Chapter 524 Explosion

Zhu Suisui did not dodge.

She was embraced by Lu Lanxu, and although they were in each other's arms, there was not a single sweet atmosphere.

Zhu Suisui reached out her hand and stroked his face, with an indifferent expression: "Lan Xu, we are together because of fate. It is our fate that we cannot continue now. We can still be friends in the future. If you are worried about the Lu family, I can go and talk to them."

"Sui Sui..." Lu Lanxu held her hand, unconsciously tightening it a little. He whispered, "Why can't you continue this marriage? Can you tell me the reason?"

Seeing Lu Lanxu say this, Zhu Suisui sighed, "Everyone has their own bottom line, Lanxu, I have always given you opportunities, and I understand some of your thoughts, but I really can't accept it. I don't know what I should do so that you are willing to treat me as your real wife, not a fragile crystal doll."

Lu Lan realized, "I don't have any."

Zhu Suisui shook his head. "You didn't have it? If you didn't, why didn't you tell me about the vasectomy?"

This question made Lu Lanxu silent.

He tried to make Zhu Suisui understand, "I think children are not the most important thing to either of us..."

"Yes, none of them are the most important. Then what is the most important to you?" Zhu Sui's emotions suddenly became tense, and his eyes turned cold. "We are husband and wife, and children are not important to you. Then have you asked me what I think? You think this is the best for me, so you can ignore my opinion. You think this matter will hurt me, so you use your own method to solve it. Am I wrong?"

Lu Lanxu was silent.

Seeing him still like this, Zhu Suisui took a deep breath and suppressed his emotions. "Lan Xu, I know why you did this. I think Hu Yongchun must have told my mother something during the last checkup. My mother couldn't tell me, so she told you. In order to protect me and not let my mother think it was my problem, you took the responsibility on yourself. You think this is the best way, and the world will be peaceful. I won't feel guilty, but my mother will feel guilty about it. This is why you hid it from me, right!"

Hearing this.

Lu Lanxu looked at her with a moment of surprise.

As expected, I guessed it right.

Zhu Suisui smiled bitterly, "Look at you, you have lived your whole life for either these people or those people. You are always responsible for other people's affairs. When Xu Xiayan came to you, she bypassed me and you helped her. Did I think there was something going on between you two? I know you didn't tell me because you were afraid that the people and affairs of the Xu family would bother me, so you took it on yourself."

"After you married me, except for my family members who treated me well, everyone else around me wanted to suck your blood. If you didn't tell me, would it not exist? I knew nothing. I was like a fool, kept in the dark, and kept by you in the inner courtyard of your house. The world I saw was all built by you for me."

"So, you're being nice to me?"

Lu Lanxu pursed her lips into a line, not knowing how to speak. He could only look at her like this.

Zhu Suisui got angry when she saw him like this. The emotions that had calmed down suddenly rose again. She looked at him fiercely, "Lu Lanxu, you treat me well in your own way, but you never tell me. But for me, the self-blame and inferiority complex make me want to leave you urgently. You say you are so excellent and perfect. From the military area to here, as long as you show up, you are always the one who attracts bees and butterflies."

"This is just what I know and see. What about those I didn't see? Husbands and wives should trust each other, but you don't trust me. Don't rush to deny me. You just don't believe me. In your heart, Lu Lanxu, I, Zhu Suisui, am just a country girl who is not presentable. That's why I can't handle anything well. As long as I encounter a little setback, I will collapse. This is what you think of me!"

"You kept me in a greenhouse and treated me like a delicate flower, but did you know that if you didn't take good care of me and provide me with food, I would die. I would die!"

The past life came to her mind. Her depression became more and more serious. She grew flowers at home, but she always cried when she looked at them.

She wanted Lu Lanxu to come back and accompany her, but he was too busy. She didn't dare to express her needs and always said that she was fine. Later, the flowers withered, just like herself, gradually withering.

Zhu Suisui thought that he would never think about these things again in his life, but now all those memories are flooding back to his mind.

"In fact, during these days of the cold war, I never really wanted to divorce you, because at least I know that you love me. You did all these because you didn't know how to love me, so you used the wrong method. Don't worry, we are husband and wife. I can give you a chance to change, but no matter how I talk to you, you seem unable to change. You are always gentle and gentleman, just like I am a madman in my hysterics."

"Lu Lanxu, do you know how ridiculous this feeling is? I can't guess what's in your mind, and I don't want to keep guessing what's in your mind. I hope you can tell me. I hope we can always talk about anything. I've persisted for so long, I've loved you for so long, I've loved you since the first time I saw you."

"Marrying you was my secret joy. I was terrified, I was inferior and cowardly. The more excellent and perfect you were, the less I dared to touch you. I worked hard to become better and better. I wanted others to stop saying that I was unworthy of you. I hoped that I could stand on the peak with you instead of always looking up at you. But Lu Lanxu, this road is too tiring."

"I'm not right for you, and you're not right for me, so let's just leave it at that."

Lu Lanxu just listened.

When he heard her say that she loved him, his heart softened instantly, but then he heard her say that she was too tired and didn't want to continue.

His heart seemed to be kneaded and played with by a pair of large hands. He subconsciously tried to grasp this glimmer of hope, his voice low.

"Sui Sui, there's still time. We won't get divorced. Tell me what you want me to do and I'll change it."

Zhu Suisui shook his head, "You can't change Lan Xu. I've given you so much time, but you can't change at all. I don't want to always have emotional breakdowns because of you. I thought I was good enough and strong enough now, but whenever I see other lesbians like you and you act politely to them, I get jealous. I'm dying of jealousy. The last time I agreed to live a good life with you was because grandma and mom said that marriage is about living together, and you should be with someone with good character, not about illusory love."

"I heard you, and I'm trying to detach myself from my feelings for you, but I just can't do it. As long as you're nice to me, I'll easily fall in love with you again. I can't just treat you as someone I want to live with. I just want love, I just want your wholehearted love!"

Speaking of this.

Zhu Suisui looked at Lu Lanxu and smiled.

"Lu Lanxu, you will never know how much I love you, but I am also a human being. If I never get a response, I will get tired and fall into self-doubt. You have too many responsibilities. I am not the first in your responsibilities, but I am so naive. I just want to be the first. Now I finally understand that you love me, but you don’t understand me."

There are so many things I want to say.

Now he said it all in one breath.

Zhu Suisui actually felt relieved. She stood up, walked over, opened the door, looked at the man sitting on the sofa, and her voice was extremely cold.

"Go ahead, we're done."

The sound of footsteps echoed in my ears.

Zhu Suisui didn't look back at the man again.

She thought that was enough.

There is no need to do it for a man. She is not the kind of person who can't let go. She can't just die again like in her last life.

At this time.

The door was closed.

Zhu Suisui was stunned.

She raised her eyes and saw Lu Lanxu very close to her. The man's aura was obvious and his eyes were deep and dark, revealing complex emotions that she could not understand.

Zhu Suisui frowned, "Lu Lanxu, isn't what I said clear enough?"

The man turned a deaf ear to her and just picked her up without giving her a chance to refuse.

She subconsciously looked at Lu Lanxu.

The man's voice was unusually gentle: "Sui Sui, don't you want to see the real me?"