Plop.
Sonia fell into the deep sea, the impact cut her face and tightened her waist and abdomen.
Seawater invades the eyes and nose, and the sour and astringent feeling spreads from the respiratory tract to the eyeballs.
Gurgling bubbles passed by her and escaped from the water one by one, bursting, bursting... When the last bubble burst, Sonia could no longer hear any sound. It seemed as if the whole world was left with only her and the dark deep sea.
This is death.
Sonia felt unexpectedly calm.
You can't hear anything, so don't worry about words.
There is nothing to see, so don't worry about the facts.
I was the only one left falling in the deep sea, so the whole world had nothing to do with me.
I feel empty inside, yet extremely at ease.
But she didn't think she had such a calm realization. The truth should be that everyone who passed through the curtain of death could obtain eternal peace. After all, death is the greatest tragedy in life. If you can't get rid of the shackles of death after death, it would be too cruel.
If it weren't for this wonderful peace, Sonia felt that she would be trapped in regret. She had no reason not to regret. She was only twenty years old, she had many good friends, and even if she didn't enter heaven, she was still a demigod magician who was above all other living beings. She still had many things she wanted to do, and many places she hadn't been to. Her life had just begun... but it ended here.
She was like a lonely shooting star, a brilliant firework. Even if she had shone and bloomed, she would still feel uncomfortable in the long loneliness afterwards. After all, she was just a girl who had just turned 20 a few days ago. How could she be willing to die like those great men?
She was not willing to do it.
She really wants to live on. There are still many dramas she hasn’t watched, many concerts she hasn’t attended, she hasn’t starred in a movie or drama, and she hasn’t become the dream of young boys and girls.
She really wants to continue to be with the witches. Even if they no longer need to team up for adventures and instead run heaven, she still wants to continue living with them. To her, Lisdea, Weisser, and even Vichy are not just teammates, but family members who share life and death with her.
Also, I really want to...really want to...
Mumble.
Sonia opened her mouth slightly and exhaled a bubble. As the sound of the bubble rising gradually faded away, the turbulent waves in her heart calmed down.
When I think about it, I really have become nothing like myself.
Although she already has an extremely bright future, she is willing to risk everything to uphold the Kingdom of Heaven; although she does not want to be hostile to the cunning gods from the bottom of her heart, she dares to draw her sword against them without hesitation; although she thinks life would be better without love, she still wants to see him.
If she had not participated in this action, if she had not held high the Kingdom of Heaven, although the team would have fallen apart, she could have lived the life she had always dreamed of in the human world, doing whatever she wanted, having her dreams come true, with all beings bowing to her, and heaven and earth submitting to her. And as long as there was time, it would not be a problem for her to form an alliance with the witches again - there were only four of them in the human world, immortal demigods who lived forever, and they were of the same kind, and no matter how big the conflict was, it could not overcome the long loneliness.
If I have time today, I will go to Gospel to play with the witch. If I can't sleep tomorrow, I will go to Senluo to talk with Yin Deng. The day after tomorrow, when I hear that Weixi is killing people to refine souls, I will go to supervise whether there is any harm to innocent people. Once a week, we will have a tea party to exchange our experience in magic. The witch is the most lively and lovely, Yin Deng is serious, and Weixi always likes to be sarcastic. They can chat all day without getting tired of it... It's interesting just to think about it.
It would be better if I didn’t save Ash, it would be better if I didn’t think about Ash, it would be better if… there was no Ash.
But if there is no Ash, there will be no me today, and there will be no us today.
Sonia always thought that amnesia was a good thing for her. Forgetting the memory of Ash and how he had cheated on her would help improve her happiness. But now she felt a little bit at a disadvantage, because even if she had lost her memory, she still took risks for Ash, just like a girl in love, who dared to betray everything, including her selfish self, in order to see the person she loved.
Once a love story is written on a piece of pure white paper, even if the story is wiped clean, beautiful traces will still be left on the paper.
It would be better not to lose memory.
If she hadn't lost her memory, she could at least be like a silly girl, sinking into death with happy memories in her arms.
Tick.
She seemed to hear a drop of water hitting the water, creating shallow ripples. She felt that the drop of water did not merge into the sea, but fell all the way down and dripped onto the ring on her ring finger.
Until this moment, Sonia had not noticed that she was wearing a wedding ring. She had so naturally ignored this detail, as if wearing a ring on her ring finger was a matter of course.
She saw a faint red line extending from the ring, passing through the dark deep sea and connecting to a distance that she could not see.
A scene suddenly popped into her mind.
In the clean and tidy single room, a young man who was obviously wearing prison uniform was looking at her expectantly. Sonia knew at first glance that he was Ash Hiss, because although he was not particularly good-looking, there was a clear stupidity in his eyes, which was very consistent with the tone shown in the diary.
"Are you so happy to see me? Even at this time, you are still afraid of loneliness and a strange prison. You even regard me as your lifeline. You panic when you don't see me for a day, just like a little child..."
"But it's fine this way. Only in this way can you trust her, rely on her, and even..."
Sonia felt a hint of mockery and inexplicable expectation in her heart. In her eyes, Ash was like a little brother acting like a spoiled child, and she was the big sister who could easily control Ash and control his emotional life with ease.
The next scene was the Sea of Knowledge, where a small boat floated on the sea surrounded by white mist. She was hidden in the mist, watching the red-haired girl put her hand through Ash's waist, gently hugged him, and put her chin on his shoulder. Perhaps because it was the first time they hugged, their movements were a little stiff. When Ash wanted to hug her, the red-haired girl quickly pulled away and looked at him with a mischievous smile on her face. However, when Ash said ambiguous love words while looking at her, it was the red-haired girl's turn to flee.
The ambiguity of testing each other, the shyness of not daring to express one's feelings, and this heart-pounding game where whoever admits that they like the other first loses.
"You don't have a dream, but you can protect my dream..."
"I feel as light as a balloon, and only you are the string that ties me to the ground..."
"You two really like each other. I feel like I'm going to be laughed at by the Black Demon and the Ghost Demon. The End Watcher and the Death Mad Sword Princess are in love with each other. This news is a very explosive hell joke even in the Sixth Hell."
"but……"
"I thought I would be disgusted by your good relationship, but surprisingly, it feels like... it's pretty good. The Doomsday Observer is a monster in human skin, and the Death Mad Sword Princess is a bloodless and tearless villain. Of course it's disgusting that a monster and a villain fall in love, but the death row prisoner who is about to escape and the cute female college student have feelings for each other... It feels like something is wrong."
"But thinking about love all day is harmful to Sonia's swordsmanship training. Love will only affect her sword-drawing speed. I have killed all the swordsmen who valued feelings. Let's wait and see. If it doesn't affect her, it's fine. But if the ambiguous relationship with Ash really affects her magic training, then I can only..."
"Help her a little."
The third act is about the decryption of the secret poison of the golden fish. Ash and Sonia hold hands and combine the silver wings on each side of their bodies to form a pair of flying wings, flying from the Sea of Knowledge to the Continent of Time.
"You've already held hands but you still haven't confessed your feelings? Can you two take the initiative a little more? It makes me anxious just watching you."
"So I... So Sonia can make this kind of expression. She's like a happy idiot. Is it so happy to be in love with the person you like? Humph."
"But he's leaving prison soon. This guy is essentially a dehumanized monster. When he regains his freedom, can he really maintain his innocence? Sooner or later, you will regret falling in love with this man. Everything in the world will betray you. The only thing you can trust is the sword in your hand."
The fourth scene is the Continent of Time. She watched Ash and Sonia walk into the Dark Fantasy Sound Miracle Paradise. It was obvious that the two had just had a fight and were about to break up, but in the darkness that could not be detected, they both turned around at the same time and wanted to kiss each other on the cheek, and ended up kissing each other mouth to mouth.
"You've made up your mind, haven't you? Why are you moved now? I don't remember me being so easy to please. You changed your mind after just a kiss. It's really embarrassing for me."
"Hmph, although Ash hasn't revealed the evil of the Viewer, he has awakened the Viewer's instinct to see into people's hearts. He can keenly detect the slightest change in your mood. The Viewer can use this ability to control us, and Ash can also use this talent to control you... No, we have to find a way to get Sonia out of the fire pit."
In the fifth scene, in the dreamlike bubble of the distant sky, Ash and Sonia sat on the edge of the rooftop holding hands, and the witch came over and held his fingers tightly.
"You're just going to watch the black devil, no, the witch, share a man with you? Did you learn the swordsmanship in vain, Sonia!?"
第六幕，‘真假相杀’词条的梦幻泡影里，亚修和索妮娅都精准洞悉所有虚假的幻影，在遇到彼此的瞬间都直接认出对方是真的。刚刚亚修才坦白了自己无法在剑姬和魔女之中抉择，他两个都想要，本来索妮娅气得想断绝关系，但这份心心相印的默契又让她心软了，改为要求三件事。也是在这里，两人不再回避现实见面，定下在繁星相见的约定。
「不知廉耻的狗男女。」她撇撇嘴。
第七幕，繁星国度，索妮娅突袭回到菲利克斯的房间，看见**昏睡不醒的亚修。当黛达萝丝问她愿不愿意成为四柱神教的领袖，背叛繁星国度，粉碎虚假天幕，救出众星囚笼里的亚修，索妮娅毫无迟疑答应了。
「背叛自己的国家，背叛自己的事业，背叛自己的人生，只是为了救一只不知廉耻的拉拉肥，一个连百分百爱情都不能给你的恋人……」她有些不爽地冷哼一声：「你真是疯了……」
第八幕，天幕破碎，阳光第一次照进繁星大地，躺在少女膝枕上的亚修睁开眼睛，第一次在现实里跟至爱对视。一个说着我回来了，一个说着你回来了，两人不像是从未见过面的虚境恋人，更像是小别胜新婚的爱侣，如胶似蜜地相拥亲吻。
她在旁边静静看着，心里没有任何想法，只有像吃了冰淇淋一样甜滋滋的欢喜，以及一丝难以言喻的惆怅。
到了下一幕，场景换成一个荒凉的地域，亚修身边没有其他干员，他抬头看向自己，眼里浮现出惊讶以及一丝失望。她不知为何怒从心起，抓住亚修的手，将烟头往他的掌心狠狠一戳。
「你以为我想出现在你眼前吗！？要不是乌洛波洛斯吞掉地狱，必须要有人带你搜刮地狱，你以为我想跟你一起行动吗？居然还敢嫌弃我？没能让你跟索妮娅在地狱里约会真是对不起啊！」
……
第一次探索地狱。
「都叫你别惹索妮娅生气，你就非要招惹其他女人吗？」
「怀疑我故意让你身处险境……是啊我是故意的，谁叫你连宠爱一点索妮娅都做不到，还让她那么委屈。去死吧你这只**的拉拉肥，让你活在世上只会浪费大米。」
「第一次交易心灵，先让你失去维希的记忆吧，毕竟最近你跟那个杂种关系还挺亲近……维希什么档次，也敢和索妮娅喜欢一样的人？」
……
第二次探索地狱。
「你居然敢为了维希那个杂种跟我发脾气！？」
「莉丝笛雅和幽兰薇瑟就算了，就算比不上索妮娅但也算是好女人，维希就是一头从远古时代活到现在的恶魔，光是跟她玩玩都很离谱了，你居然还敢喜欢她？」
「维希是贱人，你也是贱人！贱人贱人贱人！」
……
看见哈维的棺材。
「伊古拉和哈维死了至于这么伤心吗……真是……有时候我都怀疑你是不是喜欢他们了。」
「自己伤心都恢复不过来，还想安慰我……不过，我倒是很期待你和索妮娅回去见家长。母亲肯定会很开心吧，她最担心的就是自己女儿太勉强自己，身边连个能分享悲欢的贴心人都没有，不过如果母亲知道女儿只是后宫里的一员，而且平时还经常受委屈，或许会宁愿女儿不谈恋爱……」
「但至少比观者好。惑心直到死，都没有得到观者的爱……不过沦落到跟观者相提并论，足以说明你这家伙有多卑劣了。」
……
进入幻想地狱，亚修直视神之领域。
「就这样迷失在神之领域里吧，让你喜欢维希那个贱人，活该。明明你都有那么多女人了，我只是让你少喜欢一个，你都非要跟我置气……你以为我在害你吗？你跟维希搅合在一起，最后受伤的人难道是我或者索妮娅吗？」
「还得麻烦我救你……但跟你有羁绊的是索妮娅，不是我，我哪有办法将你从神之领域呼唤出来？」
「只能试试这样了……我是索妮娅·瑟维，还没过二十岁生日的索妮娅，叛出繁星国度的剑术半神索妮娅，想和亚修永远在一起的索妮娅……」
……
「这混蛋……媚娃……狗男人！」
「我寂寞？我在流金河流离了几千年，你一个还没活几十年的拉拉肥也敢揣度我的心思！？」
「而且还是趁离开前偷亲我，你这头水性杨花又胆小无耻的拉拉肥，这么怕我报复吗……那好啊，下次你再进地狱看我不灼穿你掌心！」
……
森罗国度，亚修他们遭遇八位天使伏击。
「为了保护她们出卖第二次心灵吗……哼，镜魔你能不能找机会打死维希？」
「不能？你什么时候跟幽魔关系那么好了？算了，那你就摧枯拉朽击溃降临天使吧，最好打得祂们心胆俱裂，顺便将祂们的世界秘域抢下来。神主这群垃圾，既然敢伸手进人间，那就狠狠剁掉他们的手。」
……
进入六重地狱，亚修与至高神主共赴战场。
「剪刀一样的情侣……索妮娅还真是被你拿捏住了，她硬你就软，她软你就硬，你们这对笨蛋情侣没救了。」
「看在你带索妮娅回家见家长的份上，这次就放过你了。」
「居然将第三次心灵用在这里吗，用了之后，下一次就是死亡了哦……不过对你这种将希望赌在奇迹上的人，好像一点都不令人惊讶。」
「啧，黑魔偏偏在这时候失控……这下亚修要被她折磨惨了。」
「这家伙，一边说帅气的话一边被黑魔折磨得死去活来，明明疼得浑身颤抖还敢挑战黑魔，在滑稽之余……确实有一点点帅气。」
「难怪索妮娅会喜欢他喜欢到怎么都不肯放手……」
……
血月国度的酒店洗手间里。
「要么选择跟她们度过最后两个月的美好时光，要么选择被所有人遗忘，在没有人知道的地狱里，拼尽这条命拯救世界……但世界拯救之后，没有人会知道你的功绩，你唯一能得到的，就有她们的世界。」
「她们甚至不会知道自己有过一个喜欢的人，在你不存在的世界里，她们会幸福快乐地生活下去。你只能改变其他人的结局，唯一无法改变的是自己的命运。」
「明明是坏结局和更坏的结局，为什么你这家伙还能露出这么清爽的笑容……只是因为可以帮她们避开更坏的结局，就让你这么安心吗？」
「都跟维希那个贱人在一起了，怎么还是学不会她的自私和残忍，真是……」
……
六重地狱，终末之战。
「笑死，融合了我们的力量后就立刻翻脸，拥有无限接近八翼的实力就以为能忤逆我们吗？」
「有一点你倒是说的对……如果让她们幸福的人不是你，那你拯救世界又有什么意义？喜欢一个人绝不是独自付出，那不过是无聊的自我感动，而是要让对方知道并且认可自己的努力，这样对方也会开心。不过我猜索妮娅恢复记忆后，大概会很生气你这番独自行动……」
「在我成为你的敌人之前，就让我们最后并肩一次。」
「要么兵戎相见，要么一直到死！」
咕哝。
索妮娅吐出一个泡泡，她依稀看见戒指红线连接的远方，正在发生一场磨灭时空的终末之战。
亿万色彩滔乱世界，斑斓剑色斩破万法。
或许因为太过遥远，或许是她术法境界不足，她根本看不清里面的战况细节，只能看见那位最熟悉的陌生人。
在他身边，还有四个虚影，紫蓝，灰银，浊黑，血红。
“亚修，你也在苦战吗？”索妮娅轻声呢喃，嘴角微微上翘：“加油啊。”
很奇怪，明明知道亚修在进行一场史无前例的艰苦战争，但索妮娅心里毫无担忧。除了因为死亡的安宁，更因为她知道就算自己不在，亚修身边也不是空无一人。
刚接受从丝线传来的庞杂记忆，索妮娅一开始还有点迷糊，但很快就意识到这不是她的记忆。老实说，以旁人视角围观自己的爱情故事还是挺让人害羞的，不过她很快就沉浸在「旁观者」的情绪起伏里，渐渐在心里勾勒出一个跟她相似，但更加成熟，脾气更差，偏见更多的大姐姐形象。
更有趣的是，随着故事的推进，她隐隐感觉到旁观者的心情从一开始的好奇，中间的在乎，到最后已经渐渐变成跟她相似的心情。
索妮娅微微晃动无名指，红线随之颤动，这时候她清晰看见，她和亚修的羁绊红线在中途经过血红人影的手指。
“接下来，”隔着无限遥远的距离，索妮娅温柔说道：“就靠你了。”
血红人影转头看了她一眼，似乎掏出什么叼在嘴里，旁边的亚修在电光火石的交锋里，伸手递到她嘴边做出一个点烟的姿势。
血红人影深深吸了一口烟，心满意足地呼出一轮烟圈，然后——
她将烟塞进索妮娅嘴里。