Chapter 80
Su Zheye looked at him silently without saying anything.
The air was quiet for a few seconds, and Gu Yuan pursed his lips: "Zhe Ye, come home with me, okay?"
Home.
This word suddenly woke Su Zheye up. Where did he have a home? He didn't deserve a home, and he didn't deserve to appear in the home that Gu Yuan mentioned.
Su Zheye smiled, his eyes again covered with indifference: "Captain Gu, now that you're here, would you like a drink?"
Although Su Zheye smiled like this very often, Gu Yuan felt that he was extremely strange at the moment.
"I'm driving, I'm not drinking."
Gu Yuan stared at Su Zheye closely: "Zheye, can we go home?"
Su Zheye narrowed his eyes: "Don't you see there's a handsome guy sitting here? We're chatting, don't disturb my fun."
Gu Yuan saw it.
How could he not see it? He noticed the strange man next to Su Zheye as soon as he came in.
——And Su Zheye’s hand was still on that man’s wrist. The two of them were very close, and it was unknown how many glasses of wine they had drunk together.
At that moment, Gu Yuan's anxiety, panic, and fear, which had been gradually rising since Su Zheye didn't answer his calls, instantly reached its peak and were about to drive him crazy.
There was even a flash of thought in Gu Yuan's mind that he should take this boy back to his villa in the suburbs and lock him up, preferably handcuffing him to the head of the bed, allowing him to cry and laugh only in front of him.
"hiss……"
Gu Yuan came back to his senses when he heard the sound of someone sucking in air. He then realized that he had used too much force and must have hurt Su Zheye.
He quickly relaxed his grip, but did not let go of Su Zheye. He changed the subject a little stiffly: "Lu Yang and the others are also drinking at the base. If you want to drink and chat, I'll accompany you."
Gu Yuan's voice gradually became pleading, and he asked for the third time: "Zhe Ye, come home with me, please?"
The world fell into silence again, but many people were already looking over here.
Although the real-name membership system here requires confidentiality, Su Zheye doesn't know whether anyone will recognize him and Gu Yuan and whether it will be exposed.
I don't care, but Gu Yuan's image...
As expected, she still couldn't let him go. Su Zheye cursed herself and stood up: "Okay, but Gu Yuan, you owe me a romantic encounter."
Gu Yuan was stunned.
Su Zheye drank too much and stood up suddenly, unable to stand steadily. Gu Yuan quickly reached out and put his arm around his waist.
Su Zheye didn't care at all. He leaned lazily in Gu Yuan's arms and gestured to Wen Zhuling with his phone: "Contact me later, handsome guy."
Wen Zhuling smiled and continued with his words: "Okay, beauty."
Gu Yuan bit the tip of his tongue.
Su Zhe hung on Gu Yuan for half the night. When the two of them walked out of the door, the doorman seemed to be hesitant to speak, fearing that they might be picking up corpses.
Jiang Shuyu had been watching from the side. Hearing this, she smiled helplessly and said, "It's just a young couple having a conflict."
Su Zheye came with Jiang Shuyu. The doorman immediately understood and couldn't help but feel a little envious: "Your friend's boyfriend dotes on him so much, and they both look so good together."
"yes."
Jiang Shuyu smiled and said, "My brother really doesn't know how to appreciate the blessing he has."
"Harmful."
The doorman said, "That's normal. Those who are favored are fearless."
Jiang Shuyu shook his head and went back to chat with the best supporting actor Wen Zhuling.
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Gu Yuan's car was parked on the side of the road, with the double flashes on, reflecting two blurry beams of light in the rain.
Gu Yuan didn't bring an umbrella, but he was worried about leaving Su Zheye waiting for him alone under the eaves, so he took off his coat and used it to cover Su Zheye's head.
From the bar to the car, Su Zheye didn't say a word.
But the coat couldn't block too much rain after all, and Su Zheye still got a little wet.
"Tell me if it's cold."
Gu Yuan turned on the heater and also turned on the passenger seat heating.
Su Zheye hummed, and as usual, he reclined in his seat and closed his eyes.
Gu Yuan tightened his fingertips slightly around the steering wheel, took a deep breath to suppress the dark thoughts in his heart that were spreading like wild weeds, and started the car.
It was pouring outside the window, the car lights cast two glaring straight lines, and the colorful world kept receding.
The car was silent. The two people who used to be so close to each other seemed like strangers in love in this huge world.
The rain was so heavy that Gu Yuan didn't dare to drive fast. Half an hour had passed when he arrived at the base.
Gu Yuan turned his head and whispered, "Zhe Ye."
No response.
Gu Yuan knew that he was probably asleep, so he got out of the car, gently opened the passenger door, and picked up Su Zheye by the waist.
The boy's sleeping face was still as gentle and peaceful as usual, just like the little fox beside Gu Yuan's pillow when he opened his eyes every morning. There was no trace of flirting or ambiguity with outsiders in the bar.
Thinking of this, the scene he had just seen appeared in Gu Yuan's mind again. The paranoid possessiveness in his heart was about to swallow him up. Gu Yuan pinched his arm and barely stopped the ridiculous idea of turning around and taking Su Zheye to the villa.
Lu Yang and the others were indeed drinking and playing mahjong in the living room, so Gu Yuan took another elevator and went directly to the other end of the second floor, then walked slowly along the corridor.
Just as I was about to open the door, the boy in my arms suddenly woke up.
"Zhe Ye."
Gu Yuan immediately lowered his eyes: "Does your stomach feel uncomfortable? Do you want some honey water?"
Su Zheye opened his eyes and paused for a moment, as if thinking about where he was now.
Then he struggled out of Gu Yuan's arms and said in a calm tone, "I moved all my things back to my room this afternoon. I'm going back to sleep."
Gu Yuan was suddenly startled.
Seeing Su Zheye about to walk to the other side, Gu Yuan grabbed his wrist and said, "Zheye——"
Su Zheye interrupted him: "Gu Yuan, we are done."
Gu Yuan's pupils suddenly shrank and he was completely stunned. He couldn't believe what he heard.
He trembled and said, "What did you say?"
"I said, we're done."
Su Zheye raised his eyes: "Gu Yuan, you know that you have violated our agreement, and you should be ready to end this relationship. So let's leave it at that."
There was no emotion in his light-colored eyes, but only Su Zheye himself knew that his heart felt like it was being cut by a knife, and every word he said seemed to draw blood like a sharp blade.
The two stared at each other for a few seconds, and Gu Yuan's calm expression shattered again, half panic and shock, half disbelief: "Zhe Ye, why? What happened? Did I do something wrong? Tell me... please."
Su Zheye shrugged his shoulders and said in a relaxed tone: "Maybe you can't live well."
Then he turned around, opened the door of his room and walked in.
Before he could close the door, it was suddenly blocked by someone. He felt dizzy for a moment, and when he came to his senses, Su Zheye found himself pressed against the wall by Gu Yuan.
Those dark eyes carried an emotion that Su Zheye had never seen before, like a dark cloud that was about to come and swallow a person. He spoke each word with pause: "You did it with him?"
Su Zheye's heart skipped a beat.
This was also the Gu Yuan he had never seen before. Su Zheye even felt that if he said one more word, Gu Yuan would force himself on him.
——But what can he do? He just keeps talking stubbornly, and the sadder he is, the harsher his words become.
"Hmm."
Su Zheye said: "We are over now. What does it have to do with you whether I did it with others or not?"
"Su Zheye."
Gu Yuan's words seemed to be squeezed out from his throat, low and hoarse with a hint of trembling: "Why, why do you suddenly want to do this?"
"Do you really have to listen?"
Su Zheye smiled and said, "Then you are tired of playing."
As soon as he finished speaking, Su Zheye saw Gu Yuan's body tremble violently.
He opened his mouth, his expression full of shock and disbelief, trying desperately to find any signs of lying on Su Zheye's face... but found nothing.
"Zhe Ye..."
As soon as the two words came out, Su Zheye suddenly got angry and pushed Gu Yuan away. He took the water cup beside him and threw it at him: "Get lost! Gu Yuan, don't fucking touch me! I've had enough of this, and I'm sick of seeing you now!"
Gu Yuan was stunned.
“Get lost!”
Su Zheye took a step back and almost tripped over himself. Gu Yuan subconsciously ran forward and supported him.
"I said don't fucking touch me!!"
Su Zheye shook off Gu Yuan's hand again with a bit too much force, and the back of Gu Yuan's cold white hand instantly turned red.
"Get out! Gu Yuan, get out! This is my room, I don't want to see you!"
"I'm leaving, Zhe Ye, I'm leaving. Don't be angry..."
Gu Yuan slowly released Su Zheye's wrist, and walked backwards, step by step, towards the door.
He did not turn around immediately, but continued to look at Su Zheye, begging the latter to stay.
However, the only response he got was a box of tissues thrown by Su Zheye.
Gu Yuan's lips moved for a moment, and finally he said a few words: "I know, Zhe Ye. Sorry."
He opened the door and walked out.
As he watched the door close, the light in Su Zheye's eyes seemed to be pierced deeply by a sharp sword that came out of nowhere, and it dimmed and colorless in an instant.
He supported himself on the table with his hands, his eyes blank for a long time, and finally, as if he had lost all his strength, he slowly slid to the ground, leaning against the table leg.
Su Zheye covered his face and started crying.
Although separated by a door, Gu Yuan did not leave.
He lowered his head and looked quietly at the closed door.
Suddenly, Gu Yuan's expression froze and he took a step forward, as if he heard faint crying sounds.
A thought flashed through his mind, the light in his eyes slowly gathered, and Gu Yuan raised his hand and closed the door.
Su Zheye didn’t know how long he had been crying. It seemed that he hadn’t cried like this since he could remember.
Su Zheye was already drunk and was short of breath from crying. He felt as if his soul was floating in the air.
Maybe this is how people feel after death, having a chance to live a life that is so miserable.
Su Zheye felt like he was a joke.
After wiping away his tears, Su Zheye reached out to touch the support beside him. Before he touched the corner of the table, he suddenly felt a slightly cool skin.
He was startled and slowly raised his eyes.
——Gu Yuan, who had already left, came back at some point and half-knelt in front of him in silence.
Just like every time Su Zheye was wronged, Gu Yuan half-knelt beside the car to comfort and care for him.
Maybe he didn't hear it because she pushed the door open when Su Zheye was crying his heart out.
Su Zheye's brain was a little slow, and he forgot what he had just said to Gu Yuan. He stared at Gu Yuan for a long time and said in a hoarse voice: "What are you doing?"
"I came to see my little fox."
Gu Yuan said softly: "I am pursuing you. I will not give up just because of one rejection."
Su Zheye suddenly discovered that the emptiness and struggle in Gu Yuan's eyes disappeared, returning to a peaceful darkness.
It was as if his face had changed, and there was no trace of the embarrassment he had just shown. Su Zheye could not help but be stunned.
"If you're angry, just sleep here. I won't bother you today."
Gu Yuan continued, "I've prepared some honey water for you. I'll make you some chicken soup tomorrow. If you feel uncomfortable, call me and I'll come."
"Zhe Ye."
Gu Yuan raised his hand, as if wanting to touch him but stopped.
"Have a good rest. I'm leaving now."
Gu Yuan smiled and said, "Good night."
The two looked at each other quietly for a moment. Seeing that Gu Yuan was about to stand up, Su Zheye suddenly said, "You..."
Gu Yuan looked over: "What's wrong?"
Su Zheye was silent for a long time, his lips trembling, and he still said: "When you met your sister, did you think of pursuing me?"
Gu Yuan was stunned.
He didn't think about it at all. It took him a long time to react before he said, "What sister?"
He interrupted and acted stupid.
Su Zheye got angry again and pushed Gu Yuan away.
Maybe because he squatted for too long, Gu Yuan’s legs were a little stiff, and he used his arms to support himself so as not to fall.
"It's not Zhe Ye, I..."
At that moment, something flashed through Gu Yuan's mind.
He had always thought that Su Zheye's attitude towards him changed because of drinking tonight, but suddenly he realized that Su Zheye started moving things in the afternoon.
...Going back further, maybe it was last night.
"Did you hear that?"
Gu Yuan looked at him with burning eyes: "Did you hear that my grandfather asked me to go on a blind date?"
"Blind date?"
Su Zheye laughed. Although tears were still hanging from the corners of his eyes, his tone was still sarcastic: "You also know that it was a blind date? So Brother Gu Yuan, did the blind date go well?"
Gu Yuan's expression suddenly calmed down, and his voice returned to its usual calm and steady tone: "Zhe Ye, so this is why you are angry."
Su Zheye didn't say anything.
"I didn't go to see her."
Gu Yuan said slowly, "My grandpa has high blood pressure. I was afraid that it would have a bad effect on him, so I didn't tell him right away. I'm sorry, Zhe Ye. I added Ye Yixin, but I told her directly that I like the same sex. I went to see my mother this afternoon, and I talked to her for a long time because I was trying to convince her that I like the same sex."
Su Zheye was stunned.
"Zhe Ye."
Gu Yuan actually smiled at this time: "I don't know if I have ever told you that I love you, but you have to believe that I only want to take you home from the beginning to the end."
Then he took out his cell phone and opened the chat history with the note "Mom".
The message Su Zheye saw in the morning was followed by Gu Yuan’s reply after he left the house.
[Mom: Are you going to see Ye Yixin this afternoon? ]
[No, I want to talk to you.]
[Mom: OK, let’s talk about it when we meet later.]
Then half an hour later, Gu Yuan said he parked his car downstairs in the hospital.
The last one came from Huo Yuwan in the evening.
[Mom: I know that you won’t change your mind easily, just like when you first decided to become a professional, but I still hope you can think about it carefully.]
【I have thought about this for a long time.】
【I have liked him for a long time. 】
[Mom: Then you decide for yourself. My only request is that you can be happy and bring happiness to him.]
"look."
Gu Yuan smiled at Su Zheye again: "My mother has agreed, and she also hopes that I can bring you happiness."
Su Zheye was completely stunned.
Gu Yuan put the phone on the ground, raised his hand and hugged Su Zheye again: "I'm sorry Zheye, I didn't know you heard our conversation yesterday. I didn't explain it to you clearly."
"It's my negligence. I forgot to tell you that my family is indeed relatively conservative, but they let me play professionally. As long as I explain it to them with reason and emotion, they will still respect my choice."
"I always thought you didn't care about anything, Zhe Ye, I took it for granted. I will change in the future, but there may not be a future. My mother has started to support me, and there will be no more things like 'blind dates' like this."
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry for making you sad. It's all my fault."
Others might say that it’s just a small matter and you can just make it clear, but Gu Yuan knows that Su Zheye is extremely sensitive in these aspects, whether it’s because of his childhood trauma and family background or his avoidance of any feelings.
Maybe it had been accumulating for a long time, or maybe Su Zheye really began to care about himself, so when he was about to bravely step out of the high wall that had been closing himself off, he suddenly encountered this incident again, and he completely exploded.
The collar suddenly felt wet, and the clothes that had been dried a little by the heater clung to the neck again. Gu Yuan gently stroked the back of Su Zheye's neck: "Don't cry, Zheye, it's my fault for not telling you right away and not considering your feelings."
The wetness was getting bigger and bigger, but Gu Yuan was still hugging and comforting the boy.
After a long time, a voice suddenly came from my arms: "I'm sorry."
Gu Yuan was stunned: "Don't say sorry, I am the one who is sorry to you."
"Gu Yuan."
Because of the silent tears, Su Zheye's voice was a little unclear: "I am just so sensitive, I have a bad temper, my personality is not good, I also like to smoke, drink, swear and be a jerk..."
Gu Yuan interrupted him: "Don't say that about yourself."
Su Zheye pinched his waist and said, "Listen to me."
Gu Yuan smiled and said gently, "Okay, I'll listen to you."
"I feel inferior in front of you because of my family. When I am unhappy, I like to use extreme methods to solve the problem, just like today, I hurt the enemy by a thousand and hurt myself by eight hundred... No, I know that I have caused you more harm today, but I just want to do it. I am such a despicable, shameless and despicable person. Maybe next time I will hurt you again and make you suffer and disappointed."
Su Zheye's fingertips on Gu Yuan's shoulders tightened slightly and paused for a long time.
"So...are you still willing to be with me?"
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