Xiang Zhilan didn't force him to pull back, letting him hold her hand like that, since shaking hands wouldn't hurt her either.
She looked up at his face and saw that he was still wide awake and probably wouldn't be able to fall asleep anytime soon, so she started a casual conversation: "You called me so late today, is something wrong?"
"I went to Zhouji and bought your favorite dessert. I called to ask if you were asleep." Shen Muzhi had originally planned to go back to the villa after leaving her grandfather's house, but thinking about their argument earlier that day, and remembering that Luo Che was with her, she felt uneasy. Her mind started racing, imagining what would happen if Luo Che stayed overnight, and she happened to have needs—a lone man and woman, like dry wood meeting a raging fire…
Okay, he admits he was thinking a bit off-topic. Anyway, he was scared, so he bought desserts as an excuse to go see her.
"You still remember that I like Zhou Ji's desserts?" Xiang Zhilan smiled slightly, recalling when she was pregnant, she craved Zhou Ji's desserts late at night and tossed and turned. He noticed and asked her about it. After she answered, he drove her there without saying a word and even dug the desserts out of the blanket for her to eat.
"I remember everything about you very clearly." Shen Muzhi held her hand tightly; he had relied on these memories to get through the past two years.
Xiang Zhilan felt the burning intensity in his gaze. She lowered her eyes, no longer looking at him, nor daring to recall it.
She knew how good he had been to her, otherwise she wouldn't have been attracted to him back then.
But now she dares not do it anymore; in this respect, she is more timid than she was two years ago.
It seems that's how people are; the older they get, the more timid they become. For example, when she was little, she wasn't afraid of rhinoceros beetles at all and would even play with them. But now that she's grown up, she screams and runs away whenever she sees one. As people grow up, they understand more about the world, and they also become more afraid of things.
It seems that feelings are the same way; after being hurt, the protective shell on your body becomes even harder.
“Zhi Lan, I think we…” Shen Muzhi felt that Bai Yutong’s words made sense, and he should be more honest.
But before he could finish speaking, Xiang Zhilan interrupted him: "It's late, go to sleep."
Xiang Zhilan didn't look at him again, but simply buried her head on the edge of the bed and closed her eyes to rest.
Shen Muzhi's lips parted slightly. Did she still have no intention of starting over with him?
Thinking about it carefully, if I were her, I would probably lose trust in myself too. Once and again, how could I forgive so easily?
The fact that she's still willing to let him hold her hand is already a big step forward; he needs to work even harder to win back her heart.
Shen Muzhi took a light breath and closed his eyes.
Xiang Zhilan opened her eyes while lying face down, remained silent for a long time, and then closed her eyes again.
The night was dark, and the ward was quiet.
Both of them had their eyes closed, but no one knew whether they were actually asleep or not.
As dawn broke, Xiang Zhilan straightened up, feeling a sharp pain in her lower back. She then remembered that during her argument with Feng Jingxian, she had been pushed and bumped in the back. The pain had subsided after a while last night, but it was probably due to the bruising today. She had also been lying on her stomach with her back bent over all night, so it now felt like it was about to break.
"What's wrong?" Shen Muzhi opened his eyes and saw her holding her waist, looking very painful.
"I hurt my back last night," Xiang Zhilan said with a wry smile, "Now we're in the same boat."
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