"Xiaobai, although I know you're with my brother now, and I shouldn't talk to you about Xianmingyu anymore, I still think it's necessary to understand your own health condition. As for the child, it really can't be entirely Xianmingyu's fault. He has always had you in his heart."
Although she was an outsider and had no right to interfere in their affairs, Ji Shushu felt that there were some things Bai Xiaoruo needed to know.
No matter what Xianmingyu did to Xiaobai that made her sad for so long, they were once husband and wife. If they continue to be blinded by misunderstandings and don't resolve their misunderstandings, it must be painful for both of them.
Bai Xiaoruo sat down again. "Shushu, you can go out first. I'll go down by myself in a bit."
"Hey? You're not going to lock yourself in your room again, are you? Xiaobai, I don't want to go out, I want to stay here with you." Ji Shushu suddenly regretted her loose tongue. Had she upset Xiaobai again?
"I won't lock myself in anymore. I'll change my clothes and come downstairs in a bit. Wait for me downstairs. It'll be quick."
“But…” Ji Shushu knew Bai Xiaoruo was stubborn, so she didn’t say anything more. “Alright then, I’ll go down first. You have to come down quickly, okay? You must be down within half an hour.”
"good."
Before leaving Bai Xiaoruo's room, Ji Shushu repeatedly told her not to overthink things before closing the door and heading downstairs.
After Ji Shushu left, Bai Xiaoruo got up and sat down by the bed. She took out an ultrasound report from the inside of the sheet. The report was very wrinkled and the words on it were almost worn out.
This is the report that was taken when Xian Mingyu first took Bai Xiaoruo for an ultrasound. After the baby was lost, she often touched this report and looked at it repeatedly. She cried and shed countless tears on it. Now even the words are blurred, and only a black and white ultrasound image remains.
This is the only remaining memento she has for her deceased baby.
My fingertips gently stroked the photo on the paper. Baby, if only you were still here.
Then Mom won't feel all alone anymore.
Many things on my mind cannot be told to others; I can only keep them to myself.
Baby, is it really because Mommy is useless that I couldn't save you?
If... you've already been reborn into someone else's family, I hope you're born into a good family with loving parents and a wonderful life...
If... if we are still destined to be together... if you can still be my child... let Mom make it up to you again... I promise I will never let you down again, never let you leave in such pain again...
If it's really as Ji Shushu said, that her physical condition prevented her from keeping the baby... then... she's been misunderstanding Xian Mingyu all along, misunderstanding his good intentions, right?
Baby... It turns out, the wrong people weren't just Daddy, but Mommy was also one of the murderers who killed you...
It's my fault that you're in this mess.
Even if it was a misunderstanding, Mom and Dad really did separate.
He and she can never go back to the way things were.
***
When Bai Xiaoruo changed her clothes and came downstairs, she happened to run into the house with an invitation. "Master, this is an invitation from the Xian family. They say that it's the old lady of the Xian family's birthday tomorrow night, and they'd like to invite you to attend."
Upon hearing that it was an invitation from the Xuan family, Feng Zhiyuan flew into a rage again, "Attend my ass! Quick! Burn it right now! Ruoruo absolutely cannot see it!"
"Yes, sir."
"Wait a minute." Bai Xiaoru called out to the butler, "What kind of invitation is it? Let me see it."
Feng Zhiyuan blocked her way, "Ruo Ruo, you and Shu Shu should go out and play. It's nothing special, there's nothing to see."
"Grandpa, I want to see."
"You... sigh! Go ahead and watch if you want, but I'm not going!" Feng Zhiyuan couldn't persuade her; once Bai Xiaoruo made up her mind, no one could make that decision for her.
The butler handed the invitation to Bai Xiaoruo.
She opened the invitation, and it was indeed her grandmother's birthday. It said that she wanted to invite Feng Zhiyuan and Bai Xiaoruo to attend the banquet together.
My grandfather's legs haven't been very strong lately, and attending this kind of banquet would require a lot of walking, which would be too tiring for him. It's not really suitable for him to go, but... it's my grandmother's good intention, so I can't just refuse.
Bai Xiaoru closed the invitation in her hand. "Grandpa, it's Grandma's birthday tomorrow night. I'll go. If you don't want to go, just stay home."
"No! How can you go! You know perfectly well that the Xian family is..."
"Grandpa, I know what I'm doing. The invitations have already been sent to our house, and someone has to attend. Don't worry, I won't do anything reckless, and I won't let myself be wronged. I'll be back soon and won't stay long."
“Ruo Ruo, it’s not that your grandfather doesn’t believe you, but… that boy from the Xian family bullied you so badly. If you go and run into him, you might soften your heart again. What if…” Feng Zhiyuan still disagreed with Bai Xiaoruo attending this so-called birthday banquet.
"No, Grandpa. I'm just taking a gift over. I'll come back after I deliver it to Grandma. I won't have anything to do with him anymore. After all, Grandma was really good to me before, and I'd feel bad if I didn't go to her birthday party..."
"Well... if you really want to go, that's fine too. Grandpa will assign you two bodyguards to go with you. If that brat from the Xian family dares to mess with you, I'll have someone deal with him! Also, don't worry about whether it's appropriate for the occasion or whether you respect your elders. Don't get entangled with their family. Just go and come back as soon as possible." Feng Zhiyuan took Bai Xiaoruo's hand and patted it. "Grandpa will wait for you at home. Just go to this birthday party once. You can't have any contact with the Xian family after this. When you have your summer vacation, we'll move to a different place, away from L City and away from that brat from the Xian family. Grandpa will find you a better school, cultivate your interests, and give you a better life."
"Grandpa, I..." Bai Xiaoruo didn't expect Feng Zhiyuan to suddenly make such a request. Were they moving out for summer vacation? There were only two months left.
Leaving L City means never coming back, right?
Ji Shushu, who had been holding back for a while, got up and walked over. "No, Grandpa! Where are you taking Xiaobai? What will I do if Xiaobai leaves? Xiaobai is my best friend, and I can't bear to part with her. Besides, my brother is with Xiaobai now too. Grandpa, can you bear to separate them by such a great distance? Can't we stay together?"
Ji Shushu absolutely did not want Bai Xiaoruo to leave.
If she really has to transfer schools or move, she wants to go with Xiaobai, and her parents can buy a house next to Xiaobai's house so that she can go to school and play with Xiaobai every day.
In short, they cannot be separated.
Bai Xiaoruo didn't really agree with moving either. After all, she was from L City and had lived here for over ten years, so she had a deep attachment to the place.
Anyway, Xuan Mingyu won't bother her anymore, so there's nothing to worry about. There's really no need to move again.
“Grandpa, I really don’t want to have anything to do with him anymore. I don’t want to move away from L City. I’m doing just fine with my life now. I don’t want to use this method to escape reality.”
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