Extra 11 I don't agree
Jiang Yuetan suddenly withdrew his hand, straightened up, turned around, stepped over the tea and porcelain pieces on the ground, and left angrily after saying, "Just wait here for Yun Shu to come!"
The person at the main seat at the back table was still laughing, neither anxious nor annoyed, and just casually said, "You should have told me in advance, otherwise, unfortunately, I can't stay here all day waiting for you."
"Bang!!"
In response, he was met with layers of screens and a door outside a floor-to-ceiling hollow round door being slammed shut.
Inside the tea room, the tables and floor were quickly cleared. Everyone continued to drink tea, embroidering or turning ornaments, chatting sporadically, without mentioning what had just happened.
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As soon as Jiang Yuetan walked out, familiar people came up to him quickly, looked at him nervously and cautiously, and followed him out.
It seemed like less than two minutes after he left the house. Jiang Yuetan's face no longer had the anger he had just had, nor was it as calm and amiable as usual. He seemed to be lost in thought, with a solemn expression between his brows and eyes, and his mind wandered from time to time.
After a long silence, Jiang Yuetan came back to his senses and asked, "How is Yunshu?"
"He went out to eat something and then went back to sleep." The person next to him gave a prepared answer.
Jiang Yuetan nodded slowly, took a deep breath after a moment, and said, "Let's go. Don't disturb her for now. Let her rest for a day." His slow footsteps suddenly became firm and clear as he moved in one direction.
The people around nodded and followed.
That day, Jiang Yunshu slept from morning until eight or nine in the evening. He woke up, ate calmly, read a book in a daze, and then fell asleep again.
The next day, early morning.
Jiang Yunshu opened her eyes, her mind a blur. She couldn't remember who she was, where she was, or how hard she tried to think. She sat up and looked around the room for a long moment. Suddenly, her eyes caught sight of something ordinary, and countless memories suddenly flooded her mind. She remembered.
I only remember who I am and where this place is.
In the past, if she didn't think seriously, she couldn't remember anything. Even if she thought seriously, she couldn't tell the difference. She remembered some special things, but couldn't tell whether they happened today or yesterday, or yesterday or the day before yesterday. The things she finally remembered quickly became blurry like a dream.
Jiang Yunshu changed his clothes and did not go to eat. Instead, he walked slowly as if he was familiar with the road, sat down, and stared at the messy papers on the table.
She picked up the pen and wrote quickly on the blank or sparsely written paper. After a while, she stopped, touched the small ornaments, and suddenly dropped them. She picked up the pen again, wrote quickly for a while with a heavy heart, and stopped again...
Until there was a rustling sound outside the door, as if someone was pacing nervously, wanting to knock but not daring to. Jiang Yunshu suddenly hated that he could hear it so clearly. He stood up and walked out quickly, suddenly opened the door and went out.
Have a meal.
After dinner, she subconsciously went back to her room as usual. She turned her head to look at the sky outside, turned around and went out.
Just then, the children came over worriedly. When the two sides met head-on, the children were stunned and delighted at the same time. Jiang Yunshu's mind was blank and he didn't know what was going on, but he inexplicably started to ask questions.
The children were stunned again, then smiled and exclaimed, "Yun Shu, you know what we are going to say!"
Jiang Yunshu only felt that he seemed to be able to sense himself, but he was vaguely unaware and had no idea why, but he was already walking with them.
Along the way, the children exclaimed in amazement and said with a smile: "Yun Shu, you are so amazing!"
Jiang Yunshu's face was calm, but she was also a little confused and stunned. Yes, how could she know what they were going to say? And what she said just now made so much sense.
She was neither listening nor seeing. She was completely unconscious and felt nothing. She felt as if she was completely empty. Even to "know" something, she had to wait for her to say it out loud. Only when she heard her say it could she know it herself.
She doesn't know.
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After taking a walk, Jiang Yunshu returned home and had not yet changed his clothes when someone came to look for him.
next door.
The two of them were silent for a long time.
"Xiao Shu." Jiang Yuetan's face was solemn. He lowered his eyes and didn't look at her. He slowly asked, "You haven't been in a good state recently. Can we think of a solution?"
Jiang Yunshu was confused for a moment. She didn't know whether her mind was blank or it was too difficult to understand, but she couldn't understand.
Jiang Yuetan took a deep breath, raised his eyes, and said seriously: "I really think you have been too weird these years. That day a few years ago..." He told the story one by one.
Finally, he said sincerely, "Shall we think of a solution?"
Jiang Yunshu was surprised and amused, then frowned and felt a sense of rejection and resistance. She was just in a bad mood!
"Xiao Shu!" Jiang Yuetan explained anxiously, "It's not that I want to think that way. Yesterday at dawn..."
Jiang Yunshu listened casually, but was stunned when he heard the last part.
"Xiao Shu, I'm telling you the truth. If our family really wasn't involved, I wouldn't be saying this. But unfortunately, those old people in the Jiang family who have lived for who knows how long, they are!" Jiang Yuetan leaned forward, reached out and grabbed her arm, stared deeply into her eyes, and said, "Even you, before you were born, I knew it many times."
He said with some difficulty: "It was me who didn't want to think this way before..."
Jiang Yunshu stared at him blankly, forgetting to move for a moment.
Jiang Yuetan let go of his hand, leaning back with a sneer, "Just because they say there's nothing, there's nothing? Then what did they tell me before? There was a big issue more than ten or twenty years ago, and we said we'd resolve it, but they insisted."
He said, "Back then, you didn't even exist. The old man was only concerned with the present, the people in front of him. But then you look at where those people are now? They were no longer useful and disappeared long ago. Only those old guys are still confused."
As he spoke, his eyes softened. He glanced at the child in front of him and said softly, "And what about our Xiao Shu? Back then, he was implicated and had to bear the trouble and be humble. But now? Isn't our Xiao Shu the more capable and the most motivated?"
Slowly, anger began to show on his face again. "They said it was funny and nothing happened. Someone told me before that it was that old man who had problems, and that's why all this was covered up."
Jiang Yunshu was silent for a long time, and many forgotten memories suddenly emerged in her mind. Thinking about it now, it seemed a little strange. She had seen so much, endlessly, so why would she suddenly stare at this small bit of dissatisfaction in front of her and feel pain?
Jiang Yunshu recalled.
Yesterday morning, she felt a sense of disparity. On one hand, she clearly felt a slight sense of annoyance, but it wasn't much, just superficial. On the other hand, she was struggling with intense pain.
Jiang Yunshu felt at a loss.
"Xiao Shu, we didn't say 'must' and 'must'." Jiang Yuetan's eyes were gentle, his voice soft, and he spoke patiently, "It was us who used to say 'must' and 'must'. Do you know the Xiao family? We used to think they were weak and confused, but now that I think about it, we had no idea what was going on with them, so we went far away instead of close to them."
He said softly, "No one would tell outsiders about their own family affairs. Even if they did, they would hide a lot of things."
Jiang Yuetan came over, reached out and gently hugged the child on the sofa, and said softly: "Just like what happened between us yesterday, it involved Xiao Shu, and I didn't tell them."
Jiang Yunshu looked confused and didn't respond.
"Xiao Shu," Jiang Yuetan said, "We need to be relaxed and not nervous. Go talk to them tomorrow morning and be firm."
After a while, Jiang Yunshu lowered his head and said "hmm".
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Jiang Yunshu went back to change his clothes and walked slowly around the room, occasionally picking up a sip of water.
As she walked, she came to the long desk again. Without sitting down, she slowly picked up the pen unconsciously, glanced at the paper casually, and her eyes widened slightly in an instant.
My first reaction was that my mind went blank.
As a second reaction, only one word slowly popped out of her blank mind -
ah?
Jiang Yunshu picked up the paper blankly, looked at it carefully, put it down, and slowly fell into deep thought.
Precognition?
have no idea.
She felt that the word "foreknowledge" lacked some meaning.
She didn't look or listen, and she didn't like to scribble or draw, so she just wrote casually, not to write down what would happen in the next second, but a kind of... image?
A sense of direction and emotion.
It's not just what appears on the paper. In the process of scribbling, if there is a sudden noise that scares you, it's a false alarm, or an external response - of course it depends on the situation.
I didn't understand the relevant things before they happened—the more I saw, the more I understood. After they happened, looking back, I still didn't quite understand them. Only when they happened did I suddenly realize, stunned, that this was it.
She couldn't do it all the time, but she was just getting more and more satisfied - a little bit, a little bit, half, most of it.
There were things that were irrelevant for a long time and she was bored, but suddenly, something relevant popped up again - so that's how it is, the transition is smooth, no one can have ups and downs every day.
Jiang Yunshu stared at the paper absentmindedly, then slowly picked up the pen and wrote quickly. As he wrote, he became hesitant with every stroke of the pen... "Is this what I wrote?" Jiang Yunshu wrote, his eyes fixed on each word written by the pen, feeling strange in his heart.
After a pause, Jiang Yunshu nodded secretly, and then he let go of his thoughts and mind. He felt relaxed all of a sudden, and his writing became more and more vigorous.
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The next morning.
Jiang Yuetan came and took her away.
Walking along the unfamiliar road and reaching the door, Jiang Yunshu's shoulders sank, and out of the corner of his eye he saw two hands patting his shoulders gently and slowly.
She slowly raised her head and couldn't see the person behind her, but she got the meaning and said "hmm" to him seriously and calmly.
"Good Xiaoshu..." Jiang Yuetan was suddenly touched and said softly, "Go."
As soon as the door opened, Jiang Yunshu walked in alone.
"Clouds."
Faintly, she could see the people at the tea tables inside turning to smile at her and calling out to her, "Come here."
Jiang Yunshu walked over to the tea table. Someone next to her raised their hand and she took a seat. Tea poured out in front of her, a grayish-white mist rising as a delicate little cup landed in front of her.
Everyone drank tea quietly.
Jiang Yunshu paused, relaxed his posture, reached out to take the teacup and drink.
There was peace and quiet in the room for a while.
They had no intention of speaking. Jiang Yunshu put down his teacup, lowered his eyes, pursed his lips, and remained silent for a moment. Suddenly, he slowly raised his head and looked at the figure in the main seat in front of him.
Outside the window, there are insects chirping and birds singing among the trees, and there are whispers inside the room. Here you can vaguely hear people talking in the distance, and there is peace and harmony.
Jiang Yunshu slowly said, "Yunshu," but the person in front of her suddenly interrupted her with a faint smile and asked, "Do you still have the things from before?"
Jiang Yunshu paused, replied "yes", and was about to continue.
"Do you carry it with you every day?" the man asked again with a smile.
Jiang Yunshu paused again, "No."
"Where?"
"Room."
The person in front of him said earnestly, "If you want to carry it with you every day, keep it with you and don't take it off. It's what I brought you some time ago, so just carry it with you."
Jiang Yunshu quickly responded twice, then said, "But, yes..."
"Yunshu, you should think less and get more sunshine. Keep your mood in check and don't let it fluctuate too much." Someone nearby put down their teacup and said, "Isn't that what ten-year-olds do? They go out and play, come home to watch cartoons, and raise something. They're all very happy. You should learn from them."
One of them also smiled and nodded, saying, "Don't think too much. If you're not at ease, there's nothing others can do about it, right?"
Jiang Yunshu paused several times, unable to finish a sentence, and her hands on her knees curled up. Suddenly, she pursed her lips, raised her face, and said directly without answering:
"I just feel like something's wrong! I just want to find a way to fix it!"
"What do you want to solve?" The person in the main seat smiled helplessly and asked patiently, "Can you tell us what problem you want to solve?"
The people around him all nodded: "What's the problem? Is there anyone who can help you solve it? Tell me, where are you going to look? Who are you looking for?"
Jiang Yunshu argued: "I haven't thought about it either. I never thought about it before, but I have..."
"You need to have a regular sleep schedule," the person in front sighed. "You weren't like this when you were a little kid, were you? Things were so much better back then. You need to get back to your old ways, running around during the day so you don't have to worry at night."
Even if there is, can you understand it! Jiang Yunshu's face flushed for the first time, and he was very angry.
"Look, you just don't have patience," they said. "Speak slowly and clearly, don't rush, and stay calm."
Jiang Yunshu took a deep breath and said calmly, "We can talk about other things some other time. I just want to find someone to ask."
"No one, never." Everyone said.
The person in front also smiled helplessly, "It was thousands of years ago that the people of Yuan Kingdom and other countries were ignorant. Now we have learned to be smart and can solve our own problems." He shook his head gently and said, "You are also learning from Yuetan, blaming others for everything."
He raised his hand and pointed at her, his tone firm and unyielding, saying, "Your problem is your own, and has nothing to do with anyone else. We're all fine, and there's nothing wrong with us. You have to deal with your own problems yourself."
Jiang Yunshu felt a little powerless for a moment.
"Just put the things away over there." The man in front softened his expression and said with a smile, "Look, they've been taken away in the past few years. They can't be taken away. You need to put them away properly over there."
Jiang Yunshu couldn't help but frown: "Not just in the past few years..."
"You must take the things I give you with you every day," he said.
Jiang Yunshu said, "No, that's not the issue at the moment."
"Just bring it with you and you'll be fine."
"I want to go..."
"It's okay, don't be so stubborn."
"I……"
"You have to adjust yourself."
"Look, take your own things, put your stuff away carefully, and go where you need to go. Don't overthink it, just treat it as a walk." The person in front said earnestly, "You're just overthinking it. How can anyone communicate with you?"
Everyone had a funny look on their faces. "You think too much, kid. If you want to read, you should read books that make you happy! If you go out and jump around, you won't think too much when you're tired."
They sighed and said, "It's all because of your crying that Yuetan is having a headache. You need to control your temper. Don't lose your temper, don't be anxious, and don't cry."
If she could control it, would she come? Her mind was so blank that she didn't know what she was doing... Jiang Yunshu was dazed for a moment, and a burst of heat suddenly burst out in her heart. This was about her! She couldn't be fooled! She looked firm in her eyes and said loudly:
"It has nothing to do with that! All I want now is to go and see, I want to see the person from the past!"
The crowd wasn't angry, but rather smiled. The person in front smiled, brewing tea, and said, "Others don't understand what you're saying."
"But you said before that people used to look for this person!" Jiang Yunshu said.
Everyone said leisurely: "We are old now, this kind of thing has long passed."
"You say you understand and you say you don't understand!" Jiang Yunshu said, and as he spoke, he felt his mind begin to feel dazed and blank again.
The person in front smiled and said, "The one who lives there and watches over the gate doesn't understand these things."
"Then I'll go over..." Jiang Yunshu said slowly, his head dizzy, "Tell him in advance that I'm going over. I want to see him."
Everyone waved their hands, "No one understands you, and we don't want to bother with you."
The person in front said slowly: "If you want to go, I will take you there to have fun like everyone else. No one else understands."
"What did others do in the past?" Jiang Yunshu asked.
"No one ever does. Everyone else is just having fun."
"Can……"
After half an hour of trying to convince a child, someone nearby grew impatient. "You think you haven't? I've helped you before...found solutions for you before." He frowned and kept talking, finally adding angrily, "If I had known you'd be this way, this restless, unyielding, and nitpicky, I'd have called it quits. Why are you making such a fuss now?"
Everyone was stunned for a moment, frowned, and said to the child next to them: "You have to control your mood and your mind. Don't think about anything and everything will pass."
The person in front smiled and said, "You have to control your temper."
In the huge tea room, a ten-year-old child sat alone on a chair beside the table, feeling cold all over.
Suddenly, she seemed to feel that all the sounds and images around her seemed to surge up clearly with a "buzz", and then seemed to recede and become blurred.
Jiang Yunshu felt as if there was a void in his heart.
Her mind went blank.
Are you sad?
Yes, but even she herself was surprised that this sadness did not reach the bottom of her heart, but floated on the surface and dissipated with a breeze.
Her heart was very stable, and she had her own way of comforting herself, but if comforting herself was all she needed, she wouldn't be here today. This was...
It's not that she wants to be firm and strong, but that she herself cannot control the unshakable feeling.
Her mind, which had been in chaos for a long time, suddenly exploded with countless memories. It was never her intention. She was very timid, so when she first heard it, she rejected it and tried to cover it up.
But what was it that she had seen from childhood, yet so easily forgotten, unwilling to think about? What was it that she had seen along the way?
If it was a year ago or half a year ago, she would not be so determined and calm.
But now, she thought, why not know?
Then why don't you know what happened to her?
What did she see!!!
She just wanted to ask, why didn't she know? What did she see?
Afraid of being laughed at and misunderstood, in fact, I don’t care much about myself, and I am ignored and forgotten again and again.
She didn't say all, but she had said so much, not to mention what she had hidden deep in her heart.
She had never told anyone why her situation had turned out this way.
It’s Jiang Jingjian.
It's a blood seal.
Yes, this is an opportunity that only comes once in a century, and she just happened to encounter it in her life.
It is a rare event that only happens once in a century. This is not an exaggeration but an understatement.
Pulling people out of chaos and confusion will inevitably be accompanied by severe pain.
She once stared at it in agony, thinking: "Why can't others encounter it even if they live for hundreds of years, but I happen to run into it by chance?" Then she suddenly realized and was extremely grateful.
What's this?
She felt that the word "gap" was the most appropriate.
Once this gap is opened, even if people stop moving forward later, this gap will never be completely closed. It will change, but it will never be completely closed.
And why don’t you know?
To put it simply, it’s the same for doing anything. If you don’t do it, it’s just casual. If you do it, you have to be serious.
Things are complex and time-consuming. It's never just about studying one thing at a time. It takes time, place, and people, and careful consideration of each one. How many people have the patience for this? It's all gone in a hurry.
Furthermore, with all the complexities of human affairs, who would be willing to admit that there are problems and faults? You see, they are unwilling to even speak of it.
So sometimes, for some people, they need to sacrifice and endure injustice, so just endure it.
In addition, I have a question, why in the past it was just God who was so powerful, but later it was either one, two, or seven?
Look at the people on both sides.
Let's just talk about one side of the story. More seriously, at some point in time, in some aspect, something influenced something, with help from all sides, and continued refinement. How to put it specifically? It depends on one's experience and the changes of the times, and judgments vary.
However, there are some things that are so subtle and so perfect.
She holds the blood seal and the "Teng Snake" mark. She has come this far. As long as she is truly determined, she can overturn everything in the past and the future at any time.
She thought a lot in an instant, and Jiang Yunshu suddenly calmed down. She looked up at the people in front of her, knowing that they would not give in. She also knew that she didn't need to ask anyone to do anything, so she said calmly: "Then I also want to have some fun."
"Of course." The person in front immediately smiled and nodded.
Everyone around the tea table also laughed.
Jiang Yunshu sat in the chair. She seemed to hear something behind her, or in the sky? Above her back? Or in her heart? She didn't know, but she heard a voice asking:
"Is this the fate you accept?"
So that's how it was. Everything along the way became clear in this moment. Jiang Yunshu's face remained calm, but his heart was stunned.
She had never told anyone that, in fact, she had been seeing "end," "end," "beginning," and "beginning" all along the way. She didn't understand and even wondered if she was just being sentimental. Until this moment, everything became clear...
She used to be wavering, and the fact that she was here today just proved that she could waver.
Sometimes I want to end it completely, and sometimes I am reluctant to let go, but I dare not.
Until this moment, she had fallen to the lowest point and had to open her eyes, open them wide, and see everything in the most straightforward way, without any embellishment or concealment... Her tightly clenched heart suddenly loosened, and she no longer had any illusions.
This is the real time for her to make a decision.
Do you choose to go to the future that extends from the past, or to cut off from the past and start your own new life?
It’s called a choice, but it’s actually inevitable, isn’t it?
Transformation and rebirth.
Jiang Yunshu lowered his eyes calmly.
She suddenly felt like there was a ball of cotton stuck in her throat, it was itchy, and she couldn't cough it out.
"What is this?" she wondered. Resisting the force was like punching cotton. Not resisting, she simply coughed twice...
Suddenly, Jiang Yunshu lowered his head abruptly, opened his mouth slightly and coughed lightly, the coughs coming and going, and suddenly, unexpectedly, it gradually turned into a cheerful laugh that was so light that it was barely noticeable?
Not pain, not sore——
Every inch of my body seemed to be shouting "So happy, so happy" and "So happy, so happy"——
A piece of cotton in the heart and throat feels itchy and makes people want to laugh out loud.
I don't know why I'm laughing, I just feel so happy, so blessed, so relaxed, so light, as if my whole body is empty, illusory, as if I want to float up, dissipate and merge into the world, so...
What a free feeling.
Ten-year-old Jiang Yunshu smiled inwardly, and slowly answered the silent voice's question, word by word.
"No, I don't agree."
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