has his own ideas, is vindictive, and is obsessed with getting ahead.
In the past, most people only had a pure and kind side because they had to be pure and kind!
He has no capital to act aggressively, he can only open his heart and tell others - I am not a threat to you.
In exchange for a little living space.
This is Shu Ming's survival strategy. This set of rules may be more useful in rural areas where people are bound by etiquette, morality, and face.
But now that he had walked out of the mountains and outside, he suddenly realized that this survival strategy no longer worked!
Tonight's award was a real blow to him!
Fei Shuo...an extremely unfamiliar name.
He had no hatred or grudge against this actor - if the person who was trying to trip him up was his enemy Hongyu or Yicheng who had long disliked him, he could convince himself that it was because of the grudge they had in the past, and he could slowly take action and plan to win them back.
But it just happened! It just happened that this person had never met him before, let alone anything that had ever conflicted with him.
Any survival strategy, any step-by-step planning and effort, seems like a joke.
It's just because Fei Shuo needs it...
If someone supports you, you can take it away at will without having to argue with others.
Shu Ming had never understood so clearly at this moment that capital was unreasonable.
The reason he didn't make his debut in the talent show wasn't because he didn't work hard enough or wasn't charismatic enough.
It’s just because capital is inherently unreasonable. They come and go as they please!
The reason why he was forced to drink too much bitter wine at many dinner parties was not because he didn't have any achievements.
Shu Ming thought that he could get fairness and dignity as a result of disguising himself well enough, standing high enough, achieving dazzling investment results, and working hard enough... but none of it counted!
Even what he realized today should be the introductory home lessons that others have listened to too many times!
Only he, a silly boy from the countryside, understood such a simple truth today.
Fortunately, fortunately it’s not too late.
Ask yourself, if you strip away your background and context, and stand naked before the public, isn't he competitive enough? Is he any worse than anyone else?
No, it's not.
From the beginning to the end, Shu Ming never thought that he could not win or was not worthy of winning this small newcomer award.
He does have desires and ambitions, and he is not willing to be manipulated by others.
Has he not spent enough time at the mercy of others? Has he not spent enough time in humiliation and at the mercy of others?
How to do this may still be unclear.
But the question of which direction to go has already quietly surfaced and become an unspoken answer.
Shu Ming opened his collar and fell back on the sofa.
The glaring light on the ceiling turned into a dazzling light in my eyes, and then into a dizzying colorful code that flew and swirled like garbled code...
He stared and stared without blinking until a few tears overflowed from his eyes and it hurt so much that he couldn't open them anymore.
Then he smiled slightly.
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The author has something to say: I would like to call this chapter the turning point of World War II.
But this article is a lighthearted one, and that won’t change.
Nearly nine thousand words, today is also a very exciting day!
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