◎I never closed my eyes again.◎
When people suffer a huge shock, their minds often go blank and they lose any ability to react.
It is said that this is a protective mechanism of the human body. When the impact is too strong and countless emotions come flooding in, in order to prevent the brain from being overwhelmed, the mind will automatically disconnect to protect the person's will from being destroyed.
Pei Ji's memory seemed to be missing a piece.
He forgot what happened last night and just held his bride tightly in his arms, refusing to let go.
Many people came over, making a lot of noise and talking about something. Someone wanted to take An Jiu away from him, but Pei Ji got angry and made them all quiet down.
"Pei Ji, how did you become like this?" someone shouted.
"Hurry up and detoxify them! They are going to die!"
"Anjiu won't be happy if she sees you like this!"
The man's eyelashes trembled suddenly, as if he was pricked by something, and he suddenly raised his eyes and looked at the person who was speaking.
It turned out to be Jin Yanwan, she was here too.
Seeing his reaction, Jin Yanwan, who had rushed over after hearing the news, suppressed her grief and continued, "Anjiu is so kind and never tolerates killing. Are you doing this now so that she won't be able to leave in peace?"
Pei Ji's eyes moved slowly, and he realized that many people around him had fallen to the ground, holding their chests with purple lips, which was a sign of being poisoned.
Jin Yanwan's words reminded him, and he suddenly remembered that An Jiu didn't want to see him kill anyone.
She likes good people, she doesn't like bad people.
She was angry with him because he had done so many bad things, so you can't make her angry.
Pei Ji thought slowly, raised his hand slowly, and threw a porcelain bottle that rolled to the ground.
His thinking was still very slow, as if he was floating on the sea. The sea water rushed in from all directions, squeezing him and isolating him in the endless sea, like a deserted island.
No one pays attention, no one cares, no one arrives.
He is the only one left in the whole world.
The person in his arms was already cold. No matter how he tried to warm her or hug her tightly, he could not get even a bit of warmth from her.
Instead, he gradually began to feel cold all over, infected by her coolness.
He felt colder and colder. Pei Ji looked up inadvertently and saw that it was snowing outside.
Heavy snow fell from the lead-gray sky, fluttering and swaying, covering the earth with a flawless layer of pure white.
The voices around him continued, and the whispers continued. They did not dare to approach him, but looked at him with strange eyes, as if they were looking at a madman.
Pei Ji knew that he was not crazy.
He was just, really, really cold.
He closed his eyes, lowered his head and kissed the forehead of the person in his arms, and smelled a faint smell of corruption in his nostrils.
She had gradually begun to corrupt.
But it didn't matter, he wouldn't let her leave him.
Lin Qingyan stood at the door and said to him with red eyes: "Pei Ji, let her rest in peace. Do you want her to become a wandering ghost?"
The man in red clothes, with black hair and a pale and thin face slowly raised his eyes.
He didn't say a word, but slowly moved, stood up with the person in his arms, and walked out of the house.
As he had not eaten for several days, his steps were a little unsteady, but his hands were clasped firmly.
"What are you going to do, Pei Ji?" Lin Qingyan followed him anxiously, but did not dare to get too close.
He was covered in poison, and anyone who tried to get close to him in the next few days would be poisoned.
No one knows how he poisoned, and no one knows why his poison skills are so powerful.
Seeing him look worse than a ghost, Lin Qingyan burst into tears.
"Pei Ji, An Jiu loves you so much. Since she wants you to live, why don't you just live well?"
Everyone has learned most of the cause of An Jiu's death from Ah Qi, the only person who knew the truth.
Pei Ji paused.
He lowered his head, his black hair hanging on the sides of his face. There were strands of white mixed in with the black hair, which concealed the expression on his face.
Only an extremely hoarse voice came softly: "She... doesn't love me."
Yes, he remembered.
She doesn't love him.
Letting him live might be the most severe punishment she could give him.
This woman who deceived him, this woman whom he loved so much, this woman who trampled his heart into the mud, this woman who made him humble into the mud.
He should hate her.
It would not be an exaggeration to grind her to dust.
But how could he bear to do that?
He couldn't bear to do so.
Even if she said she hated him.
Even if she told him in person, she would rather die with him.
Even if she pushed him away with her own hands, she would never want to have anything to do with him and wanted to draw a clear line between them.
Even though she never loved him.
Even if it was all deception, falsehood, and calculation from the beginning to the end, without any sincerity.
He loved her so, so, so much.
She was like a beam of warm sunshine, shining in his barren world, so his heart was full of flowers and green trees. When the light left, his world returned to dead silence again, turning into an endless wilderness.
In the place that was once illuminated by the sun, the flowers that bloomed everywhere withered, leaving only dead branches on the ground.
It was proof that she had been there, the most beautiful sight he had ever seen.
Even if the flowers that have bloomed wither, they will not disappear.
The person you love can never be forgotten and can never be erased.
Pei Ji held the sleeping bride in red in his arms, walked out of the door step by step, and stepped into the falling snow.
She slept too long, and he had to find a place where she could sleep for a long time without being disturbed.
The wind was blowing hard and the snow was flying.
The whole earth was covered in white.
In the biting cold wind, the man's hair fluttered, his bright red clothes fluttering in the wind, and he walked towards the back mountain of Yaowang Valley step by step.
There are continuous mountains there and no one will disturb them.
Ah Qi knelt in the snow. Such a strong man, but now his face was covered with tears. He begged him: "Master, where are you going? Take me with you. I will go with you and serve you..."
Pei Ji shook his head gently. There was a thin layer of snow on his head and body, and his eyebrows and eyes seemed to be covered with endless, cold frost and snow.
"I have done a lot of wrong things in the past. Now it is time to atone for my sins. Please help me do it. I want to be with her more. She is so cold. It would be so lonely to leave her alone."
After saying this, he walked into the forest without looking back.
Pei Ji turned a deaf ear to the shouts of his friends and Lin Qingyan's crying behind him.
None of it matters, nothing matters anymore.
The only thing he wanted in his life was already in his arms, even if it was just an empty shell.
The forest in winter is deep and dark, without any green at all, only the endless sound of falling snow coming from all directions.
The world suddenly became very quiet. The only sound was his footsteps, which made a crunching sound in the thick snow. It was the only noise in the silence.
His footsteps were so heavy that they left a series of deep footprints in the snow, stretching out bit by bit into the uninhabited mountains.
The ultimate sadness is not crying or shouting, but endless silence and coldness.
The cold does not come from outside, but from the chest.
It felt like a big hole was poked in his heart. The cold wind was howling and snow was flying heavily. The snow from the sky kept falling and falling, falling into his heart.
The coldness spread through his blood vessels, to his entire body, to his limbs, to every strand of hair, and then froze him bit by bit.
Pei Ji hugged the woman in his arms even tighter and snuggled up to her closely.
She didn't want to be with him when she was awake, but she was very obedient when she fell asleep. No matter what he did, she would never push him away again.
He was actually very tired, his hands and feet were weak, his steps were so heavy that he could hardly lift them, and he felt a sharp pain in his chest. Although he had been detoxified, the poison that had tormented him for twenty years still seemed to exist in his body, making it difficult for him to breathe.
But he didn't dare to stop, because once he stopped, the world would become dead silent again.
It was as if she had gone far away, leaving him alone with nowhere to go.
The snow fell heavier and the wind grew stronger.
He didn't know how long he had walked in the snow. Gradually, he could no longer see the road clearly, and there was only a blurry white light.
He fell among the rocks, stumbled on the steep slope, and rolled down in the snow, his body covered in mud and frost.
The hand holding the person never let go.
This road was so long, he didn’t know where it ended or where he was going. He just thought that he should go to a cold place, the colder the better, so cold that she would not rot or disappear.
He walked up along the wind and snow, and occasionally lowered his head, and could see that his falling hair had all turned as white as snow, almost melting into the snow.
Sometimes he would stop for a while to tidy up the dress that was blown to pieces by the person in his arms and brush away the fallen snow from her hair.
She still looked the same as I remembered, with a pretty face and delicate features, as if she had just slept.
The cold caused a layer of frost to form on her face. When she gently touched it with her hand, the thin layer of frost turned into crystal clear drops of water and slid down.
Like a tear.
He looked at the tear sliding down from the corner of her eye for a long time, then bent his head slightly and gave her a gentle kiss.
She said she came from another world, Pei Ji didn't know whether it was true or not, but he hoped it was true. If it was true, she could still live happily, instead of sleeping forever like now.
Even though, he would never see that scene again.
He also wished that she would get what she wanted.
A few days ago, Fei Chen brought a piece of red silk, on which was written a line of words in a young girl's handwriting: I wish Pei Ji a smooth life without illness or disaster.
He also hoped that she could do so.
People who practice martial arts can go without food for a long time, but there is a limit. When Pei Ji could hardly lift his feet, he finally reached the top of a towering mountain.
The snow here never melts and the cold is biting.
There is a bottomless ice crack on the top of the mountain, just like a devil's abyss, and the mountain wind howls and whimpers in it, like the cry of a ghost.
"Let's just sleep here, okay?"
He opened his mouth slowly. Because he had not spoken for so long, his lips were so dry that they were almost glued together. When they were torn apart, tiny beads of blood spurted out.
The blood drops froze in the cold wind and rolled down into the pure white snow.
He stretched out his hand, which was almost skinny and no longer as delicate and beautiful as before, and gently smoothed her hair that was messed up by the wind.
Then, holding her in his arms, he jumped into the ice crevice.
The cracks in the ice are very deep, filled with ice that has not melted for thousands of years. A ray of light can be seen above the head, and it seems like a distant light that can never be reached.
He fell heavily onto the solid ice. A sharp icicle pierced his body. Large amounts of blood spread out and quickly solidified on the ice, like blooming red plum blossoms.
Pei Ji panted, climbed up regardless, broke the icicles with difficulty, and walked into the depths of the ice with the person in his arms. He concentrated all his energy in his hands and began to dig into the hard ice wall. His fingers were worn by the ice, and the flesh and blood were worn away bit by bit, until the bones were almost visible.
He never stopped and dug a hole one person deep, then put the woman in her wedding dress into the hole.
At this point, he was finally exhausted and lay aside, using his body temperature to melt the broken ice, turning it into snow water that drowned the woman in the cave. He then froze her in the severe cold, solidifying her in the crystal clear ice wall.
Using his last bit of strength, he slowly turned around and lay on the ice, looking at the woman underneath the ice wall through the solid ice.
He pulled the corners of his lips slightly and smiled gently as usual.
"If you don't want me to die with you, then I will stay with you forever and ever, and no one can disturb you."
His body is full of poison, so even if someone accidentally discovers them in the future, they cannot get close to them.
"Even I can't."
The low, breathless voice floated in the sobbing wind and was blown away.
The man was dressed in red and had a head full of white hair. He just opened his eyes and looked at the woman below. There was a soft smile on his thin face.
Just like the first time I saw you, like a spring breeze.
From then on, I never closed my eyes again.
The author has something to say:
There is another chapter coming in the evening~
I wanted to torture the hero, I wanted to write about how grief-stricken he was, but I didn't have that kind of painful feeling qaq I couldn't empathize with the hero at all, I even felt good thinking about his sadness, I couldn't write about it, this is the author's limit qaq
The author is a good writer of sweet stories, and he probably won't write sad stories anymore. It's so hard to write!!!
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