Chapter 247 How Can I Keep You
Silence fell between the two again, and the atmosphere became heavy again.
Xu Lingqu's explanation once again plunged Shen Shouli's thoughts into confusion.
He opened his mouth, and countless reasons to ask her to stay flashed through his mind, but he found that those reasons were as weak and empty as bubbles.
Xu Lingqu has never been influenced by anyone in what she wants to do. She has said that this matter is very important to her, and the reasons he can come up with will only seem extremely pale in front of her.
Shen Shouli couldn't accept Xu Lingqu's departure again, but he couldn't find a reason to keep her.
How can I keep you here? he thought desperately.
At the moment when he fell into the whirlpool of extreme emotions again, Xu Lingqu suddenly stretched out her other hand, and she gently held the hand that Shen Shouli was holding her sleeve.
"I will come back." Xu Lingqu changed the impossibility of coming back in his previous sentence.
With her rational character who is used to speaking her mind, Xu Lingqu has his own assessment of the future dangers and unknowns regarding the foggy Milky Way, Earth, Xuanluo, the Holy Coffin, and the outer space where it is unknown whether there is lumen material.
Shen Shouli is in a very bad state now. As soon as Master Duanmeng completes the parasitic Xu Lingqu of Lumeng, he will set off immediately, so she directly rejected the idea of taking him with her.
Doing so is playing with Shen Shouli's life and safety, and it is also causing trouble for herself.
So Xu Lingqu chose to objectively tell Shen Shouli the fact that she was leaving according to her usual thinking mode.
But choosing Shen Shouli is not objective.
He needed a hope, the kind with warmth, so Xu Lingqu decided to make a promise.
"I will come back, I promise." She looked at him with clear and firm eyes. "I can't be sure of the time, but I will come as soon as possible."
Xu Lingqu is a person who does not make promises easily. The last person who got her promise was Gina, and she also fulfilled that promise seriously.
Now she gave the new promise to Shen Shouli.
Xu Lingqu felt a little helpless at the moment.
This way of explaining things didn't fit her usual pattern of dealing with things. She had seen people break down so many times that even a single word of comfort was the limit.
Xu Lingqu himself was surprised at his own actions, such as sitting down and explaining seriously, trying to appease and then making promises.
Shen Shouli lowered his head and looked at Xu Lingqu's hand. He didn't know what he was thinking. He remained silent, with inexplicable emotions surging in his heart. It seemed as if there were hundreds of butterflies in his stomach flapping their wings to fly.
The room was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop.
Xu Lingqu thought he was about to fall asleep, so he raised his head. His light brown eyes reflected Xu Lingqu's figure, and he spoke.
"You don't belong to this world, do you?"
There was a hint of sadness and helplessness in his tone. He had been holding this sentence in his heart for a long time. If the time of their next meeting was unknown, this was the best time to say it.
"I've been thinking about this for a long time. I'm sorry, I investigated you."
"From the first time I saw you, I could sense that you had a very special energy that I couldn't describe."
"Your neighbor talked a lot with the person I sent to investigate you that day. Most of it was nonsense, but at the end he still sighed and said that you seemed like a different person in the first three days after you were taken back."
He kept this information secret. He did not tell Jin that day, nor did he tell Shen Ruoshui later. This was a secret that belonged only to Shen Shouli.
"It's like you've become a different person... I was wondering at the time if this was the key to your uniqueness. At first, I just wanted to observe you... but..."
While observing, he didn't realize that he was falling hopelessly bit by bit.
Shen Shouli's love for Xu Lingqu was a desperate adventure in which he took a gamble despite the unfavorable timing, location and people.
"You have a lot of secrets, but I don't mean to explore them. I know it's offensive." Shen Shouli looked at Xu Lingqu and revealed his humble and unspeakable thoughts bit by bit.
"I just thought I could keep an eye on you from a distance. The secrets you carry should prevent you from ever having the desire to choose a lover or partner."
Shen Shouli had always expected Xu Lingqu's insensitivity to his secret crush. For her, there were far more important things than love. There was no way Xu Lingqu would become someone who revolved around love.
So she would never think about everyone around her from this perspective. She seemed to have a good relationship with everyone, but in Shen Shouli's eyes, he always knew that there was always a layer of barrier around Xu Lingqu, alienating her from the world.
"I think you don't belong to this world, just like what happens in novels and dramas, like time travel or something. Anyway, this is not your home, right?"
Therefore, she has never had any sense of attachment or belonging to any place, and she is indifferent to her own death.
Xu Lingqu didn't know how long Shen Shouli had been observing her alone and thinking about it. He could actually guess this far based on just that one sentence.
In a sense, he guessed Xu Lingqu's secret correctly. If it were a month ago, Xu Lingqu would have put a knife to his neck.
But now she just looked at him quietly, waiting to see what he was going to say.
He obviously had never told these secrets to anyone, so there was no need for Xu Lingqu to threaten or silence him. His unreasonable love for her was enough to make him keep his mouth shut.
“So what you have to do is try to return to the world that belongs to you.” When Shen Shouli said this, his hands couldn’t help shaking, and Xu Lingqu felt it.
Shen Shouli is pessimistic about Xu Lingqu's promise. If she returns to her own world as he wishes, will she really come back again?
"You said you would come back... I couldn't believe it, but I didn't want to hinder you either, so I wanted to know what I should do to see you again."
Xu Lingqu was a meteor that could only be observed. Shen Shouli had never thought of trapping this meteor. She could move forward according to her trajectory. He just wanted to keep his observation position.
The message came from the new intelligent computer that Master Duanmeng gave her. Xu Lingqu glanced at it and stood up. She let go of Shen Shouli's hand and pulled out her sleeve.
"You don't need to do anything. I said I would come back and I will. I won't lie to you." She bent down slightly and put on the silver mask of the messenger of God. "Have some faith in me, Shen Shouli."
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