Chapter 63
Su Zheye heard it clearly this time, but he kept his eyes open and seemed unable to react for a long time.
Gu Yuan did not turn his head either. There seemed to be an unspoken understanding between the two of them, giving each other plenty of time to think.
——Continue or regret, acquiesce or refuse.
In fact, since that time when Gu Yuan said, "There is no need for it. We only had sex because it was you that day," Su Zheye had vaguely sensed something.
On top of this physical relationship, perhaps there were some different feelings for Gu Yuan.
After Su Zheye reminded him that time, Gu Yuan never did anything that crossed the line again, so Su Zheye didn't take it to heart anymore.
But... he didn't expect that not only did Gu Yuan not stop thinking about it, but it became more and more intense.
Their sex-buddy relationship has begun to deteriorate from one-sided. If it had happened some time ago, Su Zheye would have ended the relationship and walked away without hesitation.
But...his mind suddenly flashed back to the day when Xie Chengxue beat him. When he was sitting in the co-pilot seat, Gu Yuan was half-kneeling beside him, his usually expressionless face filled with uncontrollable worry.
There were also the few times when he stood in front of Qin Yu'an without hesitation, the meticulous care he gave her every morning after the game, the firm protection and support he showed her in the post-match interviews, the two of them's extremely tacit cooperation and insights into the game, and even the cup of brown sugar milk in his hand...
Little by little, like strands of silk, they unknowingly weave into a dragnet that tightly envelops oneself.
This man's gentleness, thoughtfulness, attentiveness and care are like the spring rain that moistens everything silently. When you suddenly realize that the high wall that has sealed your heart has been penetrated by him, all things begin to wake up.
Su Zheye found that he could no longer walk away casually.
I can't even say the words "sever ties".
However, at this moment, with her mind full of images of her interactions with Gu Yuan, a few words suddenly interrupted her.
"You can also see what our family tradition and education are like. My parents are both professors and their ideas are relatively conservative."
"It's best not to swear or show that you smoke or drink. You won't go wrong if you're more reserved and quiet."
...has nothing to do with me.
Even unlike Cheng Yansheng and Gu Qing, his relationship with Gu Yuan was still homosexuality which was difficult for most people to accept, not to mention that Gu Yuan's parents were professors with relatively conservative ideas.
Gu Yuan... From Gu Yuan's upbringing and family education, it can be seen that he will definitely be a person who respects his parents very much.
What if, I mean what if, when the day comes to get married, Gu Yuan’s parents don’t accept me and want me to separate from him.
With Gu Yuan's personality, what kind of choice would he make?
It's not that he didn't believe Gu Yuan could come up with a solution that would satisfy both parties, but... since ancient times, it has been difficult to be both loyal and filial. This is a difficult problem that has trapped countless heroes. If it were that easy, it would not have become a household saying.
Even if the possibility was one in ten thousand, Su Zheye could not bear the consequences of being with Gu Yuan and then being abandoned.
He had been abandoned once, and it took him two lifetimes to adapt to a free and easy life alone. If it happened again... Su Zheye felt that he might seek death.
The SEA base can be seen faintly, with blue and white headlights flashing across the sky.
Unlike XY’s fancy decoration, SEA’s theme is simple and technological, but it looks very beautiful and elegant.
The air was still quiet and Gu Yuan did not speak again.
His words kept echoing in Su Zheye's ears.
"Don't you want to fall in love?"
"What if you fall in love with me?"
fall in love.
What a strange and ridiculous word.
But Su Zheye knew that when these words came out of Gu Yuan's mouth, it was not a joke, nor even a test, but his true feelings.
——But how can I tell you, just realizing that I can't live without you, fear and panic come to me endlessly.
"Forget it."
Su Zheye chuckled, covered his mouth and yawned, and turned his eyes to the window: "I have no plans to fall in love, and I don't want to cause trouble to others and myself."
He didn't look at Gu Yuan, as if he was blinded by a leaf and thought that if he didn't look, Gu Yuan wouldn't have any emotional fluctuations.
Gu Yuan's expression did not change at all, because he had already anticipated the boy's answer during Su Zheye's long silence.
Even the tension in his heart seemed to ease a little.
...Even if it's the most straightforward rejection, it'll be fine as long as Su Zheye doesn't mention breaking up the sex buddy relationship.
Gu Yuan said “hmm”.
As usual, after parking the car, he went to the passenger seat, opened the door for Su Zheye, and helped him out by protecting his head.
Su Zheye did not refuse and walked into the base side by side with Gu Yuan.
The two went upstairs to change clothes first, and there was still no conversation between them.
Su Zheye held the brown sugar milk in his hand, drank it in small sips, and followed Gu Yuan downstairs.
“——The Quantum Killer is coming! The Quantum Killer is coming! Help! Aaaaaaah!!”
Before they even reached the training room, Lu Yang's loud voice rang out: "Jiang Yiwen!! Stop the fucking eyeballs! Come to the rescue!!"
Su Zheye was in a trance for a moment, thinking that the "quantum killer" Lu Yang was talking about was Gu Yuan.
Under normal circumstances, he would definitely make a joke, but at the moment he was a little upset, so he didn't respond.
Gu Yuan felt a little chill in his heart.
Pushing open the door of the training room, Huang Heran looked up from Sui Ran's computer: "Hey, Commander Gu and Zhe Ye are back."
Gu Yuan: “Yeah.”
Huang Heran stood up and said, "Then I'll go call Coach Yan and wait for the three of them to finish their review."
Gu Yuan: "Okay."
"The captain and Su Ge are back."
Lu Yang raised his head from the black screen and keenly caught sight of the brown sugar milk in Su Zheye's hand: "Hey! Bubble Queen's milk tea, how long have you been waiting in line?"
Su Zheye was stunned for a second and subconsciously looked at Gu Yuan.
"Not long."
Gu Yuan said calmly, "About twenty minutes."
"That's fine."
The hero in Lu Yang DTW was resurrected. He lowered his head again and said casually, "But I don't have the patience to queue for more than 20 minutes to buy a cup of milk tea."
Su Zheye was stunned again.
He doesn't drink milk tea very often. If he wants to drink something, he goes directly to the bar. He doesn't know anything about this.
Unexpectedly, after returning from the mental hospital that day, Gu Yuan went to a hospital with such a long queue in order to comfort himself.
And today, he was not beaten, it was all because of what happened, so Gu Yuan mentioned it.
...Or maybe, Gu Yuan saw that he drank it all last time, so he took the initiative to buy it today because he liked it.
My heart seemed to be touched by something, causing a slight vibration.
It turned out that without realizing it, Gu Yuan had done so much for me...even more than I thought.
Su Zheye pursed his lips.
However, Gu Yuan seemed to have no reaction at all. He habitually pulled out the gaming chair for Su Zheye, then sat down next to him, waiting for Yan Shusheng to come over and review the game.
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After reviewing the game, they played a few games in duo queue and went upstairs at around twelve o'clock.
Su Zheye's daily necessities had already been moved into Gu Yuan's room, so she stood in front of the mirror and washed up with him.
Because he had to review everything after returning, Gu Yuan changed out of his formal suit, but Su Zheye noticed that he just folded it neatly and hung it on the back of a chair, and did not put it into the closet.
It must be because I said in the afternoon that I wanted him to fuck me while wearing this outfit.
It seemed as if he never failed to respond to his requests.
When I think about it carefully, Gu Yuan's kindness to me is beyond words.
If this continues, maybe one day I really won't be able to leave him.
This thought made Su Zheye's heart beat violently again, and he felt a little panicky.
He put away the towel, hesitated for a second, but still said softly: "Gu Yuan, I'll go back to my room to sleep today."
He wanted to calm down and sort out his tangled emotions.
However, Gu Yuan was stunned.
A chill suddenly rose from the bottom of his heart and spread to every part of his body in an instant.
Go back to your room and sleep.
What does it mean to go back to the room and sleep?
Didn’t we say we were going to have sex in the afternoon? Why do you suddenly want to sleep alone?
Is he going to... ignore and distance himself from me, and then gradually fade the relationship between us?
Gu Yuan stood there, feeling as if he was in an ice cellar. All the blood in his body was frozen, and even his fingertips could not move.
The two of them stared at each other quietly for a long time, and Gu Yuan slowly asked: "Why?"
His voice was so stiff that he couldn't even hear it himself.
Su Zheye also realized that his sudden change of heart seemed a bit excessive, and smiled: "I just... want to be alone, it's just a casual remark, don't think too much about it."
After a pause, he continued: "Then I won't go back, let's make love."
Gu Yuan's attention was not on Su Zheye's last sentence, but on the sentence "I want to be alone."
Quiet.
If he wants to be quiet... does that mean that my proposal of a relationship has also caused some ripples in his heart?
So Su Zheye...isn't as indifferent as he looks, or even evasive and rejecting?
Even if it was just a little bit, Gu Yuan's mood seemed to be rekindled.
The coldness all over his body and the fear of losing Su Zheye seemed to disappear in an instant.
Gu Yuan stared at Su Zheye, and after a moment his lips trembled slightly: "Zheye."
"Um."
Su Zheye took a step forward, took the initiative to put his arm around Gu Yuan's waist, and said in a relaxed tone: "Go change your clothes quickly."
Gu Yuan realized in a second that the little fox was trying to show goodwill.
…It was as if it was rejecting his kindness with its curled up back, but it didn't want to make itself too sad, so it secretly stretched out a paw to poke people, while also revealing its soft belly in front of itself.
Gu Yuan's Adam's apple rolled, and he could no longer hold back, so he picked up Su Zheye by the waist, and took off the tie and belt hanging on the back of the chair. Then he put the little fox on the bed and tied his wrists again.
Then she stared at his clear and beautiful eyes quietly for a moment, raised her hand, and covered Su Zheye's eyes with her tie.
"Hmm?"
This time, Gu Yuan did not explain. Instead, he turned off the lights, changed into the clothes that Su Zheye wanted to see, and leaned over to kiss him.
The dual disappearance of vision and touch makes all other perceptions infinitely magnified.
The storm was even more violent than the last time. Su Zheye tilted his head back, his tears soaked his tie, and he was almost overwhelmed by the feeling of suffocation.
He couldn't see it, but at this moment, the thick darkness could not conceal Gu Yuan's secretly growing possessiveness.
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