They should have talked things out clearly between them. She didn't understand his thoughts before, but now that she does, she can no longer pretend to be nonchalant and continue talking to Qiao Qian'an!
Qiao Qian'an smiled bitterly, his heart filled with bitterness. "Mo Mo, why do you have to be so cruel?"
"I know I can't run away forever." So he just wanted to delay it for a few more days, to postpone it as long as possible...
Mo Xiaoqing no longer seemed to have an innocent expression; instead, she became unusually silent.
Seeing her like that, Qiao Qian'an felt as if his heart was bleeding. "If I could, I would wish to stay in the same state as yesterday, or for time to stand still forever."
In this way, he could also deceive himself into thinking that he did have a place in Momo's heart!
"Qiao Qian'an, I'm sorry." She blinked her big, bright eyes, which shimmered with iridescent light and were filled with a captivating sadness that instantly evoked pity and tenderness in one's heart.
Normally, people would question whether she was faking her grievances or playing the victim. However, when their gaze shifted downwards and they saw the solemnity on her face and Chen Mo's expression, they were surprised.
Then no one will question whether she's faking it anymore.
With just one sentence, Qiao Qian'an already knew that he had completely lost hope. He had still held onto a sliver of hope, but now his heart sank completely, feeling icy cold, as if he were in an ice cellar.
"I'm so sorry about what happened yesterday! If you hadn't taken that blow for me, I would have been the one who got hurt, so thank you so much!"
In truth, she would rather be hurt than carry such a heavy burden of guilt. "Could you please not say sorry or thank you? If it's not something I want to hear, could you please not say it?" Qiao Qian'an's voice contained a barely perceptible plea.
Perhaps he already knew the answer in his heart. From the moment he saw Ji Muhan in Yunnan, he already knew that he had lost, lost miserably.
Even if it wasn't Ji Muhan, that person would never have been him...
"The truth may be hard to accept, but it's not false," Mo Xiaoqing said apologetically.
Qiao Qian'an lowered his eyes and gave a bitter smile. "Mo Mo, do you know? In front of you, even if you were poison, I would still drink it. But the truth is too cruel. I want to hear lies." Even if they are not true.
"I'm sorry, I can't lie to you." Mo Xiaoqing paused for a moment, then said sincerely.
If he actually listened to him and lied to him, that would truly be unfair to him.
Qiao Qian'an laughed self-deprecatingly, tears welling up in his eyes as he laughed, "Heh, you can't lie to me...heh."
You won't even lie to him, Momo, just how much do you dislike me?
Mo Xiaoqing lowered her eyes and said again, "I'm sorry."
At this moment, in this situation, besides repeatedly saying these three words, she didn't know what else she could say.
Qiao Qian'an's eyes flickered slightly, and he said self-deprecatingly, "Mo Mo, I don't ask you to fall in love with me, but I didn't expect you to be so heartless as to not even give me a chance."
Although Mo Xiaoqing knew that what she was saying might be cruel and hurt him, she still chose to say what was on her mind: "Although I have always argued with you, in my heart, you and Third Brother are the same."
They are both older brothers, indispensable figures, but they can never replace Hanhan's presence.
"Brother?" Qiao Qian'an's voice was extremely soft, so faint that it seemed as if Mo Xiaoqing was just hallucinating.
But she also knew very well that it wasn't her imagination; it was all real. She had never even imagined that he would fall in love with her, after all, the two of them were always at odds whenever they met...
Mo Xiaoqing didn't know what she could say, but she knew she couldn't give him any hope, so all she could do was repeat, "I'm sorry."
"I'm tired, you can go now." Qiao Qian'an looked away from her, his voice sounding very weary.
With each sentence he heard, his heart felt as if it were being slowly sliced to pieces, filled with immense pain, yet not enough to kill him; he simply endured the constant agony and swallowed the bitterness in his mouth.
He'd rather she left now than hear anything he didn't want to hear from her...
Mo Xiaoqing's eyes flickered slightly. After a pause, she finally said, "I will not come looking for you again, and I hope you will not come looking for me either."
Although she herself felt that this was too cruel, this was the only way to truly be good to him. If he couldn't accept it, how could they go back to the beginning?
Qiao Qian'an felt a dull ache in his heart that almost suffocated him, but he could only endure it. Looking at Mo Xiaoqing, who was expressionless not far away, his eyes were full of struggle and pain. "Mo Mo, my liking you has nothing to do with you, so whether you accept it or not is your choice. As for whether I should make a commitment, that is my freedom. You have no right to deprive me of my freedom."
Just like the pain he felt when he had his attack yesterday, the excruciating pain came in waves, but he was powerless to do anything about it and could only watch helplessly as he endured this heart-wrenching agony!
Mo Xiaoqing's eyes were firm, no longer as cunning as usual. Her eyebrows curved, and her expression was solemn. "Brother Qiao, this is the last time I will call you that. In my heart, you will always be my brother. I will not lie about this, nor do I want to. I only like Hanhan. No one can replace him in this life. So, it's better if we don't contact each other anymore."
If he can't forget, then she'll help him forget.
She couldn't reciprocate his feelings, and she didn't want to hold him back. So she decided to let it be, and not see him again, minimizing the possibility of them meeting. That was the best thing for him.
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