Chapter 276 Confusion

Lu Jia was disheartened, and his frustration once again severely hit his heart. When he walked out of the tent, he almost fell to the ground due to a sudden and severe heartache. Fortunately, Andrew was beside him, and he quickly supported Lu Jia.

"Lu Jia, what's wrong with you?" Andrew saw Lu Jia's painful expression and couldn't help asking, "Are you injured?"

"No, it's nothing!" Lu Jia stroked his chest and said to Andrew, "I'm just a little tired. Let me go back and lie down for a while."

Luca had made up his mind, and Andrew could not say anything. He had just stood behind Luca and did not know the situation very well. He supported Luca and walked into Luca's tent step by step, and laid Luca on the small bed covered with a blanket.

"Andrew, go out and leave me alone."

Luca greeted and waved at Andrew. Andrew didn't say anything, just nodded and walked out. The whole tent became quiet in an instant, leaving only Luca looking up at the dim tent cloth above his head.

"It's empty, everything is empty!"

He murmured with trembling lips, and tears gradually welled up in the corners of his eyes, as if he was trying hard to wake up from a dream, but this dream had never been so real. However, he still believed that this was a dream, a dream that would not be the same once he woke up.

"Go to sleep, wake up, and the dream will end." Lu Jia was still comforting himself, and he didn't let the tears that welled up in the corners of his eyes fall. He closed his eyes tightly, completely ignoring that he had just woken up.

"Go to sleep, go to sleep!"

He cleared his mind, didn't think about anything, didn't do anything, just slept. Soon, he fell into a deep sleep, he must be too tired.

I woke up in a hazy and groggy state. It was already dusk outside.

"What a lazy day! Why did you wake up just now?" Luga supported his dizzy head and got out of bed.

"I am awake from the dream, I must be awake, maybe they have changed their minds?" Still unwilling to give up, Luca hastily put on a cloak, and without caring about his messy hair, he rushed out of the tent.

“Click, click, click…”

It was the sound of burning. Luca heard the sound as soon as he left the tent. He was very curious and quickly looked up and looked around. It turned out that the sky was getting dark and the soldiers started to make a fire.

"Today's fire is so big. I wonder what they were thinking when they put so much firewood in it?" Lu Jia looked at the flames that shot up into the sky and couldn't help but complain about the soldiers' lack of frugality. But how could such a big fire burn so high? "Wait!" Lu Jia's pupils couldn't help but shrink. He finally understood why the fire could burn so high. The firewood was the siege towers and battering rams. This was the result of two months of hard work. Now the soldiers held torches expressionlessly and lined up the siege engines and burned them one by one.

Luga hurried forward, and when the soldiers saw Luga coming, they quickly stood up straight where they were.

"What are you doing?" Luca asked them.

The soldiers looked puzzled. They looked at each other and asked, "Didn't the generals order us to burn these siege engines because they were afraid they would fall into the hands of the Vandals?"

Luga was speechless. He stared at the dozens of soldiers in front of him for a long time. Seeing that Luga didn't speak anymore, the soldiers turned around and started their work again.

Luca had no reason to stop them anymore. He realized that this was not a dream. He was even surprised that he had been in a trance for so long. He was still unwilling to accept the fact.

"My hair is standing on end with anger. I lean on the railing, and the rain has stopped. I look up to the sky and howl, with great passion and determination. Thirty years of fame are now dust, eight thousand miles of journey are now clouds and moon. Don't wait, your hair will turn white and you will be filled with regret.

The shame of Jingkang has not yet been avenged; when will the hatred of the ministers be eliminated? Drive the long chariot and break through the gap in the Helan Mountains. With great ambition, I will eat the meat of the barbarians when I am hungry and drink the blood of the Xiongnu when I am thirsty. When I start from the beginning, I will clean up the old mountains and rivers and face the sky. "

Somehow, Lu Jia could recite Yue Fei's "Man Jiang Hong" word for word. He loved this poem the most and was the first person in the class to recite it. He loved the ambition in the poem. "Serve the country with all loyalty", the four words engraved on Yue Fei's back, Liu Ende loves this spirit, it is engraved in his bones and will never be forgotten. He used to be proud of reciting it, but why, now when he recites it again, tears come again.

"Why, you're still unwilling?"

Just when he was feeling sad, the voice from behind made Luca suddenly come back to his senses. He hurriedly wiped away the tears that were sliding down from the corners of his eyes. At this time, a series of footsteps were getting closer and closer, and came to Luca's side. Luca turned around and found that it was Sebastianus standing next to him. Sebastianus still smiled at Luca, and to Luca, he felt like a lake, so calm that it was scary. No matter what kind of vibration, it could not disturb his mind, even a little ripple. I really don't know if his heart is alive or dead at this time.

"You're leaving anyway." Luca turned around and tightened his cloak. This place was too close to the flames. The hot wind from the burning blew on his face. Luca felt his face dry and very uncomfortable under the hot wind. But he still didn't want to leave here, because the hot wind could dry the tears in his eyes and make him look less sad. At least he didn't want Sebastianus to see it, so as not to expose his inner feelings. He continued, "I heard that Augustus felt unsafe and built three walls outside Constantinople. It is impregnable and cannot be breached for at least hundreds of years. It is also prosperous and peaceful there, at least not as dangerous as here." Luca didn't know what he was saying. He began to speak without thinking, just like a bean, saying one sentence after another, which he couldn't understand.

"Um?"

Sebastianus frowned and asked Luca, "Are you still unwilling to return to the Eastern Empire with the army? Caesar Theodosius is in need of men, and you are his adopted son. Going back together to fight against the Huns together is what Augustus wants."

But he saw that Luca was unmoved, and his eyes never left the soldier holding the torch. He saw the soldier calmly igniting the remaining siege weapons one by one. The fire formed a tall and long front, blocking Luca's sight and making him no longer able to see the city of Carthage in the distance.

He was at the foot of the city, holding in his hands enough power to deal a fatal blow to the Vandal, but the city still stood intact before him. He could not take a single step forward, and he had no way to deal with it.

"What? You don't plan to leave." Sebastianus seemed to see the unwillingness in Luca's eyes. His actions now had already exposed his inner heart. Although he tried hard to hold back his tears, the tears on his eyes were not seen by others, but if the tears in his heart were seen by others, what difference would it make? He was just pretending to be strong.

"Heh." Luka smiled bitterly, watching the soldier set the last siege tower on fire. "Do I have any reason to stay? Everything is over, and I don't want to go back. After fighting for so long, I have nothing left. Maybe this is the so-called fate."

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"Then why are you still insisting?" Sebastianus asked, "You have done enough, you have worked hard enough, there is no need to insist on it, this is not your fault!"

"But I failed, didn't I?" Luca naturally didn't listen to Sebastianus's persuasion. "What did our arrival bring to Gaiseric? No death, no punishment from the empire, only two months of poor sleep."

"So what do you plan to do, sir?" Sebastianus looked at Luca with a smile.

"I don't know..." Luga just shook his head and continued, "No matter what, I will not return to the Western Empire, and the Ninth Legion cannot go back either. What are your plans? Let's talk about it later!"

Sebastianus wanted to ask something else, but as soon as he opened his mouth, Luca had already turned away. Looking at Luca's back, Sebastianus was filled with mixed feelings. He silently said, "Boniface, at least, he is stronger than you! It's just that now, he doesn't know what he has, but don't worry, he will know soon. Caesar, we will succeed!"

Luca walked forward alone on the beach with his head down. In front of him were hundreds of soldiers waiting to board the warships. The Vandal navy had been badly damaged, so they did not need to worry about a surprise attack from the Vandals because they did not have the courage to do so.

"Look, it's the general!" I don't know which soldier reminded everyone, and everyone turned around. They stood in place, watching Luga pass by them quietly.

Under the watchful eyes of the crowd, Luka seemed not to notice anything. He still lowered his head and walked forward step by step. The soldiers wanted to call him, but seeing his appearance, they did not speak. They just watched him walk away from them.

"What am I holding on to?" Luca asked himself as he walked. He began to look at himself, analyzing himself over and over again, looking back on his journey over the past four or five years, from a wild boy in a fishing village outside a small town to the adopted son of Augustus of the Eastern Empire, holding a large army and being canonized as a noble. The speed of his rise is what countless people dream of, but it was only in dreams, but he accomplished it, and the grievances and troubles he suffered are also not something that ordinary people can understand. What kind of position you stand in, what kind of problems you consider, and the higher the position you hold, the heavier the responsibility you have to shoulder. He enjoys a life of luxury, with people following him everywhere, but he cannot be happy, because there are people who oppose him everywhere, and people who want to laugh at him everywhere.

"What do I want?"

Luga asked himself, it is true that his life was not satisfactory in the past, and his wish was to become everything he wanted, army, status, money, and now he has them all, but he doesn't know what to do.

(End of this chapter)