◎ "Why... can't you love me?"◎
That night, the stars were low and everything was silent.
An Jiu tossed and turned in bed, unable to fall asleep for a long time.
The poison began to take effect, spreading up layer by layer, enveloping her like a wave.
Not moving is torture, moving is also torture.
Even if she just lay here, she could feel the tingling sensation caused by the friction of the clothes on her skin, and the slight itchiness when the air blew across her face.
This torture was endless and seemed like it would never end.
It is not pain, but it is far more torturous than suffering.
Unable to sleep, An Jiu had to get up from the bed, put on a dress made of the smoothest and softest fabric, walked barefoot on the cold floor, and with the silvery moonlight pouring in through the window, slowly walked to the porch outside the house and sat down.
When sitting, the only areas of the body that are in contact with objects are the waist and hips, which are not sensitive to begin with, so they will feel much better.
An Jiu leaned on the railing with his face supported, and sighed helplessly.
The night breeze is blowing gently. It is quite windy tonight, blowing coolly and refreshingly, which relieves the heat in the body.
Sleepiness swept over her, and she just lay there in the night, drowsy.
Suddenly, there was a slight snapping sound from the front.
An Jiu opened his eyes and looked lazily, and saw a dark figure standing in the dark courtyard. He couldn't see his face clearly, but judging from his slender figure, it was obviously a man.
She blinked sleepily and asked softly, "Who?"
For some reason, the man did not respond or move. He just stood there straight, like an unconscious statue.
An Jiu's eyes became a little clearer, and she was not afraid. After all, this small courtyard looked ordinary, but in fact it was filled with assassins guarding in secret and various mechanisms, and not even a fly could fly in.
Who else could appear in the yard in the middle of the night except the owner of Qiansha Pavilion?
An Jiu yawned out of boredom and said to the system in his mind: "See? This is why I'm not in a hurry. Men are like this. They say they don't want to see me, but their bodies are still honest, aren't they?"
After a long time, the man who spoke in a hostile manner but acted upright finally walked slowly towards her.
An Jiu thought he was here to help her solve the problem of the poison. Seeing the man approaching, she smiled with surprise and asked tentatively in a low voice, "Is it Feiyi?"
A deep and hoarse male voice sounded: "It's me."
An Jiu happily reached out her hand to him, and the next second it was held by a big hot hand.
Her senses are now very sensitive. Her body temperature, which seems hot under normal perception, almost burns her in An Jiu's feeling at this moment.
The girl's fingertips suddenly shrank, and she subconsciously wanted to withdraw her hand, but the other party had quickly closed his five fingers and held her tightly. His hot palm was like a burning stove, holding her petite hand tightly in his palm.
An Jiu couldn't help but let out a cry, "Your hands are so hot, Feiyi, are you sick?"
"No." The man said this, his voice becoming more hoarse.
An Jiu felt more and more uneasy, she felt a strong sense of crisis coming, and her instinct drove her to escape quickly.
But she has already walked into the trap, how can she escape?
Pei Ji had no intention of seeing her. He came here in the middle of the night just to take a look at her outside the yard.
His poison showed signs of recurring. Every time it did, his sanity would collapse and his emotions would drive him here.
Before An Jiu walked out of the house, he stood in the yard for a while.
It was not until he saw her go out and sit on the porch sighing that he could not help making a sound and let her notice him.
He wanted to see what she would choose.
After being ignored by him for a few days and even watching her suffer from the poison, will she still greet him with a smile as always?
Pei Ji thought that she might be angry and lose her temper.
The eldest daughter never suffers any loss. Even if she suffers a little bit of injustice, she will make it known to everyone and ask everyone to obey her.
But, no.
The girl still came forward with a happy face, and her first reaction when she saw him was to worry about his health instead of blaming him for his cold treatment of her.
She did love him, but she loved him so much that she lost herself and became a false, empty shell.
Pei Ji suddenly laughed softly, with a bitter feeling in his laughter.
He lowered his eyes and saw her white toes stepping on the wooden board. He asked softly, "Why did you come down without shoes?"
Before he could finish his words, he leaned over, grabbed her knees and picked the girl up.
The night covers people's eyes, but allows some things hidden deeper to be expressed.
The girl cried out softly. The burning palms were only separated by a layer of cloth. She leaned on the man's shoulder and took a few quick breaths. After a while, she said weakly, "It hurts my feet to wear shoes."
She was originally a delicate lady with fair skin and tender flesh. After being poisoned, she became even more delicate.
In the past, her shoes didn't rub her feet, but now there was a crease in the fabric of her clothes, which made her feel uncomfortable all over.
A true ancient Princess and the Pea.
The man carried her into the room, put her on the bed, then squatted down and carefully wiped the dust off the soles of her feet with his hands.
At the same time, he asked quietly, "Are you unhappy that I didn't come to see you today?"
There was no light in the room. In the dimness, the girl's gentle voice could be heard: "No, you have things to do too. I'm very happy that you can take the time to come and see me. Whether you come or not, I like Feiyi and will never be angry with Feiyi."
How considerate, and yet so...unlike her.
A strong sourness and extreme emptiness intertwined in the heart, causing a hidden pain. The pain gradually spread throughout the body, and the fingertips began to tremble uncontrollably.
Pei Ji half-knelt on the ground, looking up at the girl.
She should not be able to see him. But he could see her expression clearly. On that pretty little face, a pair of eyes looked towards him with sparkling eyes. Even though she could not see anything clearly, there was still a lot of joy and sweetness between her eyebrows.
However, this sweetness is so fake.
"Your friends will be visiting us in a few days. It's such a rare opportunity. Let's get married on that day, okay?"
He suppressed the pain in his body and asked in the calmest tone possible.
The girl was stunned for a moment, then agreed without hesitation: "Okay!" Suddenly she thought of something and asked seriously, "Are all my friends here?"
"They are all here, not one less."
"What about Pei Ji? Is Pei Ji here too?"
The man was startled and his heart skipped a beat: "Why... do you want to ask Pei Ji?"
The girl lowered her eyes, and her thick, long eyelashes fell down, covering her bright and clear pupils, making it impossible to see her specific expression.
But his tone was as usual, relaxed and cheerful: "I still need him to treat my poison. I can't sleep tonight because of the discomfort. When he comes, I must ask him to help prescribe some more medicine."
"So that's how it is." The man sighed as if he suddenly realized something.
"Yes, I don't like him at all!" said the girl, snorting softly, very spoiled.
"No need to wait for him. Have you forgotten? I can also help you heal." The man raised his hand and tapped a few acupuncture points on the girl's body.
As soon as he withdrew his fingers, An Jiu found that the restlessness in his body gradually subsided, and that super sensitive feeling also slowly disappeared.
She was stunned for a moment, then she realized, "Oh, right, when you came to see me before, I think you did this..." She paused, bit her lip shyly, and whispered, "Well, next...are you going to kiss me?"
Although the love poison was planted, the girl did not lose her memory. She still remembered everything that had happened, but her feelings towards some people in her memory had changed.
For example, Fei Yi had used poison to humiliate her several times, but she didn't care about the humiliation and only remembered the intimate things he did to her.
She used to be very angry about this, but now she took the initiative to invite him.
Pei Ji closed his eyes silently.
The invitation she extended to him at this moment was tantamount to setting up a feast in front of him.
The poison in his body was stirring, and he had discovered before that being close to her at this time could greatly alleviate the pain.
After a moment of silence, Pei Ji slowly stood up and took a step back under the girl's expectant eyes.
"No, I just came to see you." His voice was hoarse, as if it had been rubbed on sandpaper, and grains of it leaked into his ears, "Go to bed early."
After saying this, he suddenly turned around and walked out the door with unsteady steps.
An Jiu sat on the bed, quietly watching him leave. In the darkness, his tall figure seemed to stagger.
In the silence of the room, the girl murmured in a low voice: "Tell me, why doesn't he do it?"
He could have treated her harshly, like he had done the last few times, taking advantage of her poison to humiliate her without any bottom line.
[Perhaps the host showed that he loved him too much, so he couldn't do it? ]
An Jiu was silent for a long time, then slowly shook his head: "That's not the case."
He couldn't do it not because she loved him too much, but because the way she was in love was so different from before.
Pei Ji loves the spoiled, arrogant and dismissive eldest lady An Jiu, not the love-brained idiot An Jiu.
He just loved her unyielding, fighting and resentful appearance, so when he looked at her gentle and well-behaved face, his eyes were full of love, and he didn't even have the desire to bully her.
"Sure enough, this guy is a bit of a masochist, right? If I don't treat him harshly, he won't stand up at all?"
An Jiu clicked his tongue twice. Now that he had figured it out, he lay back on the bed and fell asleep soon after.
On the top floor of a tower not far away, a man locked himself in the room, curled up tightly in a ball because of endless pain.
His bony fingers clasped the edge of the bed, leaving several deep fingerprints on the wooden board.
He was sweating profusely, veins bulging, and his mouth was filled with a lingering taste of blood. In his hazy state, he couldn't help but growl, like a trapped animal in a cage, his whole body twitching.
At this time, his mind was the most confused.
So much so that even Pei Ji himself could not remember the words he had been repeating over and over again as his lips moved when he was in extreme pain.
"Why, why...can't you love me?"
A drop of transparent water slid down the narrow corner of the eye, fell into the temple, and disappeared without a trace.
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