When Wang Wei announced the news that Zhang Shu had woken up safely during class, the atmosphere in the class immediately became much more relaxed.
Hou Junqi pretended to cry in the back row: "But why didn't this person reply to my message?"
Someone shouted: "Maybe because I'm so obsessed with Weibo, I won't look at my phone again in my life."
There was a burst of low laughter in the class.
Everyone was stealing glances at midsummer.
Shengxia also thought of his tree holes and how “how could she be so cute” it was really embarrassing.
"Then can we go see him?" Qi Xiulei shouted.
Wang Wei: "Wait a few days. He hasn't been able to eat properly recently. He's been receiving nutrient solution. He doesn't even have the strength to speak. Don't bother him. Don't bring so many people. Three or four representatives will be enough."
Can't eat yet...
Shengxia secretly cursed herself for being so careless.
He was injured in the abdomen, why didn't she ask?
He talked to her so much that day.
When we go again tonight, we must make sure he speaks less, or even better, no words at all.
As soon as school was over in the afternoon, Shengxia packed her bag and prepared to leave, but was stopped by Chen Mengyao who came running over in a hurry.
There were people coming and going in the corridor at this time, and everyone was looking at them curiously.
Chen Mengyao pulled Shengxia to a quiet spot in the corridor and got straight to the point: "Do you know which hospital he is in? You must know, right?"
Shengxia was stunned, "Why should I know..."
"Isn't your father the most important figure in Nanli?"
Uh, this description.
"Can you tell me?" Chen Mengyao asked anxiously, "I went to Dongzhou a while ago and was in closed training recently. I just saw the news. How could this happen? Is he okay?"
Shengxia: "There is no danger now, don't worry. I am just recovering now, so it is not suitable for visiting."
Chen Mengyao suddenly stared into Shengxia's eyes: "You lied to me."
midsummer:?
Chen Mengyao: "You told me that you two were not together, and I told you to tell me if you were together."
"We really weren't together..."
Chen Mengyao: "Really? Promise me."
Shengxia: “Yeah.”
Chen Mengyao: "But they all said that he thought the girl in the bookstore was you, so he rushed over to save her."
"No," Shengxia shook her head firmly, "He...appeared there because of me, but no matter who was sitting inside, he would have rushed over."
Chen Mengyao was stunned for a moment, and her eyes dimmed a little, "I saw his Weibo."
Shengxia pursed her lips and didn't answer.
"But aren't you going abroad?" Chen Mengyao said, "You are the only ones who are not together yet. I still have the same attitude as before. If you have any more news, can you tell me?"
Shengxia: “This is fine.”
As someone who was also worried about him, she could understand.
Chen Mengyao: "Then let's add WeChat?"
"Okay..." Shengxia took out her phone and called up the WeChat QR code. When the "ding" sounded, Shengxia remembered the letters written by the girls to Zhang Shu in her schoolbag, and hesitated, "Then you might have a harder time."
"Added it, check it out," Chen Mengyao pointed at her phone before realizing what she said, "Hmm?"
"He may like me more now, so it will be more difficult for you..." Shengxia murmured and repeated it again.
Shengxia’s WeChat appeared in the friend list. Chen Mengyao raised her eyes and saw the girl’s sincere eyes. She was stunned——
How could there be such a fool?
This love rival is a bit boring.
Chen Mengyao suddenly smiled: "That's my business."
Then she turned around and left rudely without saying goodbye, which was very impolite.
Shengxia got used to it and took a look at the newly added friends. Chen Mengyao's avatar was herself, and the cover of her Moments was also herself. She was confident and really beautiful.
When Shengxia arrived at the hospital, it was a police officer on duty who took her to the ward.
When Shengxia heard that there was a reporter downstairs, she couldn't tell who it was.
The girl who was rescued that day was a hearing-impaired person. This news immediately attracted the attention of many media. Since there was a police station two kilometers away from the crime scene, many bad media outlets made weird comments about this. There have been too many exaggerated reports recently, and if not handled properly it would cause public outcry, so everything was done with extreme caution.
Sheng Mingfeng said that once the storm has died down, the city will give commendations.
It was dinner time, and one could smell the fragrance of food passing by other wards, but Zhang Shu's ward was freezing cold, and one could faintly hear cries of pain.
My whole body felt numb in the middle of summer. I looked out the small window. The bed curtains were drawn and I couldn't see anything.
His low and restrained hums continued to come, and Shengxia frowned and asked the policeman beside him: "What are you doing?"
"Maybe they are changing the medicine or checking..."
Shengxia's hands, which were clinging to the door, also tightened.
After a while, the doctor opened the curtain, said a few words and left.
Lying on the hospital bed, Zhang Shu's forehead was covered with cold sweat.
He gasped and slowly calmed down.
After the doctors left, Shengxia entered the ward. The nurse was giving Zhang Shu an IV drip. She glanced at Shengxia and joked, "Hey, is your bullshit coming up?"
Shengxia remembered that her classmates said that Zhang Shushe was dead. It seemed that it was true.
She herself was deeply impressed by the sentence "I want all your wishes to come true and your life to be awesome."
If she hadn't read it several times, she really wouldn't have known that the suffix "ity" could be translated in this way.
It is a bit like that, kind of neurotic.
Zhang Shu glanced at the nurse and said weakly yet forcefully, "That's enough..."
The nurse chuckled and stopped provoking him. She put his hand away and walked out.
Passing by Shengxia, he said, "Someone has been asking since noon if there is a pretty girl coming over?"
Shengxia looked away shyly.
floor grass.
It seems that I have been getting along well with the nurses in the hospital these days.
He is always like this, the atmosphere is never awkward anywhere, even though he is not a particularly enthusiastic person.
This magical attraction is probably innate.
"Sit down..." he called out when he saw her standing there blankly without coming over.
Shengxia still sat on the stool from last night, and suddenly didn't know what to say.
I just wanted to come and see him, but I was always speechless.
"Does it hurt?" She didn't order anything new.
Zhang Shu guessed that she had just heard it, so he simply nodded calmly this time.
"What should I do?" Shengxia thought of how he was so considerate when she was injured and went to see a doctor. "Can I get some painkillers?"
"I have already called." His voice was so low that it was hard to hear.
Shengxia looked up at the bag after bag of medicine.
"Is it all nutrient solution?" she asked, lowering her head. "Don't say anything, just nod and shake your head."
Zhang Shu suddenly smiled.
toothy smile.
Although I look sick, I still feel the sunshine is shining everywhere in midsummer.
He shook his head.
The question "What are those" came to Shengxia's lips, but she swallowed it back. He couldn't answer too much, and she couldn't say too much either.
The two of them just stared at each other quietly.
"Where's Sister Su Jin? Has she gone home?"
Zhang Shu nodded, "Come in the evening."
"Oh, then who takes care of you? A nurse?"
Zhang Shu nodded.
Silence again.
Zhang Shu looked at the girl intently. The way she squinted her eyes and tried to think of a topic to talk about was really interesting.
She had no choice, he was the one who talked the most in the past. When he was silent, there was Hou Junqi who talked even more.
"Is it still painful after taking the painkillers?" She returned to the original question, which was probably what she cared about most.
Zhang Shu thought about it and frowned: "It hurts a lot."
Shengxia subconsciously asked: "What should I do?"
Zhang Shu closed his eyes, as if thinking seriously, "Just praise me a few times, and that'll be all..."
He opened his eyes, full of anticipation.
Shengxia was stunned: "Praise...you..."
"About ten..." He spoke almost in a whisper.
Shengxia didn't hear clearly, so she put her ear close to his head. The warm breath sprayed on her earlobe and neck, which made her shiver suddenly.
He said: "Ten advantages, I..."
Shengxia stood up and looked at him blankly and helplessly, her earlobes starting to turn red...
How can someone be so calm to let others praise him?
"You...study well."
Zhang Shu pursed his lips and nodded, indicating that he accepted it.
"Um……"
She felt a little embarrassed, it felt weird to flatter people face to face.
However, this brief hesitation made Zhang Shu's happy expression turn cold.
Is he that bad?
He has so many advantages, is it so hard to find him, huh?
Shengxia: “Smart!”
Zhang Shu's expression became even uglier.
"What's different?" He said louder, "Perfunctory!"
"No, no," Shengxia waved her hands, looking sincere, "Intelligence is different from being good at studying. Being good at studying is just an external manifestation, while intelligence is multifaceted and requires great wisdom..."
Zhang Shu could hardly control the smile on his face.
"Well, what else?"
Shengxia: "Two now, do you feel better?"
Zhang Shu nodded. What the hell, his abdomen ached so much that it felt like it was about to burst open.
Shengxia continued to think: "Be careful."
"Um."
“There is a pattern.”
"Yeah." Isn't that the same as being smart? Never mind, she is a cultured person and has a lot of wisdom.
"Kind."
Zhang Shu: “Yeah.” Why are they all talking about quality? Can you be a little more superficial?
"brave."
Zhang Shu was too lazy to even say "hmm" in response.
Shengxia counted on her fingers, "Six now..."
She was a little embarrassed to continue, so she glanced at his already impatient face and quickly listed his characteristics: "Tall, handsome, strong, can sing well and play drums!"
Eh? 11 of them.
In fact, she also wanted to say that she is good at playing basketball and volleyball?
Stop.
It's really ear-warming.
The girl lowered her head, trying to bury herself in the quilt in front of her.
Wow, he's handsome and strong, it seems like he's secretly in love with me...
Zhang Shu was completely stunned, and the ecstasy in his heart really diluted the pain.
Can you sing well? Can you play drums?
For a long time, she didn't raise her head.
Zhang Shu reached out and tugged at the bed sheet in front of her. "Where did you hear me singing?"
“微博……啊……”她擡頭，低聲答。
張澍臉上的笑意頓時僵了僵，尴尬住了。
也是，全網都看到了他的微博，她怎麽會沒看見。
張澍：“你喜歡聽我唱歌？”
盛夏點頭：“嗯……大家都喜歡的……”
張澍：“帥不帥？”
盛夏：……
“帥的。”繼續低頭，鴕鳥埋沙。
半晌，她忽然想到，怎麽變成他問她了，他不能說那麽多話的。
于是又擡頭，說正事：“我把你的一模卷子拿過來了，還有答案解析，不過你現在只能躺着，估計也沒法看，先留在這裏吧，你能坐起來了再看吧。”
卷子被她整齊地折疊在文件夾裏，放好後，又從書包裏掏出一沓信封。
張澍疑惑地看着她。
盛夏：“這都是……同學們給你寫的……”
“同學們？”
張澍看一眼花裏胡哨的信紙，猜也猜得到是什麽同學寫的。
八成是情書。
別人給他寫的情書，她這麽坦然地收集起來，還要拿給他看？
她到底是什麽腦回路？
張澍：“你知不知道裏面寫的什麽？”
盛夏搖頭。她沒看，怎麽會知道。
但大概能猜到一些。
張澍：“不知道你敢拿給我看？”
張澍的心情瞬間Down到谷底。
所以，她這麽百依百順，只是因為他剛從鬼門關回來？
盛夏沒察覺他的變化，一邊繼續掏，一邊問：“你是現在看還是一回再看？我先給你放這吧。”
張澍：……
盛夏再擡頭時，對上一雙無語至極的眼眸。
很輕松就能看出他不高興。
她直覺是和信封有關，于是把信封也都摞在床頭櫃，不再繼續探讨這個話題。
她該走了，不能打擾他太長時間，她也還要去恒信大廈上課。
“那個……”她感覺自己挺失敗的，來看望病人還把人弄不高興了，“我得先走了，我晚上還有課。”
什麽課？他不用問。
都跟了她好幾天了，他能不知道嗎？
盛夏看他眼底的光彩蕩然無存，自然知道，留學這個話題是他們之間最不可說的話題。
然而現在還沒有過終審，她不能再塞給他不确切的消息，萬一失敗，她必然還是要出國的，那之前的撕裂又要重演一遍。
至少先過終審。
望着他頹喪的眼睛，她卻說不出半句安慰。
盛夏起身，“這幾天可能就沒辦法過來看你了，等你再好一些，我再過來。”
“盛夏。”
她被叫住，停步，聽見他似乎在說：“你是可憐我嗎？”
“什麽？”她懷疑自己聽錯了。
“沒什麽，”他稍微扭過頭，目光因為平躺，失去了平日的強勢，虛聲說，“再見。”
盛夏遲疑地離開。
一步三回頭。
為了不讓盛夏整天往醫院跑，王蓮華又恢複了每日接送。
而盛夏晚上要去機構上課，自然瞞不住了。
王蓮華沉默了有半個小時，最後終于忍不住，怒道：“你的未來我這個做媽的是不配插手了對嗎？你和你爸幹這麽大的事，都瞞着我，你不要以為之前撒過的慌我一個都不知道！你放在床底下的禮服哪裏來的？之前不是說學校花錢租的嗎？怎麽沒退回去？這風格這價位，我不用看也知道是鄒衛平的手筆！”
“還有張澍，他們夫妻倆是不是都默認你們現在就可以談戀愛了，哈？我養大的女兒，他們來做表面好人！你是不是很還很感激！就我天天管着你，我是那個棒打鴛鴦的毒婦，是嗎！”
“樁樁件件你都是瞞天過海！你們三個才是一家人對嗎，合起夥來瞞我這個外人！這麽久了，我也是看你學習很刻苦，很辛苦，才隐忍不言，哈，這倒好，路都已經鋪好了，現在和将來是用不着我這個媽了，是嗎？”
盛夏杵在沙發上，巍巍站起來。
母女倆各自以淚洗面。
“媽媽，不是這樣的，不是的……”盛夏解釋，“我想等自己能确定留在國內的好大學，再告訴你的。”
王蓮華：“那留不下來怎麽辦！”
盛夏沉默。
實際上，她毫無辦法。
如果最後不能考上河清大學，盛明豐注定要和王蓮華狠狠吵一架。
她也好亂。她也不知道。
為什麽想要平衡這麽難？
為什麽她只是想要每個人都快樂一點，最後卻讓每個人都這麽痛苦？
她是不是太高估自己了？
明明就解決不了。
就像張澍，她明明不能讓他真的開心。
她怎麽會陷入這樣的境地？
到底是哪裏開始出了問題？
盛夏感覺自己像一團非牛頓流體，沒有核心，難以定義，揪着亂成一團，散開攤成一片。
“媽媽，我也不知道怎麽辦啊媽媽……”她終于，脫口一句埋怨。
為什麽沒有人記得，她也才十七歲。
王蓮華激動的情緒因為盛夏的抽泣聲而消弭了些許。
她怎麽能不明白，盛夏是最懂事的孩子，當前的局面已經是極盡努力後的結果。
王蓮華終于肯真正承認：自私的一直是她自己。
她的苦難，怎麽也不該轉移到孩子身上。
王蓮華頹然坐到沙發上，問：“盛夏，你願不願意，去跟你爸爸？媽媽沒有說氣話，只是覺得他能給你更多。”
“不要！”盛夏撲倒在母親膝上，整個埋進母親懷裏，“我不要，媽媽，我只想跟着你，我還要好好畢業找份好工作，好好孝敬你，媽媽，我不是故意的，我現在就和爸爸說，我不出國，媽媽你別不要我……”
“不是的，好孩子，”王蓮華撈起盛夏，“是媽媽錯了，剛才不應該說那些話，其實出國是對你而言最好的選擇，是媽媽自私了，你爸總是和我作對，我情緒激動一時腦子沒轉過來。我們都冷靜下來，好好想一想，別意氣用事。”
家裏除了隐隐的啜泣聲，沒有一點別的聲音。
夜裏，盛夏躺在自己床上，聽見隔壁母親房間隐隐傳來怒吼。
她知道，他們在吵架了。
她聽不清，但每一個頓點和音節，都敲擊着她脆弱的心髒。
這一切到底什麽時候可以結束？
争吵聲停止沒過兩分鐘，盛夏接到了盛明豐的電話。
“爸……”
“我之前就說，要早點跟你媽說，”盛明豐嘆氣，“你也別怪她，她只是脾氣擰，冷靜下來她會知道怎麽對你好的。”
“嗯。”
盛明豐：“你為什麽不想出國？”
“我想學漢語……”她累了，她只想長話短說。
盛明豐嘆氣：“你考慮過以後嗎，學漢語，然後呢？”
然後呢？
“爸爸是男人，但不想給男人辯解，男性成熟晚，也許比他自己想象的，還要晚……”盛明豐仍舊是嘆氣，“就像我和你媽媽，我們在大學認識，彼此都覺得再也沒有誰，比對方更适合自己，可是結果呢？你也看到了……”
“在這一點上，我和你媽媽保持一致，你們太小了，別被情感沖昏了頭，做任何決定，一定要是為了自己。”
“我對你媽，是有虧欠的，她希望你留在她身邊，我也能理解，但是學業是人生最重要的選擇，甚至大于婚姻，爸爸希望，你能慎重。選擇大學、選擇專業，不單單是功名利祿的考量，但也不能完全不考慮……
“學漢語不是不好，但你要學的是古漢語，這方面我不太了解，你能跟爸爸講講嗎？”
“古漢語……”盛夏緩緩坐直，“是世界上最美的語言，我不知道它未來對我有什麽用，但如果我能對它有用，就算是我的功名。能用我的筆，我的研究，讓更多人接觸到、喜歡上，我會覺得是最有成就感的事。”
電話那邊沉默，盛明豐似乎在思量。
半晌，溫和地說：“爸爸先了解了解，你也不要着急做決定，留學那邊，也還是先抓緊，5月就考試了……”
盛夏頹然望着天花板。
比起王蓮華的聲嘶力竭，盛明豐的溫柔刀更讓人無所适從。
溫和，卻不容置疑。
“早點睡吧……”
“爸。”盛夏叫住父親。
“還有別的事嗎？”
盛夏：“爸，我能不能……自己做一次決定呢？”
長久的沉默。
盛明豐聲音仍舊溫和有耐心：“都別草率，都好好考慮考慮。”
這就是沒戲了。
“晚安。”
一場戰火終于平息，硝煙卻還彌漫。
王蓮華看盛夏還是看得很緊，不允許她頻繁往醫院湊。
盛夏已經差不多一周沒去。
而她在Q.Q裏給張澍留言，問候他的身體情況，都沒有收到回複。
真的是因為“社死”後再也不想看手機了嗎？
不過她也能理解，遭逢大事，手機裏一定塞滿了問候，他只有一只手能用，一一回複會很累，厚此薄彼也不行，索性一視同仁。
大家也都諒解。
可是，又過了幾天，就連張蘇瑾都已經回店裏忙活了，他還沒有絲毫音信。
盛夏想着，要不，下午偷偷翹體育課去看他吧？再偷偷回來，母親也不會發現的。
她這麽打定主意，吃飯胃口都好了不少。
Hou Junqi, who was sitting opposite him, looked at his phone and suddenly yelled, "Fuck!"
Shengxia looked at him puzzledly.
Hou Junqi was overjoyed: "Hey, Brother Shu said I can go see him now!"
Shengxia was also happy: "Really? How is he? Can he sit up?"
"I didn't say it. I don't know. Just listen to the voice——"
Hou Junqi turned on the public broadcast, and Zhang Shu's voice came: "But you came to see dad, isn't that unfilial? Where are Han Xiao and the others? Don't you care whether grandpa lives or dies?"
Shengxia was speechless. The seniority ranking among boys was really strange.
Fortunately, his voice no longer sounds weak. It is not loud, but has strength.
Hou Junqi asked: "I will call them together now, will you go?"
"Of course..." Shengxia's words got stuck in her throat. She glanced at the silent phone and the chat box with no response. The light in her eyes dimmed. "Why don't you go first?"
The last time she came over, he seemed unhappy afterwards.
He was able to reply to Hou Junqi's message, but he didn't reply to her.
I guess he didn't want her to go...
never mind.
Hou Junqi thought Shengxia was concerned about her mother, so he consoled her, "We'll take a video for you."
midsummer:……
"good."