Its reverberation
During the day, the wind blew through the open window lattices, making the room slightly cooler. A young girl lay quietly on a recliner, gazing up at the sky and blinking slowly, her face numb and faintly sad.
Jiang Jingyuan once again began his familiar retrospective thinking.
However, this time it was different.
She wanted to recall that terrifying experience, to try to return to the fear and completely resolve it. However, if she herself could not remember how she had allowed the fear to emerge at that time, how could she recall it now?
She really doesn't remember.
It wasn't until a few days later, when she had completely calmed down and wanted to look back, that she suddenly realized that she couldn't remember the slightest bit of how the fear had arisen.
"Back then, how did it first emerge?" Jiang Jingyuan was completely immersed in his own thoughts, thinking blankly, "I seem to only vaguely remember the feeling and process of pushing the wall. I can't remember what happened at the beginning at all..."
At that time... she seemed to be lying there in a daze, bored?
Then, it seemed, she felt intense fear and pain, which swept over her in an instant like a tsunami and woke her up.
She was in so much pain in the thick darkness that her mind was shattered. After a while, she suddenly found her mind again and understood her current situation...
No, that's not right.
Jiang Jingyuan recalled with a frown.
She didn't remember whether she regained her mind quickly at that time, or perhaps she was trapped and instinctively pushed the wall. She was only sure that her mind returned some time later.
But when his mind returned, it was trembling, unable to resist the intense fear.
Too hasty, too unguarded, too unprepared.
Missed this opportunity.
Jiang Jingyuan let out a long sigh, a strange mixture of fatigue and relief rising up in his body.
Even in the past few days, her memory was only in a state of "vaguely remembering this matter, but if she didn't think about it carefully, it would be as if she had forgotten it." It was not until today that she completely recalled it.
But when I recall it, many of the details are vague.
Jiang Jingyuan sighed again.
"That's enough..." Not far away, the red-haired fox who was resting on a chair shouted in exasperation.
It frowned fiercely, stood up and stretched its joints, then curled up again and said impatiently, "Why don't you go out for a walk instead of sighing here."
Jiang Jingyuan was silent for a moment, then frankly said, "I, I don't know how I feel. Anyway, I'm just wondering when such an opportunity will come again, and how I'm going to face it next time."
If she hadn't had that experience, how could she have imagined that there was such a terrifying monster hidden in her heart?
It's well hidden.
Even if she went to see it now, she could only sometimes catch a glimpse of a corner of it. Not only could she not see the whole thing, sometimes she couldn't even find it.
Sheng Liang didn't even open his eyes when he heard this. "Then do what you should do. Practice well and wait."
"And you still can't resolve your fear..." The little red fox stretched, yawned with his mouth wide open, and smacked his lips. "Isn't that because you were extremely frightened at that time? You were already staggering in a torrent of fear, so how could you resolve it?"
Jiang Jingyuan was stunned, sat up and turned to look over.
As expected, I still have to ask questions in a practical way. As soon as I asked, I suddenly got the answer. It was so amazing that it happened so naturally over and over again... Jiang Jingyuan felt as if his mind had suddenly become clear, but he didn't quite understand. After a long silence, he asked:
"Then what should I do? Why can other creatures calmly transcend fear?"
Sheng Liang sighed sadly, "It really makes Fox feel tired." The whole lively fox face seemed to have aged several years in just a few days.
It half-closed its eyes and said weakly, "That's because you're not firm enough."
Jiang Jingyuan paused.
Sheng Liang said, "Of course we are afraid too. This powerful fear is hidden deep within our hearts. However, when we face this opportunity, we will think, 'This time, I won't be afraid again,' 'It's not me who is afraid,' and we will resolutely never give up and overcome fear."
Jiang Jingyuan fell silent, sitting on the recliner with a thoughtful look on his face.
The little fox paused and said regretfully, "What a rare opportunity! If you had just been a little more determined and persevered a little longer... Alas!"
When Jiang Jingyuan thought about this, he sighed with regret and sorrow.
The little fox couldn't help but shake his head and sigh. It was obvious that he was still complaining about Jiang Jingyuan being noisy just now, but now when he thought about it, he couldn't help but feel sorry for Jiang Jingyuan and sighed repeatedly.
As it sighed, it caught a glimpse of the figure of a girl not far away. Its expression suddenly twisted, and it felt heartbroken, disappointed with its friend, and also felt sorry for itself. It murmured:
"I now feel that you are truly lucky... Other beings would have to be incredibly determined to wait for such an opportunity, but you, even without any determination, have been able to experience these chances time and again. Don't worry about whether you only had a brief taste of them, just tell me whether you've experienced them!"
The little fox raised his hand to cover his heart, tears streaming down his eyes, full of heartache for himself.
Jiang Jingyuan frowned slightly and said, "Didn't I try every possible way to look for him? But he didn't come when I was waiting preparedly, and only came when I thought, 'Forget it, I'll rest first.' I get startled every time."
She added with a tone of disapproval, "I've only just started. There are many creatures in heaven and on earth who have mastered these things without doing anything."
"There's no end to the competition..." the little fox said, shaking his paw finger. "In photography, there are always people who are more talented than me."
After a pause, it glanced at her again and said, "Anyway, in my opinion, you've had enough."
Jiang Jingyuan suddenly smiled inexplicably, fell back on the recliner, and said slowly: "Actually, I don't have such a strong internal drive, that is, determination, I am not so determined to move forward. I am just... afraid of dreams that will become empty."
"I'm obsessed with appearances, so I'm afraid that if I lose that chance, there won't be another one. I'm afraid that was the closest I've ever been to becoming an immortal in this lifetime." Jiang Jingyuan said, "It seems like it's always like this. When I think I can't become an immortal in this lifetime, the opportunity slips away. Then I persist, only to be disappointed..."
The little fox looked at her strangely and asked in confusion, "Don't you feel the joy of being close to the celestial beings?"
Jiang Jingyuan was silent for a moment, then answered irrelevantly, "I know. In fact, most of the time when I was practicing, I didn't really enter that state, but I have experienced entering that state a few times..."
"The closest description I can find is: unconscious and insensible."
She said, "Unconsciousness is a shallow state of unconsciousness, where even peace is forgotten. But what about the appearance? There is ecstasy, excitement, and excitement in the appearance... Some of these words may not sound good to you, but I think it is true. The emotions in the appearance are much stronger than unconsciousness, and they are so captivating."
Finally, Jiang Jingyuan added: "Of course, it could also be that I haven't repaired it yet."
Sheng Liang was silent.
After a while, it just said: "Maybe it's because I'm a fox. I don't have all the interesting things you humans have." It didn't comment on whether Jiang Jingyuan's thinking was good or bad, or whether he was ungrateful.
"Do you know when I suddenly realized that I was not firm?" Jiang Jingyuan sat up, looked at it, and suddenly took the initiative to speak.
Sheng Liang also looked over.
"I thought I was very steadfast and unwavering, but then, at some point, a fleeting thought caught my eye..." Jiang Jingyuan said slowly, word by word, "That thought was, when I become an immortal, I'm going to change my appearance and make everything beautiful."
The little fox opened its mouth slightly, tears welling up in its eyes. It felt the same way as her. Not only did it sense her, but it also... had had such thoughts before.
Inevitably, we have all had such thoughts.
Jiang Jingyuan laughed, spreading his hands helplessly, and a hint of sadness lingered in his laughing voice:
"Later, I discovered more and more - they told me that my obsession and resentment were very heavy. And I, in my heart, was unwilling to let go."
"Why can't I become an immortal?" Jiang Jingyuan said to himself.
"Actually, I've always known this. I'm only trying to become an immortal for the sake of appearances. I don't really want to become an immortal."
Jiang Jingyuan pursed his lips and smiled.
Sheng Liang was stunned to see the sadness in her dark eyes.
…………
Since the casual chat that morning, Jiang Jingyuan has not discussed these things with it for half a month, but has been practicing quietly by himself.
"I'm going to practice."
Jiang Jingyuan said this and turned back to the house.
"I hope this person is okay..." The little fox cleaned up the dishes and turned to look at her departing back, his face full of complexity and worry in his heart.
Could it be that it pushed too hard before... Sheng Liang thought in confusion, actually there is no need to rush about this kind of thing, just let nature take its course.
Thinking of this, Sheng Liang put down his dishes, washed his paws, and quickly walked back to the house. When he approached the door to the inner room, he hesitated for a moment, then moved to the door hesitantly, stuck his head out, and glanced inside.
The girl was wearing a simple beige robe and sitting cross-legged on the bed. She was holding a book in her hand that she had found from some corner and was reading it quietly.
Jiang Jingyuan held the book in both hands, and from time to time he freed one hand to take a cup to drink water or turn the pages of the book. When he was upset, reading could calm his mind.
——This also proves that she is uneasy at the moment.
Sheng Liang looked at him intently, his eyes complicated.
Jiang Jingyuan sometimes lowered her head to look at the book, and sometimes raised her hand to hold it higher to read. As she read, she suddenly felt something and turned her eyes towards the door.
By the door, a hint of red is hidden in the mist.
A vague fox face was hidden behind the door, with only one eye and half of its face showing, staring at her quietly for an unknown amount of time.
Oh my god... Jiang Jingyuan was shocked.
Then she came to her senses and thought with lingering fear, if the fox wanted to come, it should just walk over directly. Why did it show half of its face at the door... It's so scary.
Jiang Jingyuan paused, then calmly put the book down, looked at it, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"
Sheng Liang smacked his lips upon hearing this, then tiptoed slowly into the room. He cautiously approached her and said softly, "There's no rush for this, so don't put too much pressure on yourself. Eat, drink, and have fun. The more relaxed you are, the better..."
Its cautious expression suddenly changed.
At the same time, Jiang Jingyuan's expression froze and he widened his eyes slightly.
The man and the fox turned their heads abruptly and looked in one direction. They saw the interior of a house, but they clearly and distinctly sensed—
It has been a long time coming...it is here.
The echoes of all living beings are deafening.
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