Su Wan felt completely dazed.
She had experienced fear many times: the fear of being chased, the fear of the city being breached, and the fear of facing ghosts and monsters.
She would tremble, scream, and be unable to stand, but her brain was still functioning normally.
Being dazed is completely different from being terrified. When you're dazed, your mind goes completely blank, or you feel as sluggish as if you're sinking into mud. Your ears ring, and you can't hear what others are saying. Your eyes stare blankly at a point, and the scenery in your eyes turns dim and yellowish, as if the whole world is gradually losing its color.
She couldn't see her own expression, but she could imagine it. During her hospital internship, she had seen many such cases—people who went to the hospital because they weren't feeling well, only to have their test results come back like a bolt from the blue.
She guessed that her expression was exactly the same as theirs.
The whole room was cold, the metal chair was cold, the glass wall in front of her was cold, and her clothes were not yet dry, clinging to her with a coldness that went from her skin to her bones.
She sat there blankly until she heard Zhang Ying's voice again.
She looked up, her eyes refocusing, making the two figures behind the glass wall clear from their blurry state.
“It’s already daylight outside,” Zhang Ying said, sitting in a chair with her hands on the armrests and her legs crossed. “If you want to sit like this forever, I can keep you company.”
Chu Ming said, "She suddenly found out about this and can't accept it right away."
“I know,” Zhang Ying said. “She’s been sitting there for two hours. I was just reminding her.”
Su Wan stood up and placed her hands on the glass wall: "I...don't want to die."
From the day she transmigrated and married Wei Jingzhuo, she was in trouble. She longed to live a happy life with Wei Jingzhuo, and to achieve this goal, she first clashed with cunning assassins, then confronted thousands of troops, and even fought against inhuman monsters.
She didn't possess Wei Jingzhuo's unparalleled martial arts skills, Chu Yi's ingenious schemes, Meng Ruliu's superhuman strength, or Bai Zhiyi's strategic planning. From beginning to end, she was a weak woman with no strength to even kill a chicken. The only thing that kept her going was this goal.
Once all the obstacles in her way are removed, she can be happily together with Wei Jingzhuo.
She got what she wanted; all obstacles were removed. Emperor Kangping, Wei Shao, and Consort Li—all those who opposed Wei Jingzhuo—were dead. The Western Rong, originally the mortal enemies of the Great Jin, now commanded great respect from the King to the Crown Prince. The Southern Chu Kingdom had surrendered, and the last of the alien demons had been killed.
If Wei Jingzhuo can be saved, they can return to the capital. Wei Jingzhuo will ascend the throne as emperor, and she will be the empress.
At this moment, Zhang Ying told her that she was going to die.
“You should be grateful, don’t look so desperate,” Zhang Ying laughed. “You were already dead before you transmigrated. It was the transmitter that pulled your consciousness into this era, gave you a second life, and allowed you to live this long.”
Su Wan stared at her blankly, without answering.
“Didn’t you understand? Let me explain it another way,” Zhang Ying said. “If the transmitter hadn’t pulled you here, your life would have ended. The fact that you’ve traveled to this era and are continuing to live with a new identity is a blessing in itself.”
"This is a blessing?" Su Wan said. "Do you say this to every goddess? You bring them here, then take their lives, and you call that a blessing? What gives you the right to decide other people's life and death?"
Zhang Ying said coldly, "Why should I? I made it very clear just now. I gave you your life in the first place, so what's wrong with me taking it back?"
Seeing that the two were about to argue, Chu Ming raised his hand to signal Zhang Ying to wait: "Xiao Ying, don't get agitated. The extraction of life factors requires her consent. You can't argue with her."
Zhang Ying shook her head, leaned back in her chair, and closed her eyes.
Chu Ming said to Su Wan, "Su Wan, you're right. We really have no right to decide someone else's life or death. We're just asking for your opinion. If you don't agree, we can't take it."
Su Wan asked, "Did all those goddesses before my mother agree?"
Zhang Ying had told her that the goddess had provided life-giving factors, but she still didn't want to believe it and wanted to hear Zhang Ying confirm it.
Perhaps none of us wanted to, just like the mother.
Zhang Ying closed her eyes and hummed, "Of course, they are not only revered by the entire Southern Chu Kingdom as goddesses, but they can also marry the Southern Chu Emperor as empresses, and they can even let me rescue any person they designate... With so many generous conditions, why wouldn't they agree?"
Chu Ming added, "This is our compensation to the goddess."
“But I don’t want to be a goddess, and I don’t want to marry the emperor of Southern Chu,” Su Wan said. “I just want to be with A Jin.”
These conditions would be unimaginable glory for any woman. As the Empress of Southern Chu, she was treated with utmost respect by everyone in the country, from the emperor and his officials to the common people.
She was different. She didn't want to be revered by the people of Southern Chu, nor did she want to be the empress of Southern Chu. She already belonged to Wei Jingzhuo; her heart was filled with Wei Jingzhuo, and there was no room for anyone else.
Zhang Ying and Chu Ming exchanged a glance. Zhang Ying said to Chu Ming, "This is the consequence of her mother escaping with the transmitter. You see? She met the Crown Prince of Great Jin outside the Holy Land, and they fell in love. If she had been inside the Holy Land, things wouldn't have become so complicated."
Chu Ming said, "None of us expected her mother to escape in that way..."
“By the way,” Su Wan eagerly interrupted, “Don’t you know how to clone? Could you clone me and absorb my life essence?”
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