◎ "I'm angry. If you don't comfort me, I won't get better!"◎
"My father wants to marry me to someone I don't like. I don't want to, but my parents' orders and the matchmaker's words..."
As Jin Yanwan narrated, An Jiu gradually understood what was troubling her.
Although An Jiu knew that Jin Yanwan must have concealed the information about the secret manual of magical skills, he could also see that this marriage probably did happen.
Jin You went out to visit a friend some time ago, and actually went to talk to his friends about the marriage of their children.
Jin Yanwan is eighteen years old this year, which is considered old in this era. In Jin You's opinion, his daughter Jin Yanwan is already old enough to get married.
It has been a truth since ancient times that girls should get married when they grow up.
Jin Yanwan has been weak since childhood and unable to learn martial arts. Her conditions in the martial arts world are not very good and she does not have many options.
Jin You had a good friend who also happened to have a child of marriageable age. He told others that he was visiting a friend, but in fact he was going to discuss the marriage arrangement between the two families.
In the steam, the paleness on Jin Yanwan's face slowly faded away, and a hint of blush appeared on her face, which had always been filled with sickness.
She raised her eyes, and there was a glimmer of light in her gentle almond-shaped eyes.
"Miss An, I know my father is doing this for my own good. Women always have to get married, but I don't want to go... Am I being too unfilial?"
Jin Yanwan spoke softly, gently and gracefully.
Rather than asking An Jiu, she was talking to herself. She was asking herself, if she really did that, would it be too unfilial?
Her father treated her well and had done his best over the years. However, she spent a lot of money on medicine all year round because she was weak, but her father never said a word.
Although her stepmother was not very warm, she never blamed her.
They treated her with only a little indifference.
But every time she saw her father and stepmother teaching her older brother to practice sword, and saw them having so much fun, while Jin Yanwan was alone in her empty room, a nameless fire would always burn in her heart, burning her internal organs and making her suffer.
Jin Yanwan has been hesitating whether or not to steal the secret book for her own selfish desires.
If she really had to give up, she would be unwilling to do so.
Why should her fate be controlled by others?
She wanted to control her own destiny, instead of being the daughter of the Golden Snake Sword Lord or the eldest daughter of the Golden Snake Villa, who was seen by most people as an insignificant woman.
As the time for the secret book to be unlocked draws closer, Jin Yanwan becomes more and more clear about the fire burning in her heart.
That is ambition, something a woman should not have.
She seemed like an alien.
"Is your father really good to you?"
Suddenly, she heard the lazy voice of a girl. Jin Yanwan woke up from her thoughts and looked in the direction of the voice.
The girl was lying on the edge of the pool in a bathrobe, kicking the water leisurely. Her snow-white skin looked even more crystal clear against the reflection of the water.
She smiled with a sly look, like a mountain spirit tempting people to fall. "If he treated you well, why would he marry you to Changbai Mountain? It's a famous cold place. You are weak. Can you really adapt to the northern climate?"
Sometimes you can tell whether the other person is good to you from just one detail.
People who truly care about themselves will never ignore such a big problem.
Seeing Jin Yanwan was speechless, An Jiu asked again: "Do you know who I am?"
Jin Yanwan was silent for a moment, then replied softly, "I know, you are Miss An who came with Miss Lin and the others."
An Jiu shook her index finger and said with a smile, "No, I was originally the daughter of an official family in the capital."
Jin Yanwan opened her eyes wide in surprise and looked at An Jiu strangely.
The capital is very far from the Golden Snake Villa, so why did Miss An come here alone? And why would a rich official's daughter travel with Lin Qingyan and the others?
To Jin Yanwan, the idea of a weak woman walking alone outside was simply a fantasy.
Since she was a child, Jin Yanwan was not allowed to leave the villa. If she wanted to go out for some fresh air, she could only stay in the villa or go up the mountain to soak in the hot springs. She was like a bird in a cage and had never seen the sky outside.
Her father said that he didn't allow her to go out because she was in poor health and couldn't withstand the fatigue of traveling.
Jin Yanwan always obeys.
She has always been a good daughter and never disobeyed her father's orders. Only this time, she wanted to fight for something for herself.
When her father first got the secret book, Jin Yanwan knocked on the side and wanted to take a look at the secret book.
My father didn't agree.
Jin You's original words were that this secret book would become the heirloom of the Golden Snake Villa, and Jin Yanwan was about to get married, and if she took the secret book out, it would be lost outside.
He didn't want this to happen.
Jin Yanwan felt increasingly unbalanced. She was obviously his daughter, but simply because of her status as a girl, she was not even qualified to take a look at the secret book.
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Why did she have to suffer such an unfair thing?
Jin Yanwan didn't understand, didn't comprehend, and was unwilling to accept it.
She didn't seem to be treated harshly, but she seemed to be treated harshly in every way.
"Why? Because you are a girl."
The girl's words rang in my ears again, like a warning bell, "You may not know that I also ran away from marriage."
Jin Yanwan suddenly looked up.
An Jiu's eyes were full of smiles, without any hesitation or depression, and she said naturally: "My father wants to marry me to a man in his forties because he can help our family, but I don't agree. Why should I sacrifice my happiness for their wealth and happiness? There is no such a cheap thing in the world."
An Jiu never suffers any loss. Even when facing a big villain who can kill her with just a wave of his hand, she will try her best to make up for the loss she suffered.
She is an extremely self-centered person and may seem selfish to others.
But the eldest lady doesn't care. She doesn't think she is a good person. Everything she does is for herself.
What is the meaning of living in this world if one does not love himself?
Rely on others to love you?
She would never do such a stupid thing as relying on others.
Just like her modern cheap parents, they loved each other passionately at first, but ended up having a huge falling out after marriage because of their different values. They became a pair of resentful couples, torturing themselves, each other, and their children.
After years of tormenting each other, her father went out to play, had a lover and had an illegitimate child. Her mother stayed at home and complained about her all day long, and finally died early due to depression.
From then on, An Jiu understood that love is like a mirage in the water, how can it be so profound?
No matter how deep the feelings are, they will fade away one day.
Only money is the most real thing that can easily give people a sense of security.
After his mother died, An Jiu began to show his intelligence and talent, and was taken in by his grandfather to be raised.
As for the father, at least he remembered not to let his illegitimate son run around and act wildly in front of her, which meant he fulfilled the last bit of responsibility as a parent.
Jin Yanwan’s problem is actually very simple, which is the most common inequality in status between men and women in ancient times.
A daughter can be loved but not given responsibility.
Even modern civilization cannot solve these problems, and they were so serious in ancient times that they penetrated deep into the bones.
Didn’t you see that Jin Yanwan, the person involved, has brainwashed herself?
As soon as I had the slightest thought of resistance, I felt guilty.
"If I'm not happy, then I want others to be unhappy too, and I don't care what others say or think. My father is actually very good to me, he feeds me, clothes me, and spends money on me. But if he wants me to be buried with him for the rest of my life just because he raised me for more than a decade, then this deal is not worth it. A dozen years for several dozen years, no, no, it's a huge loss."
An Jiu shook his head like a rattle.
Probably because he had learned about business since elementary school, An Jiu liked to use numbers to measure some things, even feelings.
Jin Yanwan had never heard such incredible words, especially coming from the mouth of a young girl. She stared at her in amazement.
Facing Jin Yanwan's surprised gaze, An Jiu smiled embarrassedly and said, "I said too much. Did I scare you?"
Jin Yanwan was silent for a while before she said in a complicated tone, "Miss An...what she said was shocking."
She paused for a moment, then continued softly, "But our bodies and hair are given by our parents... We should listen to our parents, right?"
In fact, she wanted to hear Miss An's rebuttal. Although An Jiu's words were very out of line, Jin Yanwan felt that they had met too late.
It seemed as if the blocked knot was suddenly unblocked, and the doubts that had troubled her for many years were finally solved, and she felt enlightened.
Faced with this question, An Jiu blurted out: "If it is true as you said, parents' orders must be obeyed unconditionally. Then if parents want their children to commit suicide, can they only commit suicide? Then what are we living for? For our parents? Have you lived your whole life without even a self?"
The more Jin Yanwan listened, the brighter her black eyes became, shockingly brighter.
If such rebellious remarks were made public, they would certainly be accused of spreading rumors and disobeying etiquette. But in Jin Yanwan's eyes, it was like a beam of dazzling light that shone into her closed heart.
It seemed as if she had always lived in a dark house until one day, when An Jiu opened a window and let her glimpse the bright sky outside.
From then on, the sky was clear and the eyes were bright.
"Thank you, Miss An. I have been helped by your kind words today. You will be my best friend from now on."
A sincere smile appeared on the girl's pale and thin face. The depression lingering in the corners of her eyes and eyebrows disappeared, and her eyes became firm and confident.
She wanted herself, Jin Yanwan was certain that what she had been pursuing was her own will.
An Jiu raised his eyebrows, glanced at her lightly, and said nonchalantly: "I didn't say anything. Whatever you want to do in the future, you are not allowed to mention my name."
Whether she said this today or not, Jin Yanwan would steal the secret book, and this would not change. She just didn't want to see this girl living in torment all day, struggling to get out.
In the book, the Golden Snake Villa was destroyed, and Jin Yanwan took all the blame on herself, thinking that it was her stealing of the secret book that caused the disaster. From then on, she never recovered and died in depression.
But in fact, whether she stole the secret book or not, the Thousand Killing Pavilion and the Demon Cult would keep their eyes on the Golden Snake Villa. From the moment Jin You discovered the secret book, the fate of the Golden Snake Villa was doomed.
In comparison, An Jiu would rather she steal. With the secret book and practicing magical skills, she would have a chance to become stronger and take revenge.
It's better than dying in an unknown corner with no one paying attention to you.
Jin Yanwan said: "Of course, what I said today is known to you, me, heaven and earth."
An Jiu smiled and said meaningfully: "What do you think will happen if an old man who can't even tie a chicken walks on the street with a treasure?"
Jin Yanwan was slightly startled, and her originally rosy face turned pale.
"What do you mean, Miss An..."
An Jiu shook her white and tender fingertips mysteriously and said with a smile: "Thieves will target you, so you must hide the treasure well and never let anyone know."
Jin Yanwan's expression froze, and she said solemnly, "Thank you very much, Miss An, for your advice. Yanwan is very grateful!"
At this point, her impression of An Jiu completely changed.
When they met at the horse farm before, she had secretly thought that Miss An was a little arrogant and rude, but now she felt that there was probably no other woman in the world as straightforward and intelligent as Miss An.
She is like a ball of blazing fire, warm and scorching, and the glow from her body also brings warmth to others.
"That's all I have to say. I won't say more."
An Jiu soaked in the hot spring for a while and then got up and left. The hot spring was comfortable, but one couldn’t soak in it for too long.
Seeing her walk out of the pool, Jin Yanwan took the initiative to say, "Miss An, I have a private courtyard behind the villa. If you don't mind, you can go there to rest for a while."
An Jiu thought about it and agreed.
Jin Yanwan asked the maid waiting outside to take An Jiu to the courtyard, and she left in a hurry, not knowing what to do.
An Jiu put on a clean bathrobe and walked through the bluestone path in the backyard, then came to a quiet courtyard with two weeping crabapple trees planted in the courtyard, all full of gorgeous red cherry blossoms.
"No need to send me off. I'll go in by myself. You can go back first."
An Jiu stood at the gate of the courtyard and turned to the maid beside him.
The maid didn't ask any more questions, just bowed in silence and left.
An Jiu walked into the yard, closed the door with his backhand, and turned around. A tall figure appeared silently in front of him.
The man was wearing a black robe, with loose black hair and a silver mask on his face. He stood a few steps away from her, staring at her quietly with his deep black eyes.
An Jiu's heart beat faster for a moment, then quickly calmed down.
She should have thought of it earlier!
He said he couldn't come, but he came anyway, didn't he?
Oh, men, they say one thing and do another.
An Jiu silently complained in his heart, but he couldn't help but take a few quick steps forward, then suddenly stopped halfway, turned around and walked into the house.
The man standing and waiting: "?"
He was stunned for a moment, and saw the girl walking away without looking back, with unhappiness written all over her body. He could not help but follow her in a daze.
"Miss An?"
The girl suddenly stopped and happened to stop under a crabapple tree.
The crabapple blossoms are delicate and beautiful, but they are not as beautiful as the rosy face and sparkling eyes of a girl after soaking in a hot spring.
There was a gleam in her eyes, and her grievance was visible to the naked eye.
"I'm telling you, I'm angry, and if you don't coax me, I won't get better!"
The girl put her hands on her hips and spoke in an angry voice.
Pei Ji suddenly fell into silence: "..."
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