I've seen you love me
Lin Shanglu found women's minds puzzling, always entangled in the question of whether to love or not, but he still replied:
"You've been asking me this question since I was eighteen, and now I'm thirty-four, and my answer has always been the same: Nanxing, I love you."
Love? Then why can't she feel it?
Chen Nanxing twitched the corners of his mouth, his fingertips unconsciously stroking the rim of the cup, as if what he swallowed was not tea but a mouthful of bitter wine.
"No."
She categorically denied it, her gaze fixed on the void, as if recalling something:
"You don't love me anymore. The love you said you loved me when you were eighteen is completely different from the love you say you love me now."
Lin Shanglu was feeling irritated and confused, like a tangled mess. He couldn't figure out what to do. He grabbed a handful of hair and sighed heavily.
"How is it different? What's different?! Nanxing, what you said is too confusing! I can't understand."
“Nothing is the same anymore.”
The eighteen-year-old Lin Shanglu could resist the whole world for her, while the thirty-four-year-old Lin Shanglu was keeping a lover and having children outside...
Because I have seen how you loved me, so it is extremely obvious that you don't love me.
Chen Nanxing lowered her black eyelashes, and the mist rising from the boiling tea moistened her eyes.
Still so silent, Chen Nanxing is a person whose tears are silent.
Lin Shanglu became even more annoyed. He pinched his brows and suppressed his frantic emotions. His deliberately calm tone already showed signs of anger:
"You're overthinking it, wife. Don't I know whether I love you or not? I only want you to be my wife, and I only want you to sit in the position of Mrs. Lin. If this isn't love for me, what is it?"
She accompanied him from a cramped and damp basement to a bright and spacious villa, from a steamed bun shared by two people to a fortune. It turned out that in his heart, all she wanted was the position of Mrs. Lin...
At this moment, sadness turned into a slap in Chen Nanxing's face. She took out a tissue and wiped away her tears with pressure.
Being in the world of fame and fortune, Lin Shanglu's sincerity had long been corrupted by money and desire, and his love had become impure, like a bowl of porridge mixed with coarse stones. Forcing herself to drink it would only scratch her throat, causing her to bleed until she died crying blood.
Late-stage gastric cancer meant there was no hope of survival, and death wasn't something Chen Nanxing feared. However, she didn't want to die in this twisted relationship. She clenched the tear-soaked tissue in her hand, pulled out another divorce agreement, and shoved it in front of Lin Shanglu. This time, she also shoved a pen in it.
"It doesn't matter whether we love each other or not, as long as the divorce agreement is signed."
After debating the topic of love for a long time, they finally came back to the issue of divorce. This was also the topic that Lin Shanglu least wanted to talk about. He suddenly wanted to smoke, so he reached into his pocket, but only felt a lighter.
“…”
Because he was alone with Chen Nanxing, he threw the cigarette into the car. This had become his habit.
In order to relieve his desire to smoke, Lin Shanglu took out a lighter and played with it between his fingertips. The sound of metal hitting the table gradually synchronized with the thumping of his heartbeat in the tense atmosphere.
The air around her slowly solidified, and the invisible pressure hung over Chen Nanxing's head like a sharp sword, as if it would pierce her in the next second.
After spinning the lighter countless times, Lin Shanglu finally stopped. He stared intently into Chen Nanxing's eyes, as if he wanted to see through her heart:
"Nanxing, when we first arrived in City B, we were broke and destitute. We lived happily in a basement, sharing a pack of instant noodles. Now we're rich and our lives are better. How did you suddenly become like this? Why on earth did you have to make things so awkward with me?"
The confusion and inquiry in his tone did not seem fake. Chen Nanxing also looked into Lin Shanglu's eyes:
"You really don't understand?"
How could he not understand? He knew it all too well. All his ignorance was just a selfish pretense. Lin Shanglu frowned and said, "Tsk!"
"Because of those women?"
He didn't take it seriously, and used his own logic to comfort himself:
"I told you I have no feelings for them, but I couldn't refuse due to work requirements. Besides, I have always strictly forbidden those people from coming to you. I have been very good to you and given you enough respect as Mrs. Lin, right?"
“…”
The job can only be carried out if she has a mistress, and the respectability is that her husband's lover, with a pregnant belly, forces her to divorce him.
Chen Nanxing clenched his fist. The appearance of the man in front of him had basically not changed except that he became more mature. He still had that bold and handsome face. The only thing that had changed was his inner soul.
She tried to find the shadow of her lover's past under this skin, but found nothing.
Realizing this, Chen Nanxing's shoulders slumped slightly, as if the strength to support his body was instantly taken away. Then, the fragrant tea room fell into a long silence.
For someone as impatient as Lin Shanglu, silence is more unbearable than quarreling.
Many times he wanted Chen Nanxing to let go of her emotions and have a big quarrel with him, but he knew that Chen Nanxing would not do that. His wife was a very gentle person, so gentle that she would never say a word loudly to him.
Lin Shanglu also liked her gentleness like water, but at this moment, no matter how gentle and calm the water was, Lin Shanglu would make it create some ripples.
"say!"
He stood up and bent down in an oppressive manner, lifted Chen Nanxing's chin with his fingers and forced her to look up and look at him.
Chen Nanxing's face was pale and he turned his head away stubbornly: "I don't want to say anything except divorce."
"Okay, okay, okay!" Three consecutive "Okay" words showed Lin Shanglu's extremely frustrated mood. He laughed in anger, grabbed Chen Nanxing's wrist and pulled it up hard, forcing Chen Nanxing to stand up obediently.
"I told you, don't even think about divorce. When we got married, we swore to the moon that we would only be widowed, not divorced. Come home with me!"
After saying that, Lin Shanglu walked out holding Chen Nanxing's hand. He used so much force that Chen Nanxing's bones were almost broken.
"Let me go, it hurts!"
Chen Nanxing struggled but failed, and in panic he touched the cup of tea, and poured it over it in a fit of rage.
Hurting the enemy a thousand times will hurt yourself eight hundred times. This not only burned Lin Shanglu but also burned yourself. However, the effect was surprisingly good. Lin Shanglu immediately loosened his control over her.
Under Chen Nanxing's gaze, he snatched the teacup with a cold look and smashed it to the ground.
The sound of porcelain breaking was unique and crisp. Chen Nanxing subconsciously shrank his body and wanted to find a place to hide. After realizing his current environment, he restrained his instinct and froze in place, not daring to move.
This was the first time Lin Shanglu had shown violence in front of her since they met at the age of fifteen.
Lin Shanglu was indeed furious at the time, so angry that his head was swelling. He grabbed something and threw it to the ground. At the moment he threw it, Lin Shanglu actually regretted it.
Almost at the same time as the sound of shattering porcelain rang out, Lin Shanglu pressed down on the back of Chen Nanxing's head and held her tightly in his arms. Feeling Chen Nanxing trembling non-stop due to post-traumatic stress disorder, his heart sank and he hugged Chen Nanxing tighter:
"Wife, don't be afraid, don't be afraid! I'm Lin Shanglu, not that beast your adoptive father. I was the bastard just now. I won't hurt you, don't be afraid!"
Small kisses fell on Chen Nanxing's hair, and the person in his arms slowly stopped shaking.
Lin Shanglu raised his hand and touched Chen Nanxing's face. Just as he was about to wipe away Chen Nanxing's tears with his soft fingertips, six strong and burly men pushed open the door and came in at the same time.
"Who are you?"
Lin Shanglu was really shocked.
They ignored Lin Shanglu and automatically formed two rows to stand beside them.
“???”
What's going on? Lin Shanglu's shoulders were tense, and he couldn't figure out what was going on. He looked at the big men around him warily, grabbed Chen Nanxing's shoulders and made a gesture to hide in his arms, but Chen Nanxing didn't appreciate it. He pushed Lin Shanglu away, took a few steps back, and stood in front of the big man on the left side of the first row.
The big man bowed his head respectfully: "Miss Chen."
“…”
Lin Shanglu sensed something was wrong and looked at Chen Nanxing in disbelief.
"Nanxing, what are you doing?"
Chen Nanxing's tall and thin figure seemed insignificant in front of the burly man. Her dim eyes were filled with emotion. After a long moment, she finally said:
"You go."
"Please in." As soon as Chen Nanxing finished speaking, two burly men stepped forward and walked up to Lin Shanglu and politely asked him to leave.
Lin Shanglu turned a blind eye to this. The veins on his forehead bulged, and his temples throbbed. Suddenly, he stepped forward, grabbed Chen Nanxing's shoulders, and roared:
"You have to do this?!"
The voice is hoarse.
Chen Nanxing should be heartbroken, but from the moment she discovered that Lin Shanglu was cheating on her, her heart began to ache. It has been like this for five years, and now it is not so unbearable.
She signaled the big man with her eyes to pull Lin Shanglu away, and met his angry eyes directly:
"I don't want to go back to City B with you, and I know I can't compete with you, so I can only do this."
Lin Shanglu wanted to step forward, but the big man stopped him. Chen Nanxing took the large bag of printed divorce agreements from the tea table and handed it to Lin Shanglu:
"Except for getting a divorce certificate, I won't go back to City B."
Lin Shanglu gritted his teeth and refused to take it. Chen Nanxing did not force him and handed it to one of the big men. The big man smiled and raised his eyebrows while holding the bag.
"Sir, please."
It was said to be an invitation, but in fact it was a naked threat, and Lin Shanglu had to leave even if he didn't want to.
At this point, between letting others carry him out and walking out on his own, Lin Shanglu would definitely choose the latter.
Before leaving, Lin Shanglu turned around and wanted to say a few more words to Chen Nanxing, but his view was blocked by a row of burly men. He could only see the burly bodies of the burly men, but not a corner of Chen Nanxing's clothes.
After Lin Shanglu left, Chen Nanxing sat alone in the tea room for a long time. She thought a lot, and only when she thought of the stars dotting the night sky did she return to the B&B under the escort of six big men.
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