“But, Xiao Si, do you know? I can’t forget your brother, and I can’t let go of him, so I can only deceive myself like this.”
In the end, he never owed her anything. It was all her own choice, so what right did she have to say that he hadn't kept his promise?
Ji Yao curled her lips, her eyes filled with a desolate self-mockery, and said, "I love your brother. From the first moment I saw him, I knew I was doomed. I was destined to be stuck with your brother for the rest of my life. I can never let go of someone as aloof and handsome as him."
“When I saw your brother again, he clearly told me to let go, but I just couldn’t do it.”
Ji Yao bit her lip, buried her head in her knees, hugged her legs with both hands, and her thin shoulders swayed back and forth.
How could she not love him, someone as dazzling and outstanding as him? And who could resist him?
Ji Yao closed her eyes, gave a bleak smile, and said self-deprecatingly, "I just love him, what can I do?"
She was so deeply in love with him that she couldn't control herself from loving him. The only reason her heart was still beating was to prove that she still loved him...
Mo Xiaoqing was speechless with heartache. She didn't know how to comfort or console Yao Yao.
Or perhaps she simply doesn't know what the right thing to say is? After all, she's also gone down this path to the bitter end, so what grounds does she have to advise Yao Yao?
"Xiao Si, do you know? To me, your brother is like a shooting star, like the aurora. No matter how much I like him, or even if I try my best to keep him, he will never belong to me. When the time comes, he will always leave."
Ji Yao gave a sad and miserable smile, the light in her eyes gradually dimming. "But I still want to try, even if it's a desperate gamble."
Like gambling, there's always a voice inside her saying, "What if I win?" If she wins, she can be with Yan Yan forever!
But in the end, it was still just wishful thinking on her part. What wasn't meant to be her would never be, no matter how hard she tried to keep him...
"Sometimes, I can't help but wonder if we are destined to be apart, which is why we can't be together. Look, this time, your brother still left me alone."
"Perhaps, our meeting was a mistake from the start, which is why we are destined to be apart." Ji Yao gave a sorrowful and desolate smile, a beautiful but tragic smile, as if she were about to ride the wind and disappear from this world at any moment!
At the same time, her smile made Mo Xiaoqing's heart ache terribly.
Yao Yao had experienced the same kind of unrequited love she felt with Ji Muhan.
“Your brother said we shouldn’t torture each other anymore, ha.” Ji Yao smiled coldly, tears falling silently like rain, and said self-deprecatingly, “But when has he ever tortured me?”
It was always just her tormenting him...
"That's not how it is." Mo Xiaoqing frowned, wanting to speak up for her brother.
"You don't need to comfort me. I know your brother only accepted me because I kept pestering him, which forced him to be with me out of desperation," Ji Yao said, seemingly mocking herself.
"Xiao Si, your brother has never loved me."
After nearly four years of self-deception, Ji Yao was finally willing to face the truth. In fact, when Mo Yanyu was with her, he made it clear that he did not accept her because he liked her, but she deliberately forgot this fact.
Now that he has left this world without any regrets, Ji Yao is finally able to face this cruel reality…
"From another perspective, I should actually feel satisfied and happy. After all, when he was around, he always kept pushing me away and telling me that we could never be together. But now we can be together, no matter what form it takes. At least legally, I am his wife, Mo Yanyu."
"I can even fall asleep in the room he's lived in since he was a child, with the same pillow he used. I think... I should be happy, shouldn't I?"
Ji Yao took a deep breath, clutching her chest and silently weeping. Suppressing her sobs, she said in a trembling voice, word by word, "But... why do I still feel so sad that I can't breathe?"
I feel a tightness in my chest, as if a large chunk of flesh has been ripped out, a sharp, agonizing pain that feels like I'm about to die...
“Xiao Si, I regret it. If the price of being with him is his life, then,” Ji Yao paused, tears streaming down her face, and choked out, “I would rather have never met him.”
She asks for nothing now, only that he is safe and sound and living well.
Only when you feel the pain to the core do you realize that the fact that two people can live well together is already the most difficult thing in the world.
Now she only wants him to return safely; she doesn't ask for anything else!
Perhaps this was a silent warning from heaven: don't force what isn't meant for you; if you insist, you'll only end up destroying everything...
In the end... he got nothing!
If we are not destined to be together, why force it?
Mo Xiaoqing looked away, not wanting Yao Yao to see the tears welling up in her eyes.
During this time, she realized that everyone was struggling and being repeatedly tormented by fate, yet they had no power to resist!
Unfortunately, she understood this truth too late, having learned it at the cost of the most important person in her life!
*
The days that followed were a bolt from the blue for Mo Xiaoqing, casting a dark shadow over the entire Mo family.
The mother would always hold her brother's photo and cry secretly, while the father would always be there to comfort and console her, but his eyes were always filled with deep sorrow.
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