Don't go
The boundless darkness receded, Jiang Jingyuan suddenly opened his eyes, hurriedly wrote down the word "disaster", and then relaxed.
Writing down the answer in the dark, after going through her mind, would certainly make it clearer and more precise, but this only worked for short sentences of a few words. Inspiration didn't allow her to decide how long a sentence was. If it was too long, she would forget the next sentence after remembering the previous one, and then forget the previous one after remembering the next.
It’s better to write it directly.
There was also a difference between writing and dark self-questioning—or perhaps it was just that she felt different.
When writing, one type is when she feels a flash of emotion, and she tries to recall that feeling and translate it into words. Another type is when she writes it down naturally, before she realizes it, or usually when she is halfway through writing.
And she couldn't tell whether she felt anything in the darkness.
"Only by writing it down can I feel at ease. Otherwise, I will be uneasy and afraid of forgetting something..." Jiang Jingyuan fell on the chair and said tiredly.
After a pause, she suddenly remembered something and thought lazily, "This is also a very good method." It prompted her to understand some things every now and then.
Although she changed very quickly in the past, that had to be calculated on a monthly basis. Recently, it has been happening every few days.
Outside the room, Sheng Liang's voice suddenly came: "Packed up!"
Jiang Jingyuan reached out and gathered the papers on the table in order, then put them into his storage bracelet. He slowly stood up, walked out, and responded:
"Let's go down the mountain."
…………
In the snow and ice, a figure wearing a plush cloak was walking forward. Suddenly, a large group of people were chasing after him from behind.
"Shuangfu!" "Shuangfu, don't go!" They chased and shouted, with tears in their eyes.
The lone figure in front paused and turned to look.
"Shuangfu!" Meng Qiyun shouted with sorrow in his eyes, "Shuangfu, don't abandon us..."
Meng Shuangfu looked at him quietly, the shyness and embarrassment that had always been on her face disappeared, her expression was as light and indifferent as the snow, and she didn't say anything.
“Shuangfu! Help us…” everyone begged, “Don’t abandon us, take us with you.”
Meng Shuangfu glanced at them lightly and calmly, then was silent for a while. Suddenly, she raised her hand to lift the hood of her cloak and smiled shyly.
"good."
She agreed.
Everyone's faces were instantly filled with excitement, tears of joy flowed down their cheeks, and they couldn't help but cheer softly, "Frost is floating, frost is floating..."
Meng Shuangfu smiled slightly, without explaining or answering.
She is not their god.
The road is right here. Just because she walked on it doesn’t mean others can’t walk on it, nor does it mean that the road she hasn’t walked on is wrong.
She is not their guide; she and they are just companions whose journey may be long or short.
Perhaps her last and greatest kindness was... Meng Shuangfu looked at them, suddenly smiled softly and said:
"Don't believe in me, don't trust me."
Everyone in the Meng family had tears in their eyes and shouted "Shuang Fu" over and over again with smiles on their faces.
They like to project themselves onto her and don't want to listen, nor can they hear her explanation - this is their own karma, this is their own choice, why should she walk into their image and resolve it for them?
That was all she had to say.
Meng Shuangfu smiled, said nothing more, turned around and continued walking through the snow. Behind her, everyone cheered and cried.
…………
"Is the immortality the end? Is heaven and earth the end?"
Jiang Jingyuan fell on the clean snow, looking at the sky and the earth, quietly listening to the voice in his mind.
“It’s still the phase of reincarnation.”
He said.
Jiang Jingyuan didn't move or say anything, as if he had no reaction at all, knowing that He must understand what he meant.
He said: "The way of the gods and immortals is still to pursue a 'Tao' and to place the 'Tao' within themselves."
So... Jiang Jingyuan thought without reacting. So during the time she was in the mountains, what she wanted to become was no longer to become the celestial immortals she had seen.
There was nothing wrong with becoming a saint or an immortal, climbing up step by step, shedding attachments layer by layer. However, she wanted to try another path.
Suddenly, a fiery figure came running from the distance.
The little red-haired fox stopped beside her, frowned, squinted at her, and said rather speechlessly, "Even if you come down the mountain, you should at least practice for a while every day!"
Jiang Jingyuan collapsed in the snow, showing no intention of getting up. He only opened and closed his mouth slowly: "I'm practicing... If I can practice in an ordinary environment, then I will practice in an ordinary environment. I can't enter the state on ordinary days, so I use the skills to assist."
"I don't believe you!" The little fox's expression twisted. "You can still understand and respond to my words. Where did you practice?"
Jiang Jingyuan choked and whispered, "I'm not in a good mood today."
Sheng Liang sneered.
Jiang Jingyuan was furious. "Who knows, I might be able to find the state of cultivation! It's like that. I can maintain it for a longer time if I'm immersed in it. But I fell out after only two or three breaths of cultivation. What do you think I should do?"
"It's the same for everyone. Just practice more and it will be fine." Sheng Liang didn't care.
Jiang Jingyuan curled his lips and said, "You don't understand." He said, "Usually, when practicing, a good half-incense stick can get you into the right state. When practicing poorly, half an hour or an hour is only two or three breaths... I don't know about more than an hour. Anyway, I've never practiced that long in a day, so it's better than..."
She paused and turned her head.
The little fox had a ferocious expression, eyes full of undisguised envy and jealousy, and said sarcastically, "Then you will surely become an immortal soon, right?"
Jiang Jingyuan: "..."
A speechless look gradually appeared on Jiang Jingyuan's face, and he said, "You're so sour."
She returned to the topic and said, "But! Yesterday I suddenly had a longer experience! I immersed myself in something, maybe eating, or looking at the sky, and suddenly I entered a state similar to cultivation, but it was still incomplete..."
Jiang Jingyuan sat up and said seriously, "At this time, the meeting disappears. But although I am very immersed in it, I am actually forgetting myself and immersing myself in my own distracting thoughts."
"I was thinking," Jiang Jingyuan said, "on the basis of this selfless devotion, if I could eliminate thoughts and perceive myself, could I exist in the disappearing phase for a long time?"
The little fox's face was full of envy and disappointment, and he was immersed in his own bitterness and didn't care. Suddenly, when he heard it, he looked at the girl in front of him in a daze.
"Yesterday I felt a long period of 'disappearance'." Jiang Jingyuan also looked at it. "Before, it was only a few breaths, which was too short. I only vaguely felt the disappearance of the phase. But yesterday, I saw the 'disappearance'!"
"The image is still there, it has not changed, but what I see is the 'disappearing image'," said Jiang Jingyuan.
She considered her words carefully and tried to explain, "Before, when I was immersed in it, I could only feel it, but I couldn't see what the image was like at that time. Now, I can see the image disappear, and then I went in and out of the image again and again yesterday - it's so easy to do!"
Jiang Jingyuan said excitedly, "I sensed the 'disappearing phase'. I still saw and heard the phase, but it was already..." She frowned and thought, trying to describe it: "It's..."
Unable to describe it, she could only sigh and say, "'Disappeared' isn't quite the right word, but it can only be called disappeared."
She concluded by saying, “Then, when I chose to fall into the image again, everything in it, the sounds, images, and events, all came flooding back to me instantly—these things were actually always there, but the feeling was just like a flood.”
After hearing this, the little fox was silent for a long time.
Just when Jiang Jingyuan thought it would remain silent and motionless, the little fox suddenly turned around without saying a word, walked to the side, closed its eyes in its nest, and practiced!
Jiang Jingyuan: "...?"
No, when I’m so happy, you should at least respond to me... Jiang Jingyuan thought to himself, but he didn’t disturb it and continued to lie in the snow and look at the sky.
…………
The snow was light on the ground, and there were snowflakes floating in the gray sky. A girl was walking in the snow, wearing a simple white dress and holding a small umbrella with a red background and gold patterns.
Beside her, the red-haired fox walked with her, occasionally circling her, looking up at her and mumbling, "How did you get into that state back then?"
Jiang Jingyuan stared straight ahead, sighed, and said in disappointment, "I was wrong. I discovered that state also requires fate. I haven't been able to enter that state again in the past two days." He couldn't help but say, "But back then, I could enter and break the state of form over and over again, and I could do it instantly... Why can't I do it the next day?"
"Don't worry about that for now. Tell me the specific situation at that time." Sheng Liang urged.
Jiang Jingyuan suppressed his sadness and said calmly, "Dinner time."
"How come I don't know?!" Sheng Liang was shocked.
Jiang Jingyuan said, "I was very tired that day and didn't want to eat, but after thinking about it, I decided to go out for dinner. Suddenly, while I was eating, I noticed something was wrong, and then I focused on it..." Jiang Jingyuan's face was tangled, and he didn't know what to say for a moment. After a pause, he said directly, "Anyway, I suddenly did it."
Sheng Liang seemed to be lost in thought and pondered.
"At that time, there was no sound or sight at all, only the dishes and chopsticks in front of me." Jiang Jingyuan recalled, saying, "The surroundings became... covered with a thick layer of white?"
Sheng Liang's mouth corners suddenly curled up, "It's because the food I cooked is so delicious that you ate so much without paying attention to yourself, right..."
"???" Jiang Jingyuan was stunned for a moment, his face hesitant to speak, but he couldn't help but say, "While eating, I unconsciously felt that the taste of every bite was very clear."
In her understanding and feeling, the taste was not amplified, but every taste and texture was clear.
She turned her eyes and saw the fox next to her with a smug look on his face. He then silently looked away and whispered, "The fishy smell is quite obvious..."
The smile on Sheng Liang's face froze and slowly disappeared, his expression expressionless.
"But I couldn't do it the next day!" Jiang Jingyuan hurriedly turned around and said, "I can only get close to that state these past two days, but in my opinion, there is still a clear difference between the two."
"So I think it's better to return to the original method of cultivation. This can only be considered a small surprise." Jiang Jingyuan said.
Sheng Liang walked forward with an expressionless face, without even looking at her or saying a word.
"They're all scenery. Even if we see things differently, so what? What does that even mean?" Jiang Jingyuan bent down, scooped up the fox beside him, narrowed his eyes, and said, "Shengliang, Shengliang, don't worry about it."
The little fox was caught off guard and was picked up by her. He was startled and his face was distorted. He put his paw on her shoulder and said angrily: "Don't hug a fox casually!"
"But Shengliang, I like you." Jiang Jingyuan put away the umbrella and held it in his arms. Man and fox faced each other, and Jiang Jingyuan said seriously, "I want to carry you away."
Like... The little fox's tail shook unconsciously, his face flushed, his eyes dodged, and he said shyly: "Well... well, it's not that I don't..."
"Bang!"
Its eyes blurred and it fell into the snow unexpectedly.
“???” Sheng Liang raised his head in shock.
In front of it, the girl in white also raised her head slightly, opened her eyes unconsciously, and looked into the distance behind it.
Sheng Liang instantly became serious, suddenly jumped out of the snow pit, turned around in mid-air, stood beside her, and looked in the direction of her gaze.
A figure in white sat on a distant city wall. Behind it, a tall, gorgeous figure walked over slowly and stopped.
Who is that!!! The little fox was so frightened that his fur stood on end and his teeth bared.
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