I don't want anything anymore
Bie Huan's body trembled violently again. He didn't dare to raise his eyes, and his head unconsciously lowered lower and lower.
Shame, full of shame.
She was so stupid, she killed so many brothers and sisters, how could she wash away her guilt with a simple statement like "I was cheated"?
Meng Shuangfu's tone was heavy and dissatisfied:
"In order to gain fame, he didn't hesitate to kill those who had helped him, to perish together with them. He was extremely selfish and cruel. This is all his fault!"
Bie Huan didn't say anything, he lowered his head and trembled continuously.
Meng Shuangfu forcefully reached out and grabbed her collar, forcing Bie Huan to suddenly raise her head.
Meng Shuangfu stared into her eyes, letting her see the indignation in them, and said—
"Do you think it's just this time?
"Even if it weren't for this time, even if you really succeeded this time, he would never let you go in the end. He would ruthlessly step on your corpses to climb up—
"You are bandits, evil bandits who burn, kill, and plunder. You are the perfect stepping stone for him!"
Meng Shuangfu's eyes revealed helplessness and heartache, and her voice softened:
"What would it be like then? It would definitely be...
"When he needs you, he'll coax you out to work hard. When he doesn't need you, he'll just let you die for his future and reputation without any involvement."
Meng Shuangfu said firmly and bluntly:
"Even if not now, in the future, when he has established himself and you are no longer useful, he will definitely...suppress the bandits for fame and fortune."
Bie Huan's pupils trembled violently.
She wanted to struggle back and away, but she couldn't move at all.
Meng Shuangfu chuckled and said:
"Has he ever done you any good in the past? Do you have to rely on yourselves for everything? Can he order you around at will?
"What a wonderful thing..."
Bie Huan suddenly let out a sharp cry: "Shut up!!" He pushed her away and retreated unconsciously step by step.
Meng Shuangfu staggered two steps and stood firm.
She didn't chase after him, and said with a tone of regret:
"How long has Sui Zhao'an been staying on your mountain? Is he familiar with the homeless people there?
"He knows, right? He clearly understands your pitiful nature, and how you've managed to survive by huddling together for warmth until now...
"Yet he still clung to the foolish Lord Lin and the unkind Lin Kingdom officials and generals. For his own fame and fortune, he turned to the greedy and lecherous Liushan County Magistrate, offering him countless sinister schemes. He turned a blind eye to the countless people struggling to fit in with the world."
Meng Shuangfu slowly shook his head and said in disbelief:
"And you, even now, still want to inherit his legacy, your heart is with the tyrant ruler of Lin Country, causing countless people to suffer..."
"I didn't!!" Bie Huan suddenly screamed, covering her face with her hands and crying, "I didn't, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't..."
Meng Shuangfu slowly stepped forward and whispered, "No, you didn't." He stretched out his arms and gently hugged her, "You were the one who was hurt the most by him. You won't have any feelings for him."
Bie Huan immediately let out a low "woooo" cry without struggling.
Meng Shuangfu smiled softly, patting her back with his right hand as if to comfort her. "You and your brothers and sisters in the village have all suffered. You couldn't accept the evil practices of the Lin Kingdom, and you didn't want to go along with them. That's why you suffered so much. You hate the Lin Kingdom the most."
Bie Huan cried, and his crying became more and more intense.
"Everything will be fine, everything will get better." Meng Shuangfu's voice was soft. "It's not your fault that your heart is pure. It's because Lin Country can't tolerate purity and innocence... But it doesn't matter. Everything is getting better. Open your eyes and look. Everything around you is slowly getting better."
Bie Huan's crying became softer and softer, and his body stopped trembling, as if he was so tired that he was about to fall asleep in her arms.
Meng Shuangfu closed her eyes lightly, and the smile on her lips widened——
So pitiful.
The more pitiful a person is, the more likely they are to encounter the most terrible disasters in the world. The more a person lacks love and yearns for love, the more likely they are to attract evil people.
The more you want, the more you lack. This is fate.
…………
Jiang Jingyuan was surrounded by people and walked into the bright lobby. When he looked up, he saw two people in front of him.
"Your Highness Changsheng." Meng Shuangfu smiled and bowed, her voice sweet.
Behind her.
Bie Huan changed into a neat new set of clothes, but with tears still lingering on his face, he imitated Meng Shuangfu's clumsy salute.
Jiang Jingyuan paused, then walked straight to the main seat and sat down. He glanced at the tear-stained woman and said, "Everyone, please take a seat."
Everyone was in an uproar. Bie Huan was stunned and didn't react. Meng Shuangfu beside her hurriedly pulled her sleeve.
Bie Huan quickly turned her head to glance and saw Meng Shuangfu smiling at her.
Jiang Jingyuan noticed the little movements between them and his eyes fell on Meng Shuangfu.
Meng Shuangfu noticed it, raised her face and gave her a sweet and bright smile.
Jiang Jingyuan looked away expressionlessly.
Seeing that she didn't even look at herself, Meng Shuangfu pouted.
This time, she came too late and lost the opportunity to win people's hearts... Jiang Jingyuan thought lazily in his heart.
"I told you to get up early, right..." Xu Qinglin complained unhappily.
Jiang Jingyuan: "...?"
It was she who lost the hearts of the people in the village. Why was Xu Qinglin so anxious about her loss?
Xu Qinglin continued, "Originally, if these people stayed in the Northern Territory, they could still compete with them, but now they've all become her supporters!"
There's no need... Jiang Jingyuan could only say, "No rush."
Xu Qinglin was very anxious and kept chattering in her mind with increasing excitement.
…………
Linguo, Zhaoping City.
In the imperial palace, inside the exquisite and magnificent yet dusty palace.
In the silence, a light cough suddenly sounded—
Weak and listless.
The palace gate was pushed open, and three figures walked in. They stepped onto a patch of ground, and a pattern of formations suddenly lit up on the ground. The next moment, the three figures disappeared.
The underground of this palace.
In the dim light.
A figure fell flat on the ground, quietly, with his eyes open looking straight up, his eyes filled with quiet death.
She had been here for too long, she didn't know how long, she hadn't seen many people and hadn't seen the world again.
At first she was crazy and in unbearable pain all day long, but later she was able to calm down and be peaceful for a while.
The ultimate despair is a faint sense of calm and peace.
Does it still hurt?
Sometimes I can’t help but imagine that one day I will escape from here. What will the weather be like then? What will I do then?
Yes, yes. As I was thinking about it, I suddenly woke up from a dream and my heart suddenly ached.
It hurts so much, it hurts so much——
Jiang Jingmang suddenly curled up and frantically grabbed his hair with his hands, as if trying to fight against some intense pain.
Can the pain in my body mask the pain in my heart? Yes, yes, yes, yes, it seems that this will make it feel better.
Why, why.
In this life, if you want to move forward, you must always be careful to walk on the road paved with stone slabs. Even if you stumble and fall, you can always stand up, dust yourself off and continue walking.
But if one day, one falls into a quagmire...
Climb out of the mud bit by bit with strength, and then continue walking towards the sun?
ha.
If you can climb out of it, it’s not a quagmire. If you can stand up and keep going, it’s not really a huge setback in life.
That kind of quagmire actually existed ahead - it was destined.
Even the year, month, day, time, and age at which a person falls into the quagmire and feels pain are all destined.
When you realize these things, when you explore all of this, it is all destined.
Even if one tries to crawl out of that muddy and filthy quagmire, the filth and mud will still cling to one's soul like a water ghost.
It will haunt you for the rest of your life.
It will take you a lifetime to crack it and resolve it, and it will also take you a lifetime to get rid of the obsession in your heart.
Finally, free and relaxed, I reach perfection...
ha.
God makes people lose, and then asks them to accept, understand, and tolerate the loss, so that they will not be obsessed with things they don’t have.
I don’t know whether to cry or laugh, I’m both crying and laughing.
Like honey and a knife... Jiang Jingmang once had a dream in the dark.
In that dream, the child who was sent away from home at a young age was almost cut into pieces by the adoptive family.
Some people couldn't bear to watch and asked the caregiver why he treated the child like that.
The caregiver said, "So that when this child returns home, he won't have to go through a knife to beg for a piece of honey."
After Jiang Jingmang woke up, she thought for a long time. That period was a rare moment of peace for her. She kept thinking about the dream in the dark.
At first, she thought it made some sense, but she also felt a little weird.
Later, she suddenly figured it out at a certain moment.
The caregivers hope that their children will not be hurt by their desire when they return home, so they scare their children and prevent them from asking for honey from their family.
Can……
But you can clearly give her lots and lots of honey, so much that she will disdain all of it!!!
ah--
Jiang Jingmang lay in the darkness, trembling all over and crying silently and painfully.
Why, why use such a lame excuse.
Accept and tolerate deficiencies, and reach the state of "even if there are deficiencies, the heart is still very satisfied"... funny, funny.
Jiang Jingmang fell weakly on the cold ground, looking up with his eyes open, tears flowing continuously.
You clearly don't love me, God, you clearly hate me.
Jiang Jingmang was crying and suddenly laughed, crying and laughing at the same time. His head hurt so much, so much pain, and he felt dizzy...
Shaking, shaking.
Everything was shaking and the world was spinning. She tried to stand up to feel if it was the world itself that was shaking, but she couldn't stand steadily and fell back to the ground.
The soul and body seemed to be torn apart, and they were spinning and spinning.
Is it the soul that is shaking, the body that is shaking, or the heaven and earth that are shaking?
They were spinning and shaking all the time, but it seemed as if they were disassembled, each spinning and shaking in a different direction.
I feel so dizzy, so dizzy, my head hurts, dizzy and painful.
She was clearly aware of the pain, but was powerless to stop it, and didn't even have the strength to raise her hands.
She swayed back and forth, breathing heavily in the darkness, and suddenly she retched.
Don't turn anymore, don't turn anymore.
I don’t want it anymore… I don’t want it anymore, I don’t want anything anymore, I really don’t want it anymore, please don’t… torture me anymore.
It hurts so much, it hurts so much, I feel so dizzy, my head feels like it’s going to explode, and it feels like a stuffy heat is hitting my face from the inside out, as if it’s going to rush out of my mouth, nose, eyes, and ears, but it doesn’t.
Jiang Jingmang fell to the ground weakly, his mouth open, his eyes dead, and he cried quietly.
God, God, would you bother with an ant? Why would you bother with an ant?
Hate me, kill me.
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me, wuwuwu, hahahaha, you kill me, I won’t show up, I don’t want anything, I don’t want anything, you kill me…
It's simple and easy, why bother with ants?
Just slap me to death, it only takes a moment. Please, be more generous. You are the master of all things, so why should you be so petty because of a tiny ant?
Just kill me.
"That won't do."
The darkness suddenly lit up with an orange-red glow. The three people who had arrived laughed and raised their hands to scatter another shower of starlight. They sneered, "You're still useful, how can you die? If you die, we'll be at a loss."
The starlight fell on my body, and the withered vitality glowed again.
Jiang Jingmang didn't move at all, tears streaming down his face in silence, his eyes opened as he stared upwards—
Looking towards the invisible sky.
You killed me.
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