Lin Banxia saw her senior brother's good intentions and was equally grateful.
"No need, my home is just a few steps ahead. The military compound is very safe, what could possibly happen?"
"Senior brother, you should go home and rest. Don't miss tomorrow's performance."
Zuo Wenxuan gave her a deep look, and only after confirming that she did not show any abnormality did he nod in agreement.
"Alright then, you know how to contact me. If anything happens tonight, feel free to call my home."
"good."
Lin Banxia curved her lips into a smile, which was exceptionally beautiful and serene.
She stood at the intersection, watching Zuo Wenxuan's figure disappear into the street, before turning around and going home alone.
Countless moonlight streamed down through the open door, illuminating the once pitch-black entryway and making the atmosphere exceptionally desolate.
Lin Banxia closed the door behind her back, without turning on the light, but instead drew back the curtains to let the moonlight in better.
She reached out and gently stroked the decorative items in her home.
From the entryway to the living room, every flat surface that could hold something was piled with small, miscellaneous items.
There are old but still beautiful dolls, sun hats embroidered with patterns, and delicate little shoes.
All the items were placed in the most conspicuous place, as if this would create the illusion that their owners were still at home.
"baby."
Lin Banxia called out softly to the silent living room.
"Mom's back, why didn't you come out to greet me?"
No one answered her, and no one could answer her.
Lin Banxia's legs went weak, and she slumped onto the sofa. She then reached out and picked up a hand-sewn rabbit that was placed next to her.
She gently and patiently stroked the fabric on the rabbit's head again and again, speaking to it with a dazed look in her eyes.
"Huanhuan, why are you ignoring Mommy?"
"Are you angry because Mom was too busy at work today and came home a little late?"
The rabbit silently watched her in the darkness with its button-shaped eyes.
After receiving no response for a long time, Lin Banxia briefly pulled herself out of her reverie.
"I was so stupid. When I made this rabbit, I didn't sew on its mouth at all. How could it talk to me?"
She stroked the rabbit's back affectionately, then drifted into another layer of memories.
She remembered when her daughter was very young, she had a high fever.
The little baby was burning up, just like now, curled up in her arms, too uncomfortable to say a word.
Lin Banxia's heart ached terribly whenever she recalled such a scene.
"I'm sorry, it's all my fault. I didn't even know Huanhuan was so sick."
She hugged the rabbit in her arms tightly, stood up unsteadily, and anxiously searched everywhere for children's medicine.
"I clearly remember putting it in the box, how come I can't find it..."
Lin Banxia took everything out of the cabinet and threw it on the ground, making the room a complete mess.
But no matter how hard she looked, she couldn't find any fever reducers that could be given to children.
The emotions that were already on the verge of collapse completely crumbled at this moment.
Lin Banxia lowered her head, her thin shoulders trembling, and tears fell one after another onto the rabbit in her arms.
"sorry……"
She broke down in tears.
"Huanhuan, I'm so sorry. It's all my fault. I can't take good care of you. There are no doctors here so late. What would I do if something happened to you..."
The sky outside suddenly changed color, and a gust of wind rushed in through the window, causing the living room curtains to flutter wildly.
Lin Banxia stared blankly at this scene, her expression suddenly changing.
"Mommy can't live without you... Huanhuan, will you take Mommy with you? Mommy really doesn't want to be separated from you..."
The days after losing my daughter are truly painful and unbearable.
Lin Banxia stared blankly at the open window, slowly stood up, and staggered over step by step.
As she got closer and closer to the windowsill, she didn't see where she was going and bumped hard on the coffee table next to her.
As she fell, the hem of her long skirt billowed up, revealing a section of her thin, bony calves.
Lin Banxia had fair skin, making the bruises covering her legs look particularly gruesome and terrifying.
The intense pain brought her back to her senses.
She rubbed the spot where she had bumped herself, and instinctively whispered, "Mingqian, I just heard our daughter calling us..."
Her slightly hoarse voice echoed through the living room before reaching her own ears.
Lin Banxia was now fully awake. Seeing that she was only a few steps away from the window, she felt a chill run down her spine and was covered in cold sweat.
The hallucinations from the past are recurring.
She and Song Mingqian have been separated for many years and are just one step away from getting a divorce certificate, so why does she still call his name when she is hurt?
They can never go back to the happiest time of their lives.
How could she possibly keep thinking about a relationship that was destined to have no future?
Lin Banxia suppressed the sour and uncomfortable feeling, and slowly stood up by herself, holding onto the coffee table, and looked around at the small things that filled the room.
She knew that something was wrong with her current state, and she was afraid that one day something really would happen to her, and then no one would be able to find her daughter.
"I can't dwell on the past anymore. Huanhuan is still waiting for me to take her home. I have to be strong."
Lin Banxia wiped away her tears and sat down on the floor, leaning against the sofa.
When her initially dazed gaze fell upon the rabbit doll in her arms, she couldn't help but tear up again.
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