Zhao Xiaoyue nodded, with a hint of confusion in her eyes, as if she understood but not quite.
However, this did not prevent her from admiring An Hongdou.
Just like now, she looked at her back with stars in her eyes.
It's more of her inner desire than admiration.
She longed to become a woman like An Hongdou.
You can do whatever you want without restraint, be loved by everyone, and have a perfect life.
But she also knew in her heart that she would never become a person like An Hongdou. She was far inferior to him in terms of temper or ability.
After returning to the village, An Hongdou wanted to send Zhao Xiaoyue home first, but she suddenly spoke as if she had finally mustered up the courage, "Sister Hongdou, can I... ask you for a favor?"
"What?" An Hongdou knew Zhao Xiaoyue's difficulties. As long as it wasn't too excessive, she didn't mind helping her a little.
"Can you teach me how to be a more aggressive person?"
An Hongdou turned back in surprise, subconsciously thinking that she was mocking her.
However, when she met Zhao Xiaoyue's gaze, she realized that this was not really sarcasm, but... yearning!
An Hongdou burst out laughing, "If you want to be more aggressive, first... you have to change your inner cowardice and inferiority complex."
Yes, Zhao Xiaoyue’s biggest problem is not her misery, but the years of oppression, which have long made her heart timid, and cowardice and inferiority are engraved in her bones.
It is not easy to change.
Zhao Xiaoyue lowered her head and began to feel uneasy and fearful.
After a while, after a lot of struggle, she spoke again, "I...I want to change. Can Sister Hongdou teach me how to change these?"
"Go down." An Hongdou said.
Zhao Xiaoyue felt even more uneasy, especially when An Hongdou's cold tone sounded, which made her courage, which she had finally mustered, disappear in an instant.
She didn't even dare to resist. As if she was under a spell, she jumped out of the car and stood aside.
An Hongdou looked at her, standing there awkwardly, with her head bowed, chest hunched, body hunched, and her hands twisting her clothes nervously. Her words were enough to scare her to death.
An Hongdou also got off her bicycle, parked it aside, walked to Zhao Xiaoyue's side, put her hands on her shoulders to urge her to stand up straight, lifted her chin to make her raise her head, and pulled the collar of her clothes out of her hands and smoothed it out.
Zhao Xiaoyue stood there in the awkward posture that An Hongdou had given her, not daring to move.
An Hongdou circled around her twice, then suddenly sighed, "Forget it, get in the car first, I'll take you to my house first."
Zhao Xiaoyue didn't know what An Hongdou was thinking. She was feeling quite depressed at the moment because she felt that she should be a disappointment to others.
Zhao Xiaoyue followed An Hongdou to her home. Shen Xiangzhi had not returned yet, and Mr. Shen and An Changyue were at home.
Although Zhao Xiaoyue doesn't go out often, she is still quite famous in the village because of Ma Cuilian.
Mr. Shen and An Changyue didn’t know why An Hongdou brought her back, but they didn’t ask much.
An Hongdou entered the house and parked her bicycle. She turned around and said to Zhao Xiaoyue, "Go boil some water and take a bath first. I'll ask Changyue to get you some clothes later. By the way, wash your hair thoroughly."
Just looking at the way she looks, not to mention Ergouzi, anyone would despise her!
Especially the hair, it's so messy and I don't know how long it has been since it was combed.
Zhao Xiaoyue opened her mouth, wanting to say that she was not dirty.
Don't be fooled by her dirty look, she is actually very clean.
However, her mother often said that she would find an old man to sell her, and she was afraid, so she deliberately made herself dirty.
Later... later it became a habit.
In the end, Zhao Xiaoyue didn't say anything. She just listened to An Hongdou and walked into the kitchen alone.
An Hongdou went back to her room and searched for a long time but couldn't find a piece of clothing that suited her.
Even though she is quite thin now, she is taller than Zhao Xiaoyue, and not as thin as Zhao Xiaoyue, so her clothes must be much bigger for Zhao Xiaoyue.
Finally, he found a half-new piece of clothing for her in the space and asked An Changyue to send it to her.
An Changyue brought out the clothes and asked An Hongdou with a pouty mouth, "Aunt, why did you bring her home?"
Moreover, he let her take a bath at home and found clothes for her. He was really being too nice to her.
An Changyue and Zhao Xiaoyue had no grudge against each other, but they subconsciously felt that since she was Ma Cuilian's daughter, they should stay away from her.
An Hongdou didn't explain much, she just coaxed her, "Don't worry about it, kid. Go and boil some water for my aunt. She's almost suffocating herself with all this stinking sweat."
Only then did An Changyue laugh and obediently went to the kitchen to boil water.
Zhao Xiaoyue felt even more uneasy after she changed into the clothes that An Hongdou found for her. After she came out, she stood in the yard, not knowing what to do.
An Hongdou ignored her and went to take a shower.
Old Master Shen was watering the vegetables with a bucket. She saw it and wanted to help, but then she started to hesitate. How embarrassing would it be if she was rejected?
So, after An Hongdou came out, she was still standing there, but the expression on her face became more and more anxious.
An Hongdou asked her at this time, "Can I help you cut your hair first?"
Zhao Xiaoyue touched her hair subconsciously and nodded.
She followed An Hongdou's instructions the whole time. Only after An Hongdou finished cutting her hair did she get up and quickly took the broom from the corner to sweep up the cut hair.
An Hongdou didn't care about these, but walked into the room, took out the mirror on her desk, and handed it to Zhao Xiaoyue, "Look at yourself."
Zhao Xiaoyue subconsciously looked at the person in the mirror. Her messy hair had been combed and cut short behind her ears. Her hair was parted in the middle, revealing her dark yellow and thin cheeks.
Her facial features were actually not bad, and she used to be pretty, but in recent months, Ma Cuilian had tortured her so severely after returning from the farm that she had become almost unrecognizable.
Zheng Xiaoyue rubbed her cheek with her fingers. She had forgotten how long it had been since she had taken a good look at herself.
"Sister Hongdou, I... I want to change. I don't want to be the old Zhao Xiaoyue anymore. I want... I want..." She seemed to have no idea what she was saying. She just desperately wanted to change herself, change her current situation, including everything.
An Hongdou took her hand and comforted her, "Don't worry, if you want to change, it will be very hard and it won't happen overnight. As long as you are determined, you can definitely be a good girl."
"I am determined and I am not afraid of hard work." No one knows the suffering Zhao Xiaoyue has endured. No matter how hard it is, can it be more difficult than living under Ma Cuilian!
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