Chapter 216 Do you regret it?
But in the silent room, An Ling did not avoid Ren Limeng's burning gaze after all. She clasped her hands in front of her chest and stared at Ren Limeng with an unfathomable expression. After a long time, she finally frowned slightly and suddenly spoke again.
"Li Meng, what guarantees are you there won't be any accidents? The reason you're a guest on 'Shan Hai' isn't it because of the unforeseen circumstances that might happen during a live broadcast?"
An Ling's lips curled up slightly, forming a self-deprecating smile, and a hint of obvious complexity flashed in her eyes.
"If something really happens..."
Ren Limeng lowered her eyes and spoke slowly. Her eyes suddenly became more determined. She looked up and met An Ling's somewhat nonchalant gaze.
"I'm resigning, Sister Ling. You can just push the responsibility onto me and Director Yao when the time comes. Don't worry."
Ren Limeng had a hypocritical smile on her lips, and her ambiguous tone implied too many hidden meanings, which made An Ling, who was standing by the window, straighten up in a moment of thought.
"Regarding the live broadcast...I need to consult Minister Zhong."
"That's natural."
An Ling walked past Ren Limeng, slowly walked to the bedside, and picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table. Ren Limeng looked at An Ling, picked up her own mobile phone again, and waited for the result of An Ling's communication.
"Li Meng, you're quite suitable to be the host. I hope this live broadcast will be a success for both you and me."
Ren Limeng had just unlocked her phone's fingerprint lock when she suddenly heard An Ling's voice change the subject. She subconsciously looked up and saw An Ling smiling, turning around and walking straight towards the door.
The tone of An Ling's words was different from all her previous words. Ren Limeng could tell that An Ling's addition was from her own perspective, rather than the result of the planning of the top management of the station.
She didn't know if An Ling had seen a hint of herself as a host in her at certain moments, but no matter what, after hearing such comments, she only wanted to say two words, "Thank you."
Ren Limeng looked at An Ling's back as she decisively opened the door with a complex and somewhat self-deprecating look. She spoke softly. No matter how many emotions were hidden in her heart, her tone was still firm and powerful amid the sounds of wind and rain outside the window.
Hearing Ren Limeng's voice, An Ling paused slightly and closed the door with his backhand.
Ren Limeng: Brother Xingzhi, I just did something, and although it’s not yet fully completed, I want to tell you about it.
Ren Limeng: Actually, I have been thinking about how to tell you today, but I just don’t know how to start.
After An Ling went out to call Zhong Yanjun, Ren Limeng sat on the chair, looked down at the chat interface with Shen Xingzhi, hesitated for a while, and finally sent a new message.
Shen Xingzhi returned as quickly as ever.
Shen Xingzhi: Do you regret it?
Ren Limeng: Huh???
Chen Xingzhi's somewhat inexplicable questioning completely disrupted Ren Limeng's rhythm, which had been brewing for half a day. She frowned slightly, staring blankly at the four short words in front of her, and finally reacted.
Ren Limeng: I was a little impulsive when I proposed a relationship that day, but how could I possibly regret it?
Ren Limeng: Senior Xingzhi, can you be more confident about your handsome face? (Tsundere)
Chen Xingzhi: You are indeed attracted by beauty...
Ren Limeng: Of course, don’t you like my beauty?
Ren Limeng: (cat staring.jpg)
Ren Limeng: Or do you regret it?
Suddenly thinking of this question, Ren Limeng's mind suddenly emerged with many emotions suppressed by work. She sat up straight again and reflected on herself in the past two days. In order to be a good captain in the program, she seemed to have indeed neglected Shen Xingzhi.
She and Shen Xingzhi were separated right after they confirmed their relationship. Shen Xingzhi... should be unhappy, right?
Will he regret agreeing so hastily?
Do you feel that being in a relationship with her who is cautious and wants too much is not as happy as you imagined?
Could it be that Chen Xingzhi just wanted to make up for the regrets of the past, but ignored the fact that people and things have changed with the passage of time. Does he like her as she is now?
She is no longer as pure and heartless as she was back then. She only wants to be with him...
Ren Limeng thought of An Ling going out to ask Zhong Yanjun for instructions, and a deepness that she herself could not express in words flashed in her eyes.
Chen Xingzhi: Are you trying to turn the tables?
Chen Xingzhi: Mengmeng, the only thing I regret is forming a team.
Chen Xingzhi didn't say a word, but Ren Limeng could still feel the seriousness coming from the short number he sent, and the same longing lingering in her heart, which made her heart beat faster.
Chen Xingzhi: So there is nothing that cannot be discussed between us.
Shen Xingzhi's new words suddenly brought their conversation back to the topic that Ren Limeng had brought up at the beginning. However, this time, Ren Limeng's fingers typing the message did not hesitate at all. She stared at the chat history above the phone, which made her feel relaxed even through the screen, and finally made up her mind.
Ren Limeng: The sudden flood in Gangcheng today disrupted the plans of the program team and all of us.
Ren Limeng: Brother Xingzhi, I am the host. I have been to too many live events over the years. I am unwilling to just wait in the hotel like this at this time.
Ren Limeng: I want to start a live broadcast, in the name of the program team or the Orange platform, and cooperate with the local official TV station in Gangcheng to report on the current situation on the front line.
Ren Limeng: Let more people know about the flood in Gangcheng, and do my part as a journalist to help this accident.
Ren Limeng: I'm ready to cooperate with Minister Zhong. I've just expressed my personal wishes to An Ling. I think it can work out, and they should agree to it...
After typing this, Ren Limeng couldn't help but slow down the speed of her fingers tapping the floating keyboard. Was she reporting this matter to Shen Xingzhi, or was she just notifying him?
Even though she knew clearly that many things between lovers should be discussed with each other, she actually did not do so at all. Not only had she made up her mind in her heart, she had also basically reached an agreement with An Ling, leaving no room for Shen Xingzhi to discuss.
Although she swore to An Ling that this was her personal decision and she could only make her own decision, she and Shen Xingzhi were not in an ambiguous relationship as everyone mistakenly believed. They were a couple who had understood each other's feelings, and her decision could not have had no impact on Shen Xingzhi at all.
She knew it clearly, but when facing An Ling just now, Ren Limeng suppressed all her hesitation and just wanted to achieve her wish.
Ren Limeng didn't want to deceive herself or anyone else. When she made the decision, she might have been... a little selfish.
That's why she couldn't help but feel anxious and worried when facing the chat box with Shen Xingzhi...
Ren Limeng rubbed her temples, which were a mess when she thought about her emotions. She sighed silently, stopped thinking too much, and gave all the explanations directly.
The waiting time seemed to stretch infinitely. Ren Limeng hadn't felt so uneasy for a long time. Even when she was waiting for the results of the interview for "Shan Hai", her heart didn't beat so fast.
She did not regret her choice, but... if she had known that this was how she would feel facing Shen Xingzhi at this moment, perhaps she would not have chosen to "act first and report later".
Ren Limeng seemed to have experienced a strange feeling that was completely different from being single. It was a mess, but she couldn't ignore it in her heart.
Ren Limeng was reflecting when Shen Xingzhi's reply suddenly popped up on the screen, causing her to subconsciously clutch her phone tightly.
Shen Xingzhi: Personal wish?
Chen Xingzhi: Ren Limeng, say it again.
Shen Xingzhi was indeed angry.
Ren Limeng bit her lower lip, took a deep breath, and slid her fingers lightly across the screen. She no longer had the calmness and composure she had when facing An Ling's increasingly louder questioning.
Ren Limeng couldn't even think of the various clever ways and methods she had used to deal with An Ling just now. She just uttered three words very quickly, sincerely, and a little nervously.
Ren Limeng: I’m sorry
Ren Limeng: Brother Xingzhi, I’m sorry, I didn’t consider you.
Ren Limeng: I really want to finalize the live broadcast.
To this end, Ren Limeng even directly promised An Ling that she would bear the consequences if any problems occurred, and she was willing to resign and be responsible for any possible sudden public opinion.
Looking at the sudden flood in Gangcheng from the professional perspective of a doctor of journalism, apart from the infinite regret for the natural disaster itself, there are obviously many things that the Orange Platform can intervene in.
Ren Limeng wants to do a lot of things. Maybe she can't be pure enough to be selfless and do everything for the greater good. But in addition to hinting at the temptation of An Ling's interests, Ren Limeng also feels that as a host with rich experience in front-line disaster relief, she should stand up in such a bad or even dangerous situation.
As she said, choosing live streaming can achieve win-win cooperation among all parties.
Except...Shen Xingzhi who was weighed down by her heart.
When confronting An Ling, or even when she chose to speak earlier, Ren Limeng did not think too much about Shen Xingzhi's feelings and situation. She owed him an apology that even sounded a little weak.
Ren Limeng has taken advantage of many people in the workplace intentionally or unintentionally over the years, but only this time, she could not ignore the discomfort in her heart, with a hint of helplessness.
Did she...do something wrong?
She clearly had no regrets, but why did her heartbeat become so heavy at this moment that she couldn't ignore it any longer?
With a gentle vibration of the phone, Shen Xingzhi's new reply finally arrived.
Ren Limeng took another deep breath and finally lowered her head——
Shen Xingzhi: Is sorry all you want to say to me?
Shen Xingzhi: What have you done to me?
Ren Limeng: You know.
Ren Limeng frowned. She didn't understand Chen Xingzhi's dilemma at the moment. She didn't believe that Chen Xingzhi couldn't see through her choice. Was his questioning at this moment because he was still brooding over it?
She felt sorry for him, and even answering his question made her feel inexplicably embarrassed.
Ren Limeng only hoped that Shen Xingzhi could make a "judgment" quickly and give her a chance to redeem herself in other matters.
Thinking of this, Ren Limeng's fingers paused while typing the message. She looked at what she had typed, "Senior Xingzhi, can you please give me a lighter punishment because of my good attitude of admitting my mistakes? I know I was wrong...", and then remembered that she subconsciously only wanted to make amends in "other things", and suddenly pulled the corners of her mouth with a wry smile.
Maybe, she is not suitable for relationship?
She didn't want to let love affect the speed at which she drew her sword, but now that the sword was drawn, her first love seemed to be in danger.
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