Chapter 138 You Need Change Too
The wind rustled the leaves of the trees in the backyard, making them rustle and rustle.
Zhu Yanshi was so shocked that his fingers hanging by his side trembled slightly. He frowned in disbelief.
"Hasn't it been... Yuan Qing you've always liked?"
When Chen Shi opened his mouth, a muffled sound came out.
“Who likes him…”
"I thought I was being very obvious, but you just couldn't see it..."
"And every time she's in front of me, she's being affectionate with those fake guys... I'm really going crazy."
Chen Shiyi raised his head, and tears as big as beans fell from his eyes onto Zhu Yanshi's neck, flowing across his Adam's apple.
"Zhu Yanshi, I don't want to be your childhood friend. I like you and I want to possess you. I can't stand seeing you have any intimate contact with other people. I'm happy when you're happy and sad when you're sad, but the feeling of secret love is too painful..."
"I want you to know."
The person who falls in love first is destined to suffer countless mental tortures first.
The wind was whistling in his ears, and Zhu Yanshi was unable to quickly digest this heavy information.
He took a step back and blinked rapidly as if coming to his senses.
He didn't understand. He clearly wanted to escape from this vortex, but unknowingly became the center of it.
The butterfly effect, all those who should revolve around them, were caught in the storm.
"Wait a moment……"
Zhu Yanshi's voice was a little dry and he licked his lips.
"I'm not ready for a relationship yet..."
"I know."
Chen Shiyi raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face. When he looked at Zhu Yan, his eyes were full of sincerity.
"…But at least give me a fair chance. I can't stand it. You treat every gesture of kindness from me as a gesture of friendship."
"Zhu Yanshi, I really do like you very much."
The man's voice was extremely solemn, spreading in the air and swaying back and forth in the wind.
He seemed to know that the current situation was awkward between them and that he needed to give the other party some time to digest it.
Turning around, his back looked extremely lonely.
Zhu Yanshi took a deep breath, turned his head and looked at the green leaves swaying and colliding behind him.
Suddenly it felt extremely ridiculous.
All the love and affection that kept piling up on him seemed to become a heavy burden on his back. The more people said they loved him, the more he couldn't face this feeling.
He was afraid that after having hope in any relationship, he would be disappointed and abandoned again.
He didn't have the courage to start.
Throughout the entire day, the staff of the program team were quickly adjusting their status.
At night, each member was assigned the task of recording for the last day.
——We need to visit each villager’s home and invite them to come to the cabin to attend the final farewell party. Manta members need to organize and rehearse 5 to 7 programs to put a perfect end to this journey.
Zhu Yanshi happened to be going to his grandmother's house, and by the way, he went to investigate for the program crew which places in the village were populated and who could come. He roughly compiled a list so that everyone could invite people for the program recording the next day.
This time when he went to his grandmother's house, Zhu Yanshi refused the requests of several men to accompany him. He pulled a small suitcase filled with some special products and gifts that he had brought with him last time.
The orange sunset spread across the western sky, vaguely approaching this side, and there was a scent of green grass in the wind.
Zhu Yanshi had called Wang Qiuju in advance, and dinner had already been prepared and was waiting for her at home.
Wang Qiuju was very excited and her joy could not be concealed in her words.
Zhu Yanshi compiled the personnel list and sent it to the program team. Pulling his suitcase, he could see Wang Qiuju standing under the street light and looking at the intersection from a distance.
The interwoven black and white hair showed rough and frizzy lines under the light, and the light dotted on the wrinkled cheeks. His back was hunched and his eyes were squinted. When he saw Zhu Yanshi, his whole face became bright and he smiled happily.
"Good boy! Here!!"
The old man approached this side, and Zhu Yanshi also quickened his pace. He held Wang Qiuju's hand.
"Don't run so fast...be careful not to fall."
He helped the old man into the low wooden house.
A brighter light bulb was replaced in the room. Wang Qiuju had someone replace it specially after Zhu Yan mentioned that the room was a bit dark last time.
The light illuminates every corner of the house, making the furnishings inside look even older.
Zhu Yanshi helped Wang Qiuju sit down, suppressed the soreness in his eyes, squatted in front of Wang Qiuju, and held the old woman's hand.
"Grandma...we're going back in two days."
"I want to ask you something..."
Zhu Yanshi looked up at Wang Qiuju's kind face.
"Will you come and live with me in the city? I'll take care of you..."
"That won't do! No, no! How can an old woman like me drag down young people like you?"
Wang Qiuju waved her hands quickly and shook her head continuously.
"We're not even related, I'm already very happy that you visit me so often... I can't let that get you into trouble!"
"It's not a burden, it's my own will."
Zhu Yanshi's eyes were sincere.
"It's not convenient for you to live here alone without anyone to take care of you. I feel very comfortable staying with you. I am willing to take care of you."
Wang Qiuju suddenly stopped talking. She reached out and gently patted the back of Zhu Yanshi's hand again and again. After a moment of silence, she sighed heavily.
"Child...are you missing grandma?"
"Grandma has her own principles. If you really respect me, come over often. I welcome you."
Wang Qiuju reached out and touched Zhu Yanshi's face. Her hands were rough, but exceptionally warm. When they touched the boy's cheek, he was instantly brought back to his childhood.
"good!"
Zhu Yanshi was actually mentally prepared before coming here, because he knew that Wang Qiuju was a proud person.
"Since you don't want to live in the city with me, you can't refuse these things anymore..."
Zhu Yanshi turned his head and tried hard to open his eyes wide to prevent the tears from falling from the corners of his eyes.
He forced a smile, opened the suitcase next to him, and took out the things inside one by one.
"I bought you a cell phone... It's not expensive, and it's not a big brand. I saved my number for you as an emergency contact. I'll teach you how to use it later... If anything happens, be sure to call me!"
Zhu Yanshi talked a lot at this moment.
"...This is the juicer I bought for you. If you have leftover fruit at home, you can use this to make juice..."
"And this, it automatically massages when you wear it around your neck. This is the charging cable. If it's out of power, just plug it in and it'll be full. Don't you often have neck pain? This can be worn around your neck or on your legs..."
"And here... I've got you a pair of reading glasses tailored to your prescription... Let me see them..."
Zhu Yanshi put his reading glasses on Wang Qiuju's nose and put his head close to her.
"Can you see clearly?"
Wang Qiuju blinked her eyes and found that after wearing the glasses, she could see people clearly without squinting.
At this moment, the boy was no longer a vague outline, and she didn't even need to deliberately remember his features to recognize him.
Through the glasses, Wang Qiuju could clearly see the mole at the corner of the boy's eye, his high nose bridge, his plump lips, and his bright eyes full of emotion.
"visible."
Wang Qiuju raised her hand and rubbed the boy's head with trembling fingers.
"You don't have to buy so many things for me... You're still so young, how can you have any money?"
Zhu Yanshi was genuinely happy. He shook his head and shrugged indifferently.
"It's not much money, it was all given by the program team."
He lowered his head and began to take things out of the treasure box. He bought emergency items. He bought whatever Wang Qiuju's family needed.
After the two finished their meal, they sat on the flat ground in front of the low house to look at the stars. The faint light from the door illuminated a small area of the ground.
Zhu Yanshi held the old man's hand.
"Don't worry about using those things that require electricity. I've already paid for your electricity. It's enough for you to use for a long time..."
"Looking at the stars with glasses on...does it look different than before?"
"Grandma...you must call me if anything happens. My grandma didn't tell me when she was sick because she was afraid of getting in trouble. Even now, I blame myself so much. If I had found out earlier, if I had been more careful..."
Zhu Yanshi said this on purpose. He knew Wang Qiuju's character. She would swallow all the pain in her stomach. If he hadn't said this, she would never call him to tell him anything.
He didn't want to miss out on this hard-earned family relationship again...
Wang Qiuju was not good at speaking and could not say anything to comfort the boy. She just put her arms around the boy and gently stroked his back with her fingers again and again.
"If your grandmother knew how much you blame yourself, she would be so worried in heaven..."
"Only when you are doing well will she be happy..."
Zhu Yanshi didn't say anything. He looked at the sky, as if he saw a star twinkling in a trance.
Who is that star?
Is she also responding to this sentence...
Zhu Yanshi's restless heart finally calmed down. The sound of insects chirped one after another in his ears, and the wind blowing on his body was cool but not biting, blowing away the depression in his heart.
Time, at this moment, becomes very slow, very slow...
The moon slowly climbed to the top, and the moonlight fell from above, illuminating the dark mountain road.
Zhu Yanshi insisted on not staying overnight, so he walked back to the cabin along the mountain road, holding a flashlight.
He was in a rare good mood, even humming a song. He would pull out some dogtail grass and start to weave the little windmills he used to weave as a child out of boredom.
There was a long stretch of road ahead illuminated by street lights. Zhu Yanshi put his cell phone into his pocket, but suddenly felt something hard.
He took something out of his pocket and paused.
The wind hit my skin, slid down, and stung my eyes, triggering tears that I could no longer hold back.
Tears rolled down and fell on the crumpled few hundred yuan lying in the palm of her hand.
Zhu Yanshi choked up and could no longer control himself. He squatted on the ground, hugged himself, and burst into tears.
Countless images overlapped in my mind, and each image was the scattered money I took out of my pocket and my grandma secretly put in every time I left home.
She said...
"What other children have, my dear must have too."
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