Chapter 63 I'm happier with you
"You have no money, yet you buy this." Zhou Yan rubbed Lin Xu's hair to hide the turmoil in his heart.
In fact, ever since he lost control of himself and solved his physiological problem alone that day, Zhou Yan has deliberately avoided overly close contact with Lin Xu.
He had been able to do nothing before because he had a clear conscience, but now when he saw Lin Xu, he felt guilty.
In the daily interactions between the two, Lin Xu has always been very sensible, and it was he who repeatedly crossed the line.
From initial appreciation, to later having inappropriate thoughts.
He could accept the love in his heart, but Zhou Yan instinctively avoided the physical love.
After all, he had been a straight man for twenty-eight years, so it was a little difficult for him to change direction all of a sudden.
Moreover, as long as they don't express their love in their hearts, two people can still be together as friends.
But if one day the physiological defense line is broken, there will be no turning back.
Zhou Yan didn't know how scared Lin Xu would be if he knew that he had such feelings for him.
Zhou Yan believes that he is no longer at the age where he can act impulsively for love. Love is a condiment, and life is more about reality and work.
So he quickly put aside this feeling that shouldn't have existed and took the initiative to distance himself from Lin Xu.
But his distance only restrained his urge to reach out and touch Lin Xu at any time.
He still treated Lin Xu with the same care and concern as usual, so much so that Lin Xu didn't notice anything unusual about him.
Zhou Yan thought very clearly and soberly.
But Lin Xu's sudden surprise disrupted his clarity again.
Seeing Lin Xu studying the instructions carefully, Zhou Yan had the urge to hug him in his arms.
How can this silly child be so cute?
"It's quite simple. After dinner, the task of washing the dishes will be handed over to us." Lin Xu patted the dishwasher proudly, looking very reliable.
"Okay, I'll leave it to you. Lin Xu, thank you."
Lin Xu smiled with his eyes curved. "Don't be polite with me. You've done so much for me and always taken care of me like a brother. I'm really happy that I can do something for you now."
"Yeah." Zhou Yan nodded.
He used to be able to accept the title of this "brother", but after that night, he was too embarrassed to say it out loud.
Zhou Yan’s fish-flavored shredded pork is sweet and sour, and paired with sauce-flavored eggplant, it is simply a perfect dish to go with rice.
Lin Xu carried out the "Clean Plate" campaign, then put the dishes into the dishwasher and took Zhou Yan downstairs for a walk.
As September approaches, the summer heat gradually subsides, especially at night.
The cool evening breeze was dry and comfortable. Lin Xu and Zhou Yan walked and talked as they walked from the community to the park across the street.
At this time, there are many people in the park, some are dancing in the square, and some are young couples enjoying the moonlight.
In the middle of the square, there are several lighted fountain areas on the ground, where children are running around, waiting to be sprayed with water, and then laughing carefreely.
Zhou Yan suddenly remembered something and said to Lin Xu, "Can you tell me about your ex-girlfriend? Last time when you were drunk, you said she almost ruined your career. What exactly did she do?"
Lin Xu felt unlucky whenever he mentioned Shen Xinji. He said lightly, "His family is a little rich and influential. When I was looking for a job during my internship, he contacted Han Jingyi. Not only did he intercept my resume at Qingying Yijing, he also spread the word that no one in the industry could hire me. That's why I couldn't find a job."
"Then can you still work under Han Jingyi now?" Zhou Yan didn't expect that Lin Xu and Han Jingyi had such a relationship.
"I only found out about this later. When I applied for the job, I hadn't even thought about meeting this person. I only found out after I started working. I can't just quit and let him off the hook, right? Forget about the other stuff, just pay me well."
Zhou Yan suddenly realized: "You found out that day when you were drunk, right?"
"Yeah." Lin Xu nodded.
"So, did you two have a good relationship before?" Zhou Yan asked tentatively.
"It's okay. I've never been in a relationship before. I was quite happy at first, but then I lost my job and my life became just a waste of time. I became depressed and unhappy."
Then, the Shen family found out that he was fooling around with other men, so they brought Shen Xinji home to get married and humiliated him again.
But these things cannot be told to Zhou Yan. Too many details will easily reveal that his previous partner was not a girl.
"Happy..." Zhou Yan repeated the feeling that Lin Xu had described at the beginning. It was obviously he who started the topic, but he felt uncomfortable after hearing it.
"So, are you happier with me or with 'her'?"
After asking this question, Zhou Yan felt that he was childish and ridiculous.
How could he compare with Lin Xu's ex-girlfriend? That was someone Lin Xu had loved, and he was just a friend.
Lin Xu didn't even think about it and answered affirmatively: "I'm happier with you."
Lin Xu in Zhou Yan's eyes was almost translucent. One could tell from Lin Xu's face how much truth and falsehood he said.
So Zhou Yan didn't doubt whether Lin Xu said this to please him.
He is really happy.
Zhou Yan was relieved and chuckled.
Seeing that the topic had come to this point, Lin Xu felt that it would be a shame if he didn't ask a question.
Besides, it was Zhou Yan who asked the question first, and he was just asking back, so it wouldn’t be too strange.
So Lin Xu asked, "What about you? Are you happier with me or with your ex-girlfriend?"
When Zhou Yan asked this question, he hadn't thought about answering it at all, so he was stunned for a moment.
The answer was obvious, but Zhou Yan suddenly felt embarrassed to tell Lin Xu.
"Childish." Zhou Yan smiled and walked forward.
"Hey!" Lin Xu was annoyed. "What? Why is it not childish if you ask, but it is childish if I ask?!"
Zhou Yan started to act like a rogue: "You can also say that I am childish, I didn't stop you from saying it."
Lin Xu's eyes widened from choking.
How can this be possible?!
He was so angry that he chased after him for two steps, then jumped onto Zhou Yan's back, hooked his arms around his neck and asked, "Are you going to tell me or not?"
Zhou Yan was startled, but he quickly reacted and held him up to prevent him from falling. Then he smiled and said, "I'll tell you, I'll tell you..."
"I'm happy to be with you." Zhou Yan said, looking ahead.
Lin Xu was behind him and couldn't see his expression, so Zhou Yan was more likely to be honest.
At the same time, Zhou Yan also realized his inner thoughts.
He has always attributed his feelings for Lin Xu to physical liking, and that's what people say online.
But in fact, putting aside the physiological impulse, he still likes Lin Xu very much.
After listening to his story about his ex-girlfriend, Zhou Yan felt more and more distressed by Lin Xu's tenacity.
Whether it was the breakup or knowing the truth about why he couldn't find a job that year, the most he did was drink for a night and cheer up the next day.
Even if he has his own sorrows, he can still be healed after moving in.
Lin Xu is much stronger than he looks.
He is like a little sun. Who doesn’t want this sun to shine only on themselves?
Lin Xu got the same answer and was naturally happy. He patted Zhou Yan on the shoulder and said, "Put me down."
Who knew that Zhou Yan would act childishly, carry Lin Xu on his back, and rush into the fountain area.
Lin Xu was startled and immediately sprayed with water in the face. He frantically patted Zhou Yan's shoulder to stop him: "Zhou Yan!!!"
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