Chapter 41 Chapter 41 I love you. No matter what, I will love you.
Jiang Chi was stunned.
This was a possibility he had never thought of. Or rather, a possibility that we never dared to imagine.
Because of the trauma of Shao Bin, he thought Sheng Jianan must be as opposed to all homosexual behaviors as he was, or even more so than he was. In fact, Sheng Jianan's reaction was the same. He was much kinder when he rejected girls who liked him than when he rejected boys who liked him.
They grew up together and had little contact with other people. During their ignorant youth, Jiang Chi's first special reaction was naturally to Sheng Jianan.
Because he knew little about relationships and had an instinctive sense of shame about desires during adolescence, he was not sure what he was thinking at that time. However, it is never a good thing to have such excessive thoughts about your baby.
So much so that every time he saw Sheng Jianan's clean and pure face, Jiang Chi would always force himself to ignore those unhealthy thoughts.
Until Shao Bin appeared...
After that, he didn't have to ignore it anymore, because it was too disgusting, so disgusting that he didn't dare to have any desire in that regard towards Sheng Jianan anymore. Even at the beginning, recalling what Shao Bin said and thinking about the possibility that he had not gone to pick up Sheng Jianan that night, I felt an instinctive nausea.
No one can insult his baby, including himself, just think about it!
He thought Sheng Jianan would never like boys, just as he was averse to homosexual behavior.
But just now, Sheng Jianan told him in person that he liked boys and wanted to date them. This means that any intimate behavior Sheng Jianan wants can be with the same sex.
All those images that he had suppressed deep in his heart suddenly came flooding back, filling his mind.
Jiang Chi couldn't help swallowing his saliva. If Sheng Jianan wanted, he wouldn't mind doing those things with him...
Probably more than just not minding.
When Jiang Chi thought about the fact that he and Sheng Jianan could do the scene in the video this afternoon, he couldn't help feeling a little hot and was extremely excited.
"You like boys..." Jiang Chi spoke slowly.
Sheng Jianan stared at him closely.
Jiang Chi looked at him intently: "Then I like boys too."
This time it was Sheng Jianan's turn to be stunned. He had never expected to get such an answer.
Thinking of this, Jiang Chi suddenly became more excited. Anyway, they both like boys, so the kissing that Sheng Jianan said only couples can do, won’t they be able to do it often in the future?
Then when he moves out next year, he will kiss Sheng Jianan every day, every moment and every second.
Damn, just thinking about it made Jiang Chi’s blood boil.
"Sheng Nannan, listen to me." Jiang Chi took a step forward and held his face. "Before..."
Thinking of those things, he paused for a moment, and then said, "I thought you would be disgusted by this kind of thing. But just now you said that you like boys and want to date boys. Then I will say it directly."
"Sheng Jianan, you can only be mine. You can't like anyone else, and you can't date anyone other than me." Jiang Chi paused and said, "But considering that you can only date once in your life, our little Jianan must have everything that others have."
Jiang Chi smiled as he spoke, his eyes curved up, his dark pupils filled with laughter: "I will pursue you well and let everyone know that I am pursuing you, so that no one will confess to you in the future."
It's obvious that they are more than just good brothers, but these people will never understand. But it's the same to add the identity of a couple. In the eyes of others, it's just one more proof that they are closer.
Jiang Chi's chest was heaving, and one could tell at a glance that he was extremely emotional.
The cold night wind blew through Sheng Jianan's hair, and his slightly raised eyebrows were illuminated by the street lights. Jiang Chi looked at his bright eyes, his Adam's apple rolled up and down a few times, slightly calming his excitement.
The two looked at each other silently for a moment, Sheng Jianan blinked and nodded slightly.
Seeing this, Jiang Chi became happy again and couldn't help wanting to kiss him on the face. Sheng Jianan noticed this and immediately stepped back, raising his hand to cover his mouth.
"Didn't you say you wanted to pursue her?" Sheng Jianan said.
Jiang Chi looked at him and thought that it was a wrong idea. He should have said that he would talk to her first and then pursue her. This way he can kiss and chase at the same time.
Jiang Chi was amused by his own thoughts for a long time. His laughter was a little muffled in the night wind, but it was very pleasant to hear.
He hummed, raised his voice, and said with a smile: "Okay, then we'll kiss later."
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The next day, Ling Mo received a rare invitation from Jiang Chi and hurried to the school cafe to keep the appointment.
When he arrived, Jiang Chi was playing with his cell phone, waiting there bored, with his long legs stretched out. There were many girls nearby peeking at him and talking about him.
I have to admit that although Jiang Chi’s personality isn’t that great, he’s really good-looking and is definitely one of the best in Xia University.
Ling Mo sat down opposite him: "What good day is today? You actually thought of asking me out."
"What would you like to drink?" Jiang Chi casually slid the menu on the table over.
"Let's have an Americano." Ling Mo turned around and shouted towards the store, then asked Jiang Chi, "Where's Nan Nan? Is she in class?"
"Yeah." Jiang Chi picked up the coffee and took a sip, locked his phone, sat up, and said bluntly, "I want to pursue Sheng Jianan."
Although Ling Mo already knew about this, he couldn't help but cough when he heard him speak so bluntly. Then he couldn't help but smile, but he forced it back.
"Fuck, is this true?" Ling Mo widened his eyes intentionally.
"Really." Jiang Chi said.
Although Ling Mo pretended to be very obvious, Jiang Chi was not sensitive to his reaction at all, and said directly: "I want to ask you for help. I have never pursued anyone."
Ling Mo looked at Jiang Chi and thought seriously for a while: "In fact, you two are already good enough. You have brought all the food, drinks and entertainment to him. There is nothing you can do to catch him."
"That's why I came to you." Jiang Chi had a look on his face that said "What nonsense are you talking about?" "I want to pursue Sheng Jianan, at least let the whole school know."
At this point, Jiang Chi thought of something and couldn't help but grit his teeth: "It would save someone from confessing to him every day."
"Uh..." Hearing this, thinking about Jiang Chi's style of doing things, Ling Mo's expression couldn't help but twisted, "It's not that the whole school knows about it. If you make such a big scene, Nan Nan will probably be embarrassed. After all, who can be as thick-skinned as you, right?"
After a slight pause, he continued, "Besides, if you two get together, the whole school will know about it right away."
Jiang Chi was silent for a while, then said, "I just checked it online."
He turned on the phone and handed it to Ling Mo: "What do you think of this way of confessing love?"
Ling Mo took the phone, scrolled down, read it, and then laughed: "To be honest, it's quite cliché, a common way of confessing love in school, but your cliché is more expensive."
He put down his phone: "You just want to make it more sensational and romantic."
Jiang Chi leaned back in his chair and smiled lazily, "What else? Sheng Jianan is twenty years old this year. He will be dating me for decades. I can't let him not have any surprises, right?"
Ling Mo looked at him for a while, then suddenly asked with a smile: "Didn't you hate gays before?"
Hearing this, Jiang Chi suddenly fell silent for a while. Seeing his lips moving slightly, as if he wanted to say something but hesitated, Ling Mo rarely felt a little guilty towards him. This was obviously his most painful memory, so why did he have to ask about it unnecessarily?
“I wouldn’t say it’s disgusting.” Jiang Chi frowned as he spoke, his instinctive reaction was still to reject these things. In other words, he was repelled by anything that came close to Sheng Jianan.
His gaze fell on nowhere. After a long while, he whispered, "It's just that those things were quite disgusting in the past."
"But this has nothing to do with my confession to Sheng Jianan." Jiang Chi said with his eyes lowered.
Ling Mo looked at him twice, sighed silently, and suddenly felt sorry for them. If it weren't for Shao Bin, these two might have really fallen in love in high school as he imagined. There wouldn't be a shadow that has existed for so many years.
But there is no point in thinking too much, the evildoers have already received their retribution anyway. Lovers will eventually get married.
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After class, Sheng Jianan just walked out of the classroom and saw Jiang Chi leaning in the corridor waiting for him.
He walked to Jiang Chi and saw Jiang Chi smiling. He looked at him and took the book from his hand with a coquettish look on his face.
Sheng Jianan found that ever since Jiang Chi said he wanted to pursue him, he was like a peacock with its feathers spread out, very coquettish and sexy.
The students in the classroom came out one after another, and when they saw this familiar scene, they couldn't help but smile.
"Are you here to pick up Sheng Jianan again?" a classmate who was very familiar with the group teased with a smile.
Jiang Chi never minded this kind of polite teasing, and he smiled and teased back: "Yeah, can I come to your Academy of Fine Arts?"
"Yes, you are welcome." The student said, "Come to class together next time. We welcome you very much."
Jiang Chi smiled, and the classmates around him also left with smiles amid their teasing.
Sheng Jianan always walked slowly. He waited until other students had left before he slowly walked downstairs.
"Did you hear that? Sheng Nannan." Jiang Chi said, "You're the only one who won't let me accompany you to class."
"You accompany me every day, don't you need time to do something for yourself?" Sheng Jianan said.
Jiang Chi followed him and walked down the stairs casually: "You are responsible for everything that happened to me."
Sheng Jianan glanced at him.
Jiang Chi smiled and put a hand lazily on his shoulder.
Jiang Chi has been in a really good mood recently.
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Three days later, after Sheng Jianan finished his afternoon class, Jiang Chi took him back to the dormitory and he accidentally fell asleep. When I woke up, Jiang Chi was gone.
It was hazy outside and it was almost evening. Sheng Jianan got up, washed his face, drank some peach oolong tea that he had brewed during the day, and picked up his phone to check.
There is no news about Jiang Chiliu.
Sheng Jianan thought about it and realized that Jiang Chi didn’t tell him what he was going to do at this time, so he clicked on WeChat and poked him.
[Sheng Jianan: Where are you? 】
After a long time, Jiang Chi didn't reply.
Just when Sheng Jianan was wondering, Ling Mo's voice came over.
Sheng Jianan picked up the phone.
"Nannan." Ling Mo asked, "Have you eaten?"
"No." Sheng Jianan said.
Ling Mo: "Let's go to the cafeteria to eat together?"
"Yeah." Sheng Jianan said, "Is Jiang Chi with you?"
"No." Ling Mo said, "Isn't he in the dormitory?"
"He's not here." Sheng Jianan took a look and saw that Jiang Chi's desk was clean, just like when he went out at noon.
I guess he left as soon as he fell asleep.
Although he was a little puzzled, Sheng Jianan was not too worried after leaving the plot of the novel.
Jiang Chi happened to be away. He accepted Ling Mo's invitation, packed up simply, and went out to keep the appointment.
There weren't many people in the cafeteria at this time. When Sheng Jianan arrived at the place where Ling Mo had agreed to meet, he didn't see him after he ordered the food.
Just when he was about to send a message to Ling Mo, he received his WeChat message.
[Ling Mo: Nan Nan, I have something urgent to do. You eat first. I will come to see you later.]
[Sheng Jianan: OK]
Sheng Jianan has almost never had the experience of eating alone. Even if Jiang Chi had something to do before, he would always drag Ling Mo or his other two roommates to have dinner with Sheng Jianan.
So much so that Sheng Jianan felt quite novel eating alone at this moment. But he doesn't have social phobia, so he doesn't feel uncomfortable.
Not long after eating, someone suddenly sat down opposite. Sheng Jianan thought it was Ling Mo or Jiang Chi who came, but when he looked up, he saw the junior who liked Jiang Chi before.
Although Sheng Jianan had a good temper, he had been maliciously speculated about her by him after all, and she was not polite enough to greet him with a smile.
"Senior, why are you alone?" the younger student asked politely, "Where is Senior Jiang?"
Sheng Jianan was silent for a moment, but still said politely: "He has something to do."
"Oh." The junior smiled and said casually, "I just saw him with a girl."
After observing for a while, seeing that Sheng Jianan seemed not to hear, the junior brother asked again: "He left you to meet a girl. Is he trying to have a secret relationship?"
Just as Sheng Jianan guessed, the junior brother was indeed here to cause trouble.
However, Sheng Jianan didn't feel anything when he heard these words. After more than ten years of relationship, he was not likely to be provoked by a few words.
Seeing Sheng Jianan concentrating on eating, the younger brother assumed that he was probably holding back his emotions. After all, he had never heard that Jiang Chi would leave him alone to eat for a girl. And Jiang Chi had always put him first in the past. Someone like Sheng Jianan, who looked very proud, had always been spoiled and pampered, and then was suddenly abandoned. He must have felt bad.
"It's okay." The younger brother said, "Let's eat together from now on."
"I'm full, take your time." Sheng Jianan put down his chopsticks, stood up and picked up the plate.
Seeing that he was about to leave, the younger brother looked at the almost untouched food on the plate, thought about it, and decided that it was more important to follow him and annoy Sheng Jianan.
So he stood up and walked out with Sheng Jianan.
"Senior, wait for me." The younger student shouted from behind, and quickly caught up with him and walked to Sheng Jianan's side.
"Are you going back to the dormitory? We're on the same way, I'll go with you." The younger brother said, "But I saw Senior Jiang seemed to be over at the basketball court..."
Before they finished speaking, they heard a buzzing sound at the same time. They both looked up and saw a drone flying over. There was also a bunch of nine roses tied underneath, circling around the two of them, and then Jiang Chi's voice was heard from inside.
"Sheng Nannan, who told you to walk with other men?"
The drone stayed in front of the junior's eyes for a while. Through the cold camera, the junior seemed to see Jiang Chi's sharp eyes, staring at him. He suddenly felt a tingling sensation on his scalp.
He didn't know why. Although he had a good impression of Jiang Chi, he was still afraid of him.
"Heh." Jiang Chi smiled coolly, "It's you again."
Then Ling Mo's voice came from the other end. He lowered his voice and said, "Jiang Chi, shut up."
The sound cut off, and the drone slowly turned a corner, flew in front of Sheng Jianan, and handed him the rose. Then it began to rise with a buzzing sound and flew in a certain direction. During the flight, it turned in the air, as if reminding Sheng Jianan to follow.
Sheng Jianan roughly guessed what was going on.
After all, this exaggerated style of doing things is quite consistent with Jiang Chi's personality, which probably also includes chasing people.
He followed.
The drone was flying slowly in front, circling in the air from time to time, looking very coquettish, as if it was showing off its acrobatics for Sheng Jianan.
I followed it all the way across half of the campus, and when I reached the playground, it was already completely dark.
After bringing him here, the drone quickly rose and took off. However, apart from people doing night jogging and walking, and people sitting together chatting in groups of three or four, Jiang Chi and his group were not seen on the playground at all.
Just as Sheng Jianan was walking towards the playground in confusion, he suddenly felt a flash of light beside him, followed by a cry of surprise from the playground.
He followed the light and saw a line of words spelled out by the blue lights of the drone above the basketball court.
Sheng Jianan, I LOVE YOU——Jiang Chi
Probably because they saw their names clearly, a burst of excited screams suddenly sounded at the playground.
Sheng Jianan looked at the line of words, and a faint smile appeared on his lips, a little helpless and a little indulgent.
It is indeed Jiang Chi's exaggerated style of doing things, as if he was afraid that no one would know.
Before the drones dispersed, Sheng Jianan saw a huge screen suddenly light up on the basketball court, followed by singing from the speakers next to it, and a photo of him and Jiang Chi flashed across the screen.
The two kids, little Sheng Jianan was wearing a yellow down jacket, and little Jiang Chi was wearing a white down jacket. At the moment captured by the camera, they were looking at each other. This is them when they were five years old.
The next photo shows them wearing the same little clothes, carrying small school bags, and walking into the kindergarten together. There must be adults outside waving goodbye to them. The two children turned around holding hands and waved towards the camera. This is them when they were six years old and in preschool.
The photo of the seven-year-olds was taken after dinner in the evening, when their two parents were taking them for a walk and chatting with them. The two children had nothing to do, so they sat side by side on a chair in the park, biting a lollipop in their mouths. You could vaguely see that their legs were still shaking.
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From being infants, they grew up little by little and after entering junior high school, the two children obviously grew up a lot faster. They got rid of their childishness and their height increased rapidly.
Especially Jiang Chi, who was the same height as Sheng Jianan when he was a child, and when they held hands, they looked like a pair of twins. Since junior high school, my height has started to increase rapidly. In the photo, Jiang Chi is half a head taller than Sheng Jianan. He puts one hand on Sheng Jianan's shoulder, with a bright smile on his lips, and makes a "yeah" gesture to the camera.
At that time, they still had a youthful and childish look on their faces.
After entering high school, the childishness on their faces faded a lot, and their eyes and brows showed a hint of youthful sunshine and vigor. This is a photo of their two families going to the beach together. Sheng Jianan remembered that at that time, Jiang's mother bought two colorful beach suits, but Jiang Chi refused to wear them. In the end, only Sheng Jianan wore the light blue one, while Jiang Chi wore his own white shirt.
In the photo, they are holding ice cream in their hands. When they hear Jiang Ma calling them from behind, they both turn around at the same time and freeze the picture.
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On the first day of their freshman year, they attracted a lot of attention at school because of their outstanding looks. This photo shows them standing in a tree-lined avenue under the scorching sun and talking. Jiang Chi is sitting lazily on the suitcase with his chin resting on the handle, looking up at Sheng Jianan and smiling, with one hand holding his hand.
At that time, this photo was widely circulated in the school, and countless people were obsessed with it.
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The screen flashed along with the song, flashing through hundreds of photos of them from childhood to adulthood, all of which were memories that they had never made public in the past. These were also the beautiful memories that Sheng Jianan once thought would fade away with him or be buried deep.
As he watched the familiar scenes flash by, Sheng Jianan's eyes gradually became moist.
In fact, Jiang Chi is not just someone he likes. Just using the word "like" is too shallow for them. They are extremely close to each other and are like family members who will never be separated no matter what.
More and more classmates gradually gathered around, including the younger brother, who looked at Sheng Jianan in the circle with a pale face. Anyone can see what is about to happen in this scene.
As the song was coming to an end, Sheng Jianan heard a sudden excited shout from behind him, followed by a big hand covering his eyes.
He was very familiar with the size and temperature of Jiang Chi's palms. Even if he touched his back, he could recognize Jiang Chi in an instant. This is the tacit understanding they have had for countless years, and no one can replace it.
Jiang Chi chuckled softly in his ear, and there was a rare hint of uneasiness in his voice.
"Sheng Nannan." Jiang Chi called his name, paused, and laughed, "Damn, I'm a little nervous. I really didn't think there would be such a day."
He swallowed and after a long while, he smiled and said, "Actually, I've always felt that as long as I'm with you, I don't care about any other relationship. I firmly believe that we will never separate, and I won't allow it."
"For me, as long as we are together, you can do whatever you want. If you want to be in a relationship, I will accompany you to be in a relationship. If you don't want to, I will accompany you not to be in a relationship. It doesn't matter what, as long as it's you, I am willing to do it."
"Sheng Jianan." Jiang Chi said, "It's a very vulgar sentence, but I'm not confessing my feelings."
"I love you. I will love you no matter what."
This is something he firmly believed in and persisted in for fifteen years.
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