Chapter 41 It's Not Me
"Shut up!" What Gu He least wanted to recall was everything that happened on the day Qin Qing died.
Thinking that his choice had killed Qin Qing, he felt as if he was dragged into an endless hell, and even his breathing was filled with despair.
So everyone around him knew this taboo and never mentioned it in front of him.
Even if Qin Ruo accidentally mentioned the kidnapping occasionally, she would quickly change the subject and would never say a word about the cause of Qin Qing's death.
Gu He has never dared to face the fact that Qin Qing died because of him, which has become a hidden pain that cannot be dug out.
He chose to avoid the situation and vent his hatred on the kidnappers, telling himself over and over again that these were the real heinous criminals.
He didn't know that Qin Qing would die, nor did he know that he would be too late to save her.
He just felt that Qin Ruo was too weak, like a flower grown in a greenhouse, ignorant of the world.
She is not like Qin Qing. She is not as strong as Qin Qing, not as calm as Qin Qing, and not as knowledgeable and capable as Qin Qing.
He always felt that if he had saved Qin Ruo a step later, Qin Ruo would have died.
If Qin Qing was rescued later, she would suffer a little at most, but she could find a way to delay for a while and wait for him to come back to save her.
Qin Ruo is his sister, a very, very important person to him, and she has done him a favor. He cannot deprive her of her only chance of life and watch her die.
Although doing this is unfair to Qin Qing, when it comes to life and death, suffering some torture is much better than death.
Gu He felt that his choice of Qin Ruo was the right one.
Because of this, he was sure to save both of them instead of forcing one of them to die.
Qin Ruo is also Qin Qing's sister. As an older sister, she must want to protect her sister and can understand his choice.
But Gu He never expected that Qin Qing couldn't hold on and died in the hands of those people.
Gu He hated himself and also hated those evil people.
After enduring endless torture, Gu He could only convince himself that he was not wrong. He just did not expect that those bandits could be so rampant!
He was not the culprit who killed Qin Qing, he just didn't have time...
At this moment, Yun Ran ruthlessly accused him, directly blaming Qin Qing's death on him. The protective shell that Gu He had built to deceive himself suddenly cracked.
The long-lost burning sensation surged up in his heart, and he could hardly stand.
He held onto the bed rail tightly to prevent himself from falling. With bloodshot eyes, he stared at Yun Ran: "I didn't abandon Qingqing, I didn't!"
This sentence took all of Gu He's strength. He didn't know whether he was emphasizing the point to Yun Ran or continuing to numb himself.
Yun Ran wasn't afraid of his threats. "If she didn't abandon me, why did Qin Qing die? She and Qin Ruo were kidnapped together, but Qin Ruo was unharmed, while Qin Qing died. How do you explain this?"
"It's not me!" Gu He was almost crazy from being stimulated. He grabbed Yun Ran's neck and said, "It's not me. Do you understand?"
The force restraining his neck was so strong that he felt suffocated quickly. However, Yun Ran had a smile on her face: "What, you want to... kill me too?" She smiled so arrogantly that the mockery in her eyes went straight into Gu He's heart.
When he defended Qin Ruo back then, Qin Qing had also smiled like this...
Just a smile made Gu He suddenly let go of his hand: "No, it's not me! It's not me!!"
Yun Ran rubbed his neck, which had been pinched and had marks on it, and stopped asking harsh questions. He became obedient again: "If it's not, then it's not. Why are you so excited?"
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