Chapter 70 You said you wanted to ask me why I kissed you last night?
Lin Xu glanced at Zhou Yan from time to time. He really wanted to know what Zhou Yan thought about this love that went against the world.
Zhou Yan is not opposed to watching films of this type, so does that mean he is not opposed to this kind of emotion?
Does that mean—does that mean there is hope for him?
Zhou Yan was watching TV, but his mind was always paying attention to Lin Xu's reaction.
After mentally organizing his words, he spoke in a gentler tone, "There's no logic to love. Being gay or straight isn't something you can decide. Besides, I think liking someone is just a momentary feeling. If it feels right, then it's right. It doesn't matter if the other person is a man or a woman, or even if they're a person or something else."
"Is that what you think?" Lin Xu's heart was beating fast, and he buried his head in his knees and said sullenly.
"Of course. But feelings are feelings, and life is life."
Hearing Zhou Yan's words, Lin Xu's heart sank again.
Sure enough, people are still realistic.
But Zhou Yan continued, "Feelings are temporary, but life is long-lasting. No matter what kind of feelings you have, when you put them into practice in your life, you have to shoulder the responsibility. Lin Xu, I'm not someone who likes to play games with feelings. Once I'm determined to be with someone, I will definitely take it seriously, unless the day comes when I can no longer go on. Do you understand?"
Lin Xu suddenly raised his head and looked at Zhou Yan seriously: "I understand. I will also take my feelings seriously and will never treat them as a casual affair."
Lin Xu seemed to be determined to swear that he was not a scumbag, which made Zhou Yan laugh. He raised his hand to rub his head: "I know. But -"
His pause made Lin Xu's heart rise to his throat again.
"But let the past feelings go. Just have a clear conscience and forget what should be forgotten."
Zhou Yan said this out of the blue, and Lin Xu was a little confused.
"I've forgotten about it a long time ago. What's there to be nostalgic about that kind of person?" Lin Xu muttered softly.
Zhou Yan was very pleased to hear him say this.
It’s best to forget.
The two of them watched the first three episodes together.
The story line is pretty good, and so far it seems to be mainly following the plot. Except for the first episode which was a bit explosive, the rest are all okay.
Lin Xu was always on edge, afraid that he would see something too exciting and scare Zhou Yan.
Fortunately, it didn't.
"Go to bed early." Zhou Yan urged Lin Xu to go to bed while cleaning up the snack packaging they had eaten.
"I'll clean up here. You're not well yet, so go to sleep." Lin Xu felt sorry for Zhou Yan and rushed to do the work.
Both of their hands reached for a bag at the same time. Lin Xu was a little faster, so Zhou Yan just grabbed his hand.
It would have been fine if it happened under normal circumstances, but the two of them had just watched a drama like that and had their own thoughts, so this simple touch made the air change.
Lin Xu quickly pulled his hand back, and Zhou Yan subconsciously tried to grab it, but missed.
"You should go to bed soon. You don't have to clean up here." Lin Xu got up from the ground with a red face, and pulled Zhou Yan's arm to pull him up as well.
"Okay, okay, I'll leave this to you. I'm going to sleep." Zhou Yan compromised.
"Yeah." Lin Xu didn't dare to look up. He just looked at the top of his head to Zhou Yan and nodded.
A late summer breeze blew in through the gap in the balcony door, causing the thin curtains to dance slowly.
Zhou Yan looked at the whorl of hair on his head and suddenly felt that it was a good time to do something in the current atmosphere.
Just like he just said, liking someone is sometimes a matter of a moment, and many feelings arise in an instant.
For example, he was still thinking about how to balance family and emotional issues step by step yesterday.
But now, he just wanted to confirm Lin Xu's feelings for him.
Zhou Yan took a step forward, and the tip of his slippers almost touched the tip of Lin Xu's shoes.
Before Lin Xu could react, Zhou Yan grabbed the back of his neck and he couldn't move back.
Zhou Yan lowered his head and gently kissed the small hair whorl, then let go of Lin Xu as if nothing had happened and said with a smile, "Good night."
Then he swaggered back to the bedroom, closed the door, leaned against it and chuckled silently.
His violent heartbeat betrayed his apparent calmness. Zhou Yan's ears turned red and his Adam's apple rolled.
Lin Xu, who stayed in the living room, was completely petrified.
Lin Xu: ?????
Did Zhou Yan just kiss me?
The kiss was so light, as if it just landed on the tip of his hair, that he even wondered if he was feeling it wrong.
But why
In the past, no matter how intimate two people were, they would just hug each other or lean on each other.
Those are completely different from kissing.
Lin Xu wanted to get to the bottom of it, but Zhou Yan cunningly ran away.
He couldn't just rush in and ask Zhou Yan why she kissed him, right? What would the answer be?
Lin Xu wanted to clarify, but didn't dare to make it too clear.
But he was not the kind of person who could keep things to himself, and he tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep.
The next morning, when Lin Xu came out of the bedroom and saw Zhou Yan, he immediately looked away and walked past Zhou Yan.
Zhou Yan admitted that he was a bit cowardly yesterday. He kissed her and ran away without even giving an explanation.
The child must have been confused all night.
So Zhou Yan squeezed toothpaste for Lin Xu and stood by the sink waiting for him.
When Lin Xu came out of the bathroom, Zhou Yan stood in front of him like a wall, which scared him.
"Let's wash up first."
You can't escape the fifteenth even if you escape the first.
Lin Xu stood beside Zhou Yan and brushed his teeth, secretly looking at him in the mirror.
But those big eyes couldn't hide the emotions at all: anger, confusion, and a little resentment.
Zhou Yan looked at him and couldn't help laughing: "You want to ask me why I kissed you last night?"
"Puff——" Lin Xu sprayed out a mouthful of toothpaste foam.
"Ahem, you, you you you you——" Lin Xu pointed at Zhou Yan and spoke incoherently.
Can this be said so frankly?
So what was the point of him worrying about it all night last night?
Was he too timid to break into Zhou Yan's bedroom last night to find out?
Zhou Yan looked at the time and thought that it might be a bit rushed to confess his feelings at this time in the morning.
He handed the towel to Lin Xu: "Don't let your imagination run wild. Let's talk about it when we get back tonight."
"What to talk about?" Lin Xu asked nervously.
"About our relationship, and that kiss yesterday. But if you don't figure it out now, you might be late."
Zhou Yan pointed to the watch on his wrist, and Lin Xu finally reacted. He quickly brushed his teeth, changed his clothes, and went out.
They have a meeting this morning and can't be late.
Along the way, both of them were analyzing each other's attitudes.
Zhou Yan analyzed Lin Xu's reaction from yesterday till now and concluded that he liked her, or at least had a good impression of her.
Otherwise, he wouldn't have reacted shyly to her tentative kiss. I should have been so angry that I beat him up.
This conclusion made him feel at ease, and he was looking forward to the confession in the evening.
Lin Xu actually came to the same conclusion.
Zhou Yan is a straight man. If he didn't like me, why did I watch that kind of drama with him? Why did I kiss him? Why did I say such ambiguous words?
What does it mean to like someone regardless of whether he is a man or a woman?
So he said that he wanted to have a good talk in the evening. Is he going to confess his feelings?
Lin Xu was nervously and excitedly picking at his seat belt, secretly looking forward to it.
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