Chapter 144 Tacit Understanding
The old man was surprised at Zhou Yan's straightforwardness.
But it's clear that they are not very opposed to such a relationship.
Instead, there is a reasonable explanation for their appearance here.
"Well, thank you for coming to see him."
There is a lounge in the intensive care unit, and they are all waiting in the lounge for Mr. Feng to wake up.
After all, the housekeeper was old and had been up all night, so Lin Xu and Zhou Yan asked him to go to the accompanying bed to rest for a while.
Lin Xu also stayed up all night, and while waiting, he fell asleep leaning on Zhou Yan.
Zhou Yan slowly laid him down on the sofa, let him rest his head on his legs, and put his hand on his arm, patting it gently.
As long as Zhou Yan is around, Lin Xu feels completely safe, and the environment doesn't matter.
Rongrong's grandfather sat opposite them, watching them get along intimately, and seemed to be hesitant to speak.
"Just tell me what you want to say. I don't mind." Zhou Yan took the initiative to speak.
The old man sighed and asked in a low voice: "How long have you been together?"
"More than two years."
"Does your family know about this?"
"Yes, everyone knows, and they are all very supportive."
The old man nodded: "Okay, okay."
Zhou Yan looked at him without saying anything, waiting for him to continue.
Unexpectedly, the old man's eyes turned red.
"There are things I've never told anyone... I don't know whether I should say them or how to say them... Seeing you today, I was quite surprised, but I also feel relieved."
"Nanfeng, do you know Mr. Feng--" Zhou Yan only said half of his words because he had already guessed the answer.
The old man covered his face with his hands and was silent for a while before saying, "I know."
Zhou Yan looked at him silently and understood his pain very well.
Mr. Feng's feelings are too heavy, and even if he doesn't say it, the person involved will easily feel guilty.
"Don't feel burdened. You can't force this."
"I know, but what can I do? I can only pretend I don't know..."
The old man's hands were shaking. "When I was young, I didn't think it was a big deal, so I pretended I didn't know and we could still be friends. I also thought that maybe in a few years he would let it go and we could get married and have children, but I didn't expect that his life would just pass by like this. At this point, I don't know if I should have a complete talk with him—"
"I think... I think Mr. Feng has always known that you knew. The two of you chose to pretend not to know to maintain this friendship, which means that you both truly regard each other as friends. Even without this kind of feelings, friendship can last a lifetime. I think you should also know Mr. Feng well enough. If he wants to talk to you, he will tell you himself. Since he hasn't said it, don't think too much about it."
"I really treat him like a brother. We were classmates for seven years and have known each other for nearly sixty years. He is even like a family member to me. If I could like a man, I would definitely be with him, but I can't. I even thought about trying, but some things really can't be changed..."
The old man told Zhou Yan the secret that he had kept in his heart for a lifetime.
At his age, he didn't know when he would never wake up again. He told the secret today and felt a lot of relief.
He cherished this friendship, but was unable to respond to the extra love. He struggled and suffered over the long years.
Mr. Feng's lonely life deeply shocked him, but he felt helpless.
So as long as there was any movement on Mr. Feng's side, he would rush to the hospital as soon as possible. He couldn't do anything, he just hoped that when Mr. Feng passed away, he would not be alone.
He will definitely feel at ease with me around.
As a former straight man, Zhou Yan can understand it very well.
If the person who appeared next to him was not Lin Xu, he would absolutely not be able to accept it.
For example, the man who harassed Lin Xu before he moved in only made him want to beat him up.
Orientation is something that cannot be changed and is not anyone's fault.
The reason why Mr. Feng and his friends would both suffer losses is that they have an inseparable friendship.
"Don't be sad. No matter what the relationship is, being able to accompany each other for a lifetime is rare. Even husband and wife may not be able to be like you two elders. You don't have to blame yourself, and you don't have to feel bad for Mr. Feng. He is such a great man. He is responsible for his own choices."
As a bystander, Zhou Yan was able to look at this matter calmly.
Now, no one’s self-blame or guilt is meaningful. Maintaining this balance and everyone understanding it is the best outcome.
The old man wiped the tears from his eyes and said, "Thank you. I actually understand everything in my heart, but for so many years, I haven't had anyone like you around me. Now that I've said it, I feel much better."
"I'm honored to be able to help you two." Zhou Yan smiled faintly.
The old man looked at Zhou Yan, then at the boy sleeping peacefully on his lap, and felt an indescribable feeling in his heart.
But also sincere blessings.
"I can see that you have a good relationship and he trusts you quite a bit. Although I've only met you once, I can tell you're a reliable person. I wish you two a lifetime of companionship."
"Thank you." Zhou Yan lowered his head to look at Lin Xu's sleeping face, his eyes full of tenderness.
Mr. Feng woke up in the evening and apologized for making his guests worry.
Lin Xu held his hand and talked to him for a while, then said goodbye to him.
Mr. Feng's heart cannot withstand fatigue, and living in the manor will inevitably make him worried and stressed.
Lin Xu told Mr. Feng about their live broadcast room and told him that he could watch their live broadcast when he was bored.
"Sometimes we take guests to scenic spots, and sometimes we livestream cooking and chatting. The fans in the livestream room are all very nice and lively. If you feel bored, you can watch it, but be careful about the time and don't get too tired."
Only then did Mr. Feng feel happy: "Okay, this is good."
"Then, Grandpa Feng, we'll go back first. We'll come see you again when you're feeling better."
"Okay." Mr. Feng nodded.
Zhou Yan and Lin Xu said goodbye and left, leaving the housekeeper and Rongrong's grandfather in the hospital to talk to Old Feng.
On the way away from Feng's home, Lin Xu was particularly clingy.
Before, he was very careful not to get too close to others and not to attract attention in public, but now he can’t care about that anymore.
Sitting on the plane, he held Zhou Yan's arm, leaned on his shoulder, and felt at ease only when he listened to his regular and strong heartbeat.
"Life is too short. I want to cherish every day I am with you now." Lin Xu said after sniffing.
Zhou Yan knew that what happened to Mr. Feng had a great impact on Lin Xu's mood. In the few days after he returned, he tried to find ways to soothe Lin Xu's emotions with positive things.
But Lin Xu still occasionally woke up in the middle of the night.
Zhou Yan felt so distressed that he wiped the sweat off Lin Xu's face after he had a nightmare, and hugged him tightly to comfort him.
A week later, sister Lin Yao suddenly came to the door with her daughter.
He said bluntly, "Your brother-in-law and I are going on a trip. We're taking Dabao with us. Please help take care of Erbao for a few days."
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